I can’t believe it’s here already.


These past few years have been very trying on me and my family, and I’ve lost a lot and learned a lot over those couple of years, but the most important thing is that I’m still here. You’re still here. That means everything to me.


Here’s hoping the new year will be better for everyone all around the world Cheers y’all ^,=,^

It makes you a fucking creep with absolutely zero regards for anyone else around you.

When literally the entire fandom rats you out for posting images of minors, don’t act like everyone else is an asshole for calling you out. You’re not “based” or whatever, you’re actively choosing to parade yourself around as a pedophile.



Sorry, but I feel like this doesn’t need to be said, but here we are yet again. I’m so fucking disappointed and angry.

It’s time to get spooky

YOU earned the power of GOD at your FINGERTIPS, and you choose to watch INFLATION?!

What the hell is WRONG with you?!


(I may or may not have been watching abridged cartoons a lot lately lmao)

In celebration of Spooktober, I’ve decided to share what I consider to be one of the scariest pieces of music I’ve ever heard.

Unsurprisingly, it’s an Akira Yamaoka work from Silent Hill 2.

https://youtu.be/PuNOnFa-q3Y?si=irKT52_XhiybepRY


If you have any spooky tracks that you’d like to share, be sure to drop ‘em below!

https://bsky.app/profile/dustindoodle.bsky.social


I can share an invite code for anyone who wants it ^,=,^

I Love it

First it was CreatureUnknown…

Now it’s Zinsey…

I didn’t know you for that long, but for that brief time period you were truly such a special friend to me. I just can’t believe you’re gone now…

Why is everyone dying so young now? It’s not fucking fair! Stop taking everyone at such a young age, God!

…and my first attempt at inflation audio, “Playful Blimping,” has garnered almost 13,000 views and over 220 favorites. I…I honestly can’t even begin to thank each and every one of you nearly enough to express all of my gratitude.

I made that piece in about 30+ minutes in Garageband using royalty-free audio sources that I manipulated and tuned in various ways. It’s not even the cleanest sounding piece, but it doesn’t seem to matter anyway, cuz it’s gotten SO MUCH LOVE.

I’d honestly love to go back and do another piece sometime soon. I’ve found much better audio editing software that’s FAR more flexible, and though it’s been four years since I’ve even thought about doing sound design again, I think it’s high time that “Playful Blimping” got an update/sequel~

Anywho, just wanted to jot this down and get this out there real quick ‘cuz I honestly just can’t thank everyone individually. There are too many! Hahaha~
But seriously, thank you all for sticking around with me and showin’ this goofy ahh lizard boi all this love

I’m getting a drawing tablet today and I plan on doin’ some drawing!

I wanna know what you guys suggest for free art programs I can use with it!

I’ve been suffering for months on end now

Every morning I wake up having a severe panic attack that lasts anywhere from 5 minutes to two hours long


I can’t control myself anymore


I have no energy left to fight


I have no desire to do anything


I want to do so much but I never have the energy to do it because I spend it all on my morning panic attacks



I feel so useless and helpless


I don’t know what to do

…I can’t believe you’re gone. You were among the first furry friends I had when I joined this community back in the day. I remember when you first joined this fandom, too…

I’m sorry we became so distant as friends, and I’m sad and angry that I didn’t get to spend nearly enough time with you while you were here…but what you gave to this community, what you’ve done for us furs…will be remembered forever.

I’m gonna miss you a lot, big guy…rest easy.

Yeah, this is gonna be hard for me.


It was around this time last year that I lost my Mother in the most sudden, tragic, and devastating way, and now being surrounded by reminders of what I no longer have….


Let’s just say I’m not taking it well….


For those of you who still have their Mom, please show them the most appreciation you can today, because you never know when life will just…take the ones you love away.

It 4/20


Blaze up summa that good good 🔥💨

It took me over a year to get an appointment to take my driving test to get my license.


I passed my driving test just fine.


Yet they decided not to give me my license because I told them I had Autism and ADHD, and they for whatever reason considered that cause enough to not give me a license.


Now I have to wait ‘til I get something in the mail in order to go BACK out to the office and ACTUALLY GET MY LICENSE.


FUCK THE FLHSMV! FUCK THE AMERICAN DMV SYSTEM! FUCK ALL OF THIS SHIT!

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10475620/


Signal boost for a friend ^,=,^;

…and I can’t stop crying.
I’ll never be able to wrap my head around the fact that my Mom’s dead and gone. I got absolutely nothing for Christmas this year…except for her ashes.

I’m really really close to just giving up entirely. I can’t go on without her…I have nothing left in my life anymore. I’m jobless, living out of my Grandma’s house and relying on Dad to buy me weed.

I’m at my breaking point…I just need one good reason to be alive at this point. One good reason why I shouldn’t just give up and end myself.


Edit: I don’t want anyone to think I’m actually going to kill myself. I’m just in a really dark headspace and I’m struggling to pull myself out of it…I know I’m loved, and I know how much it would hurt you guys if I actually did take my own life. I just want all this pain and suffering to come to a halt, for just a moment…

Hope you guys are all staying warm and safe

Hey everyone! Long time, no squeak! I know I was promising to upload stories and art and other stuff, but -needless to say - things have been pretty rough.

I’ve made a lot of drastic changes to my lifestyle over the past several months, and I have been taking several measures to take care of myself as well as my Dad and Granny. I do want to get back into making music, art, and stories, but in the interim I am taking care of myself mentally, as well as looking after my family.

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(i’ll write a more comprehensive review of this game later on, but needless to say, I am pleasantly surprised by how good this game is.)

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I want to draw something, or write something, or finally get back to the music passion that I’e neglected for so long.


I just can’t do it. I’m in too much mental pain to focus on anything. I have no passion left, and I’m so unhappy and traumatized by everything that’s happened over the past few months that I don’t even think it’s worth pursuing my passions anymore.


This world isn’t even worth living in, and I just don’t want to live in it anymore…

I’m not going to do anything stupid, but then again when do I do anything at all anymore? I’m the decayed corpse of a once romantic optimist whose hopes and dreams died with his mind. I’m a completely useless homunculus with no desire to even exist. So I just sit here and suffer in silence…with no one to hold close and tell me it’s going to be okay…


I am utterly alone, in mind, in body, and in spirit.

Y’know, I honestly was hoping this “Super Mario Bros: The Movie” thing was just one big meme when the cast list was first rolled out, but nope. Here we are. It’s the biggest thing in the world, everyone’s talking about it, everyone’s hyped for it…


…and I can honestly say I have never felt more physical and emotional pain watching a movie trailer in my entire life.


Sin number one: it’s made by Illumination, the same company that brought us THE FRIGGIN MINIONS

Sun number two: I. Hate. Jack. Black’s. Bowser. I know a lot of people on Twitter were saying how much they loved his interpretation, and I’m sorry, but his Bowser voice actually makes me want to vomit my own intestines out from sheer cringe. Lenny from Shark Tale does NOT make an intimidating villain, especially one as universally beloved and recognizable as the legendary King of Koopas.

Sin number three: They literally ripped off the plot from Donkey Kong Country Returns: Tropical Freeze. Why? Who the fuck cares.

Sun number four: Chris Pratt. That’s all I have to say.



I’m practically salivating over a bowl of popcorn, shitting and crying in anticipation as I await the inevitable plummeting of Illumination’s box office returns. The failure of this film is the only thing keeping my spirit from collapsing on itself into the void. I’m sorry if this comes across as harsh, but very few movie trailers bring out my inner MoistCritikal.


Feel free to annihilate my comments section, but this is just my opinion, so if you’re excited for it, then you are a much happier person than I am. So, that’s all I have to say.

I don’t know what it is, but lately I’ve just been feeling this extra drive to do some story-based content. Got some half-baked ideas in my head as it is that I’m slowly developing, but I’m also open to suggestions as well!

I’m not opening any requests or anything like that just yet, but if my stories do well enough I might just open up for coms. ^,=,^


Many many thanks to all my lovely fuzzy and scaly friends who have been so supportive and loving over the past few months. I know I’ve been pretty distant and I haven’t been quite as active on messaging services or socials, though I have been posting quite a bit to my Twitter page (which I’ll update the link to on my main profile in a lil’ bit), but I just wanted to say thanks for sticking around regardless.


You guys are just so lovely and sweet and I can’t thank you enough. Hopefully there’ll be some nice juicy content coming soon. Don’t forget to leave suggestions in the comments below! (If you feel so inclined of course~ :P)

My mind is not okay

Everything is fucked in my life.


My Father’s completely gone off the deep end with this abusive alcoholism


My life is going absolutely nowhere fast


And all my irl friends have either given up on me or moved on with their lives


At this rate, I’m ready to die. The gods have beaten me down to a point where I’m ready to end everything. I have nothing left to live for anymore…


I’m completely useless; I’m a big ball of anxiety, fear, and anger that can’t even hold down a day job. If I can’t afford to live on this planet, then why live at all?



Just…one reason is all I want…one good, solid reason why suffering in this mortal prison is worth anything.