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Posted a day agoI’ve come down with a pretty bad cold, so I’m just gonna dump some thoughts here.
I made it to the sober living house on the 1st of this month. Not exactly an ideal place to be considering there’s like 10-12 people in one house, and the outpatient stuff isn’t great either. 3-4 Days out of the week we go to these group sessions for about 4 hours, mostly listening to the “therapist” talk about himself a lot. He’s said some really questionable shit to us, and to me especially, so it’s been quite the rollercoaster since I got here.
Gonna meet with my case manager tomorrow at her office and discuss the possibility of going home. My Dad n’ I went out last Sunday and I told him about what’s been goin’ on. He wants me to come home, Granny wants me to come home, I wanna go home. Hopefully they understand and give me some leniency, even if I have to stay for one more month. I know damn well I’m not gonna spend Christmas away from my family.
Been having some really fun ideas that I’ve been wanting to sketch out some time.
For one, I’ve been sitting on this concept for a Werelizard form that I came up with quite a while back. You know, like a werewolf, but scalier…and hornier…and inflatable… >,\\\\,<
Speaking of horny, I had this thought the other day that has been driving me wild since:
Being blimped up, being held up by just my c0ck, and then getting j0rked like a punch-balloon.
I can just hear the sounds in my head, hhhhhhhh- 💦
Tomb Raider I-II-III Remastered has a New Game+ feature and Imma be real this shit is tough.
Been playing that, as well as Minecraft, Asphalt Legends, F-Zero 99, Super Mario Wonder, and Sphinx & the Cursed Mummy.
Needless to say, I been gamin’.
That’s all I can think about atm
Thanks for reading ú,=,ù
Gonna have a nap, I need some rest.
_________I made it to the sober living house on the 1st of this month. Not exactly an ideal place to be considering there’s like 10-12 people in one house, and the outpatient stuff isn’t great either. 3-4 Days out of the week we go to these group sessions for about 4 hours, mostly listening to the “therapist” talk about himself a lot. He’s said some really questionable shit to us, and to me especially, so it’s been quite the rollercoaster since I got here.
Gonna meet with my case manager tomorrow at her office and discuss the possibility of going home. My Dad n’ I went out last Sunday and I told him about what’s been goin’ on. He wants me to come home, Granny wants me to come home, I wanna go home. Hopefully they understand and give me some leniency, even if I have to stay for one more month. I know damn well I’m not gonna spend Christmas away from my family.
_________Been having some really fun ideas that I’ve been wanting to sketch out some time.
For one, I’ve been sitting on this concept for a Werelizard form that I came up with quite a while back. You know, like a werewolf, but scalier…and hornier…and inflatable… >,\\\\,<
Speaking of horny, I had this thought the other day that has been driving me wild since:
Being blimped up, being held up by just my c0ck, and then getting j0rked like a punch-balloon.
I can just hear the sounds in my head, hhhhhhhh- 💦
_________Tomb Raider I-II-III Remastered has a New Game+ feature and Imma be real this shit is tough.
Been playing that, as well as Minecraft, Asphalt Legends, F-Zero 99, Super Mario Wonder, and Sphinx & the Cursed Mummy.
Needless to say, I been gamin’.
_________That’s all I can think about atm
Thanks for reading ú,=,ù
Gonna have a nap, I need some rest.
Recovery Update II (CW: Drug Overdose, Sewer Slide)
Posted a month agoWell, shit has really really hit the fan over the past couple of weeks.
Two people died of a fentanyl overdose last week, one of them was still in recovery at this facility, the owner and program director have both resigned to avoid any and all responsibility, and all communications between staff members have completely deteriorated. Nobody was allowed to leave the premises until yesterday, and even then I can’t leave because I’m on this goddamn ankle monitor.
Truth be told, I’m struggling really hard here. I’m losing patience with both the staff and fellow clients. I feel like I’m being fucked with. There’s always a problem even where there shouldn’t be any problems. It’s like they keep coming up with excuses to not do their jobs.
The only silver lining to all of this is that the court is considering the possibility of letting me go back home once I complete the program, and even if they don’t I’m still going to be provided housing without having to pay for it. It’s not like they can just kick me to the curb while I’m on Level 2 GPS monitoring.
All I can say is this: Love yourselves and take care of those that you love, including yourself. You don’t want to end up in a place like this, in a position like this.
Two people died of a fentanyl overdose last week, one of them was still in recovery at this facility, the owner and program director have both resigned to avoid any and all responsibility, and all communications between staff members have completely deteriorated. Nobody was allowed to leave the premises until yesterday, and even then I can’t leave because I’m on this goddamn ankle monitor.
Truth be told, I’m struggling really hard here. I’m losing patience with both the staff and fellow clients. I feel like I’m being fucked with. There’s always a problem even where there shouldn’t be any problems. It’s like they keep coming up with excuses to not do their jobs.
The only silver lining to all of this is that the court is considering the possibility of letting me go back home once I complete the program, and even if they don’t I’m still going to be provided housing without having to pay for it. It’s not like they can just kick me to the curb while I’m on Level 2 GPS monitoring.
All I can say is this: Love yourselves and take care of those that you love, including yourself. You don’t want to end up in a place like this, in a position like this.
Oh yeah, I’m 28 Now
Posted a month agoI turned 28 on the first of August this year
I was gonna celebrate and post a journal and everything but I’ve been so busy trying to get my shit together I didn’t get to post nun’
I was gonna celebrate and post a journal and everything but I’ve been so busy trying to get my shit together I didn’t get to post nun’
Recovery Update
Posted 2 months agoHey everyone!
So, last month I posted a journal stating that I was enrolled in a recovery and treatment program through the state after making some…incomprehensibly terrible choices, and I just wanted to let y’all know just how things have been going along.
For starters, I just want to say, this is life-changing for me. I’ve learned so much about myself through working with this program, and I’ve managed to not only re-learn how to love myself for who I am, but I’m also learning some essential skills that will help me cope with life on its own terms and live with a far more positive outlook on life. For 23 years I’ve struggled with mental health issues that stem from a lot of my earliest years of life all the way up to the trauma I experienced after the age of 12. I no longer hold resentments or grudges against the ones who have hurt me, I’m attaining a level of inner peace I never thought imaginable, and miracles are happening every single day.
The best part? I’m doing something that I never once thought in my entire life would be possible for me: I’m learning how to properly manage my anger. I’ve struggled my whole life with meltdowns and tantrums that have resulted in the destruction of property - and my own body at times - and I never once believed I’d ever learn how to manage it. All the “coping skills” people gave me for years that always sounded “dumb” or “demeaning” have not only been put into a better perspective, but have become essential to my day-to-day experience. Deep breathing techniques always seemed corny to me until I realized the psychology behind how it works. Grounding exercises seemed to just be a means of distraction until I experienced how effective they are. Positive affirmations were something I thought of as just vapid lies to tell myself in order to somehow make myself feel better, but now I believe the kind words I tell myself wholeheartedly. This is advice I’ve been given my whole life, but the subtext of it all wasn’t made clear to me until I began recovery.
I went from an angry, depressed, insecure man who could never accept myself for who I am to someone who genuinely has pure faith and confidence, with peace of mind at the forefront of it all while also remembering not to let my ego get the best of me. I’m letting go of what is in my past, I’m caring more about what’s best for me, I’m practicing humility, and all the pain from the years of trauma and self-destruction is finally being rebuilt into the man I knew I could be. The Serenity Prayer…
God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can’t change,
The courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
…hasn’t just become a daily ritual for me, it’s my new way of life. Mel Robbins - a psychologist who’s written many books on the subject of trauma and recovery - had proposed a theory so simple yet powerful that it only needs two words to understand the concept of it.
The “Let them” theory simply is the acknowledgment that, “People are going to do what they do, so [i]let them]/i].” This has been my biggest saving grace (aside from God Himself) that’s changed me for the better. My light shines brighter than ever before, and I won’t dim that light for ANYBODY. Not even my Dad, who continues his own alcoholic tendencies even now, much to my chagrin.
I love you guys so much. I wish I could show you all just how beautiful the unity of the fellowship really is. It’s absolutely divine.
Anyway, I’m starting to ramble a bit just because I’m so tired. Wishing you all the very best, and once again, I love you all dearly.
So, last month I posted a journal stating that I was enrolled in a recovery and treatment program through the state after making some…incomprehensibly terrible choices, and I just wanted to let y’all know just how things have been going along.
For starters, I just want to say, this is life-changing for me. I’ve learned so much about myself through working with this program, and I’ve managed to not only re-learn how to love myself for who I am, but I’m also learning some essential skills that will help me cope with life on its own terms and live with a far more positive outlook on life. For 23 years I’ve struggled with mental health issues that stem from a lot of my earliest years of life all the way up to the trauma I experienced after the age of 12. I no longer hold resentments or grudges against the ones who have hurt me, I’m attaining a level of inner peace I never thought imaginable, and miracles are happening every single day.
The best part? I’m doing something that I never once thought in my entire life would be possible for me: I’m learning how to properly manage my anger. I’ve struggled my whole life with meltdowns and tantrums that have resulted in the destruction of property - and my own body at times - and I never once believed I’d ever learn how to manage it. All the “coping skills” people gave me for years that always sounded “dumb” or “demeaning” have not only been put into a better perspective, but have become essential to my day-to-day experience. Deep breathing techniques always seemed corny to me until I realized the psychology behind how it works. Grounding exercises seemed to just be a means of distraction until I experienced how effective they are. Positive affirmations were something I thought of as just vapid lies to tell myself in order to somehow make myself feel better, but now I believe the kind words I tell myself wholeheartedly. This is advice I’ve been given my whole life, but the subtext of it all wasn’t made clear to me until I began recovery.
I went from an angry, depressed, insecure man who could never accept myself for who I am to someone who genuinely has pure faith and confidence, with peace of mind at the forefront of it all while also remembering not to let my ego get the best of me. I’m letting go of what is in my past, I’m caring more about what’s best for me, I’m practicing humility, and all the pain from the years of trauma and self-destruction is finally being rebuilt into the man I knew I could be. The Serenity Prayer…
God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can’t change,
The courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
…hasn’t just become a daily ritual for me, it’s my new way of life. Mel Robbins - a psychologist who’s written many books on the subject of trauma and recovery - had proposed a theory so simple yet powerful that it only needs two words to understand the concept of it.
The “Let them” theory simply is the acknowledgment that, “People are going to do what they do, so [i]let them]/i].” This has been my biggest saving grace (aside from God Himself) that’s changed me for the better. My light shines brighter than ever before, and I won’t dim that light for ANYBODY. Not even my Dad, who continues his own alcoholic tendencies even now, much to my chagrin.
I love you guys so much. I wish I could show you all just how beautiful the unity of the fellowship really is. It’s absolutely divine.
Anyway, I’m starting to ramble a bit just because I’m so tired. Wishing you all the very best, and once again, I love you all dearly.
Juicy July!
Posted 2 months agoWAKE UP
ITS THE FIRST OF THE MONTH
…time to get ⓡⓞⓤⓝⓓ
ITS THE FIRST OF THE MONTH
…time to get ⓡⓞⓤⓝⓓ
I've Got a Lot of Explaining to Do
Posted 3 months agoHey, everybody, sorry for the delay in updates, but truth be told, I wasn't telling the whole truth when I posted the last journal.
The full truth is this: I attacked my Granny in a drunken stupor, and actually went to jail for about four months.
For four months, I was locked away in a county jail, getting sober and feeling defeated, because this is the first time I've ever been in any legal trouble. Broward County is a real slimy place, and even though this was my first offense, they brought the hammer down on me hard.
Thankfully, they gave me the opportunity to get the help I need, and I've been in rehab since May 6th. I've learned a lot about myself, found God, and I'm currently working the 12 steps with a sponsor.
Trust me, I'm really upset that it took me so long to update y'all on the situation, but considering they've been holding onto my phone for that duration of time, I never got the chance to warn anyone about my disappearance. The good news is, I'll be getting my phone back later on today, and I'll be able to get back on Telegram and let you know more.
I'm so sorry for scaring everyone, and I hope you can understand that what I did was out of my own realm of comprehension. I wasn't myself. I did the unthinkable, I feel intensely shameful of it, but I'm getting the help that I've so desperately for 3 whole years, now. I hope everyone has been doing well, otherwise, and like I said, I'll give further details once I get my phone back.
I love you all. I've thought about y'all so much over the past 5 months, and I look forward to getting back to my normal self again. Please, take good care of yourselves.
The full truth is this: I attacked my Granny in a drunken stupor, and actually went to jail for about four months.
For four months, I was locked away in a county jail, getting sober and feeling defeated, because this is the first time I've ever been in any legal trouble. Broward County is a real slimy place, and even though this was my first offense, they brought the hammer down on me hard.
Thankfully, they gave me the opportunity to get the help I need, and I've been in rehab since May 6th. I've learned a lot about myself, found God, and I'm currently working the 12 steps with a sponsor.
Trust me, I'm really upset that it took me so long to update y'all on the situation, but considering they've been holding onto my phone for that duration of time, I never got the chance to warn anyone about my disappearance. The good news is, I'll be getting my phone back later on today, and I'll be able to get back on Telegram and let you know more.
I'm so sorry for scaring everyone, and I hope you can understand that what I did was out of my own realm of comprehension. I wasn't myself. I did the unthinkable, I feel intensely shameful of it, but I'm getting the help that I've so desperately for 3 whole years, now. I hope everyone has been doing well, otherwise, and like I said, I'll give further details once I get my phone back.
I love you all. I've thought about y'all so much over the past 5 months, and I look forward to getting back to my normal self again. Please, take good care of yourselves.
I posted this journal the night I got arrested
Posted 7 months agoI have nothing but my cell phone and my laptop and a blanket
No meds
No extra clothes
Nowhere to stay
If anyone lives in or around the Pompano Beach/Margate/Coral Springs area PLEASE HELP ME
This isn’t the full story
One-Year Anniversary 💕💕💕
Posted 8 months ago
and I are celebrating out one-year anniversary today, and I just wanted to drop a journal here to express just how much I love my blueberry babe We’ve been through it all together, and he’s a shining beacon in my life that I can’t thank the heavens enough for. >,\\\\\,<
Love you, hubby~
It’s all my fault
Posted 8 months agoIt’s my fault that I’m in the amount of pain and agony that I’m in.
It’s my fault that my Mom, Nana, and the rest of my family are fucking dead.
It’s my fault that I was forced to move hete over fifteen years ago against my will and wishes
It’s my fault I’ve been abused, hurt, and tormented on a fundamentally psychological level that I can never recover from
It’s my fucking fault, apparently.
Whatever. If God really hates me that fucking much, just let him have his fun with me. I’m nothing more than a useless doll to be beaten down and tossed around. If God is real, he’s a sadistic fucking bastard and he OWES me EVERYTHING.
It’s my fault that my Mom, Nana, and the rest of my family are fucking dead.
It’s my fault that I was forced to move hete over fifteen years ago against my will and wishes
It’s my fault I’ve been abused, hurt, and tormented on a fundamentally psychological level that I can never recover from
It’s my fucking fault, apparently.
Whatever. If God really hates me that fucking much, just let him have his fun with me. I’m nothing more than a useless doll to be beaten down and tossed around. If God is real, he’s a sadistic fucking bastard and he OWES me EVERYTHING.
Merry Christmas to All…!
Posted 9 months ago…and to all a good night ^,=,^
This Christmas was extra special, our family really bonded over the past week or so. I’m genuinely happy for the first time in a long time. <3
Love y’all! Merry Christmas and Happy Hanukkah to everyone!
This Christmas was extra special, our family really bonded over the past week or so. I’m genuinely happy for the first time in a long time. <3
Love y’all! Merry Christmas and Happy Hanukkah to everyone!
I want out
Posted 9 months agoOut of this house
Out of this family
Out of this life
Everything I’ve ever done in my life is to serve the best interests of other people, especially my Father. I hate him…he ruined my life. Talks to me like it’s my fault that I’m fucked up in the head.
Yeah, clearly I’m the reason why I’m constantly thinking of my past trauma and not even the sanctuary of my dreams can save me from it.
I’m a slave. I work 24/7 taking care of Granny and I never get paid a dime for it. But no, I should step up my game and be a better man because that’s what Dad says is best
Once my Granny’s gone, I’m disowning myself from this family. I want nothing to do with the Hubacher name, it’s a cursed surname that carries with it generations of abuse and trauma. I don’t care if I end up homeless for a while. If I die alone on the streets, then it’ll be a more dignified death than being worked to the bone by a 77 y/o woman.
…
…
…I’m sorry. I’m so angry I’m getting violent. This isn’t who I wanna be…
Out of this family
Out of this life
Everything I’ve ever done in my life is to serve the best interests of other people, especially my Father. I hate him…he ruined my life. Talks to me like it’s my fault that I’m fucked up in the head.
Yeah, clearly I’m the reason why I’m constantly thinking of my past trauma and not even the sanctuary of my dreams can save me from it.
I’m a slave. I work 24/7 taking care of Granny and I never get paid a dime for it. But no, I should step up my game and be a better man because that’s what Dad says is best
Once my Granny’s gone, I’m disowning myself from this family. I want nothing to do with the Hubacher name, it’s a cursed surname that carries with it generations of abuse and trauma. I don’t care if I end up homeless for a while. If I die alone on the streets, then it’ll be a more dignified death than being worked to the bone by a 77 y/o woman.
…
…
…I’m sorry. I’m so angry I’m getting violent. This isn’t who I wanna be…
So…is Flash actually dead?
Posted 10 months agoA curious thought just popped into my mind:
A few years back they announced that they’d be discontinuing Flash services and any SWF files would basically be unreadable (at least that’s what I gathered from it??) yet web browser games are still available on itch.io and a buncha Flash games still seem to get some traction
Am I missing or misunderstanding something or is Flash not actually dead?
A few years back they announced that they’d be discontinuing Flash services and any SWF files would basically be unreadable (at least that’s what I gathered from it??) yet web browser games are still available on itch.io and a buncha Flash games still seem to get some traction
Am I missing or misunderstanding something or is Flash not actually dead?
Why I Don’t Vote
Posted 10 months ago¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Stay classy, Fur Affinity
Posted 11 months agoAfter everything that was happening on Twitter
After Dragoneer’s gofundme got fucking hacked
After ALL of the drama regarding ABDL stuff
Y’all really just slapped everyone in the face before saying “y’all are welcome!”
I’m not even into anything ABDL related but god damn I have never seen a more bold-faced act of self-sabotage in my life. You really just created a witch hunt and ruined the entire stability of the community.
At this rate, I don’t think there’s going to be anywhere we can turn before every single website in the world becomes a totalitarian cyberdystopia overmoderated and overpoliced by biased morons.
Great job, Fur Affinity, you made BlueSky all the more enticing to your target audience. Stay classy, y’all
After Dragoneer’s gofundme got fucking hacked
After ALL of the drama regarding ABDL stuff
Y’all really just slapped everyone in the face before saying “y’all are welcome!”
I’m not even into anything ABDL related but god damn I have never seen a more bold-faced act of self-sabotage in my life. You really just created a witch hunt and ruined the entire stability of the community.
At this rate, I don’t think there’s going to be anywhere we can turn before every single website in the world becomes a totalitarian cyberdystopia overmoderated and overpoliced by biased morons.
Great job, Fur Affinity, you made BlueSky all the more enticing to your target audience. Stay classy, y’all
Lizard is Unfazed by Big Storm
Posted 11 months agoSo Hurricane Milton came and went, and - for our area at least - it was a big ol’ nothing burger.
If anything we got a couple free avocados out of it. :D
If anything we got a couple free avocados out of it. :D
still struggling quite a bit
Posted a year agoHaven’t done anything in terms of making YouTube content
Haven’t really even considered doing art in a long time
I’m trying my hardest to take steps to better myself but shit’s tough out here
It’s hard trying to find inner peace when everything around you is in total disarray
Haven’t really even considered doing art in a long time
I’m trying my hardest to take steps to better myself but shit’s tough out here
It’s hard trying to find inner peace when everything around you is in total disarray
damn :v
Posted a year agoso glad to see FA’s back online again
not gonna lie, between the ever-boiling tension in our country’s political landscape and seeing someone take advantage of the tragic loss of our fandom’s most beloved leader really took a toll on me mentally, that’s why I haven’t had much motivation to do much of anything lately
that being said, I do still have plans on uploading content soon, both here and on my YouTube channel, so be sure to be on the lookout for that
let’s hope the rest of this year isn’t nearly as chaotic as it has been x3x
not gonna lie, between the ever-boiling tension in our country’s political landscape and seeing someone take advantage of the tragic loss of our fandom’s most beloved leader really took a toll on me mentally, that’s why I haven’t had much motivation to do much of anything lately
that being said, I do still have plans on uploading content soon, both here and on my YouTube channel, so be sure to be on the lookout for that
let’s hope the rest of this year isn’t nearly as chaotic as it has been x3x
27!
Posted a year agoToday is my birthdayyyyy~!
I heard there’s a club for ppl my age, but their Terms and Conditions suck so I don’t think I’ll be joining :B
Another year, another tank of helium to add to the party! >:3
I heard there’s a club for ppl my age, but their Terms and Conditions suck so I don’t think I’ll be joining :B
Another year, another tank of helium to add to the party! >:3
YouTube Channel Launching!
Posted a year agoIt’s official, y’all! I’m finally launching my YouTube gaming channel!
Be sure to subscribe for funny moments~ :P
DustBin
Be sure to subscribe for funny moments~ :P
DustBin
I’m ok ^,=,^;
Posted a year agoIn typical fashion, I end up overanalyzing everything and with Dad still kind of on the bottle we both kinda clashed a bit, but we’ve since made up, and he understands where I’m coming from too.
I found this quote that I think perfectly sums everything up here:
“YOU CANNOT SEE YOUR REFLECTION IN BOILING WATER. SIMILARLY, YOU CANNOT SEE THE TRUTH IN A STATE OF ANGER. WHEN THE WATERS CALM, CLARITY COMES.“
Sorry for the all caps I copypasted cuz I’m lazy
Also I deleted the previous journal cuz all of that was just kind of an embarrassing thing honestly.
I do want to thank everyone who was kind enough to reach out and support me. I know I never got around to replying to your comments but trust me, I read them, and they mean a lot to me. Thanks again y’all <3
I found this quote that I think perfectly sums everything up here:
“YOU CANNOT SEE YOUR REFLECTION IN BOILING WATER. SIMILARLY, YOU CANNOT SEE THE TRUTH IN A STATE OF ANGER. WHEN THE WATERS CALM, CLARITY COMES.“
Sorry for the all caps I copypasted cuz I’m lazy
Also I deleted the previous journal cuz all of that was just kind of an embarrassing thing honestly.
I do want to thank everyone who was kind enough to reach out and support me. I know I never got around to replying to your comments but trust me, I read them, and they mean a lot to me. Thanks again y’all <3
Hot Summer = Hot Lizard? Õ,////,ò
Posted a year agoIt’s so fucking hot this summer…I know that’s a redundant statement coming from someone who’s lived in Florida for over a decade, but this summer, it’s been extra HOT.
Speaking of hot, I’ve been feeling a different “heat” brewing lately…and I mean, like…I genuinely feel like I’m in heat. ó,//////,ò My hormones have been just runnin’ rampant, and my mind’s been just overflowing with the most perverse, lascivious thoughts…and with it being Pride Month, there’s only one flavor that’s been on my palate:
BEEF
I…hh…I need to be stopped, hahaha…mmf…
Speaking of hot, I’ve been feeling a different “heat” brewing lately…and I mean, like…I genuinely feel like I’m in heat. ó,//////,ò My hormones have been just runnin’ rampant, and my mind’s been just overflowing with the most perverse, lascivious thoughts…and with it being Pride Month, there’s only one flavor that’s been on my palate:
BEEF
I…hh…I need to be stopped, hahaha…mmf…
Addicted to Asphalt
Posted a year agoAsphalt 9 is a fun game
I definitely haven’t poured almost an entire month’s worth of time into the game already c:
(Wanted to shake off that last journal somehow.)
I definitely haven’t poured almost an entire month’s worth of time into the game already c:
….I’m running out of time.
Posted a year agoI’m going to be 27 this year…I can’t help but feel as though I’m running out of time.
I’ve done nothing with my life. I’m unemployed, trapped in my Grandma’s house, forced to be her caretaker, meanwhile the rest of the world outside crumbles into nothingness.
By the time I do go out into the world, I fear that there’s not going to he a world left to explore, to be creative in, to have fun in.
Everything looks so bleak, and with how mask-off evil America is being these days I feel as though any rights we had as citzens are being stripped away from us in favor of communism and totalitarianism.
I’m really struggling to find any reason to move on with my life…my boyfriend,
legendthedragon is the only thing that’s saving me from just ending it all. In fact, the only reason I have left to live anyway is because of all the love my friends give me on the internet.
I just wish I could meet all of you personally…I wish I could do just about anythingto meet anyone, travel anywhere….
But instead I’m a disabled, autistic, lazy, unemployed lump of depression wasting away in a house that’s not even mine.
Forgive me for the sudden ranting…I’m not in an okay headspace. Therapy only seems to do so much for me since I already know what needs to be done to make a change; I just don’t have the energy or the willpower to do anything with myself anymore.
With my luck, I’ll die alone, leaving behind nothing so I’m forgotten…that’s my worst fear, and I feel closer and closer to that reality with each day that passes.
Please tell me life is still worth living…there’s gotta be something better than this out there.
I’ve done nothing with my life. I’m unemployed, trapped in my Grandma’s house, forced to be her caretaker, meanwhile the rest of the world outside crumbles into nothingness.
By the time I do go out into the world, I fear that there’s not going to he a world left to explore, to be creative in, to have fun in.
Everything looks so bleak, and with how mask-off evil America is being these days I feel as though any rights we had as citzens are being stripped away from us in favor of communism and totalitarianism.
I’m really struggling to find any reason to move on with my life…my boyfriend,
legendthedragon is the only thing that’s saving me from just ending it all. In fact, the only reason I have left to live anyway is because of all the love my friends give me on the internet.I just wish I could meet all of you personally…I wish I could do just about anythingto meet anyone, travel anywhere….
But instead I’m a disabled, autistic, lazy, unemployed lump of depression wasting away in a house that’s not even mine.
Forgive me for the sudden ranting…I’m not in an okay headspace. Therapy only seems to do so much for me since I already know what needs to be done to make a change; I just don’t have the energy or the willpower to do anything with myself anymore.
With my luck, I’ll die alone, leaving behind nothing so I’m forgotten…that’s my worst fear, and I feel closer and closer to that reality with each day that passes.
Please tell me life is still worth living…there’s gotta be something better than this out there.
Hijacked Discord UPDATE! (I’m back lol)
Posted a year agoDiscord ‘s support team was really quick to help me get my account back
Just BE WARY online cuz you never know who you’re talking to.
Just BE WARY online cuz you never know who you’re talking to.
My Discord Got Hijacked
Posted a year agoDO NOT TRUST “MIKE (SUPPPORT)”
I GOT HACKED
THEY SAID I WAS GONNA GET BANNED FOR PHISHING SCAMS AND THEY TRICKED ME INTO GIVING THEM ACCESS TO MY DISCORD
I SHOULD’VE SEEN THE SIGNS BUT I DIDN’T
DO NOT REPLY TO MY DISCORD
I GOT HACKED
THEY SAID I WAS GONNA GET BANNED FOR PHISHING SCAMS AND THEY TRICKED ME INTO GIVING THEM ACCESS TO MY DISCORD
I SHOULD’VE SEEN THE SIGNS BUT I DIDN’T
DO NOT REPLY TO MY DISCORD
