well it has come to my attention that some people out there are saying some bad untrue things about me anyone who really knows me knows the truth

it is not cool to go around spreading rumors and lies and is also not cool to go and twist the truth just cause you regret it

just one big head ach from all this and sad that there are some people going and causing unneeded trouble

everyone be nice to one another

so while at work i was thinking it would be interesting if some of FAs more well known furs where seen dessed up in outfits that fit in with diffrent songs like someone dressed in an outfit thought up from the song cowboy cassinova or and out thought up from listening to the sone firework

so i home from ohaycon had a great time with great furs bought a ton of anime saw a ton of great outfits had a couple of laughs couple tackles lots of hugs lots of fun so yay

ok so quiz time who knows what a johnny light is
it is a real thing need to tell what it is and how it is used

another xmas been and gone a new year to try and find new love or bring back old love to find what is new ad remember what has been another step closer the main question i have right now is where the heck did the holiday go i mean this year my manager decided it would be best to have me work though most of it i mean we go and hire a bunch of highschool kids and then we dont even use them and because we dont use them those of us that have things to do with loved ones and family get stuck working hours that we are not even avalible to work in the first place

but enough on that rant i got star wars force unleashed 2 i love and hate i mean this one is even shorter then the first one i mean i get all the sweet powers and not enough time to even use

next i got mario cart wii which is fun and i enjoy racing online with it

finally i got a game called the last remnante for the pc but had to wait a week cause my laptop is still pretty much usless thanks to dear old dad

other then that i been busy helping friends out and driving them all over ohio and what not yay for seeing more of what is a waste land named ohio and thanks to the wrong directions and some ice i crashed into a hill yay :3

i need a back rub and a cookie oh and some hot cocco

ok so yesterday is the day of my bio final for breakfast i have 2 cupcakes and a glass of milk i then rush off to school and do some last min studying now when every i have a final i feels a little but normaly it goes away after the test well i am half way though the test when all of a sudden i start throwing up all over the 3 girls sitting in front of me so ya this is defently not test enxety turns out for my bday my gave me his stomach bug he could not eat or anything for two days and looks like i have it as well the only thing i could keep down yesterday was gingerail for a while i could not even keep water down right now the only thing i can have gingerail and thankfully water as long at i have peptobismal first right now i am craving just a gallon of grape juice so bad thanks to all the tv comercals i been seeing

yay it my bday *mews cutely looking to be petted*

here is a fun question who thinks we need a flying castle in the sky for furs to stay in and have raves every night and fly around the world

so in 7 days i will be even older then i am now at the old age of 25 i dont like that i am getting older at the same time i have always liked the number 25 but it means i am half way out of my 20s

i am just broken

well i wake up get ready and then get in my car only to find that for some reason there is a harpoon sitting in my passanger seat where it came from i dont know why it is there i dont know all i know is i have a sharpe weapon that has somehow found it's way into my car

today i studied all morning then around noon i went shopping for foods and stuff and got a new shelf for my room which is good cause my anime collection was taking over my floor because it has goten too big for all my shelves so i put it together and by put together i mean i just played with the pakaging while my brother did all the work growling at me and his girl friend giggling as i tell her stories about my bro when he was just a little baby pup

i also learned my brothers girl friend is a furry which was yays so we forced my brother to be a furry which just made him growl more

well i has a small victory in that i can use my laptop to surf the web once more but i still cant down load so i am still stuck waiting on skype and second life but at least it is something so yays

 lonelygabu needs some hug and love a very closer fur has passed

where is fancy bread in the heart or in the head



right now my mood is all over the place just spinning round and round as i lay back on my bed

i have managed to get the expevsive paper wieght to give me FA and a few other sites but still far too resticted i hope to have skype back for dueling and be back on SL hopefully tomarrow or saturday

and as we speak my grey bird pixy is attaching my big toe

and one final note i have noticed that a lot of parents seem to be fiddling and screwing with a lot of peoples lives lately i hope everyone with trouble dose ok and i hope that drama stops we all need some joy

well it is finally ready my new laptop is ready and working but the down side is dear old dad put all of these restictions on it so i can load SL i cant go on the net on it and most importantly i cant even do online school work on it the only thing i can use it for is msn that is it so till my dad remembers how old i am i am stuck still using my desktop for most of everything

well we ran out of time out of options that could work my parents have shipped my lover back right now he is sitting at his terminal waiting for his flight and what is worse the dang airport secerity dose not permit people to wait with the ones flying i been crying since i left the airport i watched bluu go though secuerity and watched as he walked out of sight which did not take long due to how how much stuff is in the way my body feels so weak right now my chest hurts my legs hurti can bearly move my arms the only time i been able to really eat this past week is when i was given my visit to be with bluu

our new plan is simple really we both work hard i will be working on my studies and be going into nursing then i should hopefully be able to possibly transpher to californa for more studies in the field and that would also put me at a better distance to be with my pup

for now the only thing keeping me stable are the pics i was able to take of us

we are still looking for any and all possible options for a place for him to stay so he can get on his feet

well the best layed plans never seem to work things where going good as far as keeping him hidden till last night when i forgot to lock my door and dear old mom walked in asking if i was going to grab milk before the alarm gose on and she spots bluu before i have a chance to hide him well now my folks know i am gay they also are pissed of my gambit to bring him here right now i need options right now bluu is sitting alone in a motel room that my dad got paid for up till thursday thursday my friend ashy will be coming for him hopefully but she has told me that there may be a hitch in the plan so now i am looking for possible options that can be taken to keep bluu from having to go back to that hell he escaped from to get to me if anyone has any thoughts sopport or heck a free room to let a wuf stay in till he finds a job

the main hope we have is if bluu can get a job and save up money mom said if he can do that she will consider accepting him so i need to make sure he has a roof over his head that would not mind him well he looks for employment

the day is here after waiting for so long the man who captured my heart will be in my arms forever and ever he will step off that plane and i might just takle him to the ground as soon as he dose finally i could not sleep i so excited the one who completes me will be here


>-- zennydarkmage-- bluu-->


in other news a warning to all ohio furs my baby brother got his first the other day so make sure to be on the look out for a red truck speeding down the road possible on fire and the cops close behind

in just 5 days i will have my  bluu it is so close and yet so far the waiting is killing me

in other news thursday took my 6 and 4 year old cousins to the zoo was stuck carrying both of them around the place in 85 degree weather spent of 200 bucks but we had fun my back is killing me

after today just 20 days till i will pick up my soul mate  bluu and we will be together forever i just cant wait i keep watching the clock counting the hours days and what not

on a slightly diffrent note i got the complete 5th season of the show "The Closer" which is very nice

still waiting for my new laptop to be ready i keep getting told it will be set up soon but i been hearing that all summer and with class coming up i really need that thing

well from what i have gathered the person parents learned he was gay and discovered the rps and what not that we had and so they went to the cops so ya i still ticked athow this was handled and now i still have to deal with my folks who are still on red alert and in the dark

well this is a kick in the pants a certain someone seems you know who you are seemed it nessisery to sic the police

i come home around 10 oclock at night to find the police at the door talking to my mom they are saying a complaint has been logged against the my phone and ip address the officer has no other information just says i will get a call from the police in the town where the complaint was made you know who you are i ask why did you do this

so now my folks are freaked wanting to know more about this and prying into everything which can lead to big trouble and some extream set backs so i must ask you know who you are is this what you wish to see me struggle and flop around to try and hurt me even more

stole this from a couple


1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13) Would you meet up with me?