Is it normal to lay in bed fearing death and old age even though I am only 25?

I might need a reminder to put the nest snake story chapter up.

should I post what I have of it on fa?

We all need to talk, whether we like it or not.

I know half of you live in Europe, and are very lucky to live in countries where you are not likely to be killed for being gay.

Right next door, in Armenia and Azerbaijan, just a glance away, there have been many arrest of gay and trans citizens.

Just a few hours to the south in Africa, people are being killed or jailed for life for being gay.

On this site, all those Asian artist you see, live in countries like South Korea where, while gay sex is legalized, people deal with mandatory conscription and are arrested since it is still illegal in the army.

These may be very tiring facts, but I am bringing them up to let you know that most of the world is like this; and that while we have support for the moment in relatively rich and well-off countries, that can change at any moment still.

Safety and the freedom just to exist needs to be guarded every day. And sometimes, we have to talk about how to help keep the momentum up in other parts of the world.

It is not just for those who are different elsewhere, but for us as well getting to be safe.

I am just putting this out there so I remember.

I need to think of something other than personal drama.

I was recently diagnosed with ocd, and that may explain why I can't write like I used to.

Would leaving the fandom make me write more? Or do any of you have ideas, as all I do is literally beat myself up for not writing consistently.

I always forget to write too often, and kmow that as soon as I get to bed in a moment, I will just play games all day or rp with people who try to not put in any effort themselves.

This is note a message to you though, this is me making a public reminder to keep writing. Even if I never get better because people tell me I am good at it.

Really, I had to get strangers on a forum to tell me my writing is hard to follow and does not stick out.

I am at fault as I also do not give any of you constructive criticism.
I should give up on writing with how pathetic I am.

I am mentally and physically exhaustrd. I will do things with super close friends, but otherwise, it is draining me too much to enjoy it at the moment.

Let's see how long it will last.

For the past few years, I have been getting horribly scared.

Usually when it is dark or when I am alone, it feels like something is going to jump out and attack me.

It is not my parents fault, and it is often late at night and they have a right, but them getting pissed at me and telling me to act my age is not really helping.

Does anyone else get like this? or am I schizoid? I know there is a phobia of the dark and one for being alone also.

They are really trying to show they are independent from mainland China. And while they and the rest of Asia have a long way to go on human rights, it seems to be rather progressive for a country that far east.

They even have a few special seats in government for the native aborigines on the island so they are not forgotten.

But really, we all need to help encourage other countries to be nicer and rethink things. However awkward or silly it feels.

Like I said before, this is a worldwide effort.

just taking a break from this furry stuff to focus on writing more ^^

One of my friends who I really enjoyed seeing suddenly stopped talking these past few months. To me I mean. They talk to everyone else, yet I have not been blocked, and I worry me asking them so often what is going on is making things worse.

Are they just dealing with stuff and I should leave them alone? or did I do something? I know I am not a good friend with how I have ignored all of you or acted like a drama-whore.

I am mostly just tired of this.

I mean, how do all of you even get the willpower to be online everyday? Or get the power to write so often?

I used to all the time, butt now all I do is sit around and do nothing.

How do I even have fun again? I can't seem enjoy rping. Am I online too much or something?

I am half asleep and can't stop worrying. I will feel better latter. Everthing has just been repetitive.

http://www.cnn.com/2017/03/05/afric.....bt-campaigner/

If we want to be safer over here, we need to help lgbt communities in other nations as well. And people like her need support and help staying safe. The best thing we can do is spread info about people like Kasha Nabagesera, make it so there will be consequences if people like her disappear due to homophobic actions.

She is willing to be gay in a country where you can go to jail basically for life or be sprayed pink with paint at a gay rally to make it easier for others to track you down to kill. I do not care if you are tired of hearing about Africa, none of us are free till all of us are free, no matter how many people get tired of us "whining about things".

Another nation to support lgbt communities is Vietnam, where gay people are slowly catching up to the west, and more support could lead to the idea of gay marriage becoming real there and in Taiwan.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Proxima_Centauri_b

They have found a rocky planet, with in distance of a decade long probe journey, in its star's habitable zone.

I forgot to make a journal months ago, but this is amazing.

Star:

This star, Proxima Centauri, is only 4.2 light years away. It is in a triple star system.

It is not much bigger than Jupiter, small for even a red dwarf. Where most would blast it's closest planets with gamma rays, it only gives off x-rays. It is one eight the mass of the sun, but 40 times more dense and compact. This leaves it massive compared to Jupiter, but not even twice its size.

Where other planets that close are tidally locked (meaning a year is the same as a day) and usually have a molten side, the day-side on this world is possibly just warm enough for liquid water instead.

The two main stars are one-fifth of a light year from Proxima Centauri, but I think that is close enough for faint light on Proxima's night-side. Proxima A and Proxima B are two starts bigger and smaller than the sun respectively, orbiting each other far enough for each to have its own planetary system. That is not including planets that could orbit both of them.

The planet:

The planet is eight times closer to its star than Mercury is to ours. Though its star is so small, it only appears three times bigger than the sun would in our sky. It is from one plus a tenth to three times in possibly both the size and mass of earth for both of those estimates.
It has a year of 11 earth days, and most likely, its day is the same. This means only one side is facing towards it's sun at all times. This means that the day side is hot, the night side is frozen, and the band of twilight (called the terminator on any world) would be rather in between these two extremes.


The radation blast from it's sun means that either life there is adapted to it, is under ground, or lives on or under the perpetual band of twilight.


And as a random astronomy fact from our own solar system: you can see a cresent Venus when the planet is at its closest to Earth. I might of done so once before.

(This is typed out on my 3ds.)
I am not trying to upset anyone or seem like I am lying, but I do want to let others know that I might not submit any stories I talked about in order.

I mean this for those on skype I told story ideas to, as I might want to work on what comes to mind sudenly. And I will tty to use warnings and reduce misunderstandings if you see me submit something you did not expect.

Also, for those who keep asking me about stories I said I'd do for them personally and privately, I will get to them in my own time or I will personally let you know if something stops me from writing it at the current time. You are friends I have known for a long time, and I do not want to make others feel bad.

Also, I might wright things for myself with stuff I personally am not into, but realize what fits and makes a story good or consistent.

I may not be able t be on as I help take care of this puppy that had to be taken in by us even though that is way too young.

Like how do we help calm them down and such? or how do we deal with the biting?


Was not really anyone's choice to get her this early, but the mother ran out of milk due to too many puppies.

I want to be more serious about my writing, so I may not be as active as I am, without as much worrying if everyone is going to forget about me like I usually do.

One thing that has popped in the last year or two on f-list is when someone is "temp" or "perma" vored, they change their icon or leave an account empty, which can be dozens of the same search result if they make over 50 one-off characters, and makes browsing f-list annoying.

I Have only seen one person change their icon on here so far, and wonder how big that is going to get on this website.

I know I moved recently, but before that, for the last one or two years of my time near Lake Erie, the water has been rather strange-tasting, and I do not know if that is my imagination.

My family had started using water jugs and a water cooler for drinking water after the algal bloom scare a few years ago along with its warning not to drink tap water during the incedent.

I know lake Erie is not the best water source in the world, but I want to know if it is not just me. Has anyone else had any trouble with lake water?

I am talking about tap water, not directly drinking from the Lake, that would make most people sick I think.

I found my 3ds xl on the ground, and when I turned it on, the top section of the upper screen is black.

is there any fix that would not be a snarky, sarcastic response?

For once, it was the cats that knocked it down.

I am sorry I come to here for help so much, but many of you on here are really smart.

Before, I had been wanting to write things for myself that do not follow a standard story model like the monomyth, but felt discouraged when someone had said that trying to go against a formula intentionally will make a story suck.

I may sound silly, but I am really self-conscious. I can't even get any writing done as I feel I am being watched and judged by the characters themselves.

so anyone know how to do a factory reset at the bios screen (hp setup utility screen for me)? and will I lose all my information if I do so?

Because I cannot get windows 10 off of my pc at all, and it won't let me see anything at all to even fix stuff, I have to get a new computer entirely.

I am going to do what it takes to destroy microsoft non-violently. Don't care how immature or stupid or pointless this sounds, but I am not going to let this go.