UPDATE: This happened last week, I'm JUST now getting around to sharing it here too.

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Everyone keeps asking for updates and I just haven’t had the energy to give one until now. At this point, I think everyone has shared enough info to get it all anyway. So here’s what I have. And all posted pics and videos are gonna be posted out of order, I’m not gonna sort them for convenience.

Wednesday night (May 17), as my shift was ending, I started to get an extremely sharp pain in my chest. I thought it needed to be walked off. Didn’t get better. Now down to my stomach, maybe it’s gas, went to the bathroom, didn’t get better. Immediately looked for my supervisor and told him I needed an ambulance. He called my boss and they called an ambulance. I started sweating profusely and told I looked extremely white. I climbed on the stretcher, get to the ambulance, posted that picture with intentions to update later and never got the chance.

Apparently what I had was a diversion tear in my aorta. What I don’t want to hear from the first doctor at the hospital I go to is “he’s going to die for every second we wait.” And he kept repeating this like I was sleeping on a decision.

This is where it gets tricky, because I’m not going to remember everything correctly or maybe even in order. But I’ll be sure to embarrass friends where necessary. For me, between all of this, only minutes have passed. I got to the hospital and spoke to the doctor, he said they had to fly me to another location that was better prepared for my injury. At this point, I’m drugged up pretty hard. I don’t hear less than half of what’s being said. From other sources, they had to wait for me to be cleared to UofM before sending me and then off I went. When I got there, they had to keep pushing back my surgery for someone else that had the same thing but was far worse along than I was.

I know how everyone feels to know something really bad is going on and you can’t get an update from anyone. And that was not my intention, I just didn’t have the energy to give one. And while in the hospital, I was without my phone for the first two days. The people visiting and providing the updates to everyone had far more information than me laying in the bed. Plus all of this stuff tends to turn my brain into mush and I can’t remember what was just told to me.

To my understanding, I didn’t have the surgery for almost a full day, but I don’t recall. People kept asking me how I was feeling and the best answers I could give were along the lines of “hell warmed over,” or “like ass, which is convenient cause that’s how I smell right now,” or some variation of “shitty served with extra streaks.” You know, something real uplifting to let you know I felt fantastic.

The doctors and nurses all kept saying how well everything went and how impressed my recovery was going. As of Sunday night, I was discharged with no restrictions, other than take it easy and rest (which my dumbass has a very hard time doing). Today has been the first day where I feel like I can actually move and my body isn’t screaming at me to go back to sleep. Which sucks so bad during the night because I just can’t stay asleep. I have to keep moving and turning.

They have me on around 15 different medications, and oxycodone. Holy hell that shit has been making me trip balls. If that’s what people are into, you do you. I hate the stuff other than it’s getting rid of the pain. Every time I close my eyes I’m seeing weird shit. Told the nurses that too and they said, “somethings probably causing that.” Helpful, right?

Everyone was floored at how speedy and well I’ve been recovering. But trust me, I’m just making it look good. I’m tired AF all the time and even finally writing this, I’ve taken several breaks. But I’m slowly and steadily getting it written for everyone.

The worst parts of this were the hiccups after getting my tubes removed (and the absolutely nothing they could do for it) and the water restrictions at the hospital. That aside, I’ve been able to handle all of this like a whiny little girl that’s not getting enough attention.

I’ll make a separate post for everyone else and their thank yous later. I just keep looking over this post and seeing more and more I want to add to an already super long (and super delayed) update.

I apologize again to everyone for being vague, but that’s how I am. I don’t ever want anyone to worry about me and the less information you have, the less you have to worry. This was a serious operation and I get that, I fully understand that. And I have a second chance, I’m not ready to give up yet.

Thank you again to everyone that put a favorite on one of my submissions. I'm sorry it took me so long to finally get around to sending out thank you's to everyone (more than a year), but I finally did it! (Being limited to 15 posts every 5 minutes sure didn't help either)

I plan on going through and uploading more stuff, mainly anything that I have forgotten to upload in the past.

I'm slowly but surely going through all my stuff and trying my damnedest to organize everything.

Stay tuned for more stuff!

I also promise to try and be more active on here too.

I'm still determined to thank everyone for the favorites. Even though it's pushing more than a year late. Whenever I am at my computer and I think about it, I try to send out a few messages. It's just really hard to get caught up because you can only send out 15 at a time, then the site blocks you for a while. I'm down to 201 (update 17 now!) left. I'm sure more than a few are going to be from the same users, so a plural thanks will work. But still, it's gonna be a while.

I'm hoping that after sending out the 'thank you's' I can start getting caught up and organized with my fursuit pics and commissions and get them all organized and uploaded here. Should still take me almost a full year to get that far though, because I'm slow like that.

I'm still alive, but sadly I'm not on FA as much as I'd like. I'm getting a lot of personal stuff done lately, and some of that includes thanking people for watches and favorites (500+ behind, yikes!).

Rather than flooding FA with fursuit pics, I've taken to uploading them to a channel I made on Telegram. I can upload pics that I would otherwise feel aren't necessarily worth uploading elsewhere and spam the channel with "all about me." At least, the cute fluffy version.

If you want to contact me on Telegram, feel free to hit me up WolfeMasters. That's the quickest and easiest way to get a hold of me. If you want to join the channel, https://t.me/SirWolfeMasters

I'll try to be more consistent, but I make no promises. At some point, after I can finish what I want to with my computers (plural, yes, more than one), and get them set up the way I want, I hope to start being much more active. But I don't see this happening anytime soon. Probably the better part of a year.

I wasn't originally going to go, but a friend said that I should and is able to provide me with both a room and ride. So... I guess I'm going.

Good luck finding me.

Make sure you share any pictures you can manage to take of me. I am quite elusive, so... once again, good luck!

I'll upload some more of my incredibly outdated commissions later.

So, I was contacted by Firestorm and told that he can start working on my fursuit as of September and can have it completed by December. I'm so very excited, but due to the numerous instances that came up at the beginning of the year, I'm playing catch up with my money.

My bed was supposed to be paid off already ($1,200 left), but because my puppy needed surgery ($500) and then about 3 weeks later my car needed surgery ($500), I had to hold off on paying off my bed so that I could take care of stuff that needed to take priority.

School is about to start, so I'll hopefully be able to get the money I need to pay for the suit. But, just in case, if anyone wants to help me out, I won't turn down the assistance.

In order of priorities, I'm paying things off in a specific order. The people I already owe know I've been waiting for this suit for so long, they're okay waiting until I have it paid off first. Just so you guys don't wonder about my order.

1. Bed (pay off by the 18th to avoid $800 interest)
2. Fursuit (about $2,500)
3. Mom (about $2,000/$4,800 left)
4. Dad ($200/$400 left)
5. Feline Element ($300/$450 left)
6. Credit Card ($500 this is paid here and there)

I am prioritizing, and if it weren't for the fact that FireStorm was so quick, I would have the money saved up after paying people off. I wasn't expecting him to get to me this fast. It's also not something I can postpone because I've been on the waiting list for years (I had the money years ago and spent it on car repairs, assuming I'd have it saved up real quick again, oops).

I know I can do it, it's a matter of watching my pointless spending (which since I've had to move back home, I've been doing a great job). I also have GameStop to help me save up money too. I'm just hoping I don't exhaust myself too badly.

Okay, where to begin...?

Work decided that they wanted to screw us on our insurance. Signed up for Blue Cross and it's more expensive paying it myself than when they were covering it for me. The job "reimburses" us for it, but only up to $135, but they tax the reimbursement and I pay over $200 a month for my insurance.

Our site manager died from a heart attack. I applied to become site manager at the bus yard. They loved me in the interview, but said that they wanted to go with someone who had more (financial) book experience. Which I get, so I didn't feel bad about not getting the position. At least I tried. Our HR manager retired, and I applied for her position too. For some reason, there's a new way they are dealing with applications and never gave me an interview for that position. Whatever.

Our new boss is a dickhead and is screwing over multiple employees. A lot of my co-workers have been coming to me with their complaints because they knew I had applied for his position as well as the HR position and they felt that I could help them. I'm just a lowly employee, just like them, so there's not much I can do. But, still, I had to contact HIS boss, and talk to her about what's been happening. We set up a Town Hall meeting (basically, upper management comes down, listens to complaints, and tries to get them addressed) and that seemed to go over pretty well. The following week, the boss almost seemed to be pouting. Almost everyone has been written up for something stupid. He's retaliating, which he's not allowed to do. Looks like I have to call his boss again. I'm pretty sure he's gonna get fired. Many of my co-workers have already said they want to quit and/or transfer.

Things are still going well for me at GameStop, no complaints there. So far, at least. (Almost been there for 10 years now, BTW)

What else...

My landlord sold the property to a new company. They let us (which would be  felineelement and  rashoni)stay at our original price of $800 a month. At least, for a couple months. They contacted a couple of the tenants and told them that the price was going to increase. We had heard a couple different prices. Basically, if we signed another one year contract, we would be locked in at $1,450 a month. If we signed for a two year, it would be $1,350 a month. We came to the unfortunate decision to move back home with our parents before they decided to send us the letter too. After moving out, I found out the price was upped and officially changed to $1,600 a month. They doubled our rent. They also renovated the inside and it looks amazing. Not worth $1,600 a month, but someone will be stupid enough to pay it.

My puppy Sydney had an abscess in her mouth. I had to take her to the vet to figure out what was wrong. She was acting very lethargic and had me worried. They said the surgery was going to cost about $500, which I can't afford. I'm still accepting donations for anyone that would like to help out with her medical bills. While doing the surgery, they found a calcium deposit on the other side of her mouth and removed that. They biopsied it and found that it was benign. Well, at least there's some good news.

A couple weeks later, my car died on me. Literally, on my way home from work, it starts to sputter. I made it to the driveway and it crapped out and wouldn't start again. So, towed up to the garage. Mechanic said it was the alternator (and belt). There goes another $500. More money that I can't afford.

On the plus side, at least it happened after we moved. I REALLY wouldn't have been able to afford it, had it happened while we were still at our place.

The official move home date was April 1st. I've been at home with my parents since then. I'm planning on paying them back the money I owe them, just as soon as I can. While I'm not paying rent though, I'm helping out with home improvements. And there are a LOT of improvements to be made.

Helped convert the cat room in the basement, where my mom kept some of the cats she fostered (the more feral ones), into the pantry. The flooring we got looks great, but it was from a horrible company, so the boards wiggle and make noise. Not terribly happy with it, but at least it's a small room in the basement. We fixed the room and patched a lot of holes. Painted some of the trim teal and made the room look nice again. Attached the door, forgot to make adjustments for the raised flooring. The door needs to be trimmed so that it doesn't drag on the floor.

The swimming pool needs to be opened! But there's a problem... The side that holds the skimmer is rusted. And I don't mean a little rust, I mean it's rot rusted. It's not really salvageable. My mom asked my dad and I if we could fix it. My father, being the optimistic person that he is, replied with "fuck it, tear down the whole pool." Not exactly the answer my mother wanted. So, after all that was done, we picked up some plexiglass that states "virtually indestructible." Cool, maybe we can salvage one more year out of the pool. We cut the plexiglass, glued the ever loving shit out of everything and patched it all together, then painted it to make it look nice. And it does, it looks really nice. Started filling the pool, water is pouring out the bottom. Great.

We had plans to fix the garage this summer. Some asshat neighbor decided to call the city, so we got a notice that the garage had to be painted by the 9th. Awesome. We stopped everything we were working on to work on the garage. We were going to just quickly scrape the garage and paint it. Trinity came over to help. But after scraping the garage, we found it was so rotted, we were going to need to replace the boards.

I've taken some progress shots of the work we've gotten done and uploaded them to FB (not sure if I want to upload them here or not). Well, we put up new boards, painted the garage, and it looks nice. The city shouldn't have any complaints. We have to clean out the garage so that we can have access to the wall on the other side though, because the whole wall needs to be replaced. The garage is in such disarray though, it's going to take forever. My mom and aunt went out to start organizing stuff, they were out there for about 3 hours and did considerable work. My mom and dad went out a couple days ago and worked for 2 hours. Even more progress. It looks great. To us. There's still so much work to be done. I could estimate about another 20 hours just to have it presentable, not even functional.

School is out in one more week. I also have to scan a bunch of pictures that I have in my cork book. Which, if you know nothing about it, will be donated to Anthrocon 2016 (this year). I will be uploading a journal soon that will contain a lost of all the artists that donated work to it. For now, I think that's just about everything.

I also deleted all of my notes on FA. I plan to start replying to them more regularly and trying to reply to people here more consistently. I am going to be trying my best to be more active all around online. But the easiest way to find out what I'm up to would be to follow me on FB (or Twitter, which apparently gets auto tweets whenever I make a post to FB).

Oh, I also found out that  FireStormSix had issues with his laptop about a year ago and lost a lot of information. Some of said information that was lost was that I wanted a suit from him. I was able to talk to him at MCFC and he told me to just fill out the information again and send it to him. (Which as I'm typing this, I remember I have still yet to do, sorry Firestorm!)

I feel so bad that I haven't been replying to people like I've been saying I would do. So I'm going to start trying even harder. And if you guys want to help remind me, it would be greatly appreciated.

If you guys have any questions, feel free to message me. I'm also on Telegram!

I love how all of these people are complaining because for FA was down, oh boo-hoo now I'm rage quitting and moving over to Weasyl. And now that I FA is back up, Weasyl is down. It's all part of owning a website. Maintenance, security, fighting against hackers, etc. You can't get pissed off at one website because they're trying to stop security issues, and move over to another website and never expect it to go down. That's just stupid.

Well, it's apparently an abscess and they said it's going to cost me roughly about $500

I'm accepting donations on PayPal. I hate asking for money, but it's not me that's asking, it's Syd.

Since Trinity has an actual PayPal card, you can send the money to https://paypal.me/felineelement which will allow me to have immediate access to it today rather than having to fight and wait with transfers, since I'm kinda pressed for time.

I've posted pictures on FB and can upload them here later today. If you would like more information, post here and I'll try to be quick with my replies. Since I have the FB app, I get notifications when someone posts on there, otherwise I'll try to check back here regularly.

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I will be arriving at MCFC around Noon on Thursday. Message me on FB, text, Telegram, or Skype to find me! I may not reply to messages on here, but I'll try to remember.

Well, not me, but my friend  aeonlupus IS!

And he has some pretty cheap prices too!

Go check him out, even if you can't afford a commission, at least give him a watch and throw him a comment on his journal!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6987867/

I was sitting here and for some reason, I got the greatest idea.

 wookiee should totally draw an Arcanine!

Because an Arcanine booty done by Wookiee would be the greatest image to ever befall the Internet.



(Aside from if I happen to ever get him to do me.)



Anyway...

Comment!

Yup. I'm here. Come find me.

But in the morning.

I'm sleeping for the night.

With the con right around the corner, who's going and who plans on trying to find me there?

My oldest sister just made a fursona and an account here. Go welcome Her and say hello.

 mamacookie

I worked from Noon to 7, then went out with friends ( felineelement  rashoni  mike-son &  claypaws) to Mr. B's to celebrate. Apparently, you get $8 off your bill if it's your birthday. My vodka martini cost $8 (before I had them make it extra dry), so I basically got free booze!

My parents are going to take me out for lunch tomorrow.

Considering I had nothing planned for my birthday, I'd say this was an overall success.

Sorry for not posting updates here, I don't really go on my computer anymore and I tend to post to FaceBook more often (it's just quick and easier than posting here). Follow me if you'd like.

Yes, it is that time of year again that I ask everyone to stuff  dragoneer into his well known Candy Corn costume.

For those of you unfamiliar with why I do this:
Dragoneer wrote:Candy Corn - Two words that also translate into "the anti christ of flavor". The single worst candy ever created. Giving out candy corn to children is like taking a flamethrower to the tree on Christmas morning. If you give this out to kids you are a BAD PERSON.

Here are the pictures thus far that have been gathered.
 WolfeMasters drew this.
 Mike-Son drew this.
 YiffMasters drew this.
 NeoLeo drew this.
 Rukario drew this.
 StormdragonBlue drew this.
 LostLove drew this.
 LittleW0lf drew this.
 demonicchronic drew this.

Come on people, make your mark in history. More specifically, make your mark on Dragoneer. Stand up for Candy Corn and all it's deliciousness! And even if you do not like Candy Corn, you can at least stick it to Dragoneer (interpret as you will).

And as a side note to Dragoneer, when he finally can get around to reading this journal:

"I told you once before, you shall never escape that fateful comment. 5 years later, I continue this tradition and one day hope that this will become a rite of passage into all furrrydom. Candy Corn is good and a well known symbol of Halloween, just as sticking you into a Candy Corn costume will become over time."

UPDATE

The bastard is at it again!

Candy Corn is the worst invention in history. Jihad never existed 'til Candy Corn came to market, and look what's happened since.

He must pay for his insolence! Stuff him into the suit like never before!

Speaking ill of the Candy Corn is like saying that there shouldn't be a Christmas Tree for Christmas.

Who could say such a thing!?

You will pay for this, Dragoneer. YOU WILL PAY!

I accidentally deleted about 20 favorites without ever getting to say thank you to those who made them.

My bad!

FA's stupid fucking "security" system wrote:You have posted 15 comments or shouts in the last 5 minutes. Please try again later.
Really?

You guys are doing that stupid shit now?

I've had my account since 2006.

It's a pretty safe assumption that I'm not spamming people, nor am I a bot!

I had 29 favorites and wanted to go through and quickly thank everyone. And you're telling me that I can't.

Why!?

You know very fucking well that it's NOT spam!

Because  yiffmasters is a dick hole and tagged me!

01. What is Your Name? Wolfe Masters
02. How old are you? 31
03. What is your favorite talking fruit? I eat them before they speak (I feel less bad about it that way)
04. What's you favorite talking animal? The Incredible Mr. Limpet
05. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had? None, they were so old they sagged.
06. Have you ever made out in a movie theater? Nope.
07. What body part do you wash first? Pits, the most stink comes from there.
08. Do you hover over the toilet in public bathrooms? Either double sanitary seats or LOTS of TP.
09. What's the strangest talent you have? I'm fat but I can still...
10. What's your favorite flavored Pringles? Original
11. Have you ever been tied up? Do you want to be? Nope and nope.
12. Which shoe do you put on first? Whichever one I reach for first (or isn't facing the wrong direction).
13. Have you ever been to a gay bar? Nope.
14. If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets again or not wash your bath towel ever again, which would you rather not wash? Bath towel, probably. At least I'm already clean when I use it.
15. Have you ever found anything in your parents' bedroom that was questionable? Yeah... unfortunately.
16. What was your childhood nickname? Wolf kid
17. How far east can you go before you're heading west? Don't care, I'm bored with this direction. Look, now I'm facing WEST!
18. If you went to a store where everything costs $1.00, then shouldn't you be able to buy everything for $1.00? I've tried buying the cash register for $1, they don't like that.
19. Favorite Pokemon? Arcanine
20. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Closed

Tagging  felineelement  wookiee  palasm

I hate to be a burden and beg, but I just recently figured out that you have to be level 8 on Steam to get the cards they offer for the Summer Adventure sale... thingy...

If you hit level 8, you get the cards that you've already earned. However, it ends today. And I have to complete sets to level up.

I'm currently halfway through level 5 and need 47 exp to level to 6.

The big problem I'm facing, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING!

Any help you guys can offer would be greatly appreciated.

So, for those of you that aren't already aware of his talents, my buddy  tanim-kaxo is open and accepting commissions. He's more than reasonable on price and he's pretty damned quick too!

At the very least, go give him a watch and help him get some recognition.

Who knows, maybe I'll hold a contest for a chance to have him draw you getting plowed by yours truly...?

I know, it's been forever and a day since I posted some serious journals that express myself. If at any point I get a little too side tracked, I'm going to apologize now and get it over with (sorry about that).

So, here goes:

I've made no secret of it that I hate posers. In this fandom, that would be the artists that only draw furry artwork because it's money. Recently, this has come up in more conversations (on Facebook, Skype, Kik) and I've been getting a lot of people asking me the same questions (usually different format, but essentially the same universal questions). I'll just post everything I can think of here and update if anyone actually cares anymore.

There are a lot of artists out there that are like this. I won't say any names (I'm nixing the drama and do not wish to start any), but if you're smart, you can figure them out on your own. A good example would be, if the artist does not have a fursona of their own. That's generally a good rule of thumb.

These artists go to conventions and people love buying their art. Nothing wrong with that. However, if you look at their art, and I mean really look at it, you will see something is missing. Let's call it the "furry soul" because, I'm too tired to give a flip and come up with something more creative.

I had my character drawn by one said artist and it turned out great. But for some reason, when I look at it, I don't really see my character. Which sucks. Anyone who is a true furry should know how badly that sucks. When you pay an artist to draw your character, you want it to be you. If that's missing, well... Then the picture is essentially, a waste of money, and pretty meaningless.

Now, if you are an artist and you are curious to know if you are one of these poser artists, I can easily answer that for you right now. You're reading this journal, which means you care about the fandom, which means you really ARE a furry. Now don't put words into my mouth and assume that anyone who doesn't read journals on FA isn't a furry. Sometimes you just don't have time to read them all. Sadly, I tend to nuke all the journals and don't skim through them anymore. To be fair, that's mostly because at the time of writing this, my submission count is at 584,806 and I'm actually trying desperately to go through them all, and not nuke them (this time).

This all came to me, sadly, because of someone I used to hang out with. The things that were said to me, have stuck, and (unfortunately?) opened my eyes to these particular artists. I wish I could unsee them in this particular light, but there's that whole "once you see you can not unsee" thing. The reason why this sucks is because, I would love to have my character drawn by some of these amazing artists. Knowing that they don't give a shit about my character though? I'll be avoiding them like the plague.

Let me set an example for you. Think of your favorite furry artist. Now imagine that you found out they only care about the money, when they told you that your character sounded "really interesting and fun to draw," they didn't mean any of it and they just wanted you to commission them so they could make more money. Personally, I was hurt to actually come to that realization. The picture that I had drawn for me, wasn't me. I actually don't like looking at the picture anymore. Fortunately, the picture wasn't drawn by my favorite artist.

The art that I like, is the stuff where people drew my character, and threw some of me into it. It's hard to describe, but I'll give it my best shot. If you talk to me, and I mean really talk, not just grab details, you should be able to reflect this in the art easily. There is a smirk that I have. I don't see it, but everyone that knows me, has. There's something in my expressions that can be carried over, with little effort. It's not even something you have to visually see. There are artists who have managed to capture this in the pictures they have done for me, and they don't even realize it. All because they asked me a couple questions. Maybe it's just one question. Depending on the artist, it may be the only question that really matters to them. Maybe it's more of "how" they ask their questions. I have no idea, but it works. Because I can see "me" in the art that is drawn.

I've had some artists draw my character and they don't really ask me many (if any) questions. But just the little fact that they are a real furry at heart, they let some of their own emotions seep into the picture. It may not be "me" per se, but it is at the same time. Does that make any sense?

I wish I could explain it better. The words are there, I just feel like I'm having trouble arranging them properly. For me, when I have trouble with something, I'm kind of like a dog (only in this sense! Fuck you, I'm a wolf!). "Live life like a dog. If you can't eat it, or hump it, piss on it and walk away." If I don't feel like I can explain myself properly, I keep going (and a lot of times, make things worse). On that same note, a lot of times I try to crack and joke to make it less awkward (guess how often that works). Those of you that know me, know how true this is. Unlike a dog, I don't always walk away.

There is some good news out of all of this. It has made me appreciate the furry artists out there even more. The real furry artists. The ones that draw because they are a furry. They're in this fandom because they have strong emotions attached to the fandom. I couldn't quit being a furry if I tried. It's part of me and it's who I am, now and forever. This fandom has helped me more than any muggle (in the geo caching sense, not the Harry Potter term) will ever know or be able to understand. To non-furries, it's just something we do for fun. Like playing video games. To the real furries out there, this fandom is so much more.

I could list to you a bunch of good friends that I feel have helped me out a lot, but that list would be huge, and I'd hate for anyone to feel like I forgot about them because I didn't add their name. I don't consider myself a popufur, and I swear the next person that calls me one is getting a black eye or raped the next time I see you (whichever is more terrifying). The reason why I have so many friends on FB, FA, Skype (whatever you want to look at), isn't because I want larger numbers. It's because I want to give every fur out there a chance to be my friend. That kind of openness is (a small part of) what this fandom is about.

And that is what I feel is missing, the "furry soul" or whatever you want to call it. All of that babbling I just listed above. All of it and more. I could go on for about 20 pages and only barely scratch the surface of what I'm trying to explain. I wish I could be more articulate about my feelings on this. I've read other peoples interpretations on the fandom and always finish reading it, wishing that I could express myself in the same way. But unlike anything else I've ever had in life, this is where I don't feel ashamed to be where I am. I'm not ashamed that I don't have the same amazing artistic talent as  wookiee. I'm not ashamed that I can't make outstanding fursuits like  firestormsix. I'm not ashamed that I can't compete with  sunitai's mind blowing speed. I'm not ashamed of being "inferior" in this fandom. Because friends like you guys don't care about any of this either. You do what you love, you put up with my crazy ass self.

Not a single person has ever told me that I'm not good enough (even though I say it almost religiously). All you guys ever do, is encourage me to be a better person and do what I love. Even if I embarass myself and fanboy all over Wookiee and Firestorm when I see them at conventions.

Bonus shout out to my Michigan friends for somehow managing to put up with me (or those of you who I've met at a convention). I really have no clue how you guys do it. I think if I were my own friend, I would have murdered my ass in my sleep.

Just an update that if you guys are interested, I'm going to start using my Twitch account to stream my gaming sessions.

http://www.twitch.tv/wolfemasters

I'm not streaming anymore at the moment, since I have to head off to bed, but I do plan on streaming a lot more often since I can easily do it on my XBox One.

Let me know what you would like to see and I will see about streaming it.

(By the way, I'm not really expecting a huge turnout from this, but I still think it would be kinda fun to play with)

MCFC is the con that is replacing FCN. I'm curious as to who will be going.

I'd like to make plans to hang out with quite a few of you. But it would be easier if I knew who is going first.