Right. I'm now 18 and will be having to find a way to make money for personal use.

My main concern now is getting enough money together by the second half of august to go and visit The Netherlands. I know it sounds silly to have this as a help plea, but if any of you could say that I have a commissions thing going on (I'll have planned several sales and bonuses too!!) or any help at all, please please consider it!!! I know some people have it worse off but I am trying to come into the adult art world and I want a solid starting point.

I have several YCHs and special offers up on my commissions account  CatsDesire!

Thank you for reading, and any help is super appreciated!!

It's all almost over, no more living with the parents. I'm really looking forward to it. Freedom!

I'm going to London in September, to go to an Art Foundation course to prepare to go to an actual art degree in a university (i wish someone had told me to go to a foundation course first) and then I'll go onto having an art profession.

It was really hard, but at one point I met this guy who helped. a lot. Obviously the end of the story is that we fell in love, and its strange. The two broken people together and healing each other (cheesy, I know) But it's true. I dont think I'd have stayed if it weren't for him.

But I got better, in the end. I held my ground. I survived. Now I just stay one more summer with my parents and I fly from my nest!

In other news, commissions are still open, and I offer NSFW ones! Watch out for ych auctions and preposes and all sorts of things!
The images will have to wait a few days since I'm travelling until the 26th so.. yeah!

http://gretzsmut.tumblr.com/ Go visit and follow for nsfw art ?

Juuuust follow to  CatsDesire and you should be able to find them!! 3 slots have been opened!!!

1.  NazzNikoNanuke
2.  Zwill
3.  CharlieBlaire

Congrats on winning!! I will be needing ref sheets of your characters and any special things you might want them to do in the pictures!

For the others, better luck next time, and stay tuned because I get bored often and hold raffles occasionally!! On the other hand, if you have the spare money, chibis are 5 USD at  CatsDesire :P

Okay, time to hold some more giveaways.

I can't guarantee that the chibis will look alike to anything I've ever done!!

So yeah, 3 people can get experimental chibis and the winners will be chosen by a random number generator.
Raffle ends wednesday 8 pm GMT 0.00


RULES!!

1. Must be a follower to both this account and  catsdesire

2. Uhmm... comment so I know who you are!

3. Just wait :P

But yeah, I feel like experimenting with styles, I have no idea whats gonna come out so its kinda like a surprise!

I HAVE LIKE TONS OF EM. go grab some. Theyre a dollar each at  catsdesire

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13241249/

I'll be trying out PWYW commissions right now, for a short time!!!

Each half an hour of drawing will be 5USD !!! Note  catsdesire if interested, and I'll give more info there!!

The game costs 8 euros which is roughly 10$, so anything that is 10$ on my pricelist is a viable thing to get, can also do two chibis!!

So I kinda need/want Gmod from steam, and i'd take it with the counterstrike source thing... So yeah, either we get the bundle thing and you get a fullbody soft shaded image of a character, or if you only get me garry's mod itself... soft shaded bust piece, a flat colour half body, or a fullbody sketch!!

Stuff.

They always are!! Unless stated otherwise!! Go check out  CatsDesire for it!!

Alternatively, I will be needing Garry's mod soon, so to anyone who is willing to buy it will get either a soft shaded bust piece, a flat colour half body, or a fullbody sketch!!

Feel free to add me on steam, it's PrincessGretz

https://www.picarto.tv/live/channel.....tch=GretzDraws

Cuz i barely do these anymore, shame on me...

Recently I just feel so sad, like… really sad. I don’t feel like I’m worth anything, everyone keeps on putting me down all the time. My parents don’t seem to care about… ME. It’s only about my grades, and what I can contribute, and what money I can make. They don’t care at all about the person to who they say all of this.

And I’m so tired of it.

I want someone to tell me I’m worth something. I want someone to tell me this is all worth fighting for because right now I just feel like EXISTING instead of living. And that’s all I’ll do. I’ll scrape by. I don’t want to find joy in things anymore because it just keeps on hurting me so damn much when I begin to realize what it really is.

I’m really in a cage. I need to get out of here. I live life on an island where everything is so superficial, nothing works and nobody CARES.

I wish I could wait until I get out of here, but waiting takes such a long time. The people around me constantly want to hurt me because they just don’t care.

I can’t say i want it to end. But I want someone to come along and help me. I want someone to come along and be a shoulder to cry on. I need at least one light that’s bright enough and close enough to me to heal me. I want someone to just be there for me and willingly take me in without me having to go to them. I’ll know that if there’s at least someone out there who wants me to be whole, I can walk on. But not when so many people want to take me down. Not like this.

I’m sorry about this rant, but my dad went drinking yesterday, and he came home briefly… but now he’s missing. This has happened before. My dad means so much to me… but he keeps on drinking and hurting himself and he’s diabetic on top of all of this and I’m so worried. I want him to stop but nothing seems to make him listen.

I’m home right now. My mother is here, but she’s drunk and pitiable. She tries to manipulate me when I’m hurt like this and it’s horrible. She’s so bitter towards me…

Skyrim themed commissions are a novelty :D
I might do running chibi animations too, but that depends on what people want, if you're interested though, they're gonna be 35$

Contact me at  catsdesire !!

So my close friend has seen me in a creative rut and he challenged me to create a character every day for the next week. I've completed yesterday's character, and I'll be submitting them to my scarps, so keep an eye out for those!

So I've been submitting applications for universities in the UK. It's quite stressful, my very first answer from a uni has been a rejection, so I'm a bit wary of everything, and like... I'm not that hopeful. It's my parents fault, too. They want to send me off to china and there's no way i want to go there, its so far away Q.Q

Anywho, I'm working on getting to a UK uni, and once I get there, I'm slowly gonna be more active, and work more for commissions. I want to live the life of an artist and whatnot!!

other than that I'm now a DM in training for 3.5 version D&D!! It's really fun. You guys are gonna see loads of comics soon :P


So yeah I'm gonna spam the heck out of FA and try get people to commission me, look out for more activity!

https://www.picarto.tv/live/channel.....tch=GretzDraws

GO HEREEEEE

Right, there's myself and a friend, we both have too much time on our hands, so we're looking to play in another Pen and Paper rpg, preferably online since well, we're in europe and my friend and I are around 1500 kilometres apart, so yeah, an online thing would be great!

Basically, any games willing to have two Europeans over would be great, Dungeons & Dragons, Anima, stuff like that.

Any info/contacts would be helpful!!!

basically a pen and paper roleplaying game, it's gonna be recorded and put onto youtube :D

So expect some links to appear and minicomics and stuff

But commissions are incredibly slow... I'm getting nowhere, so here I ask, I'll get you guys a flat coloured fullbody if you can gift it to me on steam!

my steam account is PrincessGretz! Feel free to add me :D

Everything except the mini mini chibis and normal chibis are 20% off!!

That's right, 20% OFF EVERYTHING EXCEPT CHIBIS!!!!

Go to  catsdesire For more information!!!

So, right, I spent all of my money on games today. My Paypal is dry, so Commissions are open! catsdesire is the place to find em!

Uhmm.. yeah. I now have Monaco, Terraria and Skyrim on my Steam :3 I'm happy.

Among other news, I sent off my uni applications, and I now have 4 of my 5 choices send me back messages that they want to see more of me and want to see my portfolio!! :D I'm so incredibly excited and it's so unreal for me!!!

At this rate I don't have to go to faraway China for 5 years, and I can be in Europe and in a culture and around people who I can speak to and understand.

So, right, I spent all of my money on games today. My Paypal is dry, so Commissions are open! catsdesire is the place to find em!

Uhmm.. yeah. I now have Monaco, Terraria and Skyrim on my Steam :3 I'm happy.

Among other news, I sent off my uni applications, and I now have 4 of my 5 choices send me back messages that they want to see more of me and want to see my portfolio!! :D I'm so incredibly excited and it's so unreal for me!!!

At this rate I don't have to go to faraway China for 5 years, and I can be in Europe and in a culture and around people who I can speak to and understand.

I really can’t stand my parents much longer. I would kinda expect them to support me and cherish me and try to guide me in my way for life, instead I get battered for every decision I make, every decision that isn’t perfect by their standards.

I’m never good enough. Nothing about me pleases them. I’m sick right now, I feel like puking, I can’t breathe and I’m coughing constantly, I’ve a simple cold. I want to recover from it cuz I’d rather give 100% at school, rather than 50%, but my parents don’t see it that way. They see it as piss poor attitude, me being lazy, of not caring about my future. They always see it like that. They’re never happy with what I do.

They keep on bashing me saying that I wont ever get anywhere being what I am, a bit tubbier than the anorexic “perfection” that media keep on shoving down people’s throats. That I don’t have smooth airbrushed skin, that I’m human and have flaws…

And I always feel them comparing me with my sister. Someone who never even completed school to the level that I’m currently at, someone who never did further education and gets her livelihood by leeching from others. They always seem to compare her present self to mine, but never her past self. It’s like I’m not even allowed to learn from mistakes and take on hardships by myself. My mother made mistakes at her age, hell, she never finished school, she had a KID FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. She made massive mistakes, yet she acts like my missing a few days of school, that my not filling in university applications when she so desires, that all of these are criminal…

I feel like giving up so badly… to just give up everything and move on to the next show. But I can’t. It’s not because I’m a coward, but because I know that a few more months of having my brain fucked over by an alcoholic bitch and a silent dad will be enough to free myself and move on. I want to have a life of my own and I really just want to escape… but I guess for now I just have to suffer, keep on trudging through this waist deep shit storm that is life.

Oh how easy it would be to go right now…