Recently, my mental health has started to go down again..
I'm drowning in my not-so-cheerful thoughts again, and I need the help of a psychotherapist and treatment...
That's why I decided to draw couple of YCHs, so I'll be very glad if you don't pass by and help me get out of this depressive pit ;____;
I would be grateful if anyone could help me by writing a journal and promoting my YCH's... Thank you all in advance <3


[YCH] Rubber ring
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62095043/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62095043/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62095043/



Don't worry, I haven't forgotten about the old orders and I'm slowly drawing them too, I'm sorry that my health is so shaky and I'm doing everything quite slowly.
I'm so sorry..

Today I received information that a certain user is trying to impersonate me, so I thought it necessary to remind you and tell you about my social networks and that you accept private messages from me only on furaffinity, unless of course you are not my friend!
And before you give money to someone with my nickname, it's better to write me a note on FA and make sure that you are not being deceived by a scammer! I always write notes about payment only on FA, please don't believe other people!

I remind you about my social networks, if any of them are not on this list, then it's not me! Don't trust other people!

Twitter aka X: https://x.com/WeenieWonsh
Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/weeniewonsh.bsky.social
VK (Vkontakte): https://vk.com/sydney_stupid_cat and my personal page: https://vk.com/sydneymeow
Telegram: https://t.me/SydneyMeow
Discord: amorgus
My old DA account: https://www.deviantart.com/sydneythewolf (I haven't updated it for many years now.)
My Boosty: https://boosty.to/weeniewonsh

Thank you all so much for reading this and please be careful with your data and money, don't let bad people bother you! <3

It seems to me that my life is just an endless series of failures... I just don't even understand why I'm going through all these trials, I'm not such a terrible person to deserve all this

My stepfather had a stroke a few weeks ago and now he is paralyzed and if he manages to successfully undergo physiotherapy, he will be able to walk for sure only after a few years, but even then it is not accurate, because doctors say that a blood clot was found in his carotid artery and it is unknown what to do with it now because it cannot be operated on... I will need to start helping my mom, at least with the money to pay the bills, because it will be hard for her to cope alone with a paralyzed person...

And today, while I was working, my computer just stopped suddenly showing signs of life, it just turned off and doesn't turn on anymore, I have no idea what exactly broke in it, but I think it's a power supply.. I hope so...

and the saddest thing is that all this takes money.. and in a couple of weeks it's my birthday and I feel just terrible, it's unbearable, every day it's just a series of shocks and trials, where to take money for everything, how to finally start feeling that my life is worth something when everything in it seems to be the enemy for me..

I fucking hopeless person, I can't even have a happy time in my life, I just want some peace in my life...

I'm sorry for the delay in the drawings, I'm terribly ashamed that I can't even work properly now...

In addition to the fact that I am now very ill with the flu, I also have a debt to the bank for the treatment of a cat, which amounts to 50 thousand rubles (About $500-$600)
If any of you suddenly want to help me, I would be glad if you would buy a YCH from me ;__;

Vampire:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58583715/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58583715/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58583715/

or

Occult ceremony:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58570322/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58570322/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58570322/

I'm sorry to ask for this, I'm really ashamed that the last thing I can do is beg for someone to buy my YCHs... ;_;

The last couple of weeks have been like I've been in a bubble, I feel so insanely ill, I sleep poorly, eat poorly and do almost nothing all day because I feel terrible apathy and loss of strength, it's so hard to even get out of bed, and the fact that I had to pick up my cat's ashes yesterday after she was cremated is just too much to bear.
It's such a weird feeling when you walk into a vet clinic with a living, breathing creature that loved you and that you loved back, and eventually you come out with a jar with her remains and without her...

It also kills me that I have a huge debt for the fact that she was in intensive care, and I also need to pay for the apartment with money that I don't have.. I feel myself like a shit.
Why does some kind of fucked-up thing happen to me from year to year, what did I deserve all this for, and why can't I just finally be happy

I am terribly sorry that I keep many of my customers waiting because of my terrible state of health... I'm sorry that I feel so bad.. I understand that I need to go to the doctor too, but I simply don't have any money for it and in the end I just eat myself up in endless apathy...

I just wanna be happy... I can't stop crying...

Tonight we took our cat to the intensive care unit.. We really hoped that the doctors would be able to help her, but unfortunately her body stopped coping with the load.. Her second kidney also stopped functioning..

Arriving at the veterinary clinic and seeing her in the state she was in, it was incredibly painful to leave her and continue to suffer...
A decision was made to euthanize her...

My cat died today...

She got worse.
We left her in intensive care hoping for the best, but in our head there is an understanding that she has two cancers and an important decision needs to be made soon. It's incredibly painful and scary... She takes up such a big chunk of my heart that I do not know what to do.

Intensive care is also very expensive, 1 day there cost around $600, I dont know there I can find so much money, I wanna just to lie down and disappear.

If some one of you can help me with a little bit with money I'll appreciate it so much ;___;
https://boosty.to/weeniewonsh

Many of my customers already know the story that my cat has cancer, we have been fighting against it together for six months and literally at the end of the summer our oncologist told us that we would soon win and there was just a little bit left...

BUT.. everything does not happen so well, right? At least if it's related to me and something dear to me ):

At the end of August, we had another round of chemotherapy.. At first, the cat felt great! But after a week, she completely refused food and water, and then stopped getting up from her seat at all and she constantly began to vomit... Of course, I was worried and started taking her to veterinary clinics and of course immediately went to the oncologist (he had a day off that day when she was ill, so we had to go to him only the next day), but we went to the nearest veterinary clinic, where she was given several ivs, one of which It was antiemetic.. She felt a little better, but she still didn't want to eat at all, but now she didn't look like she was about to die.

The day has come when we need to go to the oncologist, according to the results of her blood, we learned that she has very elevated urea and creatine... We knew that her kidneys were diseased and this could happen, but the doctor reassured us by saying that we could take it all out through ivs, but just in case we would do an ultrasound to find out what was wrong with the kidneys and why they felt so bad... On ultrasound, instead of seeing some strong changes in the kidneys, we saw something else... More terrible than bad kidneys. Transitional cell carcinoma.. Which was not visible until this day from the word at all.

The oncologist said that this type of cancer is incurable. There is nothing we can do and can only make my cat's condition easier so that she can live a little longer...

I still can't get over all these terrible thoughts.. We have been fighting mammary gland cancer together for so long.. so that in the end we were told that she has another cancer and it is not being treated and there is no way I can help my cat anymore.. it's not in my power and it's not in the power of doctors.

I've been broken for days.. I'm just looking at my cat, which shows that she feels bad.. She still eats poorly, but I give her medications to maintain her health and to increase her appetite, as well as painkillers that should make her feel less difficult for her... But I do not know what to do.. Every day I just spend in tears without the strength to do anything.. I can't even sleep for fear that while I'm sleeping my cat will die...

I am very afraid for her.. I love her madly and I'm so scared.. I don't want her to die.

My cat got sick. She may need urgent surgery to remove the tumor in the near future... I literally spent the last money on a vet checkup and this sad news is literally killing me..

If you have the opportunity to take a commission and help my cat with this, I would be extremely grateful..
If you need proof that my cat is sick, I will take a photo of the doctor's appointment especially for you, as well as a check with the amount of money that I spent on an examination at the veterinarian.

✦ Fullbody:
SFW - 100$
NSFW - 130$
And I can do 2 version - 180$
I also can draw cosplay, but for this +20$
I will draw any theme u want <3
I also draw various fetishes, if you have some strange fetish, it's better to ask first if I can draw it.

If u interested u can send me note, leave comment OR dm me on telegram @/SydneyMeow

Example:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38642249/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38414144/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38380110/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37699370/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36861709/

_{𝕴𝖋 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖜𝖆𝖓𝖙 𝖙𝖔 𝖇𝖚𝖞 𝖎𝖙, 𝖕𝖑𝖊𝖆𝖘𝖊, 𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖉 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖗𝖚𝖑𝖊𝖘:
♡ Any species (canid, feline, dragon etc.)
♡ Any gender!
♡ Payment is via Paypal in USD
♡ I start drawing only after the payment.}

𝕿𝖍𝖆𝖓𝖐𝖘!

Hello everyone!
As you may have noticed, I have been ill for a very long time and in recent years I have been drawing insanely little, which directly depends on my poor health, but now, I am gradually starting to get back to normal! So I ask all my customers not to worry, I remember about all my orders, so don't worry, this year will be completely dedicated to you and drawing all my old orders!

I also ask you to understand that I am still recovering and maybe for the first couple of months I may not draw as fast as it was 3-4 years ago, but I will try to return to how it was before.

Well, to the point of the post, while I'm recovering, I still need to buy medicines and pay some of my debts, as well as make a couple of refunds that I owe people, and drawing everything from 0 myself is very difficult, long and insanely inconvenient for me now, so if there are artists here, about my level, I would be glad if you would post in the comments about your desire to make a collab with me <3
I promise that I won't keep you waiting long for my part of the drawing work!
If you are little shy to write in the comments, you can write in private messages or write me in telegram @ SydneyMeow
I reserve the right to refuse if I don't like your level or I just decide that our styles just don't fit together well (Please don't be offended)!

Thanks a lot to everyone who read this post!
I also want to write one more little news, I plan to open a telegram channel soon where you can also watch my drawings! (Yes, open it, because it was created a long time ago, I even wrote a small post there, but I want to make everything beautiful and draw a picture for the post so that everything looks neat)
Love you all <3

Lately I've been thinking of making drawings for these games, what do you think?
Do you have any favorite characters or maybe you would like to get a drawing with your character in someone's cosplay, but you didn't have the opportunity or idea to order it as a commission? <3
I would really like to hear some opinion, because I'm worried that it won't be interesting to anyone, ahaha

I also want to make a huge apology to the people who are waiting for drawings from me, lately I have been very ill and And I have big problems with my mental health and in order to somehow start being treated I need money for medicines, which unfortunately I do not have..

I'm really sorry that I'm making you all wait so long and maybe you're all already tired of my apologies, but I'm really sorry, as soon as I get better I'll try my best to drawing all orders, I'm really sorry ;w;

If u want to support me ;w; https://boosty.to/weeniewonsh/donate

Today, my pen charging has completely broken down and I can't draw anymore, since there is no charge in the pen anymore..
I ordered a new one, but I do not know when it will arrive in my city, so I am very sorry that I am making you wait once again.. :(

Proof: https://imgur.com/YAJh3mY