IT MY BIRTHDAY WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE!!!!

sooo someone who i thought could be my friend said i made them uncomfortable.....i kinda feel like im kinda gonna end up be alone it like a really really sad joke and i am the only one who dont get it....the only time i have ever felt uncomforable is if someone wanted to do me harm i never show i wanna harm anyone >W<

sooo someone who i thought could be my friend said i made them uncomfortable.....i kinda feel like im kinda gonna end up be alone it like a really really sad joke and i am the only one who dont get it....the only time i have ever felt uncomforable is if someone wanted to do me harm i never show i wanna harm anyone >W<

hello everybody I know it's been awhile since I have kind of made it journal I sometimes hate making these things because I'm like why are we even making these I like to think these journals are how we kind of keep up-to-date with what's going on with our lives and we share that with the group.

I won't lie to you all I think I have abandonment issues all my life I've kind of been abandoned by people you know because of my actions or because of some way people feel when they are around me and you know it really hurts it really hurts to constantly get thrown away or abandon or just removed from groups because it makes me feel like the time I spent there making friends and getting to know people all that was a waste.

how does everyone else deal with their abandonment issues I know one sent them abandonment issues is always going back to those who abandon you to try to see how they're doing or keep up-to-date with them when you really should just move on now I know that just because you get kicked out of something doesn't mean that person's going to disappear from the face of the Earth for still going to be around and they're still going to live their life it's just that when you see them living your life those abandonment issues just seem to kind of flare up.

as you all know I was a member of the candy orchid dragons they kind of kick me out but I still have my character I kind of feel like do I really deserve to have my character and since I'm not a member of the group anymore.

I thought about making some changes to him since I was kicked out of the group and I know that the candy orchid dragons are closed species but you know what fuck it. Fuck Cordite, I mean if I'm no longer a part of the group and I paid for my character to be made peace mind I can change them anyway I want I don't have to conform to her ideas of what character should be made out of the mouth part of the group. if I was still a part of the official member list and I don't think I be this ballsy but I know why I was kicked from the group I know why she asked me to leave I won't act like I'm a total victim here I left because of my own actions no one is disputing that.

But to remove me from the member lists just feeling like she wants to race that I was part of the group and I guess that just hurts I can't really talk to her because she has me blocked on here. Hmmmm

so I wanted to talk to you all about my character updates who here plays fallout as you all know I am a huge fallout fan I especially love the raiders and or the brotherhood of steel I'm thinking about probably adding brotherhood of steel insignia is to all of my characters in the form of tattoos or articles of clothing

i am thinking of commissoning art artist for something now i have lots of semxy ideas i want and always want but i get so nervous telling artist that sometime i dont always get what i want.........Could anyone link me their most beloved pics i need some inspiration :c

hello Do you love watching Live Streaming Video games with mods <3 Well I am hoping to get back into live streaming and i wonder what software do you guys favor most and what platform do you like watching them on :3


I use OBS and I use Twitch :3 My video when i was streaming was a little laggy i do not know why maybe some of you could give me some poiners to making better live streams and how is everyone holding up with all of this virus crap :C

i have a steam account does anyone want to play any pc games <3

i got my new gaming pc finally <3 hehehehe how are all of you doing does anyone wanna play some video games together now

hello hello everybody for the longest I have done a lot of meditation a lot of soul-searching and I feel that I'm ready to probably create a new character to bring into my little family.

I am thinking I want a scalie...yes it is true I want to create a new female reptile like fursona.

I would like her name to be... Deirdre.
I think I'm going to make her a female argonian I saw a picture well of a sexy female argonian and I think I would like her look to be a little bit similar to hers.


I welcomed anybody that has information or advice on how I can bring Deirdre into the world. and also recommend me any artists that are good at drawing reptile like characters or definitely characters from Skyrim

So one thing I do in my spare time is meditation now there are many tools and tricks of the trade to meditation.

but one thing I like doing just letting my mind wander into new world so that I can create new stories.

One of my stories ghost waifu

currently it isn't finished I took a long break from it but I think I might get into it basically a violent death causes his Spirit to haunt a local area are protagonist in his loneliness falls asleep while having one of his usual nights in his man cave the ghost sees him and his attempted to harm him but because he left a porno.

like most spirits and ghosts who longed for connection and human interaction begins to watch it because he leaves play most times of the night before going to sleep she appears to begin watching it and certain feelings long extinguish after she died begins to evolve and grow even in her corporeal form.

Well later he somehow ends up in some kind of relationship with her because as she begins to experience more connection with him she begins to evolve and grow a more physical form that allows her for touch and yet long story short lots of crazy hardcore kinky sex.

but just being able to close my eyes and travel to this kind of world when I meditate it really does kind of just helped us escape everything you know I think deep down we all want just a little bit of escape from all the shit that's going on.


I've been playing a lot of fallout 76 I'm trying to do the final quest I have become death yeah doing this shit is a fucking bitch especially reclaiming the silos I know that you can play the game in single player but God damn it the way that they kind of have the in-game stuff set makes it kind of like it is a game that needs to be played in multiplayer LOL.

well things with my job are kind of going good I know I don't make these journals all that much I guess I'm just kind of writing it down so I can feel like I matter and I have a voice so many people are protesting all across the world to let their voice be heard and I guess in a way this is my way of protesting my loneliness.

I hope you all enjoy the new commission I have gotten with the money that I'm making for my new job and that new hours I might be getting more commissions.

Hello hello everybody sorry I haven't been on here in a while it just got really hard I guess with life but I have so much I want to share with all I have good news I've been getting into fallout 76 on Xbox one if anybody would like to play with me please post your gamertag and I'd be more than happy to play with you.

also I'm getting a new fallout themed commission and it will be posted here I found an artist on Twitter and I will link their page so you can check out their work he is open for commissions and it's really cool he's from Korea.

also on another note I might be getting a new pc Cinema celebi more than happy to play video games with you guys.

Hey everybody I purchase borderlands 3 on Xbox one I was wondering if anybody wants to play my gamertag is wasdwasd12

I lost my phone the few days ago and I felt my life going to turn upside down I got a new one and hopefully I'm going to get insurance on it that way you'll be able to tell me where it is even if it's turned off something that is really really cool and hopefully with insurance and might be able to get a new one if I lose this one.

but I'm just making sure and I'll to give everybody a big Life update so I was planning on getting a new Xbox but that didn't pan out I'm just going to keep my friend's Xbox for a while and I guess continue play video games on it.

I got the Xbox gamer pass and I just purchased the video game anthem so I'd be happy to play anthem with anybody on Xbox if they're cool

hello I was wondering does anybody play halo the Master Chief collection on Xbox I have the Xbox gamer pass and I've been trying to dive into the multiplayer I just want to get my character high enough so he can look a little bit more tactical when I do the Halo reach campaign.

if anybody has the game and would like to play with me please let me know

Hey everybody I was looking at the latest picture of under her tail from Thewill on FA.

and it made me kind of definitely want to look into getting a single picture or maybe another two page comic.

Okay question are there any artist that can kind of draw a similar manga style.

if your prices are reasonable I'm willing to discuss it but I would like to find an artist that could do this kind of art style I kind of need it for a single or a one-page comic.


if anybody knows of an artist that can do this or knows of where I can find them please send me the information here my first thought was to go to Twitter because there's like artist out the wazoo there but for some reason when I find people that can do that kind of art style they are Japanese and they only speak and type in Japanese so it's kind of really hard to communicate with them.

I have an idea for something that I really would like to try if anybody be willing to help me

hello I hear that there are a lot of telegram groups for all kinds of themes on here if anybody can help me I want to find a group that specializes in writing and literature I've been working on two books individually I've been thinking about starting on the 3rd I know I'm not finished with the first two but I've been really feeling the love of reading and writing lately and I just want to share that love with others and talk with them.

hello everybody since I've been back in Tennessee I'm trying to retake a writing I will admit when I was in California life was a little bit different here, I had a bit of trouble adjusting to life back in Tennessee it just seems like my body has improve stamina and energy and I'm really never tired here.

and honestly if I had my gaming computer or my Xbox it wouldn't be so bad I have nothing so I taken up riding against spare the time I've just gotten a new job so I hope that I will start making money soon while stuff like computers and Xbox are on sale right now for the holidays.

I start my new job at Moe's southwestern grill on Friday and well hey I've been living with a Mexican family for about four months I think I can work at a Mexican restaurant and it's kind of weird most was first founded in Atlanta but it says Moe's southwestern grill so I'm like why does it have the term southwestern grill if it was invented in Atlanta.

but hey before I forget I was talking about riding as you know I have left the group or I guess I should say I was excommunicated from the candy orca dragons group. I really enjoyed being there I really do I feel like I could do almost anything to get back in their good graces I still talk to some of the people on there not a lot but one of my friends who is still in the group, talks with me now and then and tries to call me down and insurance me that stuff like this is going to happen but I just really hate not being a part of it you know.

Umm here's a link to one of my erotic novels that I'm writing ...I added some fictional CODs toy story. I promised that anyone who had added I've asked for their permission to be in it and I want you to know that what you're about to read is completely fictional.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....t?usp=drivesdk

The candy Orca dragons are a closed species and belong to Cordite here on FA. this piece that I'm riding will not be published because I do not want to take any credit for any publication. I guess this is kind of basically just fanfiction at this point but hey I hope you at least enjoy the reading

So how is everyone doing anything new with you guys kinda just wondering how are all of my friend doing here

I am getting ready to move next Wednesday and i wanna know what good for anyone in LA does it have a big community

So hello everybody it's been a real longtime since I've made a journal so I just want you all to know I'm getting ready to move to California. I know that I live in Tennessee and I'll be honest I feel like I'm a still short mess and a social wreck. But I know that maybe just trying to change myself and improve myself would probably be the best thing to do.


but like most adults you don't change for another person or group of people you change because you yourself feel that you might have a problem or you need to do this so that you can become a better person and if anyting has taught me from knowing who I am it's that if I do this thing is huge life-changing thing I'm definitely going to do it for me.

I will be honest I went to the convention and Mississippi and Olive Branch and it was very mixed it was very good but I saw it was very bad for me and I do have some regrets. I don't know about ever be going to Mississippi anytime soon I had did make some good friends while I was there and you know how it is sometimes you keep in touch with those friends now and then but I will be honest if anyone reads this and they were from the convention I guess you could probably see I was maybe a huge mess.

but regardless everybody I'm getting ready to move to California I will be one hour out of Los Angeles but still in Los Angeles county so if you live in California and you want to hang out please do let me know.

my friend is a bit hesitant about her personal information we put out there so I will not tell you exactly who I am moving in with or where exactly I'm moving in with if you want better details on it please send me a private message. But also if you also...could share any of your stories hear about the first time you moved from your home that you grew up in to a new place it would really mean a lot to me.

wish me love ya dorks lol

https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing

I decided to post it here so people could find it better i warn you it is nsfw >W>

So I have left the Candy Orca Dragon Group and will no longer getting art of Luca

Sigh...all i ever wanted to do was belong in that group.......and Cordite...I dont blame you...i dont blame any of you


Second...I hope people are having fun at FWA


Third is...Is anyone getting Rage 2 what do you all think about it??

https://picarto.tv/Keyda please come watch <3

Hello everybody how are you doing I know it has been a long time since I have made a journal post. And frankly I don't really like making Journal post barely anybody reads them and I just feel they are old and forgotten. But this is very important that I want you all to listen to this

I am creating a comic well I'm going to get somebody to draw it hahaha but for right now I'm writing the script for it. I want you to imagine one of those anime or Manga where the main character is transported to A Whole New World. This will be that theme.

No I know that I do not have lots of artwork of my new dragon character Luca but I really feel that he is going to really shine in this comic the comic will already be 10 pages long so far and there's much more riding that I need to do to get things all a flowing.

I will post a link here for you all three once I made some revisions to it and correct some grammar mistakes. Just know that it's going to be fun and sexy and yes there are going to be some amazing sex scenes hahaha