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Posted 9 years agoSo yesterday a long time pet died. She was old and weak with many problems. There wasn't much hope for her as she was and we took her in and, well,.......
It was sad. She's been in my life for 19 years. Not just mine but all my family had her in our lives for so long. It was just very sad though.
She was a small chihuahua and was easily scared but eventually got brave and stopped barking all the time at friends. Black fur and, ya know, just a cute small dog.
For a long time I had trouble walking and she was so spry just a few years ago. I felt bad that I couldn't like do anything so this was about everything but on a number of days I felt bad that she just didn't get much attention. One memory that is so clear was a few years ago where my brother was playing with her. She was all over the place. Meanwhile I could barely take her for walks and was not very consistent. I got better eventually but by that time she seemed so frail. Trouble walking some days and such.
I just feel so bad that she's gone now and for the longest time it felt like I couldn't appreciate her. Even on days I tried I mean.
I guess I'll include the other one here too because I doubt I ever mentioned her.
Our black lab died a few years ago. She was big and a goof who didn't realize how fat she was so she often bumped into things. Problematic yes but quite endearing. loved to come over and get pet and was very friendly.
Disaster struck one unfortunate day. I'm pretty sure I let her outside but the gate was left open. I didn't know some careless friends forgot to close it. Went out that morning after not hearing her bark to come back in and she was laying in the driveway injured. Her hind legs/hips were messed up from an impact and that meant she was hit by a car that drove off. I was weak and in pain but I tried to help walk her in. when ever I wasn't assisting her she would try and stand but couldn't.
Took her to a hospital got her checked and instructed on how to care for her while she recuperates. She survived for some days afterwards but later died from internal bleeding I think. It was hard to keep her laying down and for me hard to lift her so she could go outside. She might have been fine maybe if proper care had been given constantly but I don't know.
You both are missed and were loved a lot.
It was sad. She's been in my life for 19 years. Not just mine but all my family had her in our lives for so long. It was just very sad though.
She was a small chihuahua and was easily scared but eventually got brave and stopped barking all the time at friends. Black fur and, ya know, just a cute small dog.
For a long time I had trouble walking and she was so spry just a few years ago. I felt bad that I couldn't like do anything so this was about everything but on a number of days I felt bad that she just didn't get much attention. One memory that is so clear was a few years ago where my brother was playing with her. She was all over the place. Meanwhile I could barely take her for walks and was not very consistent. I got better eventually but by that time she seemed so frail. Trouble walking some days and such.
I just feel so bad that she's gone now and for the longest time it felt like I couldn't appreciate her. Even on days I tried I mean.
I guess I'll include the other one here too because I doubt I ever mentioned her.
Our black lab died a few years ago. She was big and a goof who didn't realize how fat she was so she often bumped into things. Problematic yes but quite endearing. loved to come over and get pet and was very friendly.
Disaster struck one unfortunate day. I'm pretty sure I let her outside but the gate was left open. I didn't know some careless friends forgot to close it. Went out that morning after not hearing her bark to come back in and she was laying in the driveway injured. Her hind legs/hips were messed up from an impact and that meant she was hit by a car that drove off. I was weak and in pain but I tried to help walk her in. when ever I wasn't assisting her she would try and stand but couldn't.
Took her to a hospital got her checked and instructed on how to care for her while she recuperates. She survived for some days afterwards but later died from internal bleeding I think. It was hard to keep her laying down and for me hard to lift her so she could go outside. She might have been fine maybe if proper care had been given constantly but I don't know.
You both are missed and were loved a lot.
I'm shy.....
Posted 9 years agoEdit 5/28/2016 Well I think I'm done with this being on my front page. I loved having the reminder to my self about needing to do things. I wasn't sure if I would make the effort seriously to try considering most of the times I tried I was experiencing many troubles. After the few months I've spent practicing and talking with others I really think maybe, if I never had those medical problems all those years ago, that my life would be drastically different. I plan to keep this journal for quite some time longer but for now it's done being on my front page.
Kind of weird to be typing this but in case some one is curious I figured it would be nice to have up here.
Even though I have had this account for a long time I haven't done much with it. I kind of just used it for watching others and admiring great art. Despite being anonymous beyond my username I still had this giant fear of being noticed. I never comment on the pictures I like. I never said kind words to those I adore. I haven't been active at all in a noticeable way for fear of drawing attention to myself.
I kind of want to draw but I have never had the courage to practice and even if I did have any thing to show off I probably would not do so. It has caused me to have some regrets. As terrible as that may be I have done worse by all those that I respect. I still want to draw but I don't need to draw. I may practice it but that's not important right now. The thing I want to do is to be more active. I want to be more open with everyone I was too afraid to talk to.
If you read this then I thank you for taking the time. I might be talking to myself here but I need to say this here because I can't compliment the artist on this site anymore. At least not at this time.
DatoMaruko, YOU'RE AN AMAZING ARTIST AND MY BIGGEST INSPIRATION. I wish I could say this to you directly.
Kind of weird to be typing this but in case some one is curious I figured it would be nice to have up here.
Even though I have had this account for a long time I haven't done much with it. I kind of just used it for watching others and admiring great art. Despite being anonymous beyond my username I still had this giant fear of being noticed. I never comment on the pictures I like. I never said kind words to those I adore. I haven't been active at all in a noticeable way for fear of drawing attention to myself.
I kind of want to draw but I have never had the courage to practice and even if I did have any thing to show off I probably would not do so. It has caused me to have some regrets. As terrible as that may be I have done worse by all those that I respect. I still want to draw but I don't need to draw. I may practice it but that's not important right now. The thing I want to do is to be more active. I want to be more open with everyone I was too afraid to talk to.
If you read this then I thank you for taking the time. I might be talking to myself here but I need to say this here because I can't compliment the artist on this site anymore. At least not at this time.
DatoMaruko, YOU'RE AN AMAZING ARTIST AND MY BIGGEST INSPIRATION. I wish I could say this to you directly.
