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I've Moved to Inkbunny
General | Posted 2 years agoLink to my Inkbunny page
As the title says, I've decided to move over to Inkbunny after Fur Affinity's latest policy changes (which I know happened a while ago now, but I'm just now getting around to doing something about it lol). I plan on still uploading anything SFW I make to this site (as well as over there), but my NSFW stuff will be uploaded exclusively over there from now on. I'll also be re-uploading the NSFW stuff I used to have up here over there, as well as uploading stuff that I made back in the day but never uploaded, so if you're interested in that then go ahead and check it out! As of writing this post there's not very much there, but over the next couple days it should become a bit more populated as I get everything uploaded.
Anyways, that's all. Thanks for taking the time to read this, and I hope to see you over on Inkbunny!
As the title says, I've decided to move over to Inkbunny after Fur Affinity's latest policy changes (which I know happened a while ago now, but I'm just now getting around to doing something about it lol). I plan on still uploading anything SFW I make to this site (as well as over there), but my NSFW stuff will be uploaded exclusively over there from now on. I'll also be re-uploading the NSFW stuff I used to have up here over there, as well as uploading stuff that I made back in the day but never uploaded, so if you're interested in that then go ahead and check it out! As of writing this post there's not very much there, but over the next couple days it should become a bit more populated as I get everything uploaded.
Anyways, that's all. Thanks for taking the time to read this, and I hope to see you over on Inkbunny!
Quick Poll
General | Posted 3 years agoSo, I wanted to do a quick poll if you're interested. The TL;DR is that I have amassed a few renders that I didn't upload here for one reason or another, and I'm curious if you think I should just upload them or hold off. There are more details below if you want more specifics, though.
The details: I have quite a few renders and a couple of animations that I haven't uploaded here because I thought they were either too weird/niche, kinda ugly, or, most importantly, I was concerned people would take them the wrong way (e.g. people thinking I'm depicting underage characters engaged in sexual acts, stuff like that that's pretty serious and not what I want my art associated with). However, I'm considering going ahead and uploading those renders and animations anyways. That's pretty much what this poll's about: do you think I should just go for it and upload the renders, or should I hold off? I know it's a bit of a silly question when you have nothing to go off of, but I guess I'm just looking for some validation so I don't feel quite so weird uploading some of the renders; like I said, some are very niche and probably won't appeal to a whole lot of people, and others may be interpreted the wrong way by some. And then some others are just ugly because I got lazy when I made them :-P I'm probably overthinking it, but either way, if you're interested, leave a vote and let me know what you think.
The details: I have quite a few renders and a couple of animations that I haven't uploaded here because I thought they were either too weird/niche, kinda ugly, or, most importantly, I was concerned people would take them the wrong way (e.g. people thinking I'm depicting underage characters engaged in sexual acts, stuff like that that's pretty serious and not what I want my art associated with). However, I'm considering going ahead and uploading those renders and animations anyways. That's pretty much what this poll's about: do you think I should just go for it and upload the renders, or should I hold off? I know it's a bit of a silly question when you have nothing to go off of, but I guess I'm just looking for some validation so I don't feel quite so weird uploading some of the renders; like I said, some are very niche and probably won't appeal to a whole lot of people, and others may be interpreted the wrong way by some. And then some others are just ugly because I got lazy when I made them :-P I'm probably overthinking it, but either way, if you're interested, leave a vote and let me know what you think.
Where Have I Been?
General | Posted 3 years agoI feel bad about the lack of uploads, so I figured I'd explain where I've been if you're interested. The TL;DR is basically that I've been dealing with some bad depression and anxiety stemming from medical issues lately, which has been making it very difficult to work on renders. I'm slowly working on it, though, so that's a plus. Read on if you're interested, but beware that I'll kind of just be venting in this post as I just want to get some of this stuff off of my chest.
Well, as I said in the TL;DR, I've been struggling with some major depression and anxiety over the past three months that all started with a stomach virus I contracted in early April. I'm a massive hypochondriac, so when that started I was already on edge. However, I knew I'd get over it eventually and, after around two weeks, I began feeling better. Immediately after that, though, as I was in the middle of finally making the decision to quit my job (a decision I should've made months earlier in retrospect, but I really didn't want to since it paid pretty well and there were good benefits), I began suffering from chest pain along with shortness of breath. My immediate thought was that I had contracted COVID, and at the thought I pretty much spiraled into an anxiety attack. Thankfully, I had at-home COVID tests and, after taking one, I tested negative. I was somewhat relieved, but still extremely on edge about what else it could be. Ultimately, I ended up going to urgent care, freaked out of my mind, and they told me I had air in my pericardium (the sac around your heart) which came from vaping. Evidently, I was doing it very wrong as I was still pretty new to it at the time. As far as the shortness of breath went, that was down to my anxiety surrounding the whole situation with my chest as well as quitting my job at the same time. Thankfully, around two weeks after that diagnosis, and after me stopping vaping for a while, that began clearing up as well. Finally, I thought things were getting back on track.
...Which then led to my upper back beginning to ache around the beginning of May. At first, it wasn't so bad; just felt like the type of muscle ache you get when looking down at something for a long period of time. But after about a week of it steadily getting worse, I was in some of the most pain I've ever been in. I was having full-blown anxiety attacks multiple times a day because of my back, not knowing what the cause could be. I thought something had slipped out of alignment or a disc had herniated, but it turns out that because I had been so consistently anxious over the past month or so, the muscles in my upper back had knotted themselves to oblivion and tensed beyond belief. When I first started massaging and working on my back, I counted around 20 knots all around my shoulder blade area, the majority of them right next to my spine, which were causing huge amounts of aching and burning pain. I spent the better part of a month or so working on my back and trying to get the knots out, and for a while I was feeling better. Unfortunately, however, after that whole series of events my anxiety's been flaring up over the smallest of things, which has caused my back to slowly start burning once again in the past two weeks or so. Even as I'm writing this, my back is aching. Thankfully, it's not nearly as bad as it was 2 months ago, but I'm probably going to see a doctor at some point anyways to see what can be done. For now, though, I'm just trying to keep my anxiety over the whole situation at bay.
So yeah, that's what's been going on with me for the past while and why I haven't been uploading anything. Hypochondria and anxiety really suck. If there's one thing I can take away from this so far, it's that it has taught me how to better manage when my anxiety comes around. I've been doing meditation to calm myself as well, which has been working great thus far. Still, I'm probably going to end up seeing a therapist in the near future for all of this since I think the two and a half months of constant anxiety have really taken a toll on me; there have been days where I feel like I'm trapped in my own mind with no escape from the constant torment and feelings of dread. And then, because I'm stressed out about that, my back begins burning again. Kinda feels like I'm locked in a cell with myself. Really fun stuff...!
Anyways, I'll stop this here. I wish I could've instead been writing about how I was on a fantastic vacation somewhere for three months or that I was focused on improving my life and doing great things, but unfortunately that hasn't been the case. Just gotta make the best of it, which I feel I've been getting better at. If you made it all the way down here, thanks for taking time out of your day to read through my ranting. Just wanted to get some of the past while off my chest, at least a little bit.
Well, as I said in the TL;DR, I've been struggling with some major depression and anxiety over the past three months that all started with a stomach virus I contracted in early April. I'm a massive hypochondriac, so when that started I was already on edge. However, I knew I'd get over it eventually and, after around two weeks, I began feeling better. Immediately after that, though, as I was in the middle of finally making the decision to quit my job (a decision I should've made months earlier in retrospect, but I really didn't want to since it paid pretty well and there were good benefits), I began suffering from chest pain along with shortness of breath. My immediate thought was that I had contracted COVID, and at the thought I pretty much spiraled into an anxiety attack. Thankfully, I had at-home COVID tests and, after taking one, I tested negative. I was somewhat relieved, but still extremely on edge about what else it could be. Ultimately, I ended up going to urgent care, freaked out of my mind, and they told me I had air in my pericardium (the sac around your heart) which came from vaping. Evidently, I was doing it very wrong as I was still pretty new to it at the time. As far as the shortness of breath went, that was down to my anxiety surrounding the whole situation with my chest as well as quitting my job at the same time. Thankfully, around two weeks after that diagnosis, and after me stopping vaping for a while, that began clearing up as well. Finally, I thought things were getting back on track.
...Which then led to my upper back beginning to ache around the beginning of May. At first, it wasn't so bad; just felt like the type of muscle ache you get when looking down at something for a long period of time. But after about a week of it steadily getting worse, I was in some of the most pain I've ever been in. I was having full-blown anxiety attacks multiple times a day because of my back, not knowing what the cause could be. I thought something had slipped out of alignment or a disc had herniated, but it turns out that because I had been so consistently anxious over the past month or so, the muscles in my upper back had knotted themselves to oblivion and tensed beyond belief. When I first started massaging and working on my back, I counted around 20 knots all around my shoulder blade area, the majority of them right next to my spine, which were causing huge amounts of aching and burning pain. I spent the better part of a month or so working on my back and trying to get the knots out, and for a while I was feeling better. Unfortunately, however, after that whole series of events my anxiety's been flaring up over the smallest of things, which has caused my back to slowly start burning once again in the past two weeks or so. Even as I'm writing this, my back is aching. Thankfully, it's not nearly as bad as it was 2 months ago, but I'm probably going to see a doctor at some point anyways to see what can be done. For now, though, I'm just trying to keep my anxiety over the whole situation at bay.
So yeah, that's what's been going on with me for the past while and why I haven't been uploading anything. Hypochondria and anxiety really suck. If there's one thing I can take away from this so far, it's that it has taught me how to better manage when my anxiety comes around. I've been doing meditation to calm myself as well, which has been working great thus far. Still, I'm probably going to end up seeing a therapist in the near future for all of this since I think the two and a half months of constant anxiety have really taken a toll on me; there have been days where I feel like I'm trapped in my own mind with no escape from the constant torment and feelings of dread. And then, because I'm stressed out about that, my back begins burning again. Kinda feels like I'm locked in a cell with myself. Really fun stuff...!
Anyways, I'll stop this here. I wish I could've instead been writing about how I was on a fantastic vacation somewhere for three months or that I was focused on improving my life and doing great things, but unfortunately that hasn't been the case. Just gotta make the best of it, which I feel I've been getting better at. If you made it all the way down here, thanks for taking time out of your day to read through my ranting. Just wanted to get some of the past while off my chest, at least a little bit.
