Well, I figured I’d replace my last journal, but I don’t really have much to talk about as I’ve vented plenty of times before and life hasn’t really gotten better, so I decided to just list more ideas I have about Sukotto.

One idea I’ve actually had for a while is having Sukotto be a deity. I’ve already established that he’s a guardian for a shrine in his forest, which belongs to an unknown deity. I was thinking he could BE that deity, and somehow remembered it, which is one reason he’s now able to change size.

Another idea is also one I’ve had for a while. Instead of all 13 of his tails being ACTUAL tails, he can have 7 be tails, and 6 of the be black, angelic wings. I admit I got the idea from Naruto’s 7 “tailed” bug. They also have 6 “tails” that seem to just be wings, so I figured I could apply that to Sukotto.

My last idea (at least for this journal) is much more recent. It’s having Sukotto use magic circles. I know that idea isn’t super original, but it’s not something I feel I see enough of. Plus, I also feel he could control those magic circles. Like, he can move them around, allow magic (the circle determines the type, I imagine) to come out of either side and from anywhere, not necessarily the center. It could certainly catch opponents off guard, and could make for some interesting fights.

Kind of another vent journal, but also another way to reach out, as I’ve been working on trying to do that lately. The only times I’ve been interested in someone romantically has been for a childhood crush and an online date that turned out to be a catfish. I’d love to try dating again, even online what with Covid and all. Of course, I’d have to find, or even be found by, someone.

As for what I’m looking for, I’m still not 100% sure. I’ve imagined girlfriends AND boyfriends, and both seem nice, honestly. Heck, I’ve even considered a poly relationship for reasons. I feel I should also mention that I’m asexual, but feel that if I do find a poly relationship and the other members aren’t (but of course still respect that I am), they can still have their fun without me and just love and cuddle me or something, lol.

Also, I know this isn’t the best place for this, but like I said, it’s partly me just trying to reach out and talk more, and I don’t know much else of what to say, lol.

Honestly, just making this in case anyone was curious about what kinds of powers Sukotto has in his new hybrid form. I decided to give him wind magic for his scythe weasel half, as scythe weasels are known to create winds and ride on them to quickly slice up and attack unknowing prey. There's also illusion magic from his kitsune half, and protection magic to help him protect the shrine he guards while he's away from the forest.

I was going to leave this one a surprise, but I'll say it anyway, lol. I've been thinking a lot lately about making him a size changer as well! I usually like to be the smaller one in a macro rp, but I admit there are times where I like going to high places in VRChat and looking down, or even the idea of being the macro for once. Of course, there's always the chance I'll end up the smaller of 2 macros or something, which could be fun. ^^ Sadly, though, I don't have the money to show him actually using that power or whatever, so that's why I decided to just mention it now instead of surprising people later, heh. Plus, it's Macro March, so the timing seemed appropriate, lol.

Not so much a vent journal as a way to just put my thoughts out there. I've been getting a lot of ideas for Sukotto lately, including certain powers he could have, and would love to have them be shown off. The problem is that I don't have the money to pay for commssions and my drawing SUCKS! I do hope to get a job again someday, get paid, and finally grab commissions again. I'd love to just have Sukotto shown off and maybe even get popular-ish.

I’m sure I asked this before, and I know no one really replies to these, but I wanted to try it again. Does anyone else play Final Fantasy XIV? I love the game a lot myself, and would love to play with people and fellow furries, heh. It would be especially nice if you played in the Crystal data center and could recommend a good FC, lol.

So, I went for a run today as I like doing so when I can. Turns out, my depression is getting so bad, I was SUPER tempted to actually go in front of moving cars...I didn’t actually go through with it, obviously, but...it shows how much I just want all this to end...

I can't take anymore of the bullshit I deal with everyday. No job, no love interest/romantic relationship, and constant anxiety and depression that leave me feel alone all the time. The worst part is that I don't see ANY chance of any of that changing either. I feel there's more to say, but for some reason I'm satisfied to just end it with that for now.

Well, I've been playing a lot of VRChat lately, but I usually end up alone in worlds as there's no one on, at least on my friends list. I was curious if anyone here played and would like to add me. My name in game is Sukotto13.

I know I asked a few journals ago, but I figured I'd ask again if anyone would like to do a macro rp with me. I LOVE watching others grow and GROW with no limits! Hehe. As for specifics, I don't usually have many in mind, but I'll share my f-list page for those interested in seeing what I love in said rp's.

https://www.f-list.net/c/sukotto%20kitsune/

Merry Christmas everyone!

Well, I still currently don’t have a reference for Sukotto’s current appearance. Mostly because I can’t draw or afford one, lol. However, I already have ideas for a dark form of sorts. Not necessarily evil, but dark/“scary” looking.

Specifically, I’m thinking of something Wendigo inspired. Not the fur, but the actual species. I’m thinking Sukotto can become taller and maybe thinner, with his head becoming a skull. I’m also thinking of adding black, angelic wings just because, lol. Not sure if I want to add antlers like Wendigos have, or even horns, but it’s something I’m considering.

So, in my last journal I mentioned about doing a test stream one time and having it go well. Lately, I’ve actually been streaming for real. It’s been fun so far, but I admit that I don’t like how I’m not so well known. One reason I even decided to stream was to try and meet new people and talk to them through chat, but hardly anyone who does come stays or talks in chat anyway. I’m still planning on streaming for now, but still.

So, I decided to try a test Twitch stream earlier as I'm admittedly interested in trying to actually be a streamer. I ended up playing Final Fantasy XIV and it was pretty fun. ^^ I even had a couple of people come join, watch, and even chat with me. I will most likely try streaming again sometime/someday as it WAS so fun, and I definitely wanted to share the good news, heh.

So, as those of you who actually know me should know, and maybe those that just look at my channel often, I LOVE macros! ^^ I especially love watching them grow and GROW with no limits, heh. Sadly, though, it seems hard for me to find macros willing to roleplay, so I figured I'd at least post a journal about it and see if anyone was interested in trying one with me sometime. I'm usually active here and on Discord, so we can roleplay with either one.

I know I post this kind of journal a lot, but I do like to try playing games, especially MMO's, with others, heh. I recently got back in to World of Warcraft and figured I'd ask if anyone else here played it. I'm still trying to figure out a main class to play and even a server to play on, so I'm pretty open. However, I will most likely be playing for the Horde, lol.

Well, for a pretty long while now, Sukotto's been the kitsune that a lot of you have most likely seen. However, people have said before that they see me more as a weasel, and after thinking it over, I might actually make Sukotto a weasel after all. Not just any weasel, though. I'm currently thinking of making him a kama itachi, which means scythe weasel. They're known to have scythe-like claws and even be associated with wind/wind magic, which is something I love a lot, heh. I admit I'm not entirely sure about it, though, and will most likely wait until I see a drawing/ref of my design idea, but I don't exactly have the money right now for commissions, so it may take a while. Figured I'd at least post a journal about it, though, and maybe see how people feel about it if at all.

Well, with it still being Pride Month for a few days, and me needing a more updated journal, I wanted to mention that I’m actually asexual. Not sure if anyone will actually care, but still, heh.

Well, it's my birthday today, but I admit it just feels like any other day to me. I'm now 27 years old for those curious.

So lately I’ve been playing a lot of Digimon Masters Online and I was wondering if anyone else played it and would be interested in playing with me sometime. I currently play in the Leviamon server, but I don’t mind making a new guy on another server if needed.

I'm pretty sure I've asked this before, but I was wondering if others play VRChat and would maybe want to add me on there. I don't go on there often myself, only going on there to be part of a film project a friend of mine directs. However, I'd love to go on more honestly, but it would be a lot better if I had others to hang out with.

As the title says. ^^

I can't believe I forgot to mention this until now, heh, but yesterday, a friend of mine in VRChat introduced me to a friend of HIS who actually directs a film series on YouTube. Said director seemed nice and even offered me a spot in said series! Even better, he let me in on a scene he shot last night! I needed to use a hyena/yeen avatar and walk with others using such avatars while we were herded by guards. It was really fun! I feel I may have messed up a bit and walked faster than the director wanted, but even said director praised me and said I did well! Obviously, I'm not sure when the episode and scene will be posted, but it was still fun to be a part of it.

For those interested in the director and series, here's his YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCa.....33Shl1EXxg4pPw The series is called "A Forlorn Conclusion".

As the title says, I just feel like I'm a terrible person. I think that because I hate most people in general and only care about a few select others. Plus, I'm super selfish and depressed all the time, so I pretty much want to commit suicide over the smallest thing not going my way, which makes me terrible to be around. I just really hate myself because of this and other things and I guess I just wanted somewhere to vent and chose here.

I really love playing Final Fantasy XIV, but I admit I can get a bit bored playing on my own. I also used to be a part of a Free Company (what they call the guilds in game for those who don't know), but it was a bit too active as I can admittedly be shy and introverted. I was wondering, though, if any other furries played and knew a good FC I could join. My main is currently on the Mateus server or however you spell it, but I'm willing to make a character on another server even if it'll take a while to get a class to 80, lol.

Yep, today is my 26th birthday! I know it's probably a bit late to announce it (1:20PM my time) but oh well. ^^ It's been going alright so far, and I'm hoping the rest of the day will be great.