Art Posting Updates and My Art Channel/Bsky Reminder!
Posted a month agoFor my Bsky: https://bsky.app/profile/stonetyph.bsky.social
For my Telegram Feed: https://t.me/StoneTyphArt
I usually only post my renders on my FA gallery and I kind of would like to keep it that way outside of maybe sketch pages.
That being said, I have mostly been doing sketching lately so I haven't been very active on here!
If you were looking for more activity, sketches and chances at getting some free work occasionally, I stay as active as I can on my Bsky above!
If you don't use bsky my telegram feed provides the same content, and sometimes extra sketches occasionally!
I would like to get back into streaming but my schedule is incredibly hectic and all over the place for the time being.
I would love to find and hang out with some other artists and do some drawpiles in the mean time though when I do have some free social time.
I do have plans to open for commissions again soon but I am currently closed until stated otherwise in a journal or gallery post!
Thanks for reading!
For my Telegram Feed: https://t.me/StoneTyphArt
I usually only post my renders on my FA gallery and I kind of would like to keep it that way outside of maybe sketch pages.
That being said, I have mostly been doing sketching lately so I haven't been very active on here!
If you were looking for more activity, sketches and chances at getting some free work occasionally, I stay as active as I can on my Bsky above!
If you don't use bsky my telegram feed provides the same content, and sometimes extra sketches occasionally!
I would like to get back into streaming but my schedule is incredibly hectic and all over the place for the time being.
I would love to find and hang out with some other artists and do some drawpiles in the mean time though when I do have some free social time.
I do have plans to open for commissions again soon but I am currently closed until stated otherwise in a journal or gallery post!
Thanks for reading!
Name Change (Trauron to Stone Typh) and Telegram Art Channel
Posted 4 months agoMy patience paid off waiting years and years for FA to release a name change feature, which I took advantage of the other day ahead of posting this journal.
I've also gone ahead and started a telegram art channel after considering it for a while, for those whom prefer it over Bsky or FA.
18+ and NSFW of course!
https://t.me/StoneTyphArt
As for commissions I am currently closed as I filled my slots, but will make a new post here when I do open up again!
1: Anonymous - Done
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Hane - Details
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MecheDragon - Done
I've also gone ahead and started a telegram art channel after considering it for a while, for those whom prefer it over Bsky or FA.
18+ and NSFW of course!
https://t.me/StoneTyphArt
As for commissions I am currently closed as I filled my slots, but will make a new post here when I do open up again!
1: Anonymous - Done
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Open for Commissions!
Posted 6 months agoHey there, if you're checking out this journal then thank you for your interest in my work!
Things are pretty tight this month because of my cats needing an annual check up and vaccinations, so I was looking to take a couple of commissions!
My turn around is 3 to 4 days after starting a piece.
I've streamlined my process since making my last commission journal here and now have a google form!
https://forms.gle/GhqidUTF1xNbGBbm9
My Price Sheet: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60075566/
If you would like some examples of my work I have compiled links to various pieces below:
Icon/Bust Samples:
https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/9c35.....vol66&dl=0
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59708404/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59994234/
Some Rendered Commission Examples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59790623/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59943840/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59968697/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60003563/
Ref Sheet Example:
https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/cayq.....a1qej&dl=0
Thanks again for checking out my work!
Things are pretty tight this month because of my cats needing an annual check up and vaccinations, so I was looking to take a couple of commissions!
My turn around is 3 to 4 days after starting a piece.
I've streamlined my process since making my last commission journal here and now have a google form!
https://forms.gle/GhqidUTF1xNbGBbm9
My Price Sheet: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60075566/
If you would like some examples of my work I have compiled links to various pieces below:
Icon/Bust Samples:
https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/9c35.....vol66&dl=0
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59708404/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59994234/
Some Rendered Commission Examples:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59790623/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59943840/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59968697/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60003563/
Ref Sheet Example:
https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/cayq.....a1qej&dl=0
Thanks again for checking out my work!
Another one of those Bluesky Journals
Posted 10 months agoI have been pushing my account on all of my submissions most of the year, but with everyone mass moving to it finally, I figured I would remind folks again that I can be found there.
I post all of my WIPs there long before they make it onto FA.
https://bsky.app/profile/trauron.bsky.social
Thanks for all the support towards my work!
I post all of my WIPs there long before they make it onto FA.
https://bsky.app/profile/trauron.bsky.social
Thanks for all the support towards my work!
Commission Slots Available!
Posted 11 months agoIf you are here reading then I greatly appreciate your interest in my work!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58144154/
I will take these first come first serve. Please comment here for a slot and we'll communicate from there!
Payment is done through Paypal invoice once a rough sketch is done.
If you're not sure what you want is something I am willing to draw, just ask!
I prefer to communicate through notes or telegram (@Trauron) for providing art updates.
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https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58144154/
I will take these first come first serve. Please comment here for a slot and we'll communicate from there!
Payment is done through Paypal invoice once a rough sketch is done.
If you're not sure what you want is something I am willing to draw, just ask!
I prefer to communicate through notes or telegram (@Trauron) for providing art updates.
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Birthday today and plans for the future
Posted 12 months agoI don't think or feel like I'm old but I'm 33 today!
Birthday aside, I still have plans to take commissions again and post more regularly in the near future.
I've still been working through my cat Zagreus but I've had a lot of support to help me heal over the past few months.
I want to keep pushing forward so that I can do freelance work as my occupation like I was working on getting to before his passing.
I keep getting a lot of support when I bring it up with folks.
I think the only thing holding me back from starting is myself.
I'm working through a lot of complex feelings but I'll get there!
Birthday aside, I still have plans to take commissions again and post more regularly in the near future.
I've still been working through my cat Zagreus but I've had a lot of support to help me heal over the past few months.
I want to keep pushing forward so that I can do freelance work as my occupation like I was working on getting to before his passing.
I keep getting a lot of support when I bring it up with folks.
I think the only thing holding me back from starting is myself.
I'm working through a lot of complex feelings but I'll get there!
Still Struggling Over Zagreus, but I'm Still Around
Posted a year agoI just wanted to post a small update since its been about a month since I posted anything after I was very active for several months.
Zagreus was meant to be my life companion, moral and emotional support for my disabilities.
He was my chosen cat. He was loving beyond belief and losing that has been devastating.
I lost him to an incredibly rare variation of an already rare disease for a cat his age, after only having him for a little over two years.
He was wonderful and precious and didn't deserve to have the kind of sickness he did.
Even though its been a month I still am struggling to emotionally recover and find joy in anything. I've also got all the debt from him still looming over me.
I love my other two cats a lot too, but they were both pushed onto me by the world cat distribution system and he was also my very first.
My room mate has since adopted a new cat in the house, after making sure it was okay with me for them to have another over me finding a new friend.
I think they found a wonderful boy.
Beyond Zagreus and the new cat friend, I have several other things weighing on me that I don't really want to discuss here, but they are not making it any easier to cope and move on.
I will try to get back to Art again, I just can't tell you how soon that will be.
I'm very not doing well, but I can promise anyone reading it won't lead to me harming myself or offing myself. I have supports and things to live for, I'm just dealing with a buttload of trauma right now and have to work through it.
Zagreus was meant to be my life companion, moral and emotional support for my disabilities.
He was my chosen cat. He was loving beyond belief and losing that has been devastating.
I lost him to an incredibly rare variation of an already rare disease for a cat his age, after only having him for a little over two years.
He was wonderful and precious and didn't deserve to have the kind of sickness he did.
Even though its been a month I still am struggling to emotionally recover and find joy in anything. I've also got all the debt from him still looming over me.
I love my other two cats a lot too, but they were both pushed onto me by the world cat distribution system and he was also my very first.
My room mate has since adopted a new cat in the house, after making sure it was okay with me for them to have another over me finding a new friend.
I think they found a wonderful boy.
Beyond Zagreus and the new cat friend, I have several other things weighing on me that I don't really want to discuss here, but they are not making it any easier to cope and move on.
I will try to get back to Art again, I just can't tell you how soon that will be.
I'm very not doing well, but I can promise anyone reading it won't lead to me harming myself or offing myself. I have supports and things to live for, I'm just dealing with a buttload of trauma right now and have to work through it.
RIP Zagreus Sept 2019~June 2nd, 2024
Posted a year agoI have not really posted directly about this here outside of my commissions journal so I am going to fill people into what I have been doing for the past couple few months.
I was invited to a clinical trial for treatment of what my cat Zagreus had been diagnosed with, Dry FIP, near the end of March.
The way Dry FIP acts in the version he has, is that it absorbs and eats all of his muscle mass and fat, to make him incredibly anorexic, weak and thin because of the sheer amount of calories the process eats through, and destroys the functioning of organs. Its a lot more complex then I am describing it, please look into it if you're interested.
This has been a long process of over 2 months every day palliative care, feeding, along and fasting him multiple times of day for medications.
I will be honest. I am very exhausted, but I am doing everything I can to make sure I respect the life he had with a very nice memorial to say goodbye with, along with painting my own urn for him.
https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/00nu.....bw6c8&dl=0
This has cost a lot and my room mate has been putting it all on a card for us to just, deal with later. I didn't make this post asking for help, but honestly I would take any support I can get at this point.
His daily routine for the past nearly 2 months had been:
3 pills in the morning and night 12h apart, for his treatment (These both needed to be fast for)
3 injections of SubQ fluids a day spread out by 5 hours each
Syringe Fed 1/2 a can of recovery food, 3 times a day
Given steroids twice a day 12h apart
Up until recently a very expensive pet anti-nausea called cerenia.
He had also needed quite a few antibiotics.
He had to deal with multiple Upper respiratory infections and a near yeast infection in his ears at one point during treatment.
He was responding to his FIP medication pretty well for a few weeks of the trial, but suddenly degraded in the past several weeks, and the past week especially.
My vet suspected a resistance to the medication or a resistant strain.
He had just finally gained access and started his first day on new medications and an antibiotic, but his body was already too weak to spend the energy to heal.
Between 4am and 9am on June 2nd, he ended up passing away, likely from a seizure while trying to sleep.
I did everything I could and went above and beyond for him and have no regrets.
He knew we were there for him, we were freshly cleaning him with foam shampoos and pet wipes constantly while he was struggling to clean himself, on top of all of the care above.
We said we loved him and pet him as the last things he got to hear and feel from my room mate and I before we had to go to bed that night.
Here are some of the most memorable pictures I have of him:
https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/ev0j.....zzen5&dl=0
He is a guardian of the underworld now alongside with his namesake
I was invited to a clinical trial for treatment of what my cat Zagreus had been diagnosed with, Dry FIP, near the end of March.
The way Dry FIP acts in the version he has, is that it absorbs and eats all of his muscle mass and fat, to make him incredibly anorexic, weak and thin because of the sheer amount of calories the process eats through, and destroys the functioning of organs. Its a lot more complex then I am describing it, please look into it if you're interested.
This has been a long process of over 2 months every day palliative care, feeding, along and fasting him multiple times of day for medications.
I will be honest. I am very exhausted, but I am doing everything I can to make sure I respect the life he had with a very nice memorial to say goodbye with, along with painting my own urn for him.
https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/00nu.....bw6c8&dl=0
This has cost a lot and my room mate has been putting it all on a card for us to just, deal with later. I didn't make this post asking for help, but honestly I would take any support I can get at this point.
His daily routine for the past nearly 2 months had been:
3 pills in the morning and night 12h apart, for his treatment (These both needed to be fast for)
3 injections of SubQ fluids a day spread out by 5 hours each
Syringe Fed 1/2 a can of recovery food, 3 times a day
Given steroids twice a day 12h apart
Up until recently a very expensive pet anti-nausea called cerenia.
He had also needed quite a few antibiotics.
He had to deal with multiple Upper respiratory infections and a near yeast infection in his ears at one point during treatment.
He was responding to his FIP medication pretty well for a few weeks of the trial, but suddenly degraded in the past several weeks, and the past week especially.
My vet suspected a resistance to the medication or a resistant strain.
He had just finally gained access and started his first day on new medications and an antibiotic, but his body was already too weak to spend the energy to heal.
Between 4am and 9am on June 2nd, he ended up passing away, likely from a seizure while trying to sleep.
I did everything I could and went above and beyond for him and have no regrets.
He knew we were there for him, we were freshly cleaning him with foam shampoos and pet wipes constantly while he was struggling to clean himself, on top of all of the care above.
We said we loved him and pet him as the last things he got to hear and feel from my room mate and I before we had to go to bed that night.
Here are some of the most memorable pictures I have of him:
https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/ev0j.....zzen5&dl=0
He is a guardian of the underworld now alongside with his namesake
One Discount Commission Slot Still Available!
Posted a year agoI still have a discounted slot available in my journal here.
Please feel free to comment or even PM me on Discord or Telegram if you are interested!
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10868274
Please feel free to comment or even PM me on Discord or Telegram if you are interested!
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10868274
Taking A Couple Test Commissions
Posted a year agoHey There!
If you're reading this journal then thank you for the interest already. I've been working hard to get my art to a point I felt confident enough to do this.
- I wanted to take a couple of commissions ahead of having my google forms formally set up, where I will have a list of things I will and will not draw, a bunch of different tiers including icons, ref sheets, etc.
- I want to gauge if I am setting my planned prices appropriately based on my work flow.
- I would like to have a couple more examples to display on a future taking commissions image that I will be posting.
I will be discounting these compared to my final prices for these reasons!
I am taking slots with color and shading included following the quality of these few recent images:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56530753/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56516551/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56599458/
$40USD without a background
+$10USD for background elements included
+$20USD for one Extra character
NSFW is fine, content needs to be discussed with me before I will approve the work though.
As aforementioned my planned google forms will include a list, at least basic, for things I will do and not do.
I'll be taking these first comment style
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dragondestruction - DONE! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56724071/
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acidnite - DONE! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56780473/
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Payment is taken on PayPal.
Thanks again for any interest!
All of my commission income is going to be used for the cost of my cat named Zagreus' treatment.
He has Dry variety Feline Infectious Peritonitis that I have been treating on a veterinarian drug trial.
He is on day 54 of 84 of his treatment. One month to go!
If you're reading this journal then thank you for the interest already. I've been working hard to get my art to a point I felt confident enough to do this.
- I wanted to take a couple of commissions ahead of having my google forms formally set up, where I will have a list of things I will and will not draw, a bunch of different tiers including icons, ref sheets, etc.
- I want to gauge if I am setting my planned prices appropriately based on my work flow.
- I would like to have a couple more examples to display on a future taking commissions image that I will be posting.
I will be discounting these compared to my final prices for these reasons!
I am taking slots with color and shading included following the quality of these few recent images:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56530753/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56516551/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56599458/
$40USD without a background
+$10USD for background elements included
+$20USD for one Extra character
NSFW is fine, content needs to be discussed with me before I will approve the work though.
As aforementioned my planned google forms will include a list, at least basic, for things I will do and not do.
I'll be taking these first comment style
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2.

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Payment is taken on PayPal.
Thanks again for any interest!
All of my commission income is going to be used for the cost of my cat named Zagreus' treatment.
He has Dry variety Feline Infectious Peritonitis that I have been treating on a veterinarian drug trial.
He is on day 54 of 84 of his treatment. One month to go!
Hey Look, Its Me Again!
Posted a year agoI've been on a two year Hiatus from social media and pretty much every social website out there and have only been active in a few telegram friend groups for a quite a while.
I'm not going to get deep into it, but I have been and needed to do a lot of soul searching to figuring myself out and decided I was finally ready to give things a shot in public again.
I'm a pretty socially anxious person and it will likely still take me some time to get back into the full swing of things.
I plan to keep posting art, and 3d work as I complete it as well as planning to take commissions.
I am also working on restarting a social media on bluesky and it will strictly be for art dump posting. I am still in the process of this but I'll make a journal and add it to my page when its relevant.
I will not be returning to using Twitter/X.
I will not be posting any old art I've commissioned that I have not posted to this point.
I still plan to keep this account strictly my own work as I had said the last attempt I made to start using my account again.
On that note if anyone is interested in commissioning me, let me know!
I don't have the time to do full backgrounds like a couple of my pieces I posted today. I'm treating one of my 3 cats for FIP and don't have the time to do them.
I will likely be starting with sketches, icons or busts!
Thanks for reading!
I'm not going to get deep into it, but I have been and needed to do a lot of soul searching to figuring myself out and decided I was finally ready to give things a shot in public again.
I'm a pretty socially anxious person and it will likely still take me some time to get back into the full swing of things.
I plan to keep posting art, and 3d work as I complete it as well as planning to take commissions.
I am also working on restarting a social media on bluesky and it will strictly be for art dump posting. I am still in the process of this but I'll make a journal and add it to my page when its relevant.
I will not be returning to using Twitter/X.
I will not be posting any old art I've commissioned that I have not posted to this point.
I still plan to keep this account strictly my own work as I had said the last attempt I made to start using my account again.
On that note if anyone is interested in commissioning me, let me know!
I don't have the time to do full backgrounds like a couple of my pieces I posted today. I'm treating one of my 3 cats for FIP and don't have the time to do them.
I will likely be starting with sketches, icons or busts!
Thanks for reading!
Un-Necroing My FA Account for 3d Model Commission Work
Posted 3 years agoI dropped FA many years ago because life hasn't been kind to me, but I am starting to do 3d modeling work for VR that I want to sell to furries.
It would be complacent of me not to come back and start using my old FA account to start posting my work and to make posts about offering this work for commission.
I will likely not post any more of my personal art here, and if I change my mind it will likely end up in my scraps.
I want to change my accounts focus from commissioned art into work I'm doing myself.
I will post about offering Custom Model commissions or Edits soon.
It would be complacent of me not to come back and start using my old FA account to start posting my work and to make posts about offering this work for commission.
I will likely not post any more of my personal art here, and if I change my mind it will likely end up in my scraps.
I want to change my accounts focus from commissioned art into work I'm doing myself.
I will post about offering Custom Model commissions or Edits soon.
Still Have More Backlog
Posted 6 years agoI took a break, been focusing on offline stuff recently.
I'll be posting more back-log again soon.
I'll be posting more back-log again soon.
Telegram @ Recovered
Posted 6 years agoConcerning this Journal a while back: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9089094/
I have recovered @ Trauron on telegram, and can be searched up as such once again.
The account self destructed, so none of my contacts were retained besides the ones I've found on my own time again.
I have recovered @ Trauron on telegram, and can be searched up as such once again.
The account self destructed, so none of my contacts were retained besides the ones I've found on my own time again.
Giant backlog of posts coming up soon
Posted 6 years agoI've decided to try to start posting a lot of the images I haven't put out publicly over the years.
I have at least 5 years worth of not posting art, so figured a warning would be nice. I'll be trying to upload only a certain number a day.
There is also the issue of where I may have lost the name to an artist, and I would super appreciate helping me link their profiles in the posts if I wasn't able to find one.
Oh yeah, turned 28 on the 11th. Whoo. :v
I have at least 5 years worth of not posting art, so figured a warning would be nice. I'll be trying to upload only a certain number a day.
There is also the issue of where I may have lost the name to an artist, and I would super appreciate helping me link their profiles in the posts if I wasn't able to find one.
Oh yeah, turned 28 on the 11th. Whoo. :v
Going to Fur-Eh!
Posted 6 years agoLast minute post, but I wanted to see if anyone I know here is going to the convention, so I can say hi to somebody that I don't already know. ~
Lost Telegram
Posted 6 years agoThe bug 2 weeks ago that deleted 70K accounts?
It also cleared out all active sessions, and since the number on that account was the one I had when I was frauded a couple years ago...ahaha.
So if anyone still wants to reach me happens to see this, I am currently using @ rubberpupstone until I can manage to get in contact with someone telegram eventually, or get my old number back. Whichever comes first.
Also the backpay from my program came in, it has been wonderful being able to get back on my feet and take care of things without feeling like a useless wreck. ahaha.
It also cleared out all active sessions, and since the number on that account was the one I had when I was frauded a couple years ago...ahaha.
So if anyone still wants to reach me happens to see this, I am currently using @ rubberpupstone until I can manage to get in contact with someone telegram eventually, or get my old number back. Whichever comes first.
Also the backpay from my program came in, it has been wonderful being able to get back on my feet and take care of things without feeling like a useless wreck. ahaha.
Big Life Update
Posted 6 years agoSo I know I have not been active on here for a long time, and many of you know it is because of the circumstances of the past few years.
Just letting you all know here that everything is about to be okay again.
I was just approved for my province's Assured Income for the Severely Handicapped, for my life-long anxiety.
So I will be able to get back on my feet and finally have more of a life again once everything processes in the next few weeks.
I'm still trembling, I've been through such a hard time waiting for this approval, even having to go as far as appeal the decision in front a panel with a job specialist, a previous employer and my advocate from the services I get my counselling from.
I am glad things are finally going to improve again.
Just letting you all know here that everything is about to be okay again.
I was just approved for my province's Assured Income for the Severely Handicapped, for my life-long anxiety.
So I will be able to get back on my feet and finally have more of a life again once everything processes in the next few weeks.
I'm still trembling, I've been through such a hard time waiting for this approval, even having to go as far as appeal the decision in front a panel with a job specialist, a previous employer and my advocate from the services I get my counselling from.
I am glad things are finally going to improve again.
Quick Important Question
Posted 6 years agoHey there. I know I rarely update here anymore since things are still super tough on my end of things, but there was something I wanted to discuss concerning that.
As some people who still keep up with me outside of FA might know, I play quite a lot of Ukulele these days, and many people have prompted me to start posting some of my recordings onto FA
The other suggestion I've had was to compile a bunch of songs I've recorded together into one place to offer as PWYW.
I was wondering how many people might be interested in that suggestion.
I'm still unable to work and am currently still on medical leave, this month's income was all accounted for already and I need income to get through the rest of the month.
Being unable to work, this is the only thing I can think of to help bring in an extra few dollars for the groceries and necessities I need.
I'm willing to take help where I can get it even if it is offered just for the sake of it, but I'd rather offer something in return.
Here are a couple of somewhat older examples:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/z6iacb3hq.....Cover.mp3?dl=0
https://www.dropbox.com/s/2k5rv35wm.....Cover.mp3?dl=0
As some people who still keep up with me outside of FA might know, I play quite a lot of Ukulele these days, and many people have prompted me to start posting some of my recordings onto FA
The other suggestion I've had was to compile a bunch of songs I've recorded together into one place to offer as PWYW.
I was wondering how many people might be interested in that suggestion.
I'm still unable to work and am currently still on medical leave, this month's income was all accounted for already and I need income to get through the rest of the month.
Being unable to work, this is the only thing I can think of to help bring in an extra few dollars for the groceries and necessities I need.
I'm willing to take help where I can get it even if it is offered just for the sake of it, but I'd rather offer something in return.
Here are a couple of somewhat older examples:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/z6iacb3hq.....Cover.mp3?dl=0
https://www.dropbox.com/s/2k5rv35wm.....Cover.mp3?dl=0
Happy birthday me
Posted 7 years ago27 this year. Haven't had a chance to do that update journal yet but I will soon.
Update Soon
Posted 7 years agoJust getting rid of that old journal. X:
January Update (Long Post)
Posted 7 years agoSo, tire popped New Years Eve, so I spent new years alone at home against my will.
Which I had to get replaced, so money I absolutely needed for bills went to a replacement tire instead.
Said bills are piling up exponentially and I have no way of paying them off. My dad sends me what he can every couple of weeks but that is usually immediately for food and gas.
Anything I've managed to pay towards any of those bills never makes a dent cause I just get charged again by the end of the month.
After rent, I have $50 to live off of besides what I get sent every couple weeks, which as mentioned above immediately goes to food and gas.
My place I am living right now, I've been stuck in a lease, and have not found any other way of getting out of the lease early despite my financially destitute situation.
There is also the fact that I've been living here in complete isolation because no one else has lived in the upstairs while I've rented the basement since OCTOBER.
Complete Isolation for someone who can't cope being alone for long periods of time and is taking extremely strong psychoactive medications? Pretty bad thing in my eyes.
My LANDLORD IS COMPLETELY AWARE OF ALL THIS, and still won't cut me loose, for the earlier mentioned reason of no one else renting the entire rest of his property. That's it.
Even after talking to someone at the Rental and Labour board. (My rent is nearly equal to what I get for government assistance, and I am receiving the maximum available.)
They said there is nothing that can be done, and I either have to just up and go without a word
Which I can't do since my rent comes directly out of my bank account, and that would further screw over my already screwed credit further)
So I have bills I can't pay piling up, and starting to contact me regularly, on top of the collectors who were calling me before hand from my old bank with the Fraud that happened several months ago, that I still can't pay anything towards because I am on assistance.
I'm only just starting to get on the job market again WITHOUT approval from my psychiatrist or my counsellor, since I have not been able to get in to see either of them since November because of the Christmas season and both of them going on vacations, and my counsellor calling in sick during my only December appointment with her (I only finally get to see her on the 15th after a month and a half, which is too long since I absolutely NEED her services.)
Little progress on that job front so far though, the job market in January is just terrible.
Long story short, my rent is too expensive and I can't get out of this house cause I signed the lease for this place just before I was frauded, and lost both of my jobs post move (http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8441180/ if you want information on it)
I've been told by a credit counsellor that my bills can't touch me since I'm on government assistance, but it doesn't make me feel any better because I absolutely need both services, and I am under contracts that would cost more to end them, then to just stay on them.
I know during my December journal I said I wouldn't ask for help, but here I am.
I don't expect much or anything for that matter, but I am just trying to keep my options open since I'm in this incredibly vulnerable and hard to quantify situation.
http://paypal.me/Trauron
I don't want things to stay the way they are
I'm trying to stay strong through everything that has happened over the course of the past several months.
Being through several different and strong doses of several different anti-anxiety and anti-depression medications (Cipralex (20mg), Trazodone (50mg), and Remeron (30mg) to name a few)
I'm reaching the end of my mental rope and I don't know how to keep coping with everything.
I'm trying to be strong since I have a handful of friends locally who do what they can to keep my head up, and I am extremely grateful to have these people around,
I definitely don't feel strong though.
I still just feel taken advantage of and thrown into the ditch, and I don't know anyone who wouldn't be if they had everything that has happened to me, happen.
I've already made a pretty long journal here, so I'll at least leave at least a single positive note here.
I was at an open Mic on tuesday that I performed a couple of songs at, and one of my friends was able to take a snapshot for me:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/5da7uxcep.....37-02.jpg?dl=0
Which I had to get replaced, so money I absolutely needed for bills went to a replacement tire instead.
Said bills are piling up exponentially and I have no way of paying them off. My dad sends me what he can every couple of weeks but that is usually immediately for food and gas.
Anything I've managed to pay towards any of those bills never makes a dent cause I just get charged again by the end of the month.
After rent, I have $50 to live off of besides what I get sent every couple weeks, which as mentioned above immediately goes to food and gas.
My place I am living right now, I've been stuck in a lease, and have not found any other way of getting out of the lease early despite my financially destitute situation.
There is also the fact that I've been living here in complete isolation because no one else has lived in the upstairs while I've rented the basement since OCTOBER.
Complete Isolation for someone who can't cope being alone for long periods of time and is taking extremely strong psychoactive medications? Pretty bad thing in my eyes.
My LANDLORD IS COMPLETELY AWARE OF ALL THIS, and still won't cut me loose, for the earlier mentioned reason of no one else renting the entire rest of his property. That's it.
Even after talking to someone at the Rental and Labour board. (My rent is nearly equal to what I get for government assistance, and I am receiving the maximum available.)
They said there is nothing that can be done, and I either have to just up and go without a word
Which I can't do since my rent comes directly out of my bank account, and that would further screw over my already screwed credit further)
So I have bills I can't pay piling up, and starting to contact me regularly, on top of the collectors who were calling me before hand from my old bank with the Fraud that happened several months ago, that I still can't pay anything towards because I am on assistance.
I'm only just starting to get on the job market again WITHOUT approval from my psychiatrist or my counsellor, since I have not been able to get in to see either of them since November because of the Christmas season and both of them going on vacations, and my counsellor calling in sick during my only December appointment with her (I only finally get to see her on the 15th after a month and a half, which is too long since I absolutely NEED her services.)
Little progress on that job front so far though, the job market in January is just terrible.
Long story short, my rent is too expensive and I can't get out of this house cause I signed the lease for this place just before I was frauded, and lost both of my jobs post move (http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8441180/ if you want information on it)
I've been told by a credit counsellor that my bills can't touch me since I'm on government assistance, but it doesn't make me feel any better because I absolutely need both services, and I am under contracts that would cost more to end them, then to just stay on them.
I know during my December journal I said I wouldn't ask for help, but here I am.
I don't expect much or anything for that matter, but I am just trying to keep my options open since I'm in this incredibly vulnerable and hard to quantify situation.
http://paypal.me/Trauron
I don't want things to stay the way they are
I'm trying to stay strong through everything that has happened over the course of the past several months.
Being through several different and strong doses of several different anti-anxiety and anti-depression medications (Cipralex (20mg), Trazodone (50mg), and Remeron (30mg) to name a few)
I'm reaching the end of my mental rope and I don't know how to keep coping with everything.
I'm trying to be strong since I have a handful of friends locally who do what they can to keep my head up, and I am extremely grateful to have these people around,
I definitely don't feel strong though.
I still just feel taken advantage of and thrown into the ditch, and I don't know anyone who wouldn't be if they had everything that has happened to me, happen.
I've already made a pretty long journal here, so I'll at least leave at least a single positive note here.
I was at an open Mic on tuesday that I performed a couple of songs at, and one of my friends was able to take a snapshot for me:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/5da7uxcep.....37-02.jpg?dl=0
Looking for Musician Friends
Posted 7 years agoMany people who know me more personally know I've been playing Ukulele and singing fairly regularly for about a year now.
What escapes me though is my lack of people I know who also play instruments or pursue the musical arts.
Its always nice to share music with other musicians and share insights with each other.
I know this for a fact from the few musicians I know locally, but it would be grand if I had musician friends I could share progress or, anything with really regarding music, maybe even jamming together.
I would just really love to have more people I can actually talk about my music with, without feeling brushed off, since not everyone appreciates the kind of work and time goes into this kind of stuff.
I have both a Soprano and Concert Ukulele, and I also have an Acoustic Guitar, though I play the later far less.
While not my best recording, this is something I've been working on for only the past couple days.
https://www.dropbox.com/s/jnmi4la16.....37-01.ogg?dl=0
What escapes me though is my lack of people I know who also play instruments or pursue the musical arts.
Its always nice to share music with other musicians and share insights with each other.
I know this for a fact from the few musicians I know locally, but it would be grand if I had musician friends I could share progress or, anything with really regarding music, maybe even jamming together.
I would just really love to have more people I can actually talk about my music with, without feeling brushed off, since not everyone appreciates the kind of work and time goes into this kind of stuff.
I have both a Soprano and Concert Ukulele, and I also have an Acoustic Guitar, though I play the later far less.
While not my best recording, this is something I've been working on for only the past couple days.
https://www.dropbox.com/s/jnmi4la16.....37-01.ogg?dl=0
December Update
Posted 8 years agoSo I haven't been very vocal about whats been going on, and I'm sure people can understand.
I've been on Cipralex for 9 weeks and suffering from a plethora of mental symptoms, many aggravated from the Fraud I experienced at the end of Septmeber.
I am currently on income support, but I am not getting enough on it to even support myself since its all for bills, which I only found out as of November 28th, so things are going to be extra tight.
I've already asked for enough help from people here and I don't want to keep putting myself in that position regardless of everything going on.
I am seeing a Councillor and a Psychiatrist, and going to Group Therapy a couple times a week.
I am being switched to this medication as of tonight: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mirtazapine
To go more into what I've been going through. I have Extreme Anxiety and Depression, Avoidant Personality Disorder, An eating disorder (Don't eat much at all), insomnia, along with a nightly restless leg syndrome.
I live by myself currently as well, so managing my symptoms with all of this going on is a massive challenge in of itself.
It won't be until February where I'll be cut from this lease and be able to find a place where I can live with a room mate or few instead to make things easier from then on.
I filed a restitution for the Fraud that I went through, and am still struggling to get myself to fill in the Victim Impact Statement that would be crucial for making it more likely for it to go through once it reaches a judge.
I'm still not mentally fit to work according to my medical specialists I've been seeing, so I just have to hope this new medication does better then what I've been on and I can finally get better.
Just as an extra note, I don't mean to be quiet when people contact me, I really enjoy company but it takes a while to pull myself out of my shell. x:
I've been on Cipralex for 9 weeks and suffering from a plethora of mental symptoms, many aggravated from the Fraud I experienced at the end of Septmeber.
I am currently on income support, but I am not getting enough on it to even support myself since its all for bills, which I only found out as of November 28th, so things are going to be extra tight.
I've already asked for enough help from people here and I don't want to keep putting myself in that position regardless of everything going on.
I am seeing a Councillor and a Psychiatrist, and going to Group Therapy a couple times a week.
I am being switched to this medication as of tonight: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mirtazapine
To go more into what I've been going through. I have Extreme Anxiety and Depression, Avoidant Personality Disorder, An eating disorder (Don't eat much at all), insomnia, along with a nightly restless leg syndrome.
I live by myself currently as well, so managing my symptoms with all of this going on is a massive challenge in of itself.
It won't be until February where I'll be cut from this lease and be able to find a place where I can live with a room mate or few instead to make things easier from then on.
I filed a restitution for the Fraud that I went through, and am still struggling to get myself to fill in the Victim Impact Statement that would be crucial for making it more likely for it to go through once it reaches a judge.
I'm still not mentally fit to work according to my medical specialists I've been seeing, so I just have to hope this new medication does better then what I've been on and I can finally get better.
Just as an extra note, I don't mean to be quiet when people contact me, I really enjoy company but it takes a while to pull myself out of my shell. x:
Tiny Update
Posted 8 years agoThings are slowly improving, I'm not worrying about my debt as much right now, I'm getting my head back into the game.
I'll do a proper update journal soon enough. Thanks for everyone who has been helping me through all this stuff that has been going on this year.
I'll do a proper update journal soon enough. Thanks for everyone who has been helping me through all this stuff that has been going on this year.