I was just informed that Rapid T Rabbit passed away today... I have no further information as of yet but will pass on what I get.

Hi Guys... All's well here... was just reminiscing about my adventurous journey to FL almost 4 years ago now and remembering the fur who rescued me in VA... I think his name was Niko... or something like that. Does anyone happen to remember? I'd like to know whatever happened to him.

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Just returned from Panda's follow up visit. Vet says his eye is back to normal and he's officially being discharged from treatment. I will have to keep watch on him to make sure his eye stays healed and will bring him back if anything happens. He got his annual vaccines and tests while we were there today so it looks like he's going to be fine.

Thanks to everyone who supported us both during this scare. *BIG HUGS*

Took panda back for another scheduled follow up visit... he still has some swelling in his eye but no where near as bad as it was. The vet said o stop the drops but keep using the ointment and bring him back next friday. If he is healed up by then he can be discharged from treatment.

This is a huge difference from one week ago. Im just very happy it looks like he's going to be ok.

Thanks so much for all he well wishes guys... it means sooo much!!!

Vet says the swelling in panda's eye has been reduced significantly with the meds... keep up the meds and follow up on saturday to see if there is any further improvement... we'll still have to see what developsefore making any decisions but it looks good to me so far.

i'm getting ready to take my kitty back to the vet for a follow up and I tell ya it's got me sobbing like a baby... worried about what the vet will find... I hope that everything turns out for the best here but i'm really worried also... Panda spent most of the weekend cuddling up against me... I think he knows theres something wrong... i'm hoping things will be OK but i'm just not sure..

:(

Hi Guys...

As you well know me by now i'm sure that it was time that something bad came out from under the rocks to smack me.. but this time it hit me harder than I could bear.

My kitty.. Panda... he's really my everything.. the best cat anyone could ever possibly ask for.. truly gentle and loving he's really a gently little guy who works his way into everyone's heart. I took him to the vet yesterday for a check up since I noticed a bit of a sore in his eye.. I wasn't sure what it was and it wasn't getting better on it's own after a couple of weeks, so I figured i'd take him in and get it looked at properly. The good news is that he's in very good health for an 11 year old cat.. perfect weight.. healthy coat of fur.. a little arthritis in the hips but nothing too severe for his age.. even found a slight heart murmur which is also typical for a cat his age.. also not overly serious.. but the sore on his eye.. well the vet says he's 70% certain it's cancerous lymphoma.. which is also pretty common for cats as they age. as the Dr went on, he explained that the treatment for this can be quite invasive... removal of the eye and significant rehab would need to be performed.. and there's a high risk that if it's in his eye, it's prolly in other areas of his body too, just not to the point where he's suffering from anything yet.

As the dr was explaining this all to me.. my heart just sank.. tears started flowing and nothing I did would stop them.. it only got worse as he was explaining things to me.. I felt like I would have no choice but to put my baby to sleep to keep him from suffering. I'm not even talking about the financial burden it would have on me.. and yes it would be significant, even though it would more than likely make him even more miserable both physically and emotionally. I honestly don't know what I would do without my kitty to cuddle with as I lay in bed... waking up to him licking my face to wake daddy up when the alarm clock goes off.. even just being there for each other.. I would miss all of this every day... but if I have to put him down to keep him from suffering.. I guess i'd have to do it.

This is really one of the hardest things i've ever had placed in my hands... but I know that i'm going to do whatever I can do for him... a follow up appointment is set for tuesday where we can see if the meds the dr gave me are making any improvements... or if we have to progress to getting a biopsy and getting the definite word on what is happening. I'm going to do anything possible to keep my kitty comfortable and healthy, but I know it's going to eat up just about everything I have in my savings and maybe even more. I guess I don't have much of a choice.. but i'm sure that i'm going to be an emotional wreck for a while here... regardless of the outcome at this point... since i've had several bouts of uncontrollable crying already. I just really ask that you all forgive me if I seem kinda distant or just want to be by myself for a bit... since it's honestly really hard to contain my tears once they start.. and I get embarrassed easily.

Please keep my Panda in your thoughts and prayers.

yes you read it right... the last several weeks were filled with many tests and Dr visits which all started with a sudden and prolonged bout of blood in the urine... the first few tests ruled out any infection and other tests pointed to fewer prognosis choices and cancer was one of them. While I was keeping open minded and hopeful, the mere THOUGHT of cancer can really mess your mind up.

Thankfully the prognosis after the CT scan results show I do NOT have cancer but a stone in my urethra just below my kidney. It's not causing any blockage or discomfort, and MAY have passed already without me knowing, so the Dr ordered another CT scan to see if it's still there and will follow up with treatment after that. so stay tuned guys!

Hi Guys....
Just a bit of an update here to those interested.

Things are about the same as they have been, i've been in the new job for 5 weeks now and i'm doing very well. Things are advancing steadily and i'm moving onto second shift starting this monday, so I may not be around as much as you are used to seeing me. Training is progressing well with my high lift and bucket truck training completed, I am now about to perform many repairs that can only be done with those types of equipt.

Personal life remains very dull and lonely, with much of my time spend on things at home, mostly because I really haven't been willing or able to go out and do anything much in my free time. Bills are still an issue that i'm dealing with as best as I can, just trying to keep my head above water here. I still have some repairs that need to be completed in the house. mostly small things inside now, but it's hard to get the will to just go on and do them without getting a push from someone. The shed outside needs to be replaced so I have been looking at possible alternatives and costs and can tell you they are all not good. Even with doing the work myself it'll wind up costing quite a bit of money and time. The house should get a paint job soon and the landscaping needs to be done before the weeds take over the yard again. None of this is easy or cheap but it has to get done somehow.

I've been trying to maintain a good and healthy demeanor in my personal life but it's really not easy. I find myself slipping into a dark place more often than I feel I should, making it really impossible to get the will to do much of anything. I can usually snap out of it with resting and a change of thoughts, but I still don't like it at all. Loneliness and depression are a terrible thing and can be harder to fight than anyone may think.

Otherwise things are about the same here, and i'm really hoping they only get better from here on in. I miss all of my distant friends and wish I could attend some cons again to see you all, but time and money are just not dealing me a promising hand in this. I still plan on attending megaplex since it's local, but it's really not something a lot of my friends out there want to go to. This makes me really sad too because I feel like i'm drifting apart and losing touch with them quickly. There were a few friends at MP this year too that I wanted to spend time with, but whenever I saw them, they just seemed to ignore me and go about their business. This really hurt me badly too. There were a few times I just went away in private and cried my eyes out. It really made me feel like an outsider in the fandom that I have embraced and love. There have even been a few times where I felt I should just drop out of the fandom all together, but the reality is that most of my closest friends are there because of the fandom, and I wish with all my heart that I wouldn't lose them, but it seems I may have already and just not accepted it.

Be well my friends... coon sends lots of hugs

Hi guys... I hope you all had a very nice holiday. It seems that a good number of people decided to mess things up for others.. riots and brawls in stores making black friday seem tame by comparison. I don't understand people anymore.... no one has any compassion for anyone else anymore.. it's all about ME ME ME... what can the world do for ME... MY opinion is the only one that matters.. etc etc etc.

I swear it makes me sick to my stomach. Something as simple as smiling at someone now a days can get you punched.. or worse in some cases.

To me it matters how my friends are.. it matters that they found something to make them happy... it matters that they had a enjoyable day.. even if it has nothing at all to do with me.. I still smile that someone I care about is having a good day.

I dunno... maybe I'm the jerk... I go outta my way for others before going and doing for myself... I can't help it.. it's how I am.

well... new year's is coming fast... if you go out.. PLEASE be careful... keep your eyes open around you for others that may be too impaired to know what they are doing... and keep yourself out of their way!

Hi Guys... it's Christmas eve here and I wanted to wish everyone a merry Christmas and remember, if you're going to party, make sure you either have a way to get home or a place to stay. This isn't just for you either, there will be plenty of people on the roads tonight that shouldn't be, especially this year because the holiday falls on a weekend. Don't be a statistic... have fun and keep yourself safe!

Yes I gave my Two weeks notice to work that i'm leaving them... I got approved for a transfer to the Video Technology dept where they actually requested me to transfer.

I'll be under their wing on the 12th of dec and more than likely working M-F for a while.

I'll be making more money at least, a few dollars an hour more at first, then rising over time.

I won't be rich by any means, but it's a positive start.

I just found out that Takala Zebra (not sure if he has an fa) lost everything in a fire at his home yesterday. No one was injured in the fire thankfully, but his home burnt to the ground. I do not have any other information right now, but if i hear anything else i will be sure to pass it on.

Well i'm finally back home now... what a long couple of days..

Thursday was all prepping for the "biggest storm in a hundred years" Went to a mandatory meeting at work in the morning.. was given storm assignments and allowed to go home to pack and secure the house. I got everything out of the car port and made sure anything able to blow away was secured. I stopped by target and picked up some food and sodas to have on hand just in case. Reported back at work and headed out to my location. Made sure everything was working properly and settled in for the storm. Thankfully I had TV in my location, and I also brought my laptop from home so I was able to keep in contact with everyone. After a few hours I went outside to take a look around at the storm... there was some off n on rain... and the wind was gusting a bit.. but i've honestly been through worse.

After 28 hours on the clock we were finally released from work.. I was given a hotel room nearby and i'm really glad cause in all honesty I was so exhausted I doubt I would have been able to make it home. Got settled into the hotel room but was hungry... it appeared that mostly everything around was closed, but I lucked out and a place nearby was opening back up early.. Called up Rhino and we went there for food and man the place was really busy but we got seated and fed and had a fun time. I was really feeling the lack of sleep by now so we headed back and I basically hit the bed hard once Rhino left. I think I was asleep within five minutes and man did I sleep but good!

After some much needed sleep I got up and went back into work.... I really wasn't sure what to expect but it was pretty much a normal day. I called some local friends throughout the day and made sure everyone was ok. I still wasn't sure if anything happened at the house though because I basically wasn't home for 3 whole days. Once I got home I was pleased to see there really wasn't much damage in the area. Only the usual small tree limbs here n there but nothing really bad. This morning I have to get a look around the house in daylight and make sure nothing was damaged and clean up the mess.

Watching the news I see other areas got hit much much worse.. Cape Canaveral got hit very hard.. with some buildings destroyed and many others damaged. Lotsa damage up and down the coast and some really bad flooding, but thankfully no major losses of life. A lot of people are bitching that the government went too far in forcing evacuations and cerfues and all, but in all honesty I think they did was was necessary to protect lives as best as they could. The storm tracked about 30 miles further east than they anticipated, but that 30 miles made all the difference... allowing most of the eye wall to miss the coastline and inland areas. I'm certain that if this storm moved west and made landfall as they predicted it would have been a much different story. Basically we all dodged a bullet here.. I hope that people will learn now and remember to make whatever precautions they need to next time... it could make all the difference!

Hi Guys...
It looks like Hurricane Matthew is going to be an intense storm here... they're already saying the strongest hurricane in over 100 years. The eye of the storm is predicted to make landfall around Cape Canaveral and move north from there. This means there will be hurricane force winds well inland and is expected to knock out power to a huge area of central florida. The power may be out for days depending on the severity of the damages. I have no idea when i'll be able to get back online, but don't worry about me... i'm going to be at work riding out the storm.. It should be safer there than here so not to worry.
To my Florida friends.. you hunker down and make sure you stay safe.. this storm is nothing to mess with. Remember... intense rains will cause flooding.. trees and poles could come down easily since we've had above average rains in the last couple of months... high winds WILL spawn tornadoes also.... I STRONGLY suggest finding a safe place to stay and STAY THERE!!!

where no matter how hard you try you just can't get comfortable and fall asleep? i'm having one of those nights.

Nights like this make me think back over things in my life.. good and bad.. we've ALL had good and bad happen to us in our lives.. it's part of what it is that makes us who we are.

I remember a lot about growing up.. how relatively crappy my childhood was.. but I think it could have been so much worse also. I had family who while they had their own issues many times, they still cared about my well being, and yeah maybe they didn't show it all the time, but I know they cared. I remember getting out of school in order to work and make a living to support myself since we really had very little in the way of money or luxury. I pretty much started driving trucks to make a living, and back then there was no such thing as a CDL or nationwide database of drivers licenses. You just learned as you went and abided by the rules they set in place. It was a decent living at the time, but I had bigger ambitions for myself. I sought out a career in law enforcement, thinking it would be a really good career to have, but reality set in very quickly and after a few years I really decided it wasn't for me after all. I held down a couple of decent jobs after that, made money, but was still missing something. Being exposed to the front lines of emergency services, I looked up to the men and women who saved lives day in and day out... the EMTs and Paramedics. I chose this path almost by accident when I found out there was a volunteer ambulance squad in my neighborhood and they offered training classes to members. I joined and started learning what it took to handle this type of career... almost by being shoved headlong into it. During one of my training shifts, the crew went on a cardiac arrest and they needed another person to assist, since I was the only one in quarters able to help they met me at the curb and gave me a crash course in real CPR.. before the days of having defibrillators on the ambulances.. pump and blow all the way to the ER.... yeah I was scared and had no idea if what I was doing was even doing any good, but I remember the guy in the back of the rig with me talked me through it like a real pro. We even got a pulse and spontaneous breathing back by the time we arrived at the hospital. The patient i'm very proud to say.. walked out of the hospital about a week after that day, able to live a bit longer thanks to something I did!

I made friends quickly.. and learned some of the quirkiness of people in emergency services.. with their so called weird humor and wit about things that most would find outright weird. I went on to become a real certified EMT and learned as much as I could.. even being one of the first in NYC to get certified in EMT-Defibrillation. With the help of my colleagues I went on to join the ranks of NYC's EMS.. getting a hard and gritty look at the inner workings of the daily grind of city life... seeing many instances of good and bad.. people in true need of help.. and those who could care less about anything or anyone else. Family crisis.. a system of faults that many took advantage of.. and even the lowest of the low in humanity. It was an interesting career... but in all honesty, it was not something at the time you could be financially stable. Pay was really low, morale was poor, and burnout was very high. I had a few friends commit suicide because of the day to day struggles.. and even lost a couple of comrades to incidents. It was really hard... mentally and physically.

I decided that I wanted to try and better myself though... learning as much as I was able to.. moving up the ranks and seeking out a worthwhile career. I moved into an elite position within the special operations division and became one of only a handful of elite haz-tac techs.. with full hazmat training and equipment at our disposal, while still responding to standard 911 calls... all while EMS was being absorbed into FDNY at this point.. The way politics and bullshit go hand in hand i'm sure you can just imagine how much of an uphill battle it really was and I quickly got tired of the politics. By this time I was dealing with several injuries suffered on the job, stress and burnout, and some emotional issues with failed relationships... and even 9/11.. which made me take a long look at myself.

I look back at those days.. remembering some of the more memorable calls and sights.. something that very few can relate to. Wondering if I made the right choices... if I could have done anything differently. There may have been a few things I could have and maybe should have done differently, but you can't change the past... only learn from it.

I eventually left the fire department and headed south to NJ.. went back to driving a truck and making a decent living... eventually pushing myself to go back to school and push myself into an IT/Telecommunications career.. working very hard... earning my degree.. and eventually winding up where I am now. I'm now officially retired from emergency services... but I still have the knowledge and training under my belt.. and still help out from time to time by using my skills and knowledge for emergency planning and assistance in amateur radio, which I like doing too.

I may be getting older and greyer.. but i'm still here.. and still looking to make my life better if I can.... and i'm going to start making it better by getting to sleep :)

Hi Guys.... I have some stuff here that I have to sell...

Would anyone be interested in some raccoon plushies... I have at least a dozen that could use a new home

see the pictures here... http://s152.photobucket.com/user/to.....ary/for%20sale

I have them going in groups to make it easier and affordable to ship.... most are in groups of five but the smaller ones have a few more

I also have a 35mm camera set with lenses and accessories
and I also have a stereo system with Bose speakers and a sub woofer


Make an offer.. I really need the money bad

Yeah I feel like shit... my emotions are playing with my mind in a real bad way and i'm fighting very hard to maintain a semblence of sanity.

Last Friday was my 48th birthday, another trip around the sun, but I usually get well wishes from family and close friends. This year I got a couple of well wishes from friends... skype messages from automatic reminders are appreacated, but they honestly aren't the same thing. I love hearing from my friends... but to not hear from my own family... that hurts so deeply I can't even fathom it.

I know I was working Friday and Saturday, but thats typical... i've always been one to work on holidays and my birthday.. usually celebrating on my day off when applicable, but I always got a call or a card... not this year.

I called my mom but she's been really sick.. and getting worse.. but she seemed to completely forget my birthday... I didn't try and remind her.. why should I? I think she would have gotten really upset if I did.

I know i'm not perfect... far from it... I know i've wasted most of my life away choosing work over love life.. i've tried but failed every time.. but should I keep trying?

Pain is a terrible thing... physical or emotional... I think i'd prefer physical over emotional pain any day.

Hi Guys...  isfacat lost everything but the clothes on his back in the LA floods.. house completely gone.. and everything in it... all gone... He needs help badly... if anyone can help.. please do... if you can't.. please pass it on..



cut from his journal...

If you haven't heard, there was a massive flood in Louisiana that displaced over 70K people and destroyed more than 12K homes.

My home was one of those. I'm okay, I've evacuated to higher ground and the waters have receded. However, everything I ever owned in my life has been destroyed.

I've been doing what I can to pick up the pieces of my life, but it's slow going.

If you guys could, please pass around the link to my GoFundMe to help with the recovery process. I'm looking at buying my own house now that I'm... practically homeless.

https://www.gofundme.com/2y43vwdz

Thanks, everyone. I'll try and keep everyone updated as best as I can.

I managed to get a majority of the stuff moved into the new house... but we ran out of available help and daylight... I still have about 1/3rd of the stuff in the old house and it needs to get moved tomorrow while I have the truck. I need some help if anyone is around.. please telegram me and let me know if you can help... with my thanks.

We got almost everything in the house completed so i'm going to try and move TOMORROW (Tuesday) but I am still not sure if I can get enough people to help. Is anyone available at all?

No one.. and I mean NO ONE local replied to my requests for help tomorrow ( other than cosmik but he is working so I understand that he can't commit to helping all day ) ... i'm going to have to postpone the move till next sunday then.. and hope that someone will be able to help.

shooting for this weekend... sunday most likely... anyone available to help?

Well the workers came back today and completed the air conditioning installation... in no time at all the temp dropped to a more comfortable level and took out the crazy humidity that has been building up in the house. Now that the saga is finally over... I have yet another issue to repair. For some reason the electric in part of the house isn't working. I am hoping it's simply a bad breaker, but I have a feeling it's a bad wire or a bad splice somewhere. Unfortunately the splices are mostly behind the walls now... which means I may have to open up a wall somewhere :(

Every time I try and get ahead... something else comes along and fucks it up!

The surgery went as expected yesterday.. and i'm now in recovery mode... with some pretty severe discomfort today in my shoulder and arm. Nothing unexpected, but still makes it hard to do much of anything. And I need to take at least one day off to try and heal up some before heading back to work. The bad part is I have no more time I can use thanks to this damn house... so i'm going to be losing money now :(


sighs :(