perhaps its pathetic, but i need too write it down. i live with my parents. my parents are good people but i cant help but stress the phrase "abscense makes the heart grow fonder". every day i live with them the differeneces between us all grows, the agitation builds. i need to move out. what is standing in my way. I cannot get a full time job, i have debts from college for a degree that, it turns out i have no physical talent in, i have no car due to a stream of bad luck and auto mistakes, every time i save money something happens, and the one place i want to really go, to live with someone i love, well his parents are homophobic and that is more money we don't have to spend. its sad but being a furry and etc is the only think keeping me held together because in having a fursona im able to say, the character i strive to be would never let it get too him, never be held down by this. would keep going forward. those who know me as Toggle get to see that. but i cant always be Toggle. some parts of my life i have to deal with as a human. and its those parts that are wearing me down.
I dont wanna be here, in this house anymore. but i have no choice. nowhere to go, and even if i left my debts are there and must be paid. a trap i cant escape.
i was not gonna post this, but i need to vent. cant do it on facebook where my mother can hunt me down, or twitter as its not short. i can say it on im but, somehow that feels too much effort, and even here, hardly anyone reads journals.
so i will post this with the title ignore this, and delete it in a day if it is ignored.
its not a call for help, as no one can really help per se, i just..need to vent
In a few hours ill be Toggle again, happy go lucky, and etc, but as i write this i feel all too human..all too vulnerable, all too sad, and weak and bound by rules, and those who know me knew my old catch phrase
I dont want to be human. too many rules.

i have decided to put a small push forward with one of my secret projects. what this means is, i need people too talk to about character development. i have alot of characters for this thing and not enough psychoses to develop each one enough. what this means is i am open to people giving their thoughts and opinions on making these folks become more real.

if you are interested, send me a note, stating your own personality and character types when it comes to characters you make, and ill give you what i got on one. all i want is a once over and maybe some personality quirk ideas

easy right

so i want to start up again soon. but im also thinking about another secret project of mine ive been working on. the secret project of mine would need help of others i know. if i see enough interest i can start on it perhaps. as far as shift goes. i may start it up again, or just let it rest until i have time for it.

http://s954.photobucket.com/albums/.....o/animazement/

here are some photos of the con. i will post more as peoples pictures and videos show up. these are just mine.

and thanks Joe the fox. if not for him this con would never of happened. him and his friends welcomed me into their arms and i got along with all of them. i felt at peace and warm and right. thanks yall.

and in here is a neko kangaroo me so, go look

i went as Neko Toggle
Chaos from Xenosaga
and Tyki Mikk

WOOOOO, had a fucking awesome time at an anime con. im still kinda recovering from it, but when i get the chance ill post some pics and tell some stories. just MREEHEEHEE

sorry theres been no comic in awhile. i uhmm..well i have two jobs now and im gonna be wiped out for a bit. i dont even have time to play video games, and you know its bad when im at that point. scary right. ill try to get back soon thou

yea i wanna do 4 dress-up costumes from horror games and im open to suggestions
so far im thinking Resident Evil 4 garb and maybe silent hill Garb ( but silent hill is so plain, i dont know i anyone will get it)

horror movies, and game costumes for Tog and Tak to wear, ideas submit here

also, how was the iron roo garb, id love to hear some comments
( iron man belongs to marvel etc etc, copyright)

whoo. good sketches, good friends, a couple of secret projects..life feels okay..more and more people are thinking im famous, lol.

still, im just me, im just Toggle, and im happy to talk to peoples, and give them some time if i have it, and i am gonna try and give more time to those who deserve it ( like my mate, joe fox, etc)
Roo is roo, and happy to know yall. thou when i get 5 k page views, i may start to think i am onto something.

okay so how do i get a non zombie loving toggle to be convinced to go to his next mission. trap doors, threats, give me your ideas i crave them

okay, im gonna work on trying to actually post this as art, but till then
http://www.yiffthis.com/

look at it LOOK AT IT. i have a cheetah av on sl, and it worked for Cresil's vision, thus, PRON. hows that for porn you horny furrs

yea, lazy ass roo got lazy. but dont you worry my babies, shift is coming out this friday, and it will be a two pager. le gasp

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3384272/

its so damn cute i hate and love it

New shift should be up around tommorow afternoon. ish.

so i tripped, fell, and hurt my arm. which sucks. its not broken, but it is bruised, and its bad enough so that it causes me discomfort to draw. so im gonna wait a bit before finishing the next comic. dont cry sweethearts, its coming.

how does one join a web comic circle...i wanna join one, cause i think it might give me more strive to go forward. i wanna get out there and flourish, instead of just let my comic fall to the side. and yea, riding some coat tails for a bit sounds nice

okay, so to you guys this may appear, decent, allright, whatever you might want to say..to me, this pic, and the one before it is...just wow. layers, details, background, shading. its all just flowing out, and i love it i love it. now it takes alot of time to accomplish pages like this, but...just hell yea. you know.

hope you like it

okay so i started practicing and thinking and now i finally am ready too announce the idea

Dead rising is the setting of the next chapter. i want to say more, but i want it to be a suprise. so play dead rising if you have it and maybe youll get some of the references, and ill throw down enough sexual tension and innuendoes and abuse of my nose to entertain all

the next chapter of shift shall be out by..next week if im on schedule.

cant you just feel the energy

okay so i started practicing and thinking and now i finally am ready too announce the idea

Dead rising is the setting of the next chapter. i want to say more, but i want it to be a suprise. so play dead rising if you have it and maybe youll get some of the references, and ill throw down enough sexual tension and innuendoes and abuse of my nose to entertain all

the next chapter of shift shall be out by..next week if im on schedule.

cant you just feel the energy

happy new year and all that. hey roo is wondering, if anyone has direct tips they want to tell roo, please tell him and perhaps we can do some art together. basically, if anyone wants to draw with me, its fun to do i think. who wants to draw with the roo

so...christmas paid off. alot. i got a kick ass graphics tablet, and photoshop and comic and animation programs, and evena game making program. the only issue is..i got too much to play with. none the less i broke out the graphics tablet and tried drawing today....ho mama

you gotta understand, i have been doing pencil and paper, then scan, then going over every line with a fucking mac mouse, so for me, its magical to skip 3 steps. and shading and other stuff by hand will feel..magical. its gonna be a good year i think. if we all survive the coming of cthulu. ROO SQUARED, OUT

To any of the roos wondering why i added em recently. I went on a giant roo mob adding spree, and felt like really getting some watches in. felt like actually being part of a mob of roos. wrar and stuffs.

kangaroos UNITE...into a giant robot

AH MISSED YOU FA

Ahem, dearly beloved

we are furries. we are also, humans ( SOMETIMES, NOT ALL THE TIME). while we make the faces we want to wear, that are the real us, that no one else can see without being shown, we also have another face. im not going to say which one is real, because i thnk that is up to you to decide. for me, i am at a point in my life where i am willing to wear both faces with pride. not both names ( nobody say it or i will cut you) but both faces are my faces. i have a preference, but i accept both.

SO, i put my face up, which i used to hide with a passion.

Now, this means if someone sees me in the streets and connects my faces, they may know who i am. and im willing to accept that, face wise. so heres the thing, if your willing to show your face, show it. take a risk. now seems like a good time to be seen. but if your not ready for what may come, dont. dont show it. if you see others and say something mean, why...no really why. if your a furry and other furries show their faces and YOU have an issue, doesnt that mean your jealous or something. to all those who show their faces, PRIDE TO YOU ALL. to those who dont, i accept that and its okay. as long as your a furry, your a furry, and we are furries.

ps.
thanks to everyone who thinks i look sexy. your all blind and cannot see that i am a grotesque peice of flesh tied to a skeleton. its a monster it is

pps my photo is in the scraps cause its not art, its just me.

I HATE RESIDENT EVIL 1, and i admit to this. i will yell it to the streets. the idea and concept, bloody brilliant, dont get me wrong, but im writing this down on my own behalf to remind myself that i despise the first game in the series.
Backstory? if you insist. I do like the horror/thriller game genre. hell, i love it even. Ever since i played Silent Hill 3, i was hooked. Why you ask, imaginary reader of mine. simple reason. great story lines. you pretty much have to have one to make a horror game. A game maker has to make a story that will creep you out, and make you get drawn into the game. They need you to put yourself in the main characters shoes, and feel the same horror they feel. Silent Hill does this, Resident evil too. so do Obscure, Clock Tower, Fatal Frame, and various others. They need you to scream when something visually horrifying appears in front of the person your playing as, they want you to cry out in anguish when your character gets torn limb from limb, or sacrificed for a demon. they want you in the game. This is where Resident Evil 1 completely baffles me. you could even say that all of them, save RE 4, and the rail shooters (umbrella chronicles) and maybe some of those outbreak survivor things ( i would know now, i have not played the survivor stuff) have the same flaw. what flaw. The placement of the person into the place of the main character is flawed. disagree? okay, lets play.
In a horror situation, is it practical not to be able to aim for the one thing that could possibly save you, the head.
until RE 4, you really could not aim so much. Oh, and lets add to that shall we, lets make it so that if you dont light them on fire, they come back as running zombies. lets say that again. IF YOU KILL THEM, THEY COME BACK, ONLY WORSE. shooting them in the head is no problem for me, but if thats what i need to do, LET ME DO MY JOB. when they fall to the ground, let me do some head stomping or aim at the head and blow it off then. i dont want to come back later and get eaten by something even worse then the thing i killed the first time, UNLESS its an rpg, and the battle is epic. running zombies are not epic, just unfair. they are dead, running should not be an option. Rigamortis ass holes
What about Silent Hill thou, you cant aim?
Your right, but guess what you can do. HIT THEM WITH A PIPE. if i ever land in any kind of demonic nightmare, i will be grabbing every pipe i see, because ill be damned if i run out of ammunition, and have to use a freaking Knife.
Next we have the movement. alot of playstation games took this method of movement and thought that it would work best. its a method of running straight forward and having to stop to be able to turn another way. Some games you can manage it, but a game where just coming withing 3 to 4 feet of an enemy and then getting eaten is a game you should be able to move faster, and better, without getting stopping. especially again, if you have a knife and not a pipe. knife is short range, pipe is not.
And the last things that makes me hate the first RE. item limits. if it takes a full load of bullets to kill a zombie, screw your ammunition conservation, give me more bullets. MORE I SAY. and saving, well you have a limit on how many times you can save...now thats bull. i need to alot in a horror game, cause otherwise i will feel inadequate.
So after seeing the Wii remade the first RE to be wii compatible, i thought, well lets have a play shall we. i have tried to play RE before on the playstation, and once again on the game cube. the games out of the RE series i have beaten, or at least been able to moderatley enjoy, are RE zero, Umbrella Chronicles, RE 4, and thats about it. so i pray when the game arrives in the mail, i will be able too shoot in the head, or aim, or lots of other things that would make resident evil enjoyable, and playable...again, i find myself staring at the words, your dead, written in blood after trying to conserve ammo and run past something, and then not being able to beat said things face in with a pipe...my game is back in the mail box, and i await the new game, and hope that i can remember this one thing, and STOP trying to play this first game. I HATE RESIDENT EVIL 1.
between Racoon city and Silent Hill, ill grab my pipes and wander the fog and ash. have fun in Racoon city, im gonna go steal me Pyramid Heads Sword which has UNLIMITED AMMO. Suck it S.T.A.R.S

because im finishing up my art class, looking into graphic arts classes, and acting classes, and whats more, i wanna practice more. Shift isnt over, but im using the time to make it freaking awesome you know.