I just wanna rant somewhere publicly, where I cannot get in trouble for speaking my mind. One reason I dislike facebook, is people you know can read it. But here, I can say things like, I do not feel safe at my work place, and not raise a rucus.

Some guy at my workplace has been making my life harder by stabbing my in the back, and trying to turn me in for shit I do. Now you think it should be as easy as not doing anything wrong, but it is simply amazing how everything you do at work can be turned into something that was done the wrong way, if someone tries. Best I figure, the hours have been short at work lately, and He wants to knock me out of the way for my hours, because I get a few extra as a shift lead, and because I have worked here for almost 3 years (I have actually worked at this place longer then anyone else currently employed in the department we work in)

This same person sent me a message a few months back, by accident, in which he tried to send a picture of his gonads to a chick, and accidentally sent them to me. Now i know it was a mistake, because he started the message with "My phone gets *my name* and *female name that sounds like my name* mixed up, but i bet *Toggle* would like this picture too."
to be clear, a flacid 50 year old baby dick is not on the list of things I like to see.

So I let it go till recently, and I decided to turn him in for what he did, because he apparently won't leave me alone, so why should he get a break...but now i feel in danger. he has once bragged about being in a biker gang, as an enforcer, and while i doubt i am gonna get shot or anything, i would like to avoid my tires being slashed, or a crow bar to the head. It turned him into HR, but he apparently is gonna keep his job. If he tries anything else, I can call him out on a retaliation clause, and they will do something...though who knows what something is.

If you know me in real life, please, let us keep this here. I just needed to rant, and I do not wanna see this come back to haunt me. one thing I like about being a furry is the ability to split lives up. Here I can speak my mind, and in real life, its impossible to look someone in the face and tell them the truth without being fired.

The truth is, fuck him, and fuck his backstabbing bullshit. He is 50 years old, and I am 23. I am less then half his age, but apparently, i have better moral standing then him. Whatever happened to people with character, and respect, and honor. You can ask most people, and they will tell you, I am one of the nicest people you will ever know. Why fuck with the nice guys. we are a rare breed these days....

Anywho, rant done. peace!

I wanted to play with others on that system. Anyone...Bueller...Bueller?

EH, why not. Any questions, no limits.

Just feel like putting something down with the new reference sheet. I have been trying to clean some friend lists out, and now i gotta wonder how to either strengthen the friendships i have and/or make some new friend. I wanna make friends with some more furries, and try and push myself outwards again.

Also, soon I am going to advertise for my first book. If i am good, i can have start on that before the end of this month. doing the final edit currently. soon as I am ready, i will self publish, and sell it as an ebook on amazon and ebay and shit.

other then that, nothing much to say to whomever actually reads this lol. just feeling a bit lonely, and making the days go by.

Much as I would like to prattle about my trip, I would rather save my words for those who wanna hear em, so hit me up if you wanna know. suffice to say, I had a blast, and it was a good birthday.

having a blast in nyc. good foods, fun places to explore. saw avenue Q last night and laughed my ass off. Today will explore central park, and a bit of the Met, and Museum of history. tomorrow will explore some nerdy places like anime shops and etc.

And I will be in New York. Just wanted to say, thanks to those who are my friends, and i should be getting a tablet for my birthday, so more art will appear when I get the chance.

love you all. Don't forget that.

~Toggle

So i have moved out of my parents house, and i live with a roomate near downtown wilmington. I love my new place, and if you are a furry and in the area, feel free to come visit. I am on page 174 of my book and it is coming along nicely. I like writing it turns out.

My birthday is coming up as well on july 22, so now I am trying to figure out what i want to do. I got several options. One is to go to new york for a few days, but I would be wandering around alot on my own. other is, i can try and go to durham and raleigh for a few days, I might be able to switch my schedule around a bit to get some time off late july, early august, depending on how i work it. ideas are welcome

other then that, feeling kinda lonely lately, and I think i am ready to get back into dating again, so i am very ready to get my life moving to a better future. still wanting a new job badly.

still no tablet so still no art...and lately i have felt a major roller coaster of ups and downs. In some regards i have felt up, because i am writing a book (165 pages so far, so we are officially able to say, writing a book) and I will move out..hopefully soon..in general, I am trying to pick up my life and run. but in other regards, when the day is at the end, and i sit in my bed, i feel depressed. I feel bad that I can not hang out with my friends as much as i would like, as most of them are at least 2 hours away. I feel bad that I cannot find a job still. I feel bad I am still...very lonely ( good news is over the break up, but bad news is, now i miss having someone. only real difference is i do not miss having him). I am gonna see a doctor soon and talk about anti anxiety meds, and perhaps something for depression, or even what may end up being an oncoming bipolar disorder.

beyond all that, sometimes i just feel...kinda unknown and ignored. and worse, when people learn the real me, they seem to, more often then not, stop liking me as much.

its a journal full of bitching, i know, but i deserve one right now i think, even if no one reads it....

just in case anyone was going to ask. i wanted to go very badly so lets leave it at that.

okay, so I have been using my break to work on writing. Ferocity is out for now, as I need to work on a major aspect, aka, removing my ex from it. so to kill time i have begun work on a different idea, and this one is not furry. in fact, this one is a bit of an epic of sorts. i am on page 98, and I actually think it might be kinda good. So then you ask, what could this request be. SIMPLE...I need to learn how to portray a jamaican accent in text, without being offensive. I am not even sure where to go on this. I need to deal with someone who knows the accent for real, or can do it, and find a way to translate it right so that people can tell when reading what it is.

i may post some of the story on here, but I kinda wanna keep it a secret because i actually might turn it into a book at this rate. but anyway, anyone know any jamaicans?

I think its about time to stick to what i am good at. drawing a penis entering a vagina. soon as i get a new tablet, gonna get right too it, drawing a man and a woman making love like god intended. god bless you all

elggot

Well my graphics tablet is broke....fuck...till it gets fixed, i have to take a longer break on art then i wanted too. sorry guys.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eOtS.....eature=related i just...this is too true. it hurts

no one showed any confirmed interest. i will give it a week, and if no one can give me some for sures, i will cancel and use a backup. no biggie

♥ = I want a relationship with you

C: = I'm falling for you

:3 = I miss you

;] = i really like you

:* = I want to kiss you

:< = I hate you

: X = I like you

O: = I like you but i'm in a relationship

:/ = I like you but your in a relationship

:] = You're cute

</3 = I regret leaving you

:b = We should get to know each other

;^) = We should hang out

<3 = I love you.. \o/

<:^ = i want to know you

@FT@=*stalk*

eue= You're hot

<:3 = You're a great friend

^_^ = We're friends

^.^ = We're best friends

>;3 = I want you on top

>:3 = I want on top <3

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3193062/

try it out

i got 2 bed room at red roof in from thursday too sunday. if you need a room then i will only ask for 50 bucks to stay the whole con. less if i get more then 3 other people to come. the number will go down too 30 bucks if i get 8 people. as is i will be paying over 100 bucks for the room so 50 bucks is pretty decent. you might talk me down to 40 even, but please hit me up if you need some room. if you do not tell your friends.

:: forever alone face:: hooray TT__TT

I got three people who said maybe, but I need some who are for sure in on hotel sharing. If I get none by the weeks end I will take up some other offers. I like the hotel experience, it makes it all the more fun

I got three people who said maybe, but I need some who are for sure in on hotel sharing. If I get none by the weeks end I will take up some other offers. I like the hotel experience, it makes it all the more fun

does anyone have a spare spot in a hotel room yet. i am debating getting a reservation at red roof in, but i would only do that if i can get a few people too agree to room with me and split the costs. and i really wanna room with people i know this time around. please help a roo out. if i get 2 or 3 people who are roomless i will make the reservation, otherwise, i can pay my part of someone elses room.

my 07 malibu needs to pass north carolina inspection, but i went and it turns out that my third brake light, the one on my trunk, is not lighting up right. it turns on, but super dim. not enough to pass. after spending 2 days running around i found that it was an issue in the module that controls the electricity running to all parts of the car. the voltage for that ONE wire is super low. it will cost 500 dollars to replace the module, and i the mechanic could not find any alternative too replacing it.

what forums are good to go too for advice, does anyone know a secret...please, i need an alternative cause 500 dollars is alot of cash

i noticed my comments in journals and art have gone down too ..uhh...well i am noticing not much is being said. i wanna know how to get some comments on my art too improve, or journals so i can improve myself at times. i am trying to be more social you know. do not wanna feel like i am talking to myself