ME AND  Ianto HAVE BOOKED OUR ROOMS FOR CONFUZZLED SJAHSKJCSD
THIS IS THE BEST THING EVER WHAT THE HECK

I NEED TO GET PEOPLE STUFF

here is mine ;u;

ideally they can make me tea without asking and never bug me about my college work. They should also fawn over me 24/7 and shower me with compliments to get me through the day.

apply now

Rules
1. Post 10-15 things you'd like for Christmas.
2. Feature other people at the bottom of your journal.
3. Send out some secret santa packages yourself
4. Leave an information about how to get your address.



Wish List

- pelts, bones, teeth, anything taxidermy related and dont worry about what condition stuff is in i dont mind at all!

- any cutesy lolita stuff, like bracelets, rings bows, necklaces ANYTHING!!

- any kind of stickers!!

- any kind of artwork, like maybe an old print/postcard you have or something you've made yourself, like a silly collage or anything!

- warm/silly jumpers c:

- a mix tape/cd with a bunch of songs that you like and would like me to listen to <3

- a book you'de like me to read

- socks!

- shark related things

- anything you'de think i'de like!

Address
Note me if you're kind enough to send me something!! and i'll give you my address and try to send you something from your wishlist too!



Other Secret Santas
 skullcabinet http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5224363/
 crimedrama http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5226218/
 HeilanCoo http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5251234/
 chiaroscuromonster http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5308473/

I AM I CANT WAIT!!!!!

sharing a room with this lame-o  ianto

So it's been a good six months of letting my life get out of control, then I spent two months crying and being afraid of every single thing. Then the worst 3 weeks of my life begin on medication that came with motion sickness, headaches, hallucinations and a lot of other shit stuff before the hardest 2 weeks of my life where i honestly didnt want to keep going anymore. Its so weird when you find out you dont want to live anymore, its like you're not scared of anything yet you're scared of carrying on your bleak life where you dont enjoy anything and everything is out to get you.

how i kept going was even harder though. I had to be alive because who was gonna walk the dog at 8 in the morning? Who was gonna clear her skin condition and remember her medication for it? It was so hard.

but then a few days ago i felt my head start to clear and my vision improved and not everything was super scary and i didnt have to stop myself from walking into traffic. I didnt even THINK about traffic.

And like now i am still not 100% but my doctor says im doing great and that she'll organise some counselling at my college.

So im finally getting counselling!!!

but all this has made me think about my future and who i need to be to be happy with my whole being, so im going to transition to a non-binary boy publicly sometime next year or when i've recovered and no longer on medication. My pronouns are still going to be they/them and if you cant manage that then i cant manage you. Hopefuly hormone therapy will be something im able to have and top surgery is something im DEFINATLY going to achieve

WOW THIS GOOD DAY HAS JUST BOOSTED MY MOTIVATION BY A MILLION THANK YOU SEROTONIN I HAVE MISSED YOU

im sorry that im not drawing anything recently but i just feel unable to do anything.

i see it like fucking everywhere
im walking with 'friends' in the street or something then one of them makes a snide comment about some person they have never met before who just happens to be walking on the same street as them

AND I AM EXPECTED TO LAUGH AT WHATEVER RUDE, DISGUSTING COMMENT THAT COMES OUT OF THEIR MOUTH?

of course i dont then they think im the one being rude just
w hat

i see so many people talking about how you should always feel empowered no matter what you wear and how you look, and then the next minute they are taking the piss out of some person in the street they have never talked to in their life.

cant all the people just turn into dogs yet

my mum found a little hedgehog wondering in the road and she had to stop traffic to pick him up and aaaaa my mum is the best. We're gonna drop him off at the hedgehog rescue in a bit and i am excited for it aaa

feeling better because hedgehogs

ive been prescribed fluoxetine, which is basically prozac

has anybody been on this drug? im worried about whether or not i should be taking them and i woudl really appreciate some first hand info

so im gonna book an appointment tomorrow for my anxiety and vision, but i am so worried i am just gonna start crying as soon as they ask whats wrong, since that is all i have been doing for the month.

how can i calm down and explain whats wrong with me without crying? l even start crying talking to my mother about this.

i really have no time for this, i have to apply to uni like in 2 weeks, im gonna scream

so ive had a real shitty time and then today i had a panic attack in class and i never want to go back again. i wish i could just have one-on-one sessions with my tutor, i just cant stand being sad over people anymore.

how???????????/

i like kawaii shit and pastel colours so much i want to buy a bunch of sticker flakes and food plushes. Maybe ill dye my hair baby pink next who knows stay tuned???

to dmitry
and isaiah
and julien
and valentine
and eli

thank you for your time

and collect chickens

http://www.chickensmoothie.com/acco.....roupid=2918469

so a lost racing pigeon is chilling about my street so i thought would try to catch him and call up the racing people

but like then my mum told me they usually kill the pigeons that stray off course

so FUCK THAT

He is just wandering around he is so cute i hope he doesnt get eaten by a fox tonight though or run over.

i think tomorrow im defo gonna catch him because he is so tame aa and just make sure he is safe at night.

god i really do LOVE PIGEONS

does anybody know how to keep adult pigeons. like what type of houseing???

in the sale/trade folder here https://charahub.com/user/Tip

The majority of them i got about 4 years ago and i have forgotten the original owners but some of them come with free art

and about 2 are by me?? but you can tell which are by me so


I will be trading them mostly!! I love dogs and people so those are what i would like to trade for but throw me anything and ill take a look!

i feel really nervous and tired and uncomfortable

i just want to see all my friends like every single one

chow chow chow

i slept the first day and night through p. much
then i drank everything i had and wandered around on my own. saw a lot of sweet people i forgot the names of.
walked into a living room set thing with a guy playing piano and another dude beatboxing to it and it was so good. a lot of guys on crack started talking to me. crack heads are so chatty who knew. bumped a line w/ them. wasnt like really great but hung around with them and got a chai. super lads i forgot their names. gave a guy a cig and boogied a bit with them.
next day saw the skints and fell asleep early
traded our wristbands for a hitch in a back of a van to the train station and the people where lovely i hope they are having a great time happy boomtown guys.

it was super great but i am so sick of the smell of bud now jesus fuck it was like 24/7.
there was so many illegal substances god damn
but like it was so friendly and felt safe? great vibes

see you all in 5 days
hopefully i wont die of dirty toilets

so my car failed it's mot like really badly

they wrote DANGEROUS all across the report like

door doesnt open *DANGEROUS*
brakes faulty *DANGEROUS*

its great cause my car was a death trap that makes it cooler

SO I GOTTA KILL MY CAR AND SELL IT FOR SCRAP CRIES

Here he is
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11287007/

its weird cause im kinda upset because its my first car and i love it its called Arthur cause of Arthur Dent from hitchhikers because it is COVERED in massive dents and scratches its such a piece of shit i love it.

and like at work today i drew Arthur as a human and he makes me feel sad cause i love my car and im gonna miss it

how do i
afford
vehicles

????/

AGAIN
I think i made 3??

but im gonna stick with this one and i made a super cool 3 eye themed background for it check it out if you want to suffer my words https://twitter.com/3eyedog