Figured I might as well update here too, but hi, I stream on Twitch now! Atm I've mostly been streaming games like the Forest and Raft, with like one stream on art doing doodles for Twitch things, but I'm still in the first days, so I'm excited to add more things to my roster.

I mostly stream with friends atm and we just either vibe in games or just hang out, so feel free to come join us some time on our little adventures in chaos.

https://www.twitch.tv/tinybluechild <3

Commissions are open-ish? If you're interested, my prices and stuff are here.

https://tinybluechild.carrd.co/#

So, a little update I guess. I've decided to post to twitter a little, just as like a gallery/archive for the stuff I'm doing atm, mostly just because I can. It's all relatively similar atm because I'm working on a series of headshots, but y'know, that could change. I also post a lot to my story on Instagram, like every day, so if you wanna really keep up with me, that's the best way to do it. Just kinda figured I'd give the few followers I have a chance to keep up.

https://twitter.com/tiny_blue_child

https://www.instagram.com/tiny_blue_child/

Will I come back to posting here? Maybe. Once I get a feel for my art style again, I might try. We'll just have to wait and see atm.

ALRIGHTY.

So, over on Instagram where everything is trash, especially the algorithm for artists, I've stopped posting! There's just no point to it anymore. None of my posts get anywhere and it's just really disheartening. It makes art feel like a chore which is something I never wanted to happen. It's the whole reason I never wanted to take art seriously or do it for a job, because I knew it would ruin it for me. Trying to post and share it with people has done the same thing, thanks to a shitty algorithm and, to be fair, my own lack of effort recently.
For those wondering, no, it isn't all about the numbers. I couldn't care less how many people are following me or how many likes I'm getting. I have legitimately said, again and again, I do not want a large following. Large followings come with nothing but hatred and drama. it's ridiculous what lengths people will go to just to try and tear someone down from their high numbers.
The problem for me is the lack of interaction. I ask questions, I put up polls, I do everything I can, but no one is interested in me or my art. It's like I'm this one-and-done like and move on artist. People will just glance at my posts as they go through their feed, leave a like, and that's it. I want more than that. I want people to listen to what I have to say, read my captions, ask about my characters, take an interest in what I'm posting etc. Otherwise, what's the point? I might as well just stop posting. It has basically the same effect.
I've tried for actual years to make it work, but it just doesn't. I cannot make it work. I've moved accounts, shared things, communicated with fellow artists, etc. I've done everything I can to boost my reach, but nothing works. In fact, it actively goes fucking backwards.
This and everything else going on lead me to just... stop posting, and I've honestly never felt better. I just draw for myself now. I draw what I want or need to see, like with my D&D characters; I needed to make a proper full image reference for my girl Lo, which I just finished. The best part about it was that I could take my time. I knew what I needed to do, how to do it, but I didn't need to have it done for anyone but myself. I worked on and off for a couple days and got it done to my liking, and even now, there's no pressure to post it and try to share it with people, see what they think etc. It's just... there now, to help me and others, like my best friend who wants to draw my two D&D babes with hers.
I just feel so fucking free. I've said that I may go back to posting at some point, but idk when that would be, and if I do, I may move accounts again for a fresh start, at least on IG.
I really want to work on myself and my art for a while, without this pressure to impress people And get their validation that it isn't trash and it isn't pointless. I know it's not.
I can make this work, but not before I work on myself. I have to change before I can attempt this again. So, until further notice, I won't be posting. At all. I'm not saving up art to post, I'm not posting it elsewhere, I'm just... not gonna be here.
If you want to keep in contact with me, I'm still using my Instagram to just post about my day on my story. It isn't exactly interesting, but it's there.
I really hope I can grow and learn in my time away, so I wish the few of you that will actually see this the best. Not many will pay attention to this or anything, but it's gonna be here if anyone is curious.
If/when I come back, I'm gonna take up my one-post-a-week schedule and see how it goes.
It's been a blast. See you all soon <3