Well, first journal post.... and god fucking damn it, were starting off dark...

I have depression, and it's been really just draining the shit outta me, I barely have any ability to make what I want, and end up giving up... it's been like this for 5 long months


But that's not all, I've been feeling a general large amount of apathy, one that just makes me wish I wasn't alive anymore, but I don't want to die

Truth be told... I need to get my shit together, talk to a specialist and get drugs if needed... I promise to myself that I WILL beat this, to spite the world,

This world can tear me down, but not without a fight