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General | Posted 3 years agoI don't understand FA's commission system, but I swear that I'm accepting them.
https://ko-fi.com/theaveragegarbage/commissions
No really. Please help me. It's a difficult world out there and I need all the support I can get
https://ko-fi.com/theaveragegarbage/commissions
No really. Please help me. It's a difficult world out there and I need all the support I can get
Whew, 2022 is here, already!
General | Posted 4 years agoDidn't even get time to motivate myself to write a journal for the New Years.. Well, Happy Late New Year! And incase you didn't know before, December 31 also happens to be my birthday. So that makes it even more special to me.
Here's some hoping that I'll get better at my upload schedule!
Here's some hoping that I'll get better at my upload schedule!
My Disappearance (TW: Trypophobia Mention)
General | Posted 4 years agoSo, about my absence throughout September to November.. It was all a tragic journey that led to the loss of someone dear to me. If this hits close to home, I don't recommend reading this journal.
So let's say my mother had a serious drinking problem, like, really bad. If I talked about it in detail, that would change the tone of this story drastically. It was only a matter of time before she killed her liver, which caused the following avalanche of problems.
Mom was starting to lose mobility as her legs inflated, blood cells were leaking, the pain would never stop, she needed me and my sister to start nursing her at home as she refused to go to the hospital.
Around late August or early September, my grandma had finally convinced her to go. Never would I have thought that would be my last goodbye to mom besides a video message she sent to my phone days later. This meant my sister and I had to handle things at home for a while.
So the first couple days mom spent in the hospital were fine, or would have been fine if she wasn't so.. uncooperative. She was always stubborn and preferred to handle things herself, at some point, she got up on her own, lost balance and fell on her head. The impact was so severe that they decided to do surgery on her brain, this was where mistakes were made and where the incompetence of the doctors began to shine through.
Through the proof of photos and everything grandma told us about, there were gaping holes left on my mom's head because they were too rough with the surgery, too many anesthetic drugs were used on her, even in times where it wasn't needed, something they were SUED for before, which was another red flag. There were multiple times that my grandma had to do procedures they didn't bother with, such as change my mom's bandages, move her body into proper positions and clean the tools used on her.
Many infected wounds were left on my poor mother, she was unable to even talk or open her eyes when my sister and I visited her for the first time in a while, which was the last time we saw her just.. barely alive. It was later that we learned the doctors and nurses in charge of her treatment were students, and it shows.
Fast forward to October, where my mother's suffering would finally end. Everyone else was hyped about halloween while I'm here, living through a scary story, as I went to my mother's funeral and had no one to even talk to besides short-lived visits from other family members. Oh yeah, you thought my mother's twisted, ironic death at the hands of an hospital was the only bad thing that happened? Not in the slightest.
While she was gone, problems that she'd insist on taking care of, like paying bills would come back to bite us. My absence was due to me having no Wi-Fi, like I stated before. But I couldn't enjoy myself even offline, as my laptop's system mysteriously corrupted and I couldn't even get past the boot screen without a BSOD occuring, all of this only happened in a span of couple days. While my grandpa helped by paying the internet bill when October started, our ISP had technical issues so my sister and I had to spend ANOTHER month without internet, followed not long after by us having to see our mother get buried.
Y'know, when my sister and I were cleaning the house and found a slug on the sink, something that I've never witnessed before, I offhandedly commented "We sure have a lot of stories to tell mom when she comes back, huh?". I never regretted saying something this badly until now. I torture myself thinking about that everytime now, this is truly an experience I wasn't prepared for. But on the bright side, it made me realize I never should take anything in life for granted. The loss will only hit harder that way.
So this is where my life is now, I wish I could just start working and carry on my mother's hardworking legacy since I know I'm capable, but I don't have the reservist document to do so. The only help I can get is from those who enjoy my art enough to pay and see more.
So please, from the bottom of my heart, support me so that I can take care of myself and the remaining family I have. I won't let any of you down.
Thank you for listening.
So let's say my mother had a serious drinking problem, like, really bad. If I talked about it in detail, that would change the tone of this story drastically. It was only a matter of time before she killed her liver, which caused the following avalanche of problems.
Mom was starting to lose mobility as her legs inflated, blood cells were leaking, the pain would never stop, she needed me and my sister to start nursing her at home as she refused to go to the hospital.
Around late August or early September, my grandma had finally convinced her to go. Never would I have thought that would be my last goodbye to mom besides a video message she sent to my phone days later. This meant my sister and I had to handle things at home for a while.
So the first couple days mom spent in the hospital were fine, or would have been fine if she wasn't so.. uncooperative. She was always stubborn and preferred to handle things herself, at some point, she got up on her own, lost balance and fell on her head. The impact was so severe that they decided to do surgery on her brain, this was where mistakes were made and where the incompetence of the doctors began to shine through.
Through the proof of photos and everything grandma told us about, there were gaping holes left on my mom's head because they were too rough with the surgery, too many anesthetic drugs were used on her, even in times where it wasn't needed, something they were SUED for before, which was another red flag. There were multiple times that my grandma had to do procedures they didn't bother with, such as change my mom's bandages, move her body into proper positions and clean the tools used on her.
Many infected wounds were left on my poor mother, she was unable to even talk or open her eyes when my sister and I visited her for the first time in a while, which was the last time we saw her just.. barely alive. It was later that we learned the doctors and nurses in charge of her treatment were students, and it shows.
Fast forward to October, where my mother's suffering would finally end. Everyone else was hyped about halloween while I'm here, living through a scary story, as I went to my mother's funeral and had no one to even talk to besides short-lived visits from other family members. Oh yeah, you thought my mother's twisted, ironic death at the hands of an hospital was the only bad thing that happened? Not in the slightest.
While she was gone, problems that she'd insist on taking care of, like paying bills would come back to bite us. My absence was due to me having no Wi-Fi, like I stated before. But I couldn't enjoy myself even offline, as my laptop's system mysteriously corrupted and I couldn't even get past the boot screen without a BSOD occuring, all of this only happened in a span of couple days. While my grandpa helped by paying the internet bill when October started, our ISP had technical issues so my sister and I had to spend ANOTHER month without internet, followed not long after by us having to see our mother get buried.
Y'know, when my sister and I were cleaning the house and found a slug on the sink, something that I've never witnessed before, I offhandedly commented "We sure have a lot of stories to tell mom when she comes back, huh?". I never regretted saying something this badly until now. I torture myself thinking about that everytime now, this is truly an experience I wasn't prepared for. But on the bright side, it made me realize I never should take anything in life for granted. The loss will only hit harder that way.
So this is where my life is now, I wish I could just start working and carry on my mother's hardworking legacy since I know I'm capable, but I don't have the reservist document to do so. The only help I can get is from those who enjoy my art enough to pay and see more.
So please, from the bottom of my heart, support me so that I can take care of myself and the remaining family I have. I won't let any of you down.
Thank you for listening.
I broke up...
General | Posted 4 years agoHooray for another bout of inactivity because I'm sad and lonely.
A 7+ year relationship went down the drain.
I guess I should be lucky I even dated someone in the first place.
A 7+ year relationship went down the drain.
I guess I should be lucky I even dated someone in the first place.
Commissions
General | Posted 4 years agoI don't understand FA's commission system, but I swear that I'm accepting them. Throw money at my way while I try to find a job I can live off of!
No really. Please help me. It's a difficult world out there and I need all the support I can get
No really. Please help me. It's a difficult world out there and I need all the support I can get
NOT DEAD!
General | Posted 4 years agoWorry not! I'm not dead, merely out of ideas on what to draw to entice you all. That being said, I'm in.. need of ideas.
What do you suggest I should draw to get some more traffic going?
What do you suggest I should draw to get some more traffic going?
I'm so desperate
General | Posted 5 years agoI cannot stop thinking about Vector the Crocodile from the Sonic series, no matter what I do.
This is completely serious by the way. How do I move on lmao
This is completely serious by the way. How do I move on lmao
My SFW Twitter.
General | Posted 5 years agoSince I can't link two Twitter accounts at the same time, here's the SFW for those who are looking for that rather than the spicy stuff. I have a varied audience with varied tastes and I want to appeal to everyone.
Info updates
General | Posted 5 years agoWatchers... I'm here to inform you that unfortunately, I am a dumbass.
No seriously, it took me the longest time to realize how much profile info I was missing and could've added onto this acc. You may notice that I'm accepting trades and commissions now, but I always have been! I just.. didn't know how to change that "No" to a Yes" this whole time.
I also added my Ko-Fi, NSFW Twitter and such while I was at it. Ko-Fi is where I take money for my commissions by the way! Being Brazillian, it was the easiest way for me to transfer and receive foreign cash, so that's what I use for those who might be willing to commission me.
And that's about it, I guess!
No seriously, it took me the longest time to realize how much profile info I was missing and could've added onto this acc. You may notice that I'm accepting trades and commissions now, but I always have been! I just.. didn't know how to change that "No" to a Yes" this whole time.
I also added my Ko-Fi, NSFW Twitter and such while I was at it. Ko-Fi is where I take money for my commissions by the way! Being Brazillian, it was the easiest way for me to transfer and receive foreign cash, so that's what I use for those who might be willing to commission me.
And that's about it, I guess!
