Just giving out a quick update of what's going on.

First off, I'm okay. I'm just a little busy trying to get ready for Externship next year so I can complete my degree. It's kinda difficult at the moment, but I'm trying.

Secondly, the whole car situation has been resolved. Everything was paid off and taken care of. Oh, and I got a new car. Of course, I still need to get used to the feel of it, it is really sensitive.

Thirdly, I have some drawings and sketches done and I might post them soon. But because I'll be busy finding a job for Externship next year, I might not be as frequent in my uploads as normal in the future. Just in case that happens, I finally found a spot to put my scanner by my desk. I've already scanned both some old and recent sketches from my stacks of books. Lots of early sketches and scribbles of my characters and stuff that I'll probably upload soon.

Anyway, that's all I wanted to say. Later!🙂👍

I'm going to try and make this short.

I got into a car accident.

I'm Okay. Just a little banged up and gonna be sore for a few weeks.

My car is dead, but I don't care about that, nor about my well-being. All I care about is that everyone involved isn't seriously hurt, that they are okay. That's all that matters to me. Hell, I wouldn't care if I was the only person that kicked the can, as long as everyone was okay.

I don't know what else to say. I mean, I DO know what I want to say, but it's all just me talking shit to myself. How much of a failure I am... that I'm just a tool that can be tossed. I've already believe myself to be lower than dirt.

I know these things I'm telling to myself is a lie, but I keep thinking that its the truth unfortunately. It's bad enough that I keep thinking my family is upset about me, but I know they're worried about me.

I am physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted.

I don't want to think about or draw anything right now, or for a long while. That's why I'm going on a hiatus for the time being so I can figure out what to do now.

Sorry for the bad news everyone.

I just wanted to quickly update you all that I'm okay—well, as okay as I can be anyway. At least now I know not to take offers without checking if they're shady. It still sucks that I lost some money on it in May, but I'm going to move on. I have other things to worry about.

Like school.
I'm over halfway through my culinary program and will soon begin my Externship—getting a job for class credit. After completing that, I'll earn my degree. I'm genuinely looking forward to this. I’ve gotten better with my cooking lately and maybe, hopefully, I can use what I learned out there. I honestly can't wait to get out there and cook in a large kitchen.

Well, I’m a complete idiot.

I got scammed by someone who wanted to use my artwork for some "project"—which turned out to be nothing but a ploy.

A bit about myself: My mother taught me to be kind, generous, and charitable. We've always tried to donate to people in need, even during our own hard times. At my first job, most of my earnings went to helping my family, which my mom deeply appreciated. I tend to be selfless, always trying to help others. But I guess that's turned out to be one of my character flaws...

I should've seen it coming from a mile away. It took all night, which should have been a red flag—I knew it was too good to be true. I'm still beating myself up over it.

I got hit hard, financially. Lost hard earned money from my previous job I was saving up and probably gonna lose more from the bank trying to fix the error done by my stupidity. All because I was trying to be kind to someone who use that kindness against me. Talk about irony.

I'm fine though—this has happened to me before. But this time it feels like more of a wake-up call than ever.

So… I’m no longer granting permission for anyone to use my artwork (unless it’s artwork of someone else’s OCs), granted they’ll probably use them anyway regardless of what I say. This is the internet, y’know.

I have an art trade in progress with someone (on DA), but after that, I'll be taking a long break from them. If I resume art trades in the future, they'll be rare and carefully selected.

In the meantime, I’ll work on my own artwork and story-related stuff. Sorry for the downer update.

With the year coming to an end, I’m going to take a break from everything and come back mid January.

I’ve been feeling overwhelmed and stressed out from things going on in the house and out, mainly emergencies and appointments that’s been going on back-to-back. I am also been experiencing burnout too and I have no clue what else to draw at the moment. (I mean I want to draw, but I have no motivation at the moment) So I’m going to take this break to try and relax and recharge so I can get back to drawing again. I’m also going to adjust my pricing and info for my commissions in the meantime.

I don’t know what else to say but take care and I’ll see you next year. Hopefully when I'm back, I'll be in a better, healthier mindset.

So... I've been hesitating on this for quite a long while. I always had cold feet trying to do something that could make or break me to the point that I don't do at all. Putting too much on my plate alongside dealing with a lot of issues where I'm at is pretty scary. But the more I put this thing off, the more I regret it. I know people like my little doodles and some want me to draw something for them, only for me to put it off. I know I have stuff to do; helping with the house, working on my degree etc, etc.

But... I think I'm in a position where I can stop putting this "thing" off and try this.
I'm pretty sure you know where this is going.

I'm going to start doing commissions.

I want to draw stuff for people so they can enjoy their cool OCs in my developing artstyle. Of course, I'm not going to draw almost anything, there's limits to what I could do. My commissions are going to be SFW only, I have people that come in to see me every now and then and believe me, I don't want them to see me drawing a [Oscar Meyer Wiener], a [Anime Girl Mouse Pad you see on eBay], or a [Venus Fly Trap]. ....Yeeeeeah, that joke kinda sucked, but you get what I mean, right?

Anyways, the money from the commissions goes to paying off my monthly tuition payments (which is very manageable) and help with the house in case of emergencies. I have a decent PC setup right now so I'm not looking to upgrade anytime soon. I have a starting price but I might tweak it over time, I don't want it to be cheap nor expensive, somewhere in the middle. Like I said, its to pay for school and I'm being honest here.

I want to do my best at drawing your characters with the guidelines I put in.
There will be a commission info in my gallery that will show a price list and things I can and can't draw. (Though I might need to be more detailed of what I can't do, but we'll see how it goes.)

Here's to moving forward, I guess.

Hey.

Sorry about the lack of stuff and updates, I’ve been down in the dumps for a while. I'm kinda in a rut right now and on the verge of burnout. I don't know what to do really. A lot of things have been happening to me, from stuff going on in the house to things outside of my control, so I've been stressing pretty badly to where it’s affecting how I draw. I’m still gonna do some artwork, but I might have to slow it down before I accidentally burn myself out.

I might do some text submissions like stories, or lore about my characters and their universes in the meantime. Sounds interesting, right?

And about college, due to financial nonsense, I couldn’t finish my degree plan the way I wanted. It sucks, but I wasn’t gonna let that stop me. So I decided to drop from my old college and try applying to an online culinary school and give it a shot. So far, I’m two weeks in (at the time of this entry) and I think I’m doing well, just trying to keep up with online meetings and labs while dealing with things in the house (mainly taking family members place-to-place and helping fix broken stuff). Luckily I got some credit hours from my old school and transferred to this online school, that way I can finish my degree plan early. Fingers crossed that this works.

That’s all I have to say, though.

Kinda glad this portion of the year is over. The semester is over and I passed my classes (Barely but passable). With that out of the way, I can at least try and do a few things before the next one starts in the fall. Clean up, rearrange, plan, and most importantly, draw. I want to get back into drawing and I think I’m getting better. I need to streamline how I draw. With all these experimental drawings I've done, I want to stick to the more flat line art style over my sketchy style, but I can flip-flop whenever. I want to start small with basic commissions and/or art trades before going full-scale commissions. The last thing I want is to screw up and go back to square one. At the moment, I’m looking at sites I could use to set up commissions and whatnot, but in the meantime, I can do a few art trades just to get the ball rolling. I’m kinda nervous doing something like this again since it's been a long time. Besides, I can’t move forward if I don’t try, right?

And like I said in the previous entry, OCs and SFW art only, I have personal reasons for that rule so please understand. I’ll make a detailed list of my Do’s and Don’ts later.

I kinda wanna let you know that I only got less than three weeks before the college semester ends. I got most of my assignment completed, so I might need to focus on finishing these classes up. Especially the class with a written report, yikes. I got the bullet points for what I want in my report, all I need to do is to get writing.

Another update is about my job... well, lack of eventually as I went ahead and gave the manager my two weeks notice. I didn't quite like how the cleaning operation of the job was handled and was concerned about possible health hazards (not like viruses, germs on clean dishes). I got no beef with anyone there, they're good people. It's just that I'm kind of a neat freak that wants to make sure things are clean so no one get sick and making me do multiple task alongside my main job could cause some sanitation issues. Also, I'm not a night person and working night hours REALLY messed me up. I've never stayed up passed 3 AM before and now I wake up almost at noon. That's crazy!

Basically, I'm leaving work so I can focus more on college. Once the semester is done, I'll look for a more flexible job that will work with me for the next semester. But I really need a break from both first, I kinda bit off more than I could chew this year.

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I have a question: Once my semester is over by May 11th, would anyone like the Idea of me doing commissions/art trades?
I want to get back to it, but I really need to put down some ground rules. To be brief, I can do SFW and OC artwork only. I have personal reasons for those limitations and I hope everyone's okay with that, plus I want to start out small before tackling bigger projects. I don't want to burnout early.

But what do you think? Interested?

The semester's almost over, and a lot of assignments need to be done before the deadline.
I might be going silent for a hot moment. I'll still upload some old (and recent) stuff but it'll take a while.

I'm currently just uploading some artwork from 2022 and 2023 while I'm drawing on my free time.

Just do expect some inconsistent art styles, I was trying to do some experiments and what not.