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taking digital pin up commissions for 20 dollars
Posted 11 years agoGot a selection of good things on sale, stranger.
(since nobody wanted to commission me at the last price, i have lowered my price to 20.)
Yes, I decided to open my self for some digital pinup commissions that are colored and shaded for only 20 dollars!
Choose your theme and what your character shall be wearing and such.
Here is how the results will look like:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13883026/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13680305/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13036817/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12626277/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12643383/
interested? Note me ref and what you want!
(since nobody wanted to commission me at the last price, i have lowered my price to 20.)
Yes, I decided to open my self for some digital pinup commissions that are colored and shaded for only 20 dollars!
Choose your theme and what your character shall be wearing and such.
Here is how the results will look like:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13883026/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13680305/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13036817/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12626277/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12643383/
interested? Note me ref and what you want!
Bored meme
Posted 11 years agoInvented this myself!
Naah just kidding, i saw
lycanthris make one and he got it from 
rukaisho
Last Person That
Slept in your bed besides you?
never slept with anyone, dont bring my mood down now.
Saw you cry?
My friends at EF when it was on the last day and i didnt wanna go home from EF
You went to the movies with?
My movie friends Morten and Kevin, we are like MST3K gang at the movies when we got the hall by ourselves.
You went out to dinner with?
My friends when we were at EF
You talked on the phone to?
My friend Kevin when i was in the car... hard to talk while driving, i should pull over when someone calls me or get some kind of hands free device.
Made you laugh?
My movie friends when we were watching some silly movie
Would You Rather
Pierce your nose or your tongue?
my nose since it sounds lesss painful.
Be serious or be funny?
Funny, cause it helps against depression.
Drink whole or skimmed milk?
Can i mix it with Nesquick?
Die in a fire or drowning?
It's better to burn out in flames and glory, than to fade away into the dark abyss of the depths.
Spend time with your parents or enemies?
My parents are boring and my enemies are uncomfortable, but my parents sounds like the better choice.
Are You?
Simple or complicated?
uuuh, i dont know, what do you guys think?
Straight, gay or bisexual?
in the furry world i am bi as fuck, in real life i am straight.
Tall or short?
is 1.72 meters tall?
Right handed or left handed?
Right-handed.
A lover of music or a lover of books?
the soundtrack from company of heroes 2 and Linked Horizon has shown me my love for music.
Do You Prefer
Flowers or sweets?
a blue rose would be nice, but i prefer sweets.
Gray or black?
I like black colored clothes, especially T-shirts... but not on sunny days.
Color photos or black-and-white photos?
Colo photos! and dont be surprised when you see me making faces in photos XD
Sunrise or sunset?
Sunrise! cause it means i have the entire day ahead of me ^^
M&Ms or Skittles?
What American stuff are these things?
Staying up late or waking up early?
I used to be staying up late, but now i got school, so no more mr nightwolf.
Sun or moon?
Come on, both are good! The sun makes happiness, while the moon makes this night romantic atmosphere... or have you ever played Metro Last light? If so, you should know what i mean.
Winter or Autumn?
One is shoveling snow and the other is raking leaves.... atleast you rake the leaves once. So autumn it is!
10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?
why not both? Or would the 10 acquaintances feel left out? How about 10 best friends?
Rainy or sunny?
Sun! because who doesnt love being out on the beach in the sun? ^^
Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?
CHOCOLATE!!
Vodka or Jack?
Dude, where's my scotch whisky?
About You
What time is it?
It's adventure time!
Just kidding, its 11:09 am
Name?
My real name is Kjetil, while my furry name is Rob Swiftclaw or Swift47.
Nicknames?
Greyleg.
When is your birthday?
I just had it 4 days ago, on august 29th.
What do you want?
A steady paying job, To be an uncle, my own house and mot important of all... a woman to love...
How many kids do you want?
I wanna be an uncle!
What would you name a girl?
Jenna
What would you name a boy?
uuuh, not that good with boys names... Harald?
Do you want to get married?
To the girl who loves me and i love her? Hell yeah!
What kind of music do you like?
Orchestra, Violin, Rock, Techno and Celtic music!
Unique
Nervous habits?
Desperatly wanting to know the truth, ask too many questions and too much stress.
Are you double-jointed?
Whats double-jointed?
Can you roll your tongue?
Nope, but i can make the clicking sound the Predator makes
Can you raise one eyebrow?
like Johnny Bravo? I think so.
Can you cross your eyes?
Duuuuuuuuuh :P Yes i can.
Random
Which shoe goes on first?
Right one first, left one second
On average, how much money do you carry with you?
Are you trying to Rob me?
What jewelry do you wear?
does these kick ass gloves count?
Do you twirl or cut spaghetti?
Like a twister.
Have you ever eaten Spam?
Nope,but does it taste good?
Favorite ice cream?
Chocolate and strawberries! 8D
How many kinds of cereal are in your cupboard?
Too many healthy ones.
Can you cook?
I can make beef! :D
Last
Alcoholic beverage?
Grant's blended scotch whisky
Car ride?
Home from my univeristy
Song played?
Linked horizon - Wings of Freedom (loooooooove that song!)
Person you saw?
Hey look, some dude on rollerskies outside the window!
Time you cried?
Sunday one week ago when EF was almost over.
Fought?
A few weeks ago that involved art trade jealousy...
Naah just kidding, i saw
lycanthris make one and he got it from 
rukaisho Last Person That
Slept in your bed besides you?
never slept with anyone, dont bring my mood down now.
Saw you cry?
My friends at EF when it was on the last day and i didnt wanna go home from EF
You went to the movies with?
My movie friends Morten and Kevin, we are like MST3K gang at the movies when we got the hall by ourselves.
You went out to dinner with?
My friends when we were at EF
You talked on the phone to?
My friend Kevin when i was in the car... hard to talk while driving, i should pull over when someone calls me or get some kind of hands free device.
Made you laugh?
My movie friends when we were watching some silly movie
Would You Rather
Pierce your nose or your tongue?
my nose since it sounds lesss painful.
Be serious or be funny?
Funny, cause it helps against depression.
Drink whole or skimmed milk?
Can i mix it with Nesquick?
Die in a fire or drowning?
It's better to burn out in flames and glory, than to fade away into the dark abyss of the depths.
Spend time with your parents or enemies?
My parents are boring and my enemies are uncomfortable, but my parents sounds like the better choice.
Are You?
Simple or complicated?
uuuh, i dont know, what do you guys think?
Straight, gay or bisexual?
in the furry world i am bi as fuck, in real life i am straight.
Tall or short?
is 1.72 meters tall?
Right handed or left handed?
Right-handed.
A lover of music or a lover of books?
the soundtrack from company of heroes 2 and Linked Horizon has shown me my love for music.
Do You Prefer
Flowers or sweets?
a blue rose would be nice, but i prefer sweets.
Gray or black?
I like black colored clothes, especially T-shirts... but not on sunny days.
Color photos or black-and-white photos?
Colo photos! and dont be surprised when you see me making faces in photos XD
Sunrise or sunset?
Sunrise! cause it means i have the entire day ahead of me ^^
M&Ms or Skittles?
What American stuff are these things?
Staying up late or waking up early?
I used to be staying up late, but now i got school, so no more mr nightwolf.
Sun or moon?
Come on, both are good! The sun makes happiness, while the moon makes this night romantic atmosphere... or have you ever played Metro Last light? If so, you should know what i mean.
Winter or Autumn?
One is shoveling snow and the other is raking leaves.... atleast you rake the leaves once. So autumn it is!
10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?
why not both? Or would the 10 acquaintances feel left out? How about 10 best friends?
Rainy or sunny?
Sun! because who doesnt love being out on the beach in the sun? ^^
Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?
CHOCOLATE!!
Vodka or Jack?
Dude, where's my scotch whisky?
About You
What time is it?
It's adventure time!
Just kidding, its 11:09 am
Name?
My real name is Kjetil, while my furry name is Rob Swiftclaw or Swift47.
Nicknames?
Greyleg.
When is your birthday?
I just had it 4 days ago, on august 29th.
What do you want?
A steady paying job, To be an uncle, my own house and mot important of all... a woman to love...
How many kids do you want?
I wanna be an uncle!
What would you name a girl?
Jenna
What would you name a boy?
uuuh, not that good with boys names... Harald?
Do you want to get married?
To the girl who loves me and i love her? Hell yeah!
What kind of music do you like?
Orchestra, Violin, Rock, Techno and Celtic music!
Unique
Nervous habits?
Desperatly wanting to know the truth, ask too many questions and too much stress.
Are you double-jointed?
Whats double-jointed?
Can you roll your tongue?
Nope, but i can make the clicking sound the Predator makes
Can you raise one eyebrow?
like Johnny Bravo? I think so.
Can you cross your eyes?
Duuuuuuuuuh :P Yes i can.
Random
Which shoe goes on first?
Right one first, left one second
On average, how much money do you carry with you?
Are you trying to Rob me?
What jewelry do you wear?
does these kick ass gloves count?
Do you twirl or cut spaghetti?
Like a twister.
Have you ever eaten Spam?
Nope,but does it taste good?
Favorite ice cream?
Chocolate and strawberries! 8D
How many kinds of cereal are in your cupboard?
Too many healthy ones.
Can you cook?
I can make beef! :D
Last
Alcoholic beverage?
Grant's blended scotch whisky
Car ride?
Home from my univeristy
Song played?
Linked horizon - Wings of Freedom (loooooooove that song!)
Person you saw?
Hey look, some dude on rollerskies outside the window!
Time you cried?
Sunday one week ago when EF was almost over.
Fought?
A few weeks ago that involved art trade jealousy...
taking digital pin up commissions for 30 dollars
Posted 11 years agoGot a selection of good things on sale, stranger.
Yes, I decided to open my self for some digital pinup commissions that are colored and shaded for only 30 dollars!
Choose your theme and what your character shall be wearing and such.
Here is how the results will look like:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13883026/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13680305/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13036817/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12626277/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12643383/
interested? Note me ref and what you want!
Yes, I decided to open my self for some digital pinup commissions that are colored and shaded for only 30 dollars!
Choose your theme and what your character shall be wearing and such.
Here is how the results will look like:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13883026/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13680305/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13036817/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12626277/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12643383/
interested? Note me ref and what you want!
Its my birthday again!
Posted 11 years agoYaaaay im 23 years old!
I got a smartphone and the remastered version of The last of us for the ps4
And i also got the redux version of the Metro 2033 games!
I FUCKING LOVE METRO!!! <3 <3
oh and this year, my emo vixen Veronica is gonna be the cake ^^
I hope you guys will enjoy her when i upload her X3
I got a smartphone and the remastered version of The last of us for the ps4
And i also got the redux version of the Metro 2033 games!
I FUCKING LOVE METRO!!! <3 <3
oh and this year, my emo vixen Veronica is gonna be the cake ^^
I hope you guys will enjoy her when i upload her X3
Birthday tomorrow
Posted 11 years agohurray, im gonna be 23 tomorrow.
I'm just so excited and i want to be dinning on pizza and other unhealthy tasty stuff to celebrate the day i crawled out of my moms pussy and escaped her womb!
(I dont hate my mom, I actually love my mom very much, but i do love some extreme humor from time to time XD)
I'm just so excited and i want to be dinning on pizza and other unhealthy tasty stuff to celebrate the day i crawled out of my moms pussy and escaped her womb!
(I dont hate my mom, I actually love my mom very much, but i do love some extreme humor from time to time XD)
and i betrayed you? Vent/rant
Posted 11 years agoAchtung, Venting ahead
Why would you call me a traitor and dishonest when all i did was just hiding you from a grim truth i didnt wanna tell you because I knew it was gonna hurt you?
First of all, i have a standard on who i do art trade with, i dont wanna do a trade with those who doesnt meet my standards.
I did nothing wrong, i just thought that if i didnt wanna do a trade with you, you would feel bad and hurted, and i didnt wanna do that!
But all the other times that didnt involve art trade, i respected you, i cared for you, and i loved you, yet you kept talking like i fucking stabbed you in the back by stealing your girlfriend or betraying you in some other major way.
But all i ever did... was to just to hide the aweful truth to not hurt you.... but i guess that was bad aswell.
Pluss, when you gave me that valentines gift, i was so thankful and honored by it!
But for some reason, you thought i wasnt being appreciating enough, you wanted me to give you an art gift aswell.
You got jealous when you saw i was giving my friends gift, and even insulted them aswell...
First of all, i have quite a few friends, and i cant give everyone a gift, and besides.... When you give someone a gift, you shouldnt expect something in return, Gifts dont work that way!
and our friendship, has been ruined because all you ever wanted was to do an art trade, and i didnt want to.
Why would you call me a traitor and dishonest when all i did was just hiding you from a grim truth i didnt wanna tell you because I knew it was gonna hurt you?
First of all, i have a standard on who i do art trade with, i dont wanna do a trade with those who doesnt meet my standards.
I did nothing wrong, i just thought that if i didnt wanna do a trade with you, you would feel bad and hurted, and i didnt wanna do that!
But all the other times that didnt involve art trade, i respected you, i cared for you, and i loved you, yet you kept talking like i fucking stabbed you in the back by stealing your girlfriend or betraying you in some other major way.
But all i ever did... was to just to hide the aweful truth to not hurt you.... but i guess that was bad aswell.
Pluss, when you gave me that valentines gift, i was so thankful and honored by it!
But for some reason, you thought i wasnt being appreciating enough, you wanted me to give you an art gift aswell.
You got jealous when you saw i was giving my friends gift, and even insulted them aswell...
First of all, i have quite a few friends, and i cant give everyone a gift, and besides.... When you give someone a gift, you shouldnt expect something in return, Gifts dont work that way!
and our friendship, has been ruined because all you ever wanted was to do an art trade, and i didnt want to.
back from EF
Posted 11 years agoso im finally home, unpacking and getting over the post con depression.
but all in all... i had a fantastic time of my life there.
I managed to at the very last moment and last day at the con, to make it up from the shyness and loneliness.
I then brought myself to be with my friends, make new friends and dance like a crazy wolf on the dead dog dance party!
It was amazing, i loved it all, and im happy i managed to save the feeling at being at the con with happiness and defeat the shyness.
I hope i can save just the right amount of money for the next years EF
and thanks to all the wonderful artists i met there, it was an honor meeting you there.
but all in all... i had a fantastic time of my life there.
I managed to at the very last moment and last day at the con, to make it up from the shyness and loneliness.
I then brought myself to be with my friends, make new friends and dance like a crazy wolf on the dead dog dance party!
It was amazing, i loved it all, and im happy i managed to save the feeling at being at the con with happiness and defeat the shyness.
I hope i can save just the right amount of money for the next years EF
and thanks to all the wonderful artists i met there, it was an honor meeting you there.
the post con depression and shyness.
Posted 11 years agowell... Eurofurence 20 is technically over, but a few furs stay and wont leave until tomorrow, and im one of them.
However... this has been some of the best time of my life and i loved it here, all these furries and people with my interests and being able to meet and commission my most favorite artist in person was like a dream come true.
However... i got this post con depression since i feel like i have to leave this wonderful place of furries and such.
but... i just wish i had the guts and speech skills to atleast have been able to break through my shyness so i can talk to others and socialize with more furs.
Atleast i didnt spend most of my time alone in the room the entire con, but i wish i attended some more events (like the pawpet show) but certain delays kinda turned the temptation off...
Anyway, my biggest regrets is that i didnt sociolized more and tried to befriend more furries and such....
But i cant... im too shy and even if tried to say "hi" i would just run out of material to talk about insantly and then it would leave me sitting there in silence while the others talk and interact... making me feel left out...
I wish i spent more time with my friends here at the con, but now its over... i wish i had more time.
I dont wanna go back to school again...
However... this has been some of the best time of my life and i loved it here, all these furries and people with my interests and being able to meet and commission my most favorite artist in person was like a dream come true.
However... i got this post con depression since i feel like i have to leave this wonderful place of furries and such.
but... i just wish i had the guts and speech skills to atleast have been able to break through my shyness so i can talk to others and socialize with more furs.
Atleast i didnt spend most of my time alone in the room the entire con, but i wish i attended some more events (like the pawpet show) but certain delays kinda turned the temptation off...
Anyway, my biggest regrets is that i didnt sociolized more and tried to befriend more furries and such....
But i cant... im too shy and even if tried to say "hi" i would just run out of material to talk about insantly and then it would leave me sitting there in silence while the others talk and interact... making me feel left out...
I wish i spent more time with my friends here at the con, but now its over... i wish i had more time.
I dont wanna go back to school again...
never be alone at a con...
Posted 11 years agoif you do... the loneliness will grasp onto you...set its claws into you and pull you down into depression...
And we all know how dangerous and what depression can lead to...
I need to find my friends fast....
And we all know how dangerous and what depression can lead to...
I need to find my friends fast....
Going to EF next week
Posted 11 years agoi cannot believe im actually going to a big major furry convention... EF 20!
I'm going on an adventure!
I'm going on an adventure!
that moment when you think your laptopt has died
Posted 11 years agoseriously... its not a good feeling. But thank god it didnt die!
I have almost everything on this thing, i need a backup of all my furry stuff and drawings... and other stuff.
I need an external hardrive, and fast!
I have almost everything on this thing, i need a backup of all my furry stuff and drawings... and other stuff.
I need an external hardrive, and fast!
whats the point of being in love....
Posted 11 years agowhen everyone you love is taken, not interested or in love with someone else....
Might aswell give up and be single forever....
Might aswell give up and be single forever....
sometimes i feel lonely in the furry fandom
Posted 11 years agoyeah... i dont have that many friends in the furry fandom, sure i have a list of them on my profle, but they are hardly on skype and most of the times i am the one who has to text back!
i thought i would find many friends here, but i guess i need to be popular first...
i thought i would find many friends here, but i guess i need to be popular first...
any norwegian furs wanna be friends? :)
Posted 11 years agohello, im Swift47 and im a norwegian furs... i was just wondering if there are any more norwegian furs who wants to be friends?
I mean, i really like you norwegian furs and i thought that perhaps we could be good friends and share art and talk furry stuff?
I was thinking of sending you guys notes, but i also thought that you guys may not have notes avaible. ^^'
so... any norwegian furs who wanna be friends please? i can be a really good friend :)
I mean, i really like you norwegian furs and i thought that perhaps we could be good friends and share art and talk furry stuff?
I was thinking of sending you guys notes, but i also thought that you guys may not have notes avaible. ^^'
so... any norwegian furs who wanna be friends please? i can be a really good friend :)
but thank god when you fix it :D
Posted 11 years agothe best feeling however, is when you managed to fix the friendship with your friend... oh i feel so relieved and at ease... my shaking has stopped and i feel like i can rest more easy. Thank you so much :D
its not funny to feel like a friend dont like you anymore..
Posted 11 years agoi just... i just want us to be friends again, like in the old days so we could share art, talk and have fun like friends.
I dont like the silence.. i know I may be bothersome because i send so many PMs... but thats because i am desperate and just want to hear back from you...
I dont mean to sound like a jerk or annoying... just tell me that everything is fine.. and i will stop... its just that i care for you so much, and our friendship means so much to me... and i dont want it to be broken apart.. i want it to last forever... and its killing me right now to know that i havent heard from you.... please... my chest is hurting and i just want to know if its okay :(
I dont like the silence.. i know I may be bothersome because i send so many PMs... but thats because i am desperate and just want to hear back from you...
I dont mean to sound like a jerk or annoying... just tell me that everything is fine.. and i will stop... its just that i care for you so much, and our friendship means so much to me... and i dont want it to be broken apart.. i want it to last forever... and its killing me right now to know that i havent heard from you.... please... my chest is hurting and i just want to know if its okay :(
i just love mass effect so much <3 <3
Posted 11 years agoseriously... i just love this saga so much it makes me cry out of happiness.
and who else thought this was your favorite part in the entire game?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yw-8sAuOoaY
and who else thought this was your favorite part in the entire game?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yw-8sAuOoaY
its snowing...
Posted 11 years agoin the middle of fucknig june!?
I was thinking about going for a bicycle ride to deliver a paycheck so i can get some money for hard work... little did i know that one of my great nemesis is back.... Snow!
im not kidding, im looking outside the window, and its a fucking blizzard outside... in the middle of june!
Yes, thats what i get for living so far north up on norway here, i am so shocked i had to write a journal about it.
I was thinking about going for a bicycle ride to deliver a paycheck so i can get some money for hard work... little did i know that one of my great nemesis is back.... Snow!
im not kidding, im looking outside the window, and its a fucking blizzard outside... in the middle of june!
Yes, thats what i get for living so far north up on norway here, i am so shocked i had to write a journal about it.
open for more bellydancing commissions!
Posted 11 years agoI am open for more bellydancing commissions!
Got a sellection of good things on sales, stranger!
get yours for 30USD and you can be as faboulus as me and Dargan! :D
examples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13588641/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13622066/
Send me notes, if you want one, i can draw both males and females ^^
So, is that all stranger?
Heh heh heh heh, thank you!
Got a sellection of good things on sales, stranger!
get yours for 30USD and you can be as faboulus as me and Dargan! :D
examples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13588641/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13622066/
Send me notes, if you want one, i can draw both males and females ^^
So, is that all stranger?
Heh heh heh heh, thank you!
dont look back
Posted 11 years agolook forward and aim for what you love the most. and if someone tells you no, fuck them and shove them out of the way... or kill them if they get too anyoing.. or not, thats criminal, but you guys know what i mean! i love those who love me, and those who dont love me, well you are missing alot of love!
today is pawday?
Posted 11 years agowhats pawday?
Who invented it?
Who invented it?
happy norwegian constitution day, a 200 year old anniversary
Posted 11 years agoIt began, long ago,
200 years ago in Eidsvoll Norway. The norwegian constitution was written and the country of Norway became like it is today.. some kind of democracy, i dont fully remember.
Anyway, ive been walking in a parade and waved a big norwegian flag like a real patritiotic nationalist.
Lets celebrate with pride and joy.
For Kongen og Fedrelandet, Alt for Norge.
now raise for the norwegian national anthem
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRS6cbLOrPQ
200 years ago in Eidsvoll Norway. The norwegian constitution was written and the country of Norway became like it is today.. some kind of democracy, i dont fully remember.
Anyway, ive been walking in a parade and waved a big norwegian flag like a real patritiotic nationalist.
Lets celebrate with pride and joy.
For Kongen og Fedrelandet, Alt for Norge.
now raise for the norwegian national anthem
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRS6cbLOrPQ
gotta stay good!
Posted 11 years agoI, swift47 also known as just Swift or Rob Swiftclaw or sometimes boostmannen over the multiplayer games i play, promise to stay positive and happier by focusing on what i love to do and what i love. Instead of caring too much on the shit that brings me down and what makes me jealous, i shall instead look at what i am capable of doing and what i love. Like the orchestra in company of heroes 2, the stalker games and how good i can make beef and my closests friends that means so much to me and keeps me sane and happy.
I will now open a new chapter on my life on how my happiness will increase and stay higher and more stable than ever.
I will now open a new chapter on my life on how my happiness will increase and stay higher and more stable than ever.
fuck it, im drawing!
Posted 11 years agotake that artblock, suck on my artistic cock as i cum out art!
new tablet, but not motivated to draw at all...
Posted 11 years agoso i finally got my new tablet.. but i dont know anymore, i dont know if i wanna draw anymore, im so depressed and so far video games have been a far better distraction for me than drawing.
Gaah, i hate having depression and jealousy. I try my best to ignore it and just move on.. but everytime im just reminded and it destroys me and makes me stop everything im doing and just stand there and remember and being in pain.
Why me... im tired of all this pain and depression. Not to mention ive spent over hundreds if not thousands of dollars just to try and upgrade my fucking pc but to no avail since the fucking components wont work.
Ugh... are there nothing positive in this world?
I need to go on medication, if not drugs or weed. I will try anything to make myself fully happy again.
Gaah, i hate having depression and jealousy. I try my best to ignore it and just move on.. but everytime im just reminded and it destroys me and makes me stop everything im doing and just stand there and remember and being in pain.
Why me... im tired of all this pain and depression. Not to mention ive spent over hundreds if not thousands of dollars just to try and upgrade my fucking pc but to no avail since the fucking components wont work.
Ugh... are there nothing positive in this world?
I need to go on medication, if not drugs or weed. I will try anything to make myself fully happy again.
