Heyyy! I'm still about, been a while since I made a journal huh? @.@

We moved out of the last place a few years after moving in, the neighbours were real assholes and started threatening us when we filed a noise complaint against them for playing music so loud you'd think you were living next to a club.

Anyway! I've been meeting new people online since then, becoming friends with 1 or 2 of them and having some interesting discussions with a few others, as well as slowly improving my drawing skills over the last 14 drawings :3

I've not uploaded to YouTube for a while which is frustrating. Just not been in the right place mentally to sit down and edit something >_<
I have streamed on Twitch here and there though, had a few viewers which was nice, fun little chats ^w^

I have a drawing or 2 in the planning phase, 1 request from someone I've met recently, though there focus is more.... adult themed, so i wont be linking anything specific for safety in case it breaches ToS or whatever. Might dabble with making moulds for DnD dice etc, see where that takes me.
Other than that, not much to report for now.

See you in the journal a few years from now or something, lol X3

So I am now back in Derby after, living in what can probably be described as a slum area, maybe... It's cheap and affordable, but with my wife being the only one with a job (still...) we are having to make do. We've had our ups and downs, mini arguments about money and the like, but we're still together and love each other despite some cock-ups and personal issues. Angel is now an Assistant Manager at a local Showcase Cinema, which can be demanding at times.

I'm managing to stay sane, being alone for 80% of a day sometimes, so when I'm not hiding under the bed covers in some depressed state feeling worthless, I'm either trying to keep the house clean, trying to make sure I actually eat something or hiding under a blanket playing something on the XB1, Switch or DS...
I have a handful of people I can talk to at certain times in the day, but most are at work or taking care of their families during the day time. As needy as I can be, and have been in past, I try and give everyone some space, sometimes a few days as I often feel like I'm pushing for attention too much... @_@

I realise a lot of, or maybe just some of what you just read might come as a shock to some of you, I'm usually so cheerful and happy-go-lucky, but, unfortunately, I have some deep-seated crap that is being a real pain to get over... My cheerfulness isn't a total facade, I wouldn't be totally surprised if I was some kind of bipolar or something, but when I'm not laughing and having fun with peeps, I kinda feel hollow.

Despite all that... I want to say thank you, to everyone who keeps me company, whether it's on a messenger, in a game, or the rare few who I meet in person, you guys help me stay some-what sane-er than I am when it's just me and the 4 walls :) Thankyou for giving this damaged fluff a chance :3

I updated my FA info' recently. I'm on Discord and Telegram now, as well as Tumblr which will be my "anything goes" area where I post my art, thoughts etc, so my posts or likes may not agree with some people, you've been warned / notified.

To the few peeps who still watch me here, I will be moving house tomorrow and may be offline for anything up to a month whilst our internet provider sorts out our connection. I doubt it will take that long but you never know.

Messing about with streaming again :D XD

https://mixer.com/SaberRusty

It's been sooo long :O

I hope you are all doing ok, things for me have been... slow >___<
Still searching for a job, still depressed, blah blah blah, but that's not why I'm posting, no negative crap!

I've started drawing again :3 I don't fully understand how or why, but I suddenly decided I wanted to draw something, and I did :O I think I've drawn about 5 pictures in the last week, my most recent (which I'm finishing off the clean-up before inking for right now), took a little longer, because of some new and some troublesome elements related to the theme @_@
I wont spoil what it is, but It'll be my first hybrid fur, and she's gonna be so puuuurrrty *wriggles* :3 ^w^

The only thing I can think of that inspired me was (and this is something I very rarely do, believe me), playing a flash text RPG called "Corruption of Champions". As a note, it can be pretty... lewd >w>;
I remember playing it before when it didn't have an official title and recently (maybe two weeks ago) found it in it's most recent build. The main thing that stood out to me was there was a debug mode, which let you use enhancement
potions + fruits to alter your character, infinitely, which lead to an, uh..... interestingly endowed character >.>;
I ended up with a 9ft, toned, slender, feminine, male kitty, with a normal cat tail, horse ears, bee antennae, bull horns, bee wings (big enough that to fly with), and (unfortunately?) a biiig ol' horse member that'd make anyone dizzy >_>; This was all before I found some demon potions and "broke" them D:
Wouldn't mind trying to draw them, buuuut certain elements would cause trouble on the paper X3


In other news, a LOT will be happening in the next month or 2 but I can't really say until it happens or just after X3; So bare with me if I'm absent for a while again, on here, DA and YouTube, but I would really like to be more active here again, I miss the old days...

I'm still very self conscious about my art, and my confidence is a little shaky, but I think my current goal would be do do some sort of growth donation series, thingies (Is that the best way to describe them?). I'd love to be able to entertain people with my art by doing something like that, all the ones I've seen have always looked like they were fun to do :3

Anywho, until next time, stay positive, kick life in the balls! :3 X3

Hey all. I uploaded an update video to Youtube recently, though I'd share it here.
Sorry for the laziness and the sometimes hard to hear speech in the video (I forgot to change the audio levels).
Been a bit down as of late and I've had to focus a little more on finding a job. Hopefully the interview I had yesterday at my local CineWorld went well :3 It went from being a 4 person group interview to a 1 to 1, so that was 1 point in my favour I guess XD

https://youtu.be/nzcr7aER0N0

Well poop.....

Somehow I've managed to get a near end game quest and decided to experiment with it's completion.
Turns out that it bugs the Brotherhoods mission on that area and forces you to follow the Minutemen (if you don't want to work for the Institute that is). Either way though, it was a very confusing yet interesting experience XD


P.s. Hey guys! I'm still alive XD Just been busy with stuffffff and the like :)

What a week that was! :3

Japan was probably one of the most interesting holidays I've ever had and I wish we had been able to have
another week there to see all of the things that we missed or couldn't afford to go and see :(

We went to see:

Some shrines and markets, where we took in the sights, browsed wares and enjoyed the food (Takoyaki! :3 );

Tokyo Tower and the One Piece World gift shop (we wanted to go see the live performance but weren't super
fussed about it;

Tokyo Sky Tree and the My Neighbour Totoro store near it;

Akihabara, where we browsed most of its shops and electrical stores, as well as going to a Maid Cafe (that was a very interesting experience);

The Epson Aqua Park in Shinagawa, where we amazed at the sensory wonders and interactive fish tanks that they have, as
well as watching a 30 minute show performed by 7 or 8 dolphins of varying type.
Also, yes it's THAT Epson, the printer company. They even had 3 printers on display in a bar area!;

Shibuya, where we saw the Meiji Jingu Shinto shrine. There was an almost constant chorus of cicadas, but other than that,
near silence, apart from the "toots" of the trains arriving at the station, you could barely hear the traffic of the city.
We went to see an museum containing historical information and items relating to the local area (Angel was glad that she had been able to see it);
The tourist restaurant there had the best takoyaki we had ever had! :3

One of the main attractions was the Tokyo Game Show! We got so many leaflets and freebies XD most of which we
can't read, but some of the teams there had english copies of what they were handing out so that was cool :D
Angel played some of the games that were on display and we think we broke one of the staff because she was doing
so well on one of the games, making VERY long chains for points, shouts of "sugoi!" every 5 seconds XD
We also tried the demo for the upcoming Mobile Edition of Torchlight, which looks to have it's own story and classes to
choose from (one is a cat-girl :3 XD ).

I was excited to see that there were announcements for a Project X Zone 2 game, and am wanting to buy a game called
Barcode Knight, where you scan barcodes and the generate a group of enemies for your character to fight
(that's all done automatically, but we were told the will always generate the same group), I see myself going to the local
Tesco and scanning isle after isle to find the best groups XD

Theres so much more that we did in between but I can't quite focus on things at the moment, I've been trying to catalogue
what we got so that we can scrapbook it for memories and nostalgia but it's taking a while.

I'll browse through some of our holiday photos and upload a few :D

Hey all! Sorry that I have been quiet for a while, I've been caught up in making youtube videos and preparing for a honeymoon trip to Japan in the next week and a bit, marking 1 year of being married to  furryangel :3

Anywho. I am planning a Q&A video as the title of this journal says and am curious to know if anyone has questions they'd want to ask me? I'd probably draw a line at a few subjects but that would depend on what the question was and / or how it was worded.

https://youtu.be/XJ4yiQ0c3TU

The video bellow Is me, talking for the first time in what I would call a very public situation, outlining what I aim to do with my YouTube Channel but also how I want to try and combat my depression and confidence problems.
Those of you who aren't able to watch it, in a hurry or are somewhere noisy etc, I'll outline what I cover in the video bellow it and a few extra things i forgot to talk about.

https://youtu.be/R5IRKQRB0qk

I've probably come across as quiet, shy and kinda anti-social to many of you in the years I've been here on FA, and you'd be right. I want to open up and express myself more, fight this annoying depression and the issues I have with my confidence because it's definitely starting to pull me down...

Recently, I bought an Elgato capture device. This is what I hope to be the start of bettering myself and to build my confidence to speak out in public, to new people etc

My plan to do this is by starting things like:
- A "Let's Play" series
- Play through challenges, like Playing a game on hardest difficulty, only use this weapon type etc
- Q&A videos for those who want to know me better
- Creative videos, not entirely sure what these would involve right now, maybe start with what I know I can do easily like Black Ops 2 emblems.

If all goes well tomorrow afternoon, I'll be working at a Sainsburys story for 3 days a week :3
Not sure if it is seasonal work or not, don't remember seeing it mentioned on the site.

3pm on Saturday 20th September 2014,  furryangel and I got married :3

It was a wonderful day, a great service, fun reception despite the DJ being a twerp. We caught up with family members we hadn't seen in ages and met new ones, as well as some friends from online, furry and non-furry :D

One highlight from the reception was Angel telling some of my friends to "get some drinks in him", little did she know that I would end up necking a double vodka and ice with a shot off liquorice sambuca mixed in... tasted like Covonia cough medicine XD Was the only strong drink I had that night, mostly because why not, but it hit me fast so i wasn't in much of a condition to stand up XD; BUT, i remember everything and thats good!!!

We also (slightly to my annoyance amongst other things) moved into a house owned by one of Angel's cousins so we now have a lot more space to puts things into! the catch was that It had been decided that we should move the weekend before our wedding, which put both of us into super stressed moods...
It's over and done with now though, so once we have properly settled we will have a very nice living space ^_^



As a side note, my appologies to anyone who got any weird Notes from me in the last year or 2, depression has made me do some odd things in that time, but for the moment I feel a little more uplifted :3

A few of you may remember that a long time ago i used to play an MMORPG called Dofus.

Somewhere in the 3 years that I was at university, my account was banned and I finally remembered to try again with recovering the account.

Unfortunately, it appears that the developers had a security breach and a number of accounts were compromised, mine being one of them....

I was informed of this in a support ticket that i filed on saturday, eventually getting a response mid evening yesterday (24th July):

"Monaka Yesterday at 18:58
Hello *******,

Thank you for contacting Ankama Customer Support and apologies for the delayed response.

The account was permanently banned for using a bot. Unfortunately, since this is a permanent ban, the account will not be released.

If you have other concerns or inquiries, please feel free to send us a ticket.

Best regards,

Ankama Customer Support"

Anyone familiar with MMOs will know the level of dedication you put into you characters, my best was level 80 and I had quite a few other high progress items, a guild (though it was just me and 2 or 3 other people) and a butt load of materials for baking bread and to sell on the markets (I liked messing with the economy).

Oh well, if i ever decide to go back it's a fresh start for me i guess...

Trying something constructive to keep my mind off of things etc, so i've started a blog to share my random thoughts and what-not :D

http://saberrusty.blogspot.co.uk

I've been very quiet recently haven't i.....

hasn't been intentional, between my second laptop starting to reach "that age" and being super depressed from having very poor luck getting a job, i've ended up turtling and going all anti-social on the world again :/

I'm trying to get my self confidence back aswell. Some of you may remember that i took a pretty big hit during my time at university when i was made to question what it was i wanted to do with my life, which to be honest is still a mystery to me...
I've tried to talk more on the XBox, that has often been a challenge for me but i have met some nice people on XboxLive recently who are always fun to talk too :3

I am toying with FIMO once again now that i have found where i can buy some black phone strap thingies for little phone charms etc :D Made a cactaur and a tonberry a few weeks ago which i will try to post some pictures of, so yeh, i may start making random charms for phones / keyrings if i can pull myself together!


On the gaming front, Warface has eaten the last few days of my time now that it is in public Beta mode. The closed Beta was fun but you could level up way to easily so i got bored with it :( It would ben nice to have gotten a comemerative weapon or something but i suppose having a VIP status in game lobbies will do for now :/
I've also made a clan if anyone wants to join / needs the achievement fpr creating / joining a clan?

CoD Ghosts grew a little stale. Plants Vs Zombies: Garden Warfare replaced that for a while, yet another game blitzed XD same for Gears of War and Hitman Absolution, gotta love that free game with Gold membership every 2 weeks that theyre doing now XD


Ummm....
Oh, Angel and I are set to be getting married in September this year, busy sorting things etc :3

Having to put up with a lazy housing association as well. upstair's smoke alarms are beeping periodically as a sign of a low battery but they can't send anyone to fix them until they are certain thatbthe curremt tenants have fled. last we heard they could not be contacted and an eviction notice should be being issued at some point soon.....


Sigh... anywho, i am still alive, just been finding it hard to be as social as i used to be :(

Hope to get back into gear and post a few more pictures from my 3DS maybe ;)

till then, have fun :)
pester me on the xbox or else where if you ever need someone to talk to :3

As the title says.

I looks like they jumped away from the Modern Warfare 3 and Black Ops 2 clan system as my own clan is just floating around now :/

Anywho, I prefer to play Extinction mostly, but i don't mind multuplayer that much, i like to have a laugh every now and then.

Eyes are mostly set on the DEVGRU Dominator Helmet, perfect thing to go with my DEVGRU Heavy outfit :D XD

If you want stats and stuff i'll see what i can pull from the leaderboards screens.

The free "Letter" sending App in the Nintendo Store had it's SpotPass capabilities removed last night because of people (including suspected minors) were putting their friend codes onto bulletin boards to send illegal / explicit material to each other.

Nintendo did the right thing i suppose, just sucks that i can't share silly photos from Animal Crossing with everyone ;_;

It wont replace MineCraft as far as adventure games goes but it may be what i play for a while until Mojang add some new stuffs to it, recently i've had to add a few mods to make it more interesting D:

Anyway, i can't stop playing with the character creator on the forums :D
Making a few prototypes in preparation ^_^

For some reason Flash is playing up on me for making gifs so i was forced to search and ended up using:
http://gifmaker.me/
(If peeps know about that site ignore it, i can be a bit derpy with stuff like this XD; ).

My laptop battery came 2 days early so i'm trying to run it right down after a few hours charging @_@

seems to be confused about how much life it actually has left but at least i have a laptop for now :3

SO, now to look through 22k+ submissions....... @_@

Aaaargh, bees are chasing meeeee! XD

I thought i'd post my 3DS friend code and Animal Crossimg "Dream Code" before i got to bed, would be cool to run around with some furry peeps causing mischief :D

Friend Code: 0146 - 9508 -6324

AC:NL Dream Code: 7200 - 2604 - 9958
Discretion is advised with my house. I have been experimening heavily with a "Custom Desigm" image to QR Code maker. The right room of my house has some of the images i have converted on display and they aren't 100% suitable for a young audience >_>; *cough-boobs'n'stuff-cough* So you have been warned.

My dream code is set to private so, this is the only place to find it so far. Also, i believe said designs can be added to your own if i read correctly im my last update.

Contents of the town are subject to change obviously, so new designs may be there next time, other times i may have totally redecorated.

When i can fix my battery for my laptop i will work on an image sheet of all the QR codes i have made so far.

anywho. PM me or whatnot if you'd want to add this crazy sabertooth to your list and i'll be sure to open my town or whatever ^w^

sigh... laptop battery died nearly 2 weeks ago and now i'm limited in what i can browse with now :(
I assume it's the battery. i ran Safari and the estimated time dropped by 2 hours, it was only a blank window D:

So, currently i am unsure whether to let a mac store engineer take it away for upto a week with a £100 flat fee, or buy it and replace it myself / ask my dad to.


In other news!
bought a 3DS XL yesterday, taking advantage of Cash Converter's "20% off all consoles and laptops deal for this week only" offer.
the DS was marked at 79.99, but i got it for 63.99 :D!
at closer inspection of the label it was originally priced at £119.99, but was reduced due to Parental Lock being active.
i've bypassed that now and formatted it so i have my own Personal Mii, AND  furryangel found the SD card the previous owners used, with all it's photos on, was still in thr slot.
so yay, i scored a almost half CC's price, nearly 1/3 normal price, now unlocked, 3DSL XL, with a 4Gb card XD which i eventually wrote this journal on @_@

woooooo *flops from summer heat*

 furryangel and i are moving house soon! we had a call last thursday, went for a viewing on tuesday and got the keys to the place yesterday :)

We're both incredibly nervous, scared and excited at the same time but i think we know we should be pretty ok really. We've both moved out from our parents houses before, but it was for university, so all the furniture and things were already there, this time round we have to buy it ourselves @.@ we should be able to find something nice though if we look around carefully.

Internet should not be too much of a problem either, but until it can be sorted i'll probably walk to the Local Mc Donalds and use their internet, gets me out of the house and some exercise and food at the same time XD

Something i am trying to look up for possible energy price purposes, is what sort of a drain our games consoles would have on out bill. i remember doing a light search once because we got moaned at for using the xbox all the time, mostly me >_>; but i found that it wasn't really as bad as we thought, the main heavy electricity users are actually the major appliances in the house, so a-digging-i-will-go!

I'm interested to see home many more submissions i'll have to sift through when we get online again, already have 7736 from me neglecting FA a little too much recently >_> but oh well, keeps me busy XD

Me getting a job will be a great boost to our funds when i can find one also! :D

Anywho! In a nutshell, we will be off the grid for a while at some point within the next few days, for an unknown amount of time, hopefully no longer than a month. See you all again at some point!

~Rusty

Just curious really.

Out of the people watching that play Grief mode, how many of you play "respectfully" or just let their evil side take over and troll the other team?
I tend to play both ways but troll more if they harass me with the dammed knife-push @_@

Sometimes though, things just fall into place and....

https://youtu.be/WviWnV1Ubc4