1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
...Uhmm... Maybe I might consider it, but I'd never see me actually in the action, although I may be wrong.

2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
Night?

3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
I'd sleep curled up anywhere, but I like sleeping on the floor more than the bed.

4. Pork, beef, or chicken?
I'm not too much of a fan of meat >:

5. Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?
Alas, yes. I used to get car sick A LOT.

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
No..

7. Shower or bath?
Shower.

8. Do you pee in the shower?
No

9. Mexican or Chinese?
CHINESE DEFINITELY. *drools*

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
Uh... I don't know, I'm pretty much probably dead when it comes to love or... That... XD

11. Do you love someone on your friend list?
Yes, Kent I love you ;w;

12. Do you know all the people on your friends list?
No.

13. Love or money?
That's a tough one...

14. Credit cards or cash?
Cash.

15. Has there ever been anyone in your family you wish wasn't?
A LOT DX

16. Would you rather go camping or to a 5 star hotel?
Camping.

17. What is the weirdest place you have had sex?
An arcade room! No I'm kidding, I'm a virgin. XD

18. Would you shave your entire body (including your head) for money?
...No. I like my hairy arms and legs thank you and I HATE shaving D:

19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
No.

20. Ever been to a bar?
I WANT TO TAKE YOU TO A GAY BAR! Okay, sorry, yes I have, to pick up my uncle ._.

21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club?
No.

22. Ever been so drunk you had to be carried out of somewhere?
No.

23. Kissed someone of the same sex?
...I've never kissed anyone XD

24. Favorite drink?
Bossa Nova <3

25. Had sex in a movie theater?
WHEN DO YOU REALIZE THAT I'M A VIRGIN? D:

26. Had sex in a bathroom?
No.

27. Have you ever had sex at work?
No. If I even wanted to have sex it wouldn't be in that nasty place...

28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
YES XDD

29. Bought something from an adult store?
No.

30. Have you been caught having sex?
No.

31. Does anyone have naughty pics of you?
...No.

32. Who do you think has the guts to repost this?
JESUS D:<

I got a tablet! Yay me! I'm sure some of my friends will be like: "You lucky son-of-a-female-dog D:<" But I don't care at the moment because I GOT A TABLET! Whoo~
To some it might not be a big deal, but it is to me because were poor and I don't get much on Christmas just candy but this year I feel like I got spoiled and got a tablet without having to pay! 8D

My Nan found the list I was holding on to where it says "I'm only <insert how much money I got> away from affording a tablet!" and she came to me and said "How much are these tablets?" and of course I didn't have a response because I didn't know how much they were myself, so she checked it out (she still hasn't told me how much it was) and said she might not get it, of course I was expecting that so I was like, "that's fine" and continued my savings, and today we got to open our gifts early (because tomorrows the party and we won't have time to open them by then) and guess what I got! A tablet >w<
I'm so uberly-excited to receive this, (make a note that I don't often receive things) that I am now having a sugar rush and I haven't drank or ate anything with sugar in it! XD

So now I'm happy and I'm going to Iscribble just to practice *waves and prances off*

Sorry, guys but I'm going to have to put the gifts I owe to the ones I promised on a hold, because I'm... Well let's just say that I'm having a hard time at the moment, nyeh.

So the gifts I owe are listed below and I promise that I will NOT forget about them.

 kentucyruler
 nintendownz
 travsg
 rk_spence
 genesiscomander
 nerby666

So those are all of them, everyones but Nerby's is Christmas gifts (hers is a birthday gift) and thanks for understanding, if some of you get mad, I understand your anger, and I truly apologize, but there's nothing I can do any longer...

I'll go now, I don't have time to type anymore (I'm at the library typing this and it's almost my time to get off)

So... Bye for a while. Sorry guys, you might not see me around as much.

It's time to say goodbye to another... For half of my heart is gone... My dog has passed away. He was put down today.

I'll never forget this day. December 14, Friday 2007 I was informed at 6:03 and I was torn to shreds... I told myself I would feel happy that he didn't have to suffer... But when I heard he was gone... I cried... And I felt that I lost the world. Why? I don't know anymore... I don't care... I want him back...

I discovered that I am terribly pathetic and terribly lonely because of me... My mind forbids me to do anything with myself and I am constantly suffering each day... But I didn't care... As long as I had Buck waiting for me at the gate, his stub-of-a-tail wagging, his ears perked, his constant yelps and prancing as if he just had 12 pounds of sugar... I'll miss that... I'll miss it all.

He lived to be 155... So now... I am lonely again. And I know this is going to hurt me... I'm going to end up hurting myself. I want to see him again... I want to tell him how much I love him... And I want him to catch the snowflakes with me this winter... I even got his favorite bone (pig roast bone with still some fresh meat on it) for Christmas... I wanted him to stay with me... He was the only one there for me the entire time when I was lonely, sad or... Felt suicidal, or even when the "voices" started talking to me. He could always tell when I was sad, he cared... Now... What's left of me? What will I do? I have no where to turn... Everything is crumbling again... But this time.... I believe it's worse than ever, I've lost friends, family and now... I've lost my love... Goodbye Buck... I don't mean to cry... I'm sorry... I've failed you.

... I want to die...

P.S. Don't anyone say "I know how you feel" to me because you don't know how I feel...

Your not me...

How would you know?...
Take your sympathy... I don't want it...

Crashing through the trees
with one pair of broken skii's
all the way we go
Kent is laughing: "Hohohoho"
Santa's in the way
We hit him with the sleigh
He is bleeding bad
And Wolfie's very glad
Nin says he's in the hospital with stitches in his head!
Oh, jingle bells Santi smells
Travis laid an egg
The sane mobile lost it's wheel
and Nerby got away!
Oh, jingle bells Howl smells
Gen laid an egg
The sane mobile lost a wheel
And Nerby still got away~


lmao I was so bored in English class that I made an entire gory-type Kurisumasu song for all my loves and it entertained me for the time being, so I put it up.
The lyrics are mine so don't steal pleasekthanksbye...

I put up the tree with Nan and it looks so plain (it's just lights with garlin and red ball ornaments, boooring) so I told her I was going to draw something for it so it wouldn't look so... Grandma... lol
I also finished Wolfie's badge gift as you can see and am working on two things, the thing I promised Nan for the Kurisumasu tree and my entry for Wolfie's contest. Yep.

K, since last time I was a total JERK and forgot to put Gen on the Kurisumasu gift list, I'll put him up now -__-

To Do:
Icons with [x] next to them means they are done.
Icons with [/] next to them means their wip.
 kentucyruler
[x] psychostray-http://www.furaffinity.net/view/928281/
[x] nerby666- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/948038/
 nintendownz
 TravSG
 rk_spence
 Genesiscomander
[/] psychostray contest- sketch
 nerby666 b-day
Tree Ornament- rough start

Yep that's right, Kurisumasu is just around the corner
For people that don't know what Kurisumasu is, it's Christmas in Japanese, yeah I'm that addicted to saying it like that, anyways-- and I'm getting into the spirit of Christmas and getting you all gifts! 8D
*real self kicks in* Scratch that, I'm crazy. Now, because I'm a broke whore and I have absolutely no money saved up for Kurisumasu I'm going to draw gifts for all the people closest to me <3

Here comes the list!
Icons with [x] next to them means they are done.
 Kentucyruler
[x]  psychostray -http://www.furaffinity.net/view/928281/
 Nerby666
 nintendownz
 travSG
and, since I love this guy, and his artwork I'm putting him up too
 RK_Spence

Okay
I have a long while, some gifts might be drawn late, but hey, at least you get them xD
It's a long list for me too, and I procrastinate a lot, so yeah. -__-

Just, get your adress into me with a note, and I promise you'll get them, whether it's a month later or not XD
Yeah, I suck I know <3

Okay, I'm going to have to get a lot of envelopes and a lot of stamps after school, damn, I don't want to go to school D:
Oh well.
It'll go by fast if I knock out every custodian! Time to get to work *picks up a sledge hammer*

Talk to you guys later, and I hope your looking forward to your gifts! *zips off*

P.S.---

I have so many reports, portfolios and band quizes (these songs are so hard, and I can't get them down D: ) to do, so I'm just piling more crap on me, ACCEPT MY DEDICATION I TAKE FOR YOU GUYS AND BE HAPPY! D< Okay bye *zips off*

I finally submitted something, and turns out that it's a piece of crap, hoorah, I know... I suck.

Oh well.

But
All my art stuff is dead D:
Blame my family ;;

Okay
This is how it went:

My aunt Sherry wanted to use my computer so I let her, and I had my art stuff scattered out because I was drawing, she brought her two kids and that's when hell begun...

My cousin, Zoey walked in and wouldn't leave me alone, she looked at my art stuff and picked up my watercolor paint that I use and kept asking if she could use it, and everyone knows that it's expensive, so I told her no and let her use my really old paint that is crappy and I never use it anymore, then she wanted a paint brush, so I went to find one, when I turned around she was picking up my prisma markers and opening them, as soon as I told her to put them down, they dropped everywhere and one of them busted on my floor, I got in trouble for it of course.

So I gave her the brush and told her to get out, she did so and I sat down and started drawing again, turns out my other cousin wanted to paint too, so they both came in and started going through my stuff, I was off getting an apple, came in and saw them throwing my stuff everywhere, most of my stuff is ripped, broken and snapped so I started screaming at them, my Nan came in and told me to calm down they're just kids, and I couldn't calm down, all that stuff was about $300 and an apology won't replace them.

So I continued screaming, I started crying out of rage and my Grandpa came in, started screaming at me, huge argument then before I knew it he punched me in the stomach, I knocked out after that...

When I woke up I started crying because I found all my stuff still where it was and everyone left. And now I won't stop spewing blood, and it's really annoying.

If you read this far I thank you, and please, someone tell me what to do, because I have no idea what to do...

Ughhh, why does my family suck so bad??!!

Ugggghh, you guuuuuuys, having death linger on the side of your thoughts isn't so life freeing.

Well, I might un-cover it... *takes a deep breath* The reason why I've been gone for a while is because I have MRSA, if you don't know what that is here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/MRSA

And yes, they have a cure for it... So your probably thinking "Oh your okay then." But that's where life hates me... I'm allergic to the cure, which suuuucks because I can either take the medicine and take my chances in surviving that (we all doubt I would survive) or wait, let it get worse and wait for them to find something else... But that comes with another chance, if it gets any worse than I could drop at any minute.

God, this is really stupid, but after I've thought about death when I came home... I actually scared now. I guess you never realize how you fear death after your life is threatened... Ugh, this really sucks and I hope it ends up okay or it's bye-bye Spooks D:

And in case your wondering how I got it, it's because it's been going around kentucky and targeting the schools, it got into my system because it got into my fresh wound from where I... Cut myself. Yeah, I guess I'll tell you now that I'm still cutting...

To the point-- Life's a bitch, when theres a fatal disease around, I have to catch it, when there's a cure... I have to be allergic to it... Gaaaah...

So there might be a limit on art but I have one inked and I'm going to practice coloring before I color it, I haven't colored in so loooong >.o

Well, I'ma go draw now.

Stolen From  snowdrift

Your Boy Side
[x] You love hoodies.
[ ] You love jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[x] Shopping is torture.
[x] Sad movies suck.
[x] You own an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[x] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool
[x] You go to your dad for advice.
[x] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You like going to football games.
[x] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[x] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[ ] Sports are fun.
[x] Talk with food in your mouth.
[x] Wear boxers.

Total = 19 Points

-

Your Girl Side
[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[ ] You love to shop.
[x] You wear eyeliner.
[ ] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] You wear the color pink.
[ ] Go to your mom for advice.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[ ] You like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[ ] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[x] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[x] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[ ] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[ ] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] You wear girl underwear.
[ ] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[ ] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

Total= 4 points

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Wow.

Just wow.

Time to get a sex change *prances off* XD
I love being a manly-like-woman, it's much more funner X3

Tagged by Hannie

Are you a bad influence?

If you go over 45, you're a bad influence.
If you go under 15, chances are you live under a rock and have no life... even more harsh.


1. Smoked [ ] Ew. Instant killer.
2. Consumed alcohol [x]
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex [x]
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex [x]
5. Kissed someone of the same sex [x]
6. Had sex [ ]
7. Had someone in your room other than family [x]
8. Watched porn [x] I was little and curious XD!
9. Bought porn [ ]
10. Done drugs [ ]
TOTAL: 6

1. Taken painkillers [x]
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine [x]
3. Lied to your parents [x]
4. Lied to a friend [x]
5. Snuck out of the house [x]
6. Done something illegal [x]
7. Cut yourself [x]
8. Hurt someone [x]
9. Wished someone to die [x]
10. Seen someone die [ ]
TOTAL: 15

1. Missed curfew [x]
2. Stayed out all night [x]
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself [x]
4. Been to a therapist [x]
5. Been to rehab [x]
6. Dyed your hair [x]
7. Received a ticket [ ]
8. Been in an accident [x]
9. Been to a club [x]
10. Been to a bar [x]
TOTAL: 24

1. Been to a wild party [x]
2. Seen the Mardi Gras [x]
3. Drank more than four beers in a night [x]
4. Had a spring break in Florida [x]
5. Sniffed anything [x] Pixysticks, kool-aid and many more XD
6. Wore black nail polish [x]
7. Wore arm bands [x]
8. Wore t-shirts with band names [x]
9. Listened to rap. [x] hated it
10. Own(ed) a 50 Cent CD [ ]
TOTAL: 33

1. Dressed gothic [x]
2. Dressed prep [x] Dark days *twitch*
3. Dressed punk [x]
4. Dressed grunge [x]
5. Stole something [x]
6. Been too drunk to remember anything [x]
7. Blacked out [x]
8. Fainted [ ]
9. Had a crush on a neighbor [x] Again... I was little.
10. Had someone sneak into your room [x]
TOTAL: 42

1. Snuck into someone else's room [x]
2. Had a crush on your best friend [x]
3. Been to a concert [x] Hooray for BFMV and Handsome Devil!
4. Dry-humped someone [ ] No. But I seen my friend get dry-humped.
5. Been called a slut [x] My friend calls everyone that.
6. Called someone a slut [x]
7. Installed speakers in your car [ ] I installed speakers into someone elses car if that counts.
8. Broken a mirror [x]
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house [x]
10. Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush [ ]
TOTAL: 49

1. Consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper [ ]
2. Been to an R-rated movie in theater [x]
3. Cruised the mall [x]
4. Skipped school [x]
5. Had surgery [x]
6. Had an injury [x]
7. Gone to court [x]
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying [ ]
9. Caught something on fire [x]
10. Lied about your age. [x]
TOTAL: 57

1. Owned/rented an apartment [ ]
2. Broke the law in the police's presence [x]
3. Cheated on someone [ ] Who is there to cheat on? XD
4. Got in trouble with the police [x]
5. Talked to a stranger [x]
6. Hugged a stranger [ ]
7. Kissed a stranger [ ]
8. Rode in the car with a stranger [ ]
9. Been harassed [x]
10. Been verbally harassed [x]
TOTAL: 62

1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online [ ]
2. Stayed online for 12 hours straight [x] All the time XD
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight [ ] Ew. I hate the phone.
4. Watched TV for 12 hours straight [ ]
5. Been to a fair [x] *hums the carnival song*
6. Been called a bad influence [x] All the time by family XD
7. Drink and drive [ ]
8. Prank-called someone [x]
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex [x]
10. Cheated on a test [x] Haha, no studying XD
TOTAL: 68

Oh god I'm horrible XD

Now you see how "bad" I am (quote jester here)

Anyways, I was bored so I excepted the tag out of curiosity.

Okay, well I'm back from everything. I swear, I have no time to even finish my three books I'm reading (Warriors Moonrise, Eclipse, and Dragon) it makes me mad. I'm used to reading a lot and having so much time to draw and read but now I barely have time... Hopefully, by quiting my job and all, I'll have more time now.

Anyways, here's some current news!

My printer, scanner and my speakers were broken! But, my cousin said he fixed them, I know my speakers work but I haven't tested the scanner and printer.

I found a lot of new songs that I'm in love with, mainly, the one Kent showed me called: Bittersweet by Within Temptation. You got to listen to it, it almost made me cry from it's lyrics.

I finished another sketch book and already got a new one, I've not yet drew in the new one but it's better paper than my last sketch book's.

I love my style, I'm happy with it. People think it's strange and creepy, but that's just my style. I'm going to try to get some art up on here.

On that subject: the last time I tried to submit something on here it said it wouldn't work. I'll try again, but if it doesn't work this time I might have to get a new account.

I can't wait to let you peoples see my permanent style, and get some good critique. Until then, I'll keep drawing and reminiscing in my own life.

Requests

Sadie's- 47%- Fool and her character together.

Sarah's- 0%- Thinking.

Amber's- 0%- Haven't thought of anything.

Erin- 98%- Art note with her.

Contests

Wolfie's- 0%- Spooks and Sonja or Karma dancing in Halloween costumes.

Commish
None

Trades
None

Need to do's

Facial/emotion practice- 0%

I'm bored... Tired... Well. I made a FA account. Yippie? .-.

Does anyone know why my picture; "The Gangs All Here" is messed up? Hm. I'd like to know, is all. I've tried everything. Anyways. I thought I'd put everything that I have on Deviantart to on here. No not the contest neither. That'd be kind of difficult especially if I just made this account. Well, I'm going to go off and talk to Nerb's and try to finish my contest entry... Yeah, this journal was pointless. Thanks for reading my boredom hahaha.

Bye...

*~To do List~*

Jessica- 72%

Fursona Ref- 5% ^^;

Contest Entry for Nerby666

Deviant ID- Thinking

Yutii Signature Gaia- Thinking

Group- Thinking

*~Have a nice day~*