hey everyone! If you follow me because you know me or because you're actually interested in my art, for some reason, i'm revamping everything! going to a WHOLE new account and making a whole new twitter. you can find me now at betweensofts on twitter and
 BetweenTwoSoftPlaces. Come and have a look!

this is the first time i've bothered UPDATING this profile since i was a teenager. and... wow. god was i just the WORST. let's see if we cant fix that.

do me a favor, listen to this song.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tzB3JB-0zk4 (Burning House)

now tell me what you think it's about. i've shown it to 30 people and only 4 actually understood it.

this is a song about a woman, who in a dream, is back in time, in a relationship she knows is doomed to fail. a burning house.

this is her realizing that even though she knows that it will end in tragedy and pain, she chooses to hold on tight and and
and feel her feelings, to be in the arms of the person she loves till the last moment possible. this is love. this is perhaps the most pure, honest love song i've heard in years. t

love isn't just a word. it's an emotion it's a feeling, it's being willing to hold onto someone in a burning house just to be with them as long as it's possible. you shouldn't use the word love a month into a relationship, you sure as hell shouldn't use it a week in and if you do a week in you've gone over the line. what happened to love? why is love just like now? i just... cant comprehend it.

anyway. thanks for listening to my inane ramblings. i appreciate it.

GOD FUCKING DAMN IT.
GOD
DAMN
IT

GOD DAMN ELIZIBETH, GOD DAMN BOOKER, GOD DAMN RAPTURE

beavers be having shits and giggles with all these damns you just built in my heart, valve.
the beavers are game writers
and the damns are dams

that is all. no spoilers for chu~

here i am, jsut watching Fairy Tail, and along comes that STUPID owl-man assassin and swallows Natsu whole.... god damn.... i'm gonna have to reconcile this with my fetish....

you have no idea how happy i am right now. an old movie from Studio Gibli came out when i was young. so young my little sister (irl) cant remember. but i can. Spirited Away. my parents didnt like it becsuse No Face is creepy, but i dont care :)

earlier today 2 big black poofy spiders fell onto my shoulder and an obease mouse ran across my lawn as a tiny black bird flew across the sky. i hadnt seen the movie in YEARS, but suddenly i thought of it. i looked it up online and there it was. :) as i type this i just finished watching it.

and right now, im happier than ive been in a long time.

lemme explain something.

let me explain the BEAUTY of the sentance i just threw down. i said, " i am the fucking PARAGON of abstinance".

now lets ignore the context, becauae the context makes that sentance NOT the biggest like you've ever read.

let us simply discuss the beutifull irony.

first, fucking and abstinance go SO well together dont you agree? secondly, people claim that those who cuss do it because they have small vocabularies. i just used PARAGON and ABSTINANCE in the same sentance CORRECTLY.

therefore fuck you.

that id all.

so, it seems i do the grand majority of my likeing at night, arounf midnight. so far EVERY time i get online around midnight i go on favorite binges for vore and unbirth....

i almost got my best freind back but the little short of hates me atm and doeant trust me at all,

my little sister (killercanine) who i love very much and who was the only person keeping me sane with the loss of my freind has dissapeared without a trace

last week was my great grandmothers funeral

my cat just got home from the vet with its leg sawed off.

i brought my grades up but im still grounded because my parents wont belive i brought them up

i cant DRAW while grounded

my kindle is broken and finnaly

i am out of spam.

weeeeee.~

my parents are fighting with my sister again. im not saying i dont cause fights of course, but her fights are attitude, my asperation. neither of them ever rea h this pitch though. i hope the stress wont be bad for them. my mom doesnt cry much. im just locked in my room. (consentually)

posting vent journals. no one reads these. and the people who do probably think i'm immature. and i am. i deal with these problems in the only way i know how, and that;s the wrong way. i'm a kid. i've never had to deal with these problems before. so i do what come to mind. i shouldnt though. i should keep it to myself.

and most of all i should stop posting these where she can see them.

it's passive agressive. and cruel. i dont want hr to suffer. i keep thinking that maybe my reason for posting these where she can see them, was to convince her that she was hurting me and that she should come back. and maybe it is. but that's immature. she had a darn good reason for leaving. it was all my fault. and posting these in a place like this, it will only do 2 things

make her mad at me.

and make her mad at herself.

i do not want either of those things. she is not comeing back.

and it all my fault. as such this is my last vent journal about this subject.

i realise that this looks like a last attempt to convince her that she should be my freind again.

it is.
i wont lie.
i'm done lieing.

i hope she sees this and decides to come back.
so maybe i'm a terrible person.
maybe.

maybe i'm just a confused little boy who lost his best friend.
i leave that up to you.

~Riley

this is not directed to anyone on this site. i just habe to say it before i explode.


i LIED you jackass. it fucking was your fault i left. your the one who convinced me that it wasnt worth talking to you while your in a bad mood which is NEARLY ALWAYS. YES, YOU SHOULD FEEL TERRIBLE YOU FUCK-TARD. ive explainex time and time again that you just wallow in your fake fake teenage depression because you need to feel SPECIAL~ and it fucking HURTS those who care about you. you think i WANT to hang out with someone whos to dumb to be happy whenever they can?? OH HELL NO. i hang around you because of the RARE mlments of happieness, when you are one of the most intresting people ive ever met. but you and your SORROW, YOUR AGONY, 'oh, me oh my, i was born wrong, i dont belong here, i should have been born a fox~' BULLSHIT. THERE ISNT A TEENAGER EVER WHO DIDNT FEEL THAT WAY. so you can cry into your fucking tail all you want but that doesnt xhange the fact that YOUR the reason for all this shit.

i can buy that ive been gone to long and thats why i cant be your master any more. under ANY other circumstances i could TOTALLY accept that the absense has caused you yo not feel the same. but youre the one who pushed me away! you covinced me ti go away! argued with me about it! and now I have to suffer the lost of one of my bezt pets ever jsut because i belivex you. you have no EARTHLY idea how much loosing you hurts me. jackass.

anyone can commision or trade or simply request art of me, i love a challenge. but there are simply some things i wont draw. nothing that "belongs in your pants" no foot fetish and no scat, but everything else is fair game.

i got a pokemon mod that you use like a spell. it makes the same light appear as when you use healing in your hand. you can throw pokeballs or masterballs, but every master ball costs 1000 gold. anyway i was fighting and i THOUGHT i had healing in my hand so i used it. I CAUGHT A HUMAN IN A MASTERBALL O-o.

.........
.........
it gave me the oddest boner....

well im grounded, so no art for a while. BUT! i now have openings for requests and trades, if you so desire :3

ive been very immature. sorry, all of those who followed me. passive agressive till the end. thank god its all over.

that was y job. healing. saying that they're wrong, they arent nothing. that they are beutifull, wonderfull, amasing people that the world needed. that was my job. and now it's someone elses. i.... cant blame them. they need someone. and... when one door opens another closes. part of me is happy for them. because they still have someone. i cant decide what hurts more though. that there's someone else who can do my job just as well if not better, that i know i probably will never get that job back, or that i cant even muster the strength of will to hate anyone involved in this....

sorry but i wont be on here much for a while. just got skyrim, so my time will be between here and that.

yay skyrim may possibly come in the mail tomorow 030

ugh i'm sick of doing nothing! but i mean... there really is nothing i can do. i could do like i ususally do and send somebody else to pester them until they break, or be passive agressive or just refuse to not talk to them and get them in huge trouble, but... i think ive grown up a little through this so i wont. i'll just....

wait.

and do...

nothing.

woopie.

yah. i guess i'm kind of a stalker. i probably should have stopped following her when i was told she and i could no longer talk. let myself move on, you know? but i didnt. continuing to watch her art and journals was my way of knowing that she was okay. even is i'm not her best freind anymore she's still mine. i just... wanted to know that she's okay, even f i cant influence any situation she might get into. she's my best friend.

i learned my lesson. i cam to terms with how i messed it up, and i think i've learned how not to make that mistake again, but it's to late i guess.

anyway.

it may be nothing. she may just not have computer accses. that's happened before. of course, we were still best freinds then, and she contacted me the moment she got it back, so it was all okay, but that ownt happen now. i miss her. she hasnt posted anything in a while.

i just hope she's okay....

recently something was brought to my attention. i lost someone close to me. as much as i would like to make an excuse and explain it all away, and i do have a very good one. i wont. it is my fault. i am two faced. if you tell me something i wont keep it a secret. well, in some circumstances i will. like "i have a weird fetish" or "i have an akward scar" this is can keep to myself. but if you tell me you hate someone then i'm going to tell that person, and i'm going to help them regain your freindship. i have my reasons. if that's a problem for people, then i cant help that. i wont change that till someone can prove to me that it does more bad than good.

...actually, i say that, but i'd thow away any old habit or stop any action right now to get her back. but it's to late. at this point, the only way she's coming back to me is if she breaks up with him, and i dont want that. he makes her happy. that's all i want in the end, her to be happy.

so i drew some vent art. i think i'll post it now. hope it doesnt seem TO passive agressive.

i am so BORED. my last pet went on summer vacation and i wont see him till he gets back. ANYONE OUT THERE WANNA NEW MASTER??

i need some new snuggly email freinds. somefurry note me and ill give you my email.

im starting to get a better feel for my own heart. im becomeing clear on issues that were once daunting, and im beggining to not approve of thingls that i used to simply because it was easy to ignore them. step by step, day by day, im becomeing me.