Well time to be a man and be open about my feelings. In the middle of the night so no one can see.

I want to thank everyone for supporting me through this year in all the ways they have been. Since my car accident and being on meds while struggling to find a job. I had been stuck rethinking my life. Who I keep in it, who I need to move on from. If it even is worth it to live in general. I've been left thinking about how I'm choosing happiness for myself and all the things I need to fix in my life as a result. But it really means a lot to me that everyone has been their to support me this year. It's been a long time since I didn't feel like I'm drowning trying to survive again. And I'm really excited for this coming year and getting to work on art for a living. I hope everyone enjoys what I make and hopefully I get a little more comfortable being silly with my work more

Anyway, thanks and Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays to everyone. Hope youre having a good time whatever way you spend it

Working on a commission
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Doing work on a client’s commission tonight, while jamming come and join for a bit

https://picarto.tv/SquishyTigerArts

Had a bit of a mental break during the last few weeks so I’m going to be listening to some jams while creating. Feel free to stop by

https://picarto.tv/SquishyTigerArts

I’m testing a new way of doing things to help me be a little more organized, so bare with me while I do a little life and account restructuring but I am open for commissions, just fill out the form below :3

https://forms.gle/beKkrPE8oGtD5FKk6

Well since it seems like I always get asked for it and I’m currently in a very unstable situation. It’s still in its messy early stage, but here’s my patreon if you guys want to support me while I currently recover from a majorly stressful event right now.

https://www.patreon.com/squishytiger

Hey guys, I’m doing better mentally somewhat and am getting help.

I don’t feel confident in myself in doing commissions again yet though incase anyone is curious. My mental state still tends to hit lows pretty hard so I don’t want to put people on hold again if I mentally shutdown again. For those who I’ve put on hold/cancel in the past, I may reach out when I’m ready to speak further on this unless anyone feels free to reach out then please do.
Aside from that… I wanted to get back into the habit of posting and maybe even try streaming while I work. Help me feel a little less stressed and alone about the world and life. I don’t know if you guys would be interested in streaming but I’ll be doing so regardless. I’m taking the time to make a set up and pick a date and time to do so, so that’ll probably be happening in the near future. I’m still going to be a little quiet but I just wanted to let you guys know I’m alive and I am doing better than I have been.

I hope all of you guys are doing well and I look forward to interacting with you guys again.

Hey guys, I’m doing better mentally somewhat and am getting help.

I don’t feel confident in myself in doing commissions again yet though incase anyone is curious. My mental state still tends to hit lows pretty hard so I don’t want to put people on hold again if I mentally shutdown again. For those who I’ve put on hold/cancel in the past, I may reach out when I’m ready to speak further on this unless anyone feels free to reach out then please do.
Aside from that… I wanted to get back into the habit of posting and maybe even try streaming while I work. Help me feel a little less stressed and alone about the world and life. I don’t know if you guys would be interested in streaming but I’ll be doing so regardless. I’m taking the time to make a set up and pick a date and time to do so, so that’ll probably be happening in the near future. I’m still going to be a little quiet but I just wanted to let you guys know I’m alive and I am doing better than I have been.

I hope all of you guys are doing well and I look forward to interacting with you guys again.

I’m going to be taking a pause from this whole thing, as being a creative and such. I don’t like being open about my mental health but these last few months has been the worst of it. I’m not comfortable to share and after I broke down to a client about things during a the lowest point I’ve been. I realized I’ve been frozen for so long and too burnt out to realize I’ve completely been destroyed mentally. I need serious help… like really horribly so… so I’m going to take time to get some.

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone for their kindness even when I’ve been pretty unresponsive towards living life and doing my craft. And thanks to all those who enjoy what I create and what I do share when I do.

For those I’ve disappointed for not being fully together or having abandoned projects due to my mental state, I’m deeply sorry, I’ve always wanted to bring joy to people with my craft and having to deny or being unable to finish things people due to my mental instability has been completely heart breaking for me. It’s completely affected me morally and has left me jaded about myself, that’s not anyone’s fault, I’ve set things high for myself and I tend to pride myself in my work but it’s been really rough with my head fighting me.

I’ll see you guys later, thank you again.

So I’m regaining my stamina after Covid destroyed it and I’ve been thinking while letting my body rest and working at a slower pace. Would you guys be into watching me stream while I work? I was thinking of maybe doing it weekly but I don’t know if you guys would be into it.

Edit: do y’all prefer streaming image posts or journals announcing streaming?

After avoiding this thing like the plague all of the pandemic I got a fist full of it a few days ago along with a trip to the hospital!
So while I slowly regain my stamina, like link at the beginning of Zelda games now, I will be getting back to everyone as soon as I can :]

Hey guys. I’m slowly coming back after mostly recovering from my major mental shutdown from the beginning of the year and well partly the burnout from 2022. I’ve finally been able to go back to working on art again, I’m finishing up on unfinished work. Once most of those have been handled I will be back to posting art, I may not be opening up commissions as of currently to keep things a little steady. I might post a few YCHs if people are interested in wanting to support or just want art but keeping it a little less taxing on my end in case of another mental shutdown.

So I’ve been struggling through quiet a few things, and well I’ve been trying to lie to myself into thinking I’m fine but honestly I haven’t been. So I’ve decided to come clean about how my mental health has pretty much completely gutted me as an artist right now. I feel bad because I really want to pursue the arts but I’m just not in the mental state right now to focus on it. I need some time to sit down and process all the things that had happen in my life that I’ve been suppressing for, well, all of my life because I honestly can’t seem to work and function like I use to do to all these thoughts and memories attacking my mind while I do so.
For my clients who’ve been really open minded and patient with me, I really appreciate it, I’ve always been uneasy due to the world not being kind and seeing kindness expressed by a lot of you guys on here has changed my perspective a lot when it comes to people. I want to produce quality content while also having people really enjoy what they purchase from me but I’ve been in such a bad rut I feel guilty if I don’t met that standard right now. So I’m taking some time to process and help myself so I can be able to comeback and make more things that I’m both really proud of and really excited to work and share with you guys.
Anyway I’ll be back when I feel I am ready, so I’ll see ya’ll later

I finally found the major source of my burn out being my worthless full time job, after a new brown noser replaced our old one and me not being naturally a morning person and store lights frying my eyes for 8 hours a day. And a whole host of boundaries and harassment from work, I’ve honestly had it with this damn job. So to be realistic I’m going to try to switch it to a part time but first I have to get myself together on here. Course I’m not at that point but like I need some semblance of control in my life. So like I’ll try to be more active, I’ll drop some new YCHs at some point this week, while still working on the comics I’ve been commissioned to do. If you can’t buy from me cool, I get it but could ya’ll help me out on at least sharing it with others who may be interested. I might be doing some major reworks with a few things before I get back into it but boy I’m tired of being silent with the thing I’m passionate on.

I’m having a depressive episode so I might be a little MIA for a few days.

I just saw I had gotten 666 watchers, thank you guys for support me so far even if I’ve been a bit MIA with posting, I shall be posting some art again here and there between commissions. I’ve been slowly reworking my old schedule back into how I use to work since I’ve finally been able to settle in a have more time to myself.
But again thank you guys for your support :3

I’ve been finding myself being a bit off as of lately, don’t know if it’s mental or existential. I’m going to focus on finishing the ones I currently have and take a little break to focus on some personal pieces.
Thanks for the understanding, after some rest I’ll be back to it :3c

Alrighty~ I still have things to get together after this move but I am now in a new place. Still have to get settled on a few things but I’m going to be back to working and posting again X3

So first off thanks you guys for being understanding and kind about stuff. I took some time for myself to reassess things, life, goals, such. Talk with some old friends to pretty much ground myself and let some demons run free. I’m super excited for the move because it’ll be a new chapter of my life that I’ve been in need of for years. While I can’t really say much for certain, currently I do feel things will pick up in a better way than how they have been since I’ve started this account. As I said in my rage filled vent/mental breakdown of a journal, I do have some ideas I want to pounce onto but I really need my own space because between a toxic environment, a full time job, and trying to create without being taxing it’s been wild. I use to be able to do it but I guess that over working caught up to me after years of being like this. Like I still love drawing, the process and all that, seeing how you guys interact with it or when people gush over things. I don’t know it’s a nice experience, I wanna keep doing that and having that ya know?
Also happy late anniversary for this account, I’ve been so sleepy I just realized I was 3 days late to this x.x;;
But I will be doing something for it some point after the move in a month or two so I will announce that when I’m good and ready for that.
As for commissions I will be back to working on them but work maybe a little random and delayed but I’ll get everything done as soon as possible before I move :3c

I’m just really fucking irritated anymore and I guess I can’t just try and pretend like I can muscle through it because it’s completely killed my ability to work on anything.

For years, I’ve been trying to move out of an incredibly toxic environment and household and everyone from family to friends have just been the biggest walls in my life. I’ve been trying to better my life because I want this to work out, I want my art to work out, I want to not feel miserable all the fucking time. And like every fucking time I get a little closer to that goal it’s like I have to deal with a mountain of shit from everyone and every thing because everyone can’t just fucking grow up and get their shit together then quit when shits too hard. I am so sick of life and people and how everything always has to have so much traction all the god damn time. I’m tired of always having to be the main thing in every fucking facet in my life for things to move forward because if I’m don’t, everyone just sits around with a thumb up their ass wondering why they fuck nothing is happening

I hate coming off unprofessional and making people wait way more than they should when it comes to work. But I can’t focus on my work because everyone else is a fucking child all the god damn time and I have to sit here playing parent and I’m fucking sick of it. I’m sorry commissions are not happening and I can’t seem to get anything done, I’m not going to be able to do my usual celebration for this account this year but I’ll try some other point in the year, if I can... This really had become some level of hell, like everything has to be so much work because no one wants to do anything ever. If you want a fucking refund well I don’t fucking blame you because this shit has been just as irritating for me as it might be for others. If you willing to wait well more power to you cause that’s probably the only sign of kindness I’ve gotten all year from anyone.

I don’t know I’ll probably just delete this later but I’m just super bitter and angry and annoyed right now that I need to say something about why shit is taking forever. I wanted to make all these big projects and some games and give them all proper announcements but I’m at such a point in my life that I’m so unstable because life is unstable that I don’t even know if I have the will to put up with it anymore

Alright I’m gonna share some personal shit. I live with an abusive parent and as I’m closely reaching my goal of moving out they’ve been getting more emotionally abusive and overly stupid about everything. I got told off for being an awful child despite doing everything for them and now I’m not allowed to cook or eat anything in the house, so I’m trying to order myself stuff and keep myself busy while. I’m charging my stuff in secret so I can get work done so if I seem a little slow on everything. I’m trying my best to work and get stuff done while my parent just fucking loses their shit with me for politely telling her not to drink some milk I got for myself, cause they’re crazy and entitled as shit :]

My boss and some coworkers are trying to help me find a place for temporary so I don’t come to work all frazzled and angry, so hopefully things will pick up. But honestly with how my life has been lately I’m expecting and preparing for the worse. Hopefully enough will be done before then, so yeah.

Edit: Welp I just dealt with the matter myself by calling them out on how ungrateful they are and them having no legs to stand on with their bullshit behavior but I’m still focusing on moving out. Everyone just gave up on helping me out so I’m back to me doing the solo work of helping myself out of my own stuff like always :/

I am curious what are a lot of you guys into when it comes to vore? :3
My interest always depends on my mood most days and I’m pretty curious what stuff others, like a combination of stuff one would not usually consider :3c

Hello everyone! I’ve been MIA for -checks submissions- half of this year. I sort of wanted to pop in and put an update out, I’m still creating art and have been extremely slow due to a lot of outside personal factors I don’t really feel comfortable sharing about. I just wanted to let you all know that I shall be back next year posting and maybe sharing some project ideas once I get the ground work done. I hope you’re all having a grand holiday and if you’re not celebrating anything I hope you’re having a lovely day regardless.

I just wanted to thank the community I have on here and some of the kind people I’ve met, I’m an introvert and tend to be a bit off about my feelings, but depression doesn’t help either so yeah... I just wanted to express how thankful and helpful ya’ll been cause it’s given me a new hope for the future and I’m excited for it, even with this year being a wet noodle that threw everything everywhere, I feel I’ve managed to pick myself up and will returning to posting art and being less dead come next year but til then I hope you guys are doing well yourself and survived this year mostly intact.

I feel goofy for not having to adopt this sooner. I work so while I work on commissions I start to feel super stressed of not showing any process being made. Thankfully a lot of you guys are super chill about things getting done. Thanks all of you for that but I also should list that there are more than one commission being done. I tend to just take work as it comes because I do work on everything when I’m not at work, but I’ll also be realistic about how much I can work on. Any who! Here is a little list I’ll keep on my front page and update for you guys to be aware that I have other commissions going on and they’re also being worked on.

Waiting for Approval List;

Commissions Currently being worked;

Client:  DreccanOfPaws
Commission: Flat Color Comic, 11 Pages
Progress on it: 🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢🟢⚪️ 90%
Coloring