With the way things are looking here in America with this election stuff, I just want to take this time to say I hope that everybody is staying safe. This shit is scary and awful, and I am quaking to the depths of my core, i am heartbroken, i am at a loss for words.

With that being said, I am going to be taking today off to process everything, and then I am going to do my best to get back to creating my furry little gay creations, and to never stop.


Just existing in times as shit as this is hard as fuck and I am not going to pretend otherwise. But the only way out is through, and Creating is the one thing I can do. and I've always shared it in the hopes it would bring joy to somebody, and I feel like that's needed right now more than ever. So I will keep creating, and do my best to keep these accounts going with the same level of light hearted sillies as ever despite it all. i am Not ignoring the severity of the world around me, this is just one of my ways to resist that world killing me, and the people i care about. I am going to make it through this if it kills me and I am going to carve a little safe space in the process so help me. i will not stop caring or creating or trying to spread hope and joy despite the horrors. Please stay safe beans

would y'all wanna see the doodles i do of my ttrpg game shenanigans? i post them everywhere else but it's always multiple pieces at a time nd since our game is more humancentric (well. my character is a satyr but) i'm never sure if i should post them here, what do y'all think, do you wanna see em?

Just got the bill for the er visit and it's uhhh a Lot so i'm backing out of artfight so that I can focus on coming up with ways to make almost $1500 as soon as possible sorry to anybody who wanted to attack me or who did and I'm not going to be able to attack back

I want so badly to participate in art fight but every time i've tried to upload the ONE attack i managed to get done before the site went down yesterday (meaning i couldn't look at any of my other bookmarked characters to even prepare the next attack while i waited) it breaks again the second that i try to hit submit so i'm just 8') very tired artfight please i'm begging you i've tried fifteen times since yesterday to upload this one attack please

I'm just going to try and wait a couple of days before I try again because this is ridiculous I've had difficulties in the past with it going down and I know the site goes down frequently because they can't handle the traffic but this is literally the worst it's ever been for me where i can't upload at ALL. It's just really disappointing tbh

hey beans, i’m making an executive decision here! Once the queue has been finished for my current commissions I will be taking a break of sorts, from commissions especially. I will not stop creating and i will possibly still make adoptables because i still have bills to pay but i will not be taking any sort of commission for a good long while.

I’ve gotten... too caught up in the details of my art, making it look good and postable and perfect. I don’t mean to but i want to create something GOOD and that’s been stifling me because in order to create things that are good i need to create things that are bad. Stupid, ugly, pointless. Just For Me. I want to focus on getting my art back to a place where I’m happy with it instead of feeling like it’s never good enough.
This might mean posting more sketches or unfinished pieces sloppy and half colored. I will be experimenting and trying new things and trying to find a new voice for myself.

Please bear with me while i try to figure myself out through what’s going on in the world now, thank you