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Posted 10 years agoI love people approaching me because they like my art, then completely drop contact with me when they realise their awkward attempts at becoming friends (by asking if we can be friends) won't culminate in me doing free art for them.
It's really funny because they're doing the weeding for me.
Though it's also really sad when I see people I know who do this to another person I know that has no idea that particular person is just trying to suck free art from people.
I'm not going to draw for you if you scrounge and make it blatantly obvious you only want my art.
Yes, I draw a lot for friends for free, much more than I upload here. Yes, there is a difference between you and them. They're my friends. You're acting friendly.
No, not sour or anything. Just something I've noticed happening a lot. *Shrugs* I'unno.
It's really funny because they're doing the weeding for me.
Though it's also really sad when I see people I know who do this to another person I know that has no idea that particular person is just trying to suck free art from people.
I'm not going to draw for you if you scrounge and make it blatantly obvious you only want my art.
Yes, I draw a lot for friends for free, much more than I upload here. Yes, there is a difference between you and them. They're my friends. You're acting friendly.
No, not sour or anything. Just something I've noticed happening a lot. *Shrugs* I'unno.
What.
Posted 10 years agoI leave for a weekend and gain more watchers in those few days than I normally do over two weeks.
You're all sending me mixed messages. Do you want me to stay and do art or just post journals about my interests every so often? What do you want from me? >:C
You're all sending me mixed messages. Do you want me to stay and do art or just post journals about my interests every so often? What do you want from me? >:C
The return of the MGS boner.
Posted 10 years ago...With a vengeance.
tl;dr at bottom. Probably worth skipping my incoherent ramblings.
I'unno if anyone has picked up on a subtle hint that lies within the existence of my character, Solid, but I feel I should tell you that I'm quite a big fan of the Metal Gear Solid series. Now... I don't know if journals on FA have a character/word limit and If I wanted to find out I'd just talk about MGS in general. I'll save you all from mashing the Page Down key for an hour and just keep this nice and short.
It's very rare that I get so excited, worked up, hyped about things to the extent a good game can bring. Team Fortress and its seasonal and event updates? Sure, I look forward to them. Something nice injected into the game to keep it going. Monster Hunter 4 ultimate? Yeah, s'pretty grand, probably going to pick up a 2DS to give it a whirl. Love the series. But that's fairly standard for me, for anyone. A series you enjoy comes out with new content or a sequel, most have, but what fuels the hype and excitement? For most I've seen as of late, there's little to any advertisement beyond pre-rendered cinematic, fancy flashy graphics and maybe small portions of game-play that consists of characters running or attacking something a wee bit sprinkled sparingly over a two minute video.
For me, that doesn't cut it. I find myself a bit hard to impress when it comes to new releases. The game industry has formed a habit of being flashy without being showy. Lots of talk, not much walkin' done. Pre rendered cinematic segments from various cut-scenes tailored to look flash or to be used specifically for advertising, or perhaps heavily scripted game-play that focuses on making the experience look good rather than showing that it feels good. Two fairly infamous names come to mind as examples and I'm sure you could think of a few yourself, but I digress, this isn't the point of this journal.
I'm biased most definitely to the things I already enjoy but I try to keep myself sceptical and cautious when it comes to any releases due to the trends in video game marketing ploys. Never Ending Beta periods, various iterations and variations of "Free" to Play, rushed releases and games being chopped apart to be sold in pieces. A game gets hyped up so much because of the concepts alone, I find it hard to buy into that hype. If I'm not mistaken, Titanfall was hyped so much, it sounded great but I stopped myself. I don't even recall seeing much game-play or much talk about what goes on beyond "You get into big mechs like a killstreak thing and got wreck people's shit." Hell yeah I'm down for some mech on mech battle! But... what else? Of course there were probably a lot of videos and trailers that showed off the game-play and mechanics, but I never really saw it pushed as the main focus. From what I saw in teaser, trailer and advertisement videos was lots of explosions, Titan's fighting, maybe a wall run here or there and someone getting kicked in the mouth.
to me, it just didn't sell the game. I barely even contemplated buying it. Now, by all means I'm not saying the game is bad. I'm not saying it's a failure. I haven't seen or heard anything other than most people I know that bought the game stopped playing it rather quickly and that it was kind of underwhelming for them, but... y'know, never touched it, can't say.
Most I see these days just seem to build hype on what "people want". Action, explosions, lots of murdering people with guns, maybe some zombies or something. You're a bad-arse! Shoot the things, oh look at all the things being shot. Something along those lines, right? Battlefield 4, any CoD game... pretty much anything that has combat in it, the focus of trailers tends to be on combat. -JUST- combat. Expected, but it seems there's a fair few methods in picking apart trailers and teasers that gives a little insight as to how reliable these advertisements are. If not, the developers themselves.
But, then again, teaser ads and the like aren't meant to be entirely honest, are they? W-... I've deviated soooooooo much from my initial point.
-
Not often do I see a triple A title company and publisher produce such in depth game play "trailers" before. I say that because instead of being a trailer, a "Here's what might be coming", Konami and Kojima gave a "We've just about given you the controller, and I'll explain how everything works as you go along."
Admittedly I've not actually looked around to see if a game publisher/developer of such a huge name has gone into the same or deeper detail that the MGSV team has in giving previews to their game. Yes, I'm about to defend a "$20 demo".
No, it's not right to force people to pay money to test your games. No, it's not right to even hint at such things. MGSV: Ground Zeroes is not a beta. Not a test of a product. It's a small portion of a game released for fans to sink their teeth into and sample the works that are to come. To put things into perspective. To benchmark your hardware, to prepare you.
Yes, demos used to be free. Consider this: This game was roughly a 3Gb install on steam. It looks amazing. It hands sooooooooooooooo god damn smoothly for something to be considered a "console port", it feels as if it's a part of my computer's software to begin with. It's unnaturally natural. The game-play mechanics are solid, the physics and engine work so brilliantly. I was speechless playing through it the first time. Yes, it's probably a bit much, but most 80% of the time I get a new game it takes about half an hour to let it finish installing and anywhere from five to twenty minutes fiddling with graphics and system settings to get everything working just right, then it takes decades to load or do anything; MGSV:GZ took ten minutes to finish all its installing, adjusted settings to my PC specs, and started in full screen borderless and I didn't have to touch a fucking thing.
It impressed me a lot for a "console port" as I'm told it is. For those of you that have had problems launching the game (Aaaaaall one of you, I believe)... I'm sorry...
Being a great way to kill time aside, this game serves a larger purpose. Couple with it almost an hour and a half's worth of game-play videos that show and describe improvements and features SINCE the release of Ground Zeroes... how much more is there to ask for bar Phantom Pain itself? You not only have a playable copy of a slightly earlier prelude to the game you're waiting for to judge and critique yourself, but an hour plus of videos detailing improvements.
"You can freely roam your own Mother Base." Oh that sounds cool. But do they stop there? Nooo, they just smile, gesture back to the screen and say "Yeah, we know, that's why we're going to spend five to ten minutes of game-play of walking around the base, detailing the things you can do and what can happen while you're there."
... with my struggle to restrain myself, I'll try and end it here.
I don't quite know what it's like not to be a fan of Hideo Kojima, nor what it's like to not be a fan of the MGS franchise. I do know what it's like to see something promising only to have it fail utterly. *Cough* Brink *Cough*. I do know what it's like to feel lied to and cheated by a company. I'm sure we all do. I try to keep myself at a neutral standpoint and approach things indifferently, most of the time. Despite being a fan of MGS, that aside, I don't see a reason why MGSV would not captivate my attention.
If stealth games are your fancy, if you liked any Splinter Cell games, if you like Assassin's Creed and other such titles, I do recommend you check out some game-play trailers for Metal Gear Solid V: The Phantom Pain. The coverage of features and detailing is great along with the pacing of explanations, you'll be well informed and hopefully it ignites your interest.
tl;dr When Metal Gear Solid V comes out, I'm going to be VERY hard to reach.
tl;dr at bottom. Probably worth skipping my incoherent ramblings.
I'unno if anyone has picked up on a subtle hint that lies within the existence of my character, Solid, but I feel I should tell you that I'm quite a big fan of the Metal Gear Solid series. Now... I don't know if journals on FA have a character/word limit and If I wanted to find out I'd just talk about MGS in general. I'll save you all from mashing the Page Down key for an hour and just keep this nice and short.
It's very rare that I get so excited, worked up, hyped about things to the extent a good game can bring. Team Fortress and its seasonal and event updates? Sure, I look forward to them. Something nice injected into the game to keep it going. Monster Hunter 4 ultimate? Yeah, s'pretty grand, probably going to pick up a 2DS to give it a whirl. Love the series. But that's fairly standard for me, for anyone. A series you enjoy comes out with new content or a sequel, most have, but what fuels the hype and excitement? For most I've seen as of late, there's little to any advertisement beyond pre-rendered cinematic, fancy flashy graphics and maybe small portions of game-play that consists of characters running or attacking something a wee bit sprinkled sparingly over a two minute video.
For me, that doesn't cut it. I find myself a bit hard to impress when it comes to new releases. The game industry has formed a habit of being flashy without being showy. Lots of talk, not much walkin' done. Pre rendered cinematic segments from various cut-scenes tailored to look flash or to be used specifically for advertising, or perhaps heavily scripted game-play that focuses on making the experience look good rather than showing that it feels good. Two fairly infamous names come to mind as examples and I'm sure you could think of a few yourself, but I digress, this isn't the point of this journal.
I'm biased most definitely to the things I already enjoy but I try to keep myself sceptical and cautious when it comes to any releases due to the trends in video game marketing ploys. Never Ending Beta periods, various iterations and variations of "Free" to Play, rushed releases and games being chopped apart to be sold in pieces. A game gets hyped up so much because of the concepts alone, I find it hard to buy into that hype. If I'm not mistaken, Titanfall was hyped so much, it sounded great but I stopped myself. I don't even recall seeing much game-play or much talk about what goes on beyond "You get into big mechs like a killstreak thing and got wreck people's shit." Hell yeah I'm down for some mech on mech battle! But... what else? Of course there were probably a lot of videos and trailers that showed off the game-play and mechanics, but I never really saw it pushed as the main focus. From what I saw in teaser, trailer and advertisement videos was lots of explosions, Titan's fighting, maybe a wall run here or there and someone getting kicked in the mouth.
to me, it just didn't sell the game. I barely even contemplated buying it. Now, by all means I'm not saying the game is bad. I'm not saying it's a failure. I haven't seen or heard anything other than most people I know that bought the game stopped playing it rather quickly and that it was kind of underwhelming for them, but... y'know, never touched it, can't say.
Most I see these days just seem to build hype on what "people want". Action, explosions, lots of murdering people with guns, maybe some zombies or something. You're a bad-arse! Shoot the things, oh look at all the things being shot. Something along those lines, right? Battlefield 4, any CoD game... pretty much anything that has combat in it, the focus of trailers tends to be on combat. -JUST- combat. Expected, but it seems there's a fair few methods in picking apart trailers and teasers that gives a little insight as to how reliable these advertisements are. If not, the developers themselves.
But, then again, teaser ads and the like aren't meant to be entirely honest, are they? W-... I've deviated soooooooo much from my initial point.
-
Not often do I see a triple A title company and publisher produce such in depth game play "trailers" before. I say that because instead of being a trailer, a "Here's what might be coming", Konami and Kojima gave a "We've just about given you the controller, and I'll explain how everything works as you go along."
Admittedly I've not actually looked around to see if a game publisher/developer of such a huge name has gone into the same or deeper detail that the MGSV team has in giving previews to their game. Yes, I'm about to defend a "$20 demo".
No, it's not right to force people to pay money to test your games. No, it's not right to even hint at such things. MGSV: Ground Zeroes is not a beta. Not a test of a product. It's a small portion of a game released for fans to sink their teeth into and sample the works that are to come. To put things into perspective. To benchmark your hardware, to prepare you.
Yes, demos used to be free. Consider this: This game was roughly a 3Gb install on steam. It looks amazing. It hands sooooooooooooooo god damn smoothly for something to be considered a "console port", it feels as if it's a part of my computer's software to begin with. It's unnaturally natural. The game-play mechanics are solid, the physics and engine work so brilliantly. I was speechless playing through it the first time. Yes, it's probably a bit much, but most 80% of the time I get a new game it takes about half an hour to let it finish installing and anywhere from five to twenty minutes fiddling with graphics and system settings to get everything working just right, then it takes decades to load or do anything; MGSV:GZ took ten minutes to finish all its installing, adjusted settings to my PC specs, and started in full screen borderless and I didn't have to touch a fucking thing.
It impressed me a lot for a "console port" as I'm told it is. For those of you that have had problems launching the game (Aaaaaall one of you, I believe)... I'm sorry...
Being a great way to kill time aside, this game serves a larger purpose. Couple with it almost an hour and a half's worth of game-play videos that show and describe improvements and features SINCE the release of Ground Zeroes... how much more is there to ask for bar Phantom Pain itself? You not only have a playable copy of a slightly earlier prelude to the game you're waiting for to judge and critique yourself, but an hour plus of videos detailing improvements.
"You can freely roam your own Mother Base." Oh that sounds cool. But do they stop there? Nooo, they just smile, gesture back to the screen and say "Yeah, we know, that's why we're going to spend five to ten minutes of game-play of walking around the base, detailing the things you can do and what can happen while you're there."
... with my struggle to restrain myself, I'll try and end it here.
I don't quite know what it's like not to be a fan of Hideo Kojima, nor what it's like to not be a fan of the MGS franchise. I do know what it's like to see something promising only to have it fail utterly. *Cough* Brink *Cough*. I do know what it's like to feel lied to and cheated by a company. I'm sure we all do. I try to keep myself at a neutral standpoint and approach things indifferently, most of the time. Despite being a fan of MGS, that aside, I don't see a reason why MGSV would not captivate my attention.
If stealth games are your fancy, if you liked any Splinter Cell games, if you like Assassin's Creed and other such titles, I do recommend you check out some game-play trailers for Metal Gear Solid V: The Phantom Pain. The coverage of features and detailing is great along with the pacing of explanations, you'll be well informed and hopefully it ignites your interest.
tl;dr When Metal Gear Solid V comes out, I'm going to be VERY hard to reach.
Happy New Year from Australia
Posted 10 years agoAnd the fireworks start. How brilliant~
365 days, 248 watchers, f... uh... a number of submissions as well.
T'was an eye opener of a year, and a great one at that.
Thank you to all the new watchers I've gained and all of the ones that've stuck with me over the years. I hope I can continue to satisfy <3
365 days, 248 watchers, f... uh... a number of submissions as well.
T'was an eye opener of a year, and a great one at that.
Thank you to all the new watchers I've gained and all of the ones that've stuck with me over the years. I hope I can continue to satisfy <3
New Years Eve Stream
Posted 10 years agoSo. It's 8Am for me, I'm sippin' on a coffee, I woke up at 4PM the day prior. Probably not much of an achievement.
A stream will be upon you all. One of many though, s'not really that special. I was referring to mine, though, 'cause I'm... eck. From mid-day AEST, I'll be starting a stream. A request stream! Yis, all you art wanting people come on along! Butter me up so you can get some free art and then vanish without a word!
Wow, this journal suddenly turned mean. I'm sorry. I love you all :D
Request stream, free for all to come peek at! Come, stay a while, meet some great dudes and not dudes! Get included in some artwork, or get some of your own maybe! I'll be streaming all up until new years(for me)!
It took about twenty minutes to write this, I'm fairly tired. I'mma have a bit of a snooze and hopefully wake up before stream time.
Hope to catch you there!
A stream will be upon you all. One of many though, s'not really that special. I was referring to mine, though, 'cause I'm... eck. From mid-day AEST, I'll be starting a stream. A request stream! Yis, all you art wanting people come on along! Butter me up so you can get some free art and then vanish without a word!
Wow, this journal suddenly turned mean. I'm sorry. I love you all :D
Request stream, free for all to come peek at! Come, stay a while, meet some great dudes and not dudes! Get included in some artwork, or get some of your own maybe! I'll be streaming all up until new years(for me)!
It took about twenty minutes to write this, I'm fairly tired. I'mma have a bit of a snooze and hopefully wake up before stream time.
Hope to catch you there!
End oF The Year Stream
Posted 11 years agoI wanted to do a stream at some point for some free art and fun for anyone who wants to join in. Didn't quite know when. Was thinkin' of doing it Christmas, but it's pretty busy around then, what with people having families and love and commitments. Gosh. >:C
So perhaps a New Year stream might be nice. Might go for a 24-hour New Years Eve/New Years Day stream of free sketches and the like as I'd rather leave people to their Christmas chillin' and the like.
Hell, might even drink and get on Skype. Get to see me get all bouncy and what not. Maybe even tipsy or drunk or... whatever comes first! I'll tell yah, if I get drunk, it'll be my first time. :3
Regardless, I'll post another journal in advance so all can be prepared.
Until then, have a Happy Holiday, Merry Massings of Christ and other similar festivities!
So perhaps a New Year stream might be nice. Might go for a 24-hour New Years Eve/New Years Day stream of free sketches and the like as I'd rather leave people to their Christmas chillin' and the like.
Hell, might even drink and get on Skype. Get to see me get all bouncy and what not. Maybe even tipsy or drunk or... whatever comes first! I'll tell yah, if I get drunk, it'll be my first time. :3
Regardless, I'll post another journal in advance so all can be prepared.
Until then, have a Happy Holiday, Merry Massings of Christ and other similar festivities!
Contact Purge
Posted 11 years agoAt some undisclosed time in the near future, probably sometime over the next week, I will be cleaning out my contact lists.
Those of you who don't have to worry are those that I consider friends or speak with me on a regular basis. There will be no other exceptions.
The reason is that I have far to many contacts on my messenger lists. Full of people I don't know, don't remember or aren't even covered by the lengthy memory of my chat logs. I will be removing people on how often we've spoken and what about (In case the only conversations we've had have been about doing artwork for someone or role play).
If you find you've been removed, please don't be upset. It's absolutely nothing personal against you. If you still want to speak with me, you're free to re-add me. However, after I've cleaned out my contact list, I will be more prone to removing those I don't speak with in an effort to keep my contact list short.
Alternatively, if you wish to discuss personal concerns about my decision, make use of the IM service you have me on or send me a note here.
Those of you who don't have to worry are those that I consider friends or speak with me on a regular basis. There will be no other exceptions.
The reason is that I have far to many contacts on my messenger lists. Full of people I don't know, don't remember or aren't even covered by the lengthy memory of my chat logs. I will be removing people on how often we've spoken and what about (In case the only conversations we've had have been about doing artwork for someone or role play).
If you find you've been removed, please don't be upset. It's absolutely nothing personal against you. If you still want to speak with me, you're free to re-add me. However, after I've cleaned out my contact list, I will be more prone to removing those I don't speak with in an effort to keep my contact list short.
Alternatively, if you wish to discuss personal concerns about my decision, make use of the IM service you have me on or send me a note here.
Something I've come to realise
Posted 11 years agoMaking pointless short "comments" with no weight or value seem to draw all the attention of just about anyone, along with free art. I think I may try jumping in on this. Let's give it a try.
Hopefully I don't hate myself or something.
DRAWING VORE BUT WHAT. IDEAS PLZ
I'm going to bury myself. Brb.
This wasn't meant to be a social commentary. I'm asking for ideas to draw. Sorry for the confusion but it is nice to know some people want to talk more about that kinda stuff.
Hopefully I don't hate myself or something.
DRAWING VORE BUT WHAT. IDEAS PLZ
I'm going to bury myself. Brb.
This wasn't meant to be a social commentary. I'm asking for ideas to draw. Sorry for the confusion but it is nice to know some people want to talk more about that kinda stuff.
Children
Posted 11 years agoSo, I've not talked lately. been busy with my course. Sorry about that. Just wanted to put something up here for everyone to let you know I'm not dead.
Recently, I've found myself on the receiving end of contact requests from children on steam, Skype and other websites, Furries/Bronies no less. Attempting to hide their age. One particular notable encounter was from an MLP kid that told me they enjoyed the more mature vore types and didn't seem to understand much of what I was saying. Didn't seem to understand why I didn't want to role-play with a child, or why I'm against doing sexual stuff with minors.
It is incredibly creepy knowing there are a handful of under-age teens to children that are 'sexually' attracted to me. Really, really, really fucking creepy.
I feel myself wanting to put some distance between myself and the community. Dunno. Some of the attention I get is just... really creepy, even from people that aren't under-age. Actually might explain why I've been less inclined to draw and more inclined to study and game, and keep aaaaaaaaaaall the drawings to close friends.
...yeah, I think I'm just going to post clean art from now on. Clean art and commissions.
Recently, I've found myself on the receiving end of contact requests from children on steam, Skype and other websites, Furries/Bronies no less. Attempting to hide their age. One particular notable encounter was from an MLP kid that told me they enjoyed the more mature vore types and didn't seem to understand much of what I was saying. Didn't seem to understand why I didn't want to role-play with a child, or why I'm against doing sexual stuff with minors.
It is incredibly creepy knowing there are a handful of under-age teens to children that are 'sexually' attracted to me. Really, really, really fucking creepy.
I feel myself wanting to put some distance between myself and the community. Dunno. Some of the attention I get is just... really creepy, even from people that aren't under-age. Actually might explain why I've been less inclined to draw and more inclined to study and game, and keep aaaaaaaaaaall the drawings to close friends.
...yeah, I think I'm just going to post clean art from now on. Clean art and commissions.
Art Requests
Posted 11 years agoI'unno about everyone else, but there's something that always bothers me about art requests and what not. Especially when a new artist pops up on FA or something.
There's a good reason why I don't talk to a lot of people, and why I seem fairly distant from others. Regardless of my intentions, I hate feeling like I'm coming off as a greedy, selfish person. I generally try and avoid conversations with many people due to the way my actions can be interpreted.
Every time I see a new artist pop up, It's almost certain I'll see a specific handful of people having left shouts and comments in an obvious effort to get first dibs on an unsuspecting artist's generosity. I find it pretty disgusting to be honest, and it's not hard to figure out who these people are.
But that's the way I feel about myself. Someone new makes an appearance, I enjoy their style. I'd like something from them. Even if they aren't new or I don't want something from them, I feel like I'm trying to contact them for the wrong reasons, so I generally stay fairly quiet.
I've seen it happen to friends, I've had it happen to me. I've done it myself before and it feels crap. I don't like talking to people that have something to offer because I feel that I'm seen or acting like I only want what they can offer, even if I'm not after anything more than a companion, a friend, and to make them happy.
I'unno why I'm posting this, but... I am. Eh. Wanna at least seem a bit more lively around here.
Soooooo... I suppose, if there's anyone that thinks I don't like them or something because we don't talk, it's not true. I don't talk because I don't want to look like one of those people that hang around you only so you can indulge my vanity for me.
...though I do like art and stuff. And I want it. Just don't want that to be the reason we talk. Even if I'm paying you. S'rude.
There's a good reason why I don't talk to a lot of people, and why I seem fairly distant from others. Regardless of my intentions, I hate feeling like I'm coming off as a greedy, selfish person. I generally try and avoid conversations with many people due to the way my actions can be interpreted.
Every time I see a new artist pop up, It's almost certain I'll see a specific handful of people having left shouts and comments in an obvious effort to get first dibs on an unsuspecting artist's generosity. I find it pretty disgusting to be honest, and it's not hard to figure out who these people are.
But that's the way I feel about myself. Someone new makes an appearance, I enjoy their style. I'd like something from them. Even if they aren't new or I don't want something from them, I feel like I'm trying to contact them for the wrong reasons, so I generally stay fairly quiet.
I've seen it happen to friends, I've had it happen to me. I've done it myself before and it feels crap. I don't like talking to people that have something to offer because I feel that I'm seen or acting like I only want what they can offer, even if I'm not after anything more than a companion, a friend, and to make them happy.
I'unno why I'm posting this, but... I am. Eh. Wanna at least seem a bit more lively around here.
Soooooo... I suppose, if there's anyone that thinks I don't like them or something because we don't talk, it's not true. I don't talk because I don't want to look like one of those people that hang around you only so you can indulge my vanity for me.
...though I do like art and stuff. And I want it. Just don't want that to be the reason we talk. Even if I'm paying you. S'rude.
Onto The Modelling Section of the Course
Posted 11 years agoNot without an Alienware Gaming Laptop and several dozen different modelling and editing applications, along with UDK issued to me by my college.
Yup.
Mhmm.
Mmmnh. That self inflated ego balloon is pretty hard to keep tied down right now. Good thing this Alienware laptop weighs enough to keep it anchored.
Yup.
Mhmm.
Mmmnh. That self inflated ego balloon is pretty hard to keep tied down right now. Good thing this Alienware laptop weighs enough to keep it anchored.
FaceRig
Posted 11 years agoIs so fun.
Good thing I'm into 3D modelling.
Good thing I'm into 3D modelling.
Life is funny.
Posted 11 years agoI don't think I complain or vent all to often. I believe I generally keep the venting and frustration limited to a handful of people I know, 'cause I don't like spreading negativity and what not. But I want to post this. Because. S'my journal, I'll put up what I want. Doesn't stop anyone else. :I
Though bare in mind that this journal isn't for anyone who's easily offended. If you don't want to read my venting, don't read it. If you do and you get offended and/or disagree, follow these steps.
1. Write a comment below and let me know why I'm wrong to express my negative thoughts on a small portion of a community based on my first hand experience in some personally outstanding situations, in my own journal.
2. Fuck you. (But not really this is a joke)
tl;dr at the bottom.
The motivation and desires to get involved with this community rarely bubble up past the point of mild speculations of what I'd do. Yesterday was one of those days where I wanted to do something spontaneous and fun for a bunch of people I don't even know. I was over flowing with ideas, motivation. I was seriously itching to start work immediately, before I'd even had a response.
All it takes is one selfish, narrow minded, ignorant fuckwit to ruin it for everyone.
That's not what's funny, though. What's funny is that after your mood's been pushed down a flight of stairs, life decides to stand at the top of those stairs throwing bricks at you, mocking you for having desires to make people happy.
I know for certain just why I don't post often, why I don't get involved and why I don't talk much to people here. Furries are selfish and ignorant. Over the past few months, I've had several people add me just to get artwork or something else from me, and treat me as an object or a vendor while wandering into several different realms of ignorance, hypocrisy and stupidity. Though before anyone gets their panties sucked up their arse, keep in mind, if you're not a fuckwit, this isn't referring to you.
I don't know what I'm going to do about all this bullshit I get. Being super nice leads me to being used. Being blunt, honest and logical leaves me branded as an arsehole. I suppose I should wipe my steam and Skype list and start over. Suppose I should not accept friend/contact requests so openly anymore. I think I might.
I want to give and create things for the people here, but just a handful of you make it so difficult to give a fuck and stay around.
But still, I want to do things. So I'm going to.
Last journal still applies, I haven't dropped that. Just waitin' to calm down and get into a better mood. Don't really think it's right of me to draw a friendly gift to people when I feel more like hurting people. Doesn't feel right to fake a smile.
tl:dr
I hate some people a lot. And those kinds of people have been swarming me lately. Shit happens, I'll get over it. No offence. I'm going to watch JonTron for a while.
Though bare in mind that this journal isn't for anyone who's easily offended. If you don't want to read my venting, don't read it. If you do and you get offended and/or disagree, follow these steps.
1. Write a comment below and let me know why I'm wrong to express my negative thoughts on a small portion of a community based on my first hand experience in some personally outstanding situations, in my own journal.
2. Fuck you. (But not really this is a joke)
tl;dr at the bottom.
The motivation and desires to get involved with this community rarely bubble up past the point of mild speculations of what I'd do. Yesterday was one of those days where I wanted to do something spontaneous and fun for a bunch of people I don't even know. I was over flowing with ideas, motivation. I was seriously itching to start work immediately, before I'd even had a response.
All it takes is one selfish, narrow minded, ignorant fuckwit to ruin it for everyone.
That's not what's funny, though. What's funny is that after your mood's been pushed down a flight of stairs, life decides to stand at the top of those stairs throwing bricks at you, mocking you for having desires to make people happy.
I know for certain just why I don't post often, why I don't get involved and why I don't talk much to people here. Furries are selfish and ignorant. Over the past few months, I've had several people add me just to get artwork or something else from me, and treat me as an object or a vendor while wandering into several different realms of ignorance, hypocrisy and stupidity. Though before anyone gets their panties sucked up their arse, keep in mind, if you're not a fuckwit, this isn't referring to you.
I don't know what I'm going to do about all this bullshit I get. Being super nice leads me to being used. Being blunt, honest and logical leaves me branded as an arsehole. I suppose I should wipe my steam and Skype list and start over. Suppose I should not accept friend/contact requests so openly anymore. I think I might.
I want to give and create things for the people here, but just a handful of you make it so difficult to give a fuck and stay around.
But still, I want to do things. So I'm going to.
Last journal still applies, I haven't dropped that. Just waitin' to calm down and get into a better mood. Don't really think it's right of me to draw a friendly gift to people when I feel more like hurting people. Doesn't feel right to fake a smile.
tl:dr
I hate some people a lot. And those kinds of people have been swarming me lately. Shit happens, I'll get over it. No offence. I'm going to watch JonTron for a while.
Spontaneous Vore Thing
Posted 11 years agoSo let's do this.
Make a comment, leave a reference in the comment. Also state whether you want to be inside or outside. If outside, pred or not.
This is being left intentionally vague.
I'll roll some numbers in an hour and we'll see what happens.
Alright, that's enough. Gonna roll and we'll see what happens.
Lots of nasties going around lately.
Posted 11 years agoIt's like this and last month have been breeding grounds for bad things. People being jerks, viruses and such going around as well. S'crazy.
Also, for those of you that call me a jerk when I want an explanation for a file or link you've sent me without saying a word, a friend of mine caught a virus on skype earlier this morning, and it tried to do the same thing to me.
And not a month ago did I have a handful of people on steam and skype trying to do similar things.
So to everyone that continues to link me to things instead of outright telling me something, or sending me a picture and saying nothing of it, fuckin' stop already. Not only am I sick of conversations turning into link-spams, but it also makes it harder to differentiate between you and what a virus would do.
You know that's pretty much how Steam viruses go around, right? Just a link to something that LOOKS like a steam link but is, in fact, a virus.
Seriously, cut that shit out.
Also, for those of you that call me a jerk when I want an explanation for a file or link you've sent me without saying a word, a friend of mine caught a virus on skype earlier this morning, and it tried to do the same thing to me.
And not a month ago did I have a handful of people on steam and skype trying to do similar things.
So to everyone that continues to link me to things instead of outright telling me something, or sending me a picture and saying nothing of it, fuckin' stop already. Not only am I sick of conversations turning into link-spams, but it also makes it harder to differentiate between you and what a virus would do.
You know that's pretty much how Steam viruses go around, right? Just a link to something that LOOKS like a steam link but is, in fact, a virus.
Seriously, cut that shit out.
Just a quick question
Posted 11 years agoSo, I had an issue a while back with someone. Want your opinion on it.
I was added by someone who wanted help with art. S'cool, I like helping people. They seemed alright, until I found out through following shouts on their own page that they were just going around to artists insulting them, calling their work shit and that they need to get better. This is despite the artists being really good artists and the person in question not being able to actually draw something of quality at the time. (Seen some of their work recently though, it's pretty good.)
Now, not only does this person insult other artists without any merit, rhyme or reason - pretty much random, unjustified attacks - but they also harassed a handful of people I know. I removed them after that.
After some time, they added me again. New skype, new FA, trying to squeeze by like they weren't the same person, at all. Was sus of them from the start and eventually called them out. They admitted to trying to hide it from me and just wanted to get help with art. I was cool with it, told'm not to do that shit again and we'll be fine.
However, nothing changed. They still harassed other artists and... generally displayed the same behaviour as before. On top of that, while talking with them, I'm treated like my opinion, thoughts and interests outside of my artwork are absolute crap.
So, I removed them, again, from skype and blocked their account on FA and if I remember correctly, stated that they're rude, disrespectful and I don't want anything to do with them.
About a month ago, I noticed a new watch from them on Weasyl. About an hour ago they added me to skype once more under a different name, brand new skype account, only 3 contacts on their list. So, y'know, sus on that. I asked what's up and what they wanted, responded with them wanting to fill out their contact list and, after a bit of prodding, they asked me how to draw somethings. The same somethings this person had ask me with help with before.
I made it clear I was sus of them prior to them showing off an example of their work and what I was shown was undeniably work from the same person I had thought it was. When I called them on it, though, they just told me they changed. Changed to the point where they don't want to discuss the past and just focus on artwork.
I called them out, told them why I had removed them and that I was going to do it again, to which they called me a faggot and removed me in what I can only describe as a ragequit. Their FA page went unviewable right afterwards.
Now, what I want to know is is it wrong of me to still hold something against someone who so blatantly showed such disregard for my and other's interests, showed little to no respect to those they didn't deem good enough? Should I have overlooked the attempts to deceive me for their own agenda without so much as an acknowledgement of the issues they made and an apology?
I try to be a nice guy and give everyone a fair chance. Half the time, the way this person acts is akin to a 'troll'. The other half the time they seem fairly genuine in their wants to improve and get involved despite the questionable methods and processes that goes on.
I want to hear your thoughts, on everything. Advice for me, advice for this fella who's probably still watching me from somewhere, whatever it may be.
And please, keep in mind I've not giving any names or details as to who this person is, nor will I because I don't want to be rude, draw any negative attention, get suspended again and they don't seem to like staying on one account to long so why bother. Some of you may have had an encounter with this person before, or thought you have, either way, don't be throwing out names.
Probably gonna get suspended anyway because from the last I checked, FA's got a lot of loose rules so bleh. If I do, I'll just stick to Weasyl, or not posting at all anywhere. Because effort.
I was added by someone who wanted help with art. S'cool, I like helping people. They seemed alright, until I found out through following shouts on their own page that they were just going around to artists insulting them, calling their work shit and that they need to get better. This is despite the artists being really good artists and the person in question not being able to actually draw something of quality at the time. (Seen some of their work recently though, it's pretty good.)
Now, not only does this person insult other artists without any merit, rhyme or reason - pretty much random, unjustified attacks - but they also harassed a handful of people I know. I removed them after that.
After some time, they added me again. New skype, new FA, trying to squeeze by like they weren't the same person, at all. Was sus of them from the start and eventually called them out. They admitted to trying to hide it from me and just wanted to get help with art. I was cool with it, told'm not to do that shit again and we'll be fine.
However, nothing changed. They still harassed other artists and... generally displayed the same behaviour as before. On top of that, while talking with them, I'm treated like my opinion, thoughts and interests outside of my artwork are absolute crap.
So, I removed them, again, from skype and blocked their account on FA and if I remember correctly, stated that they're rude, disrespectful and I don't want anything to do with them.
About a month ago, I noticed a new watch from them on Weasyl. About an hour ago they added me to skype once more under a different name, brand new skype account, only 3 contacts on their list. So, y'know, sus on that. I asked what's up and what they wanted, responded with them wanting to fill out their contact list and, after a bit of prodding, they asked me how to draw somethings. The same somethings this person had ask me with help with before.
I made it clear I was sus of them prior to them showing off an example of their work and what I was shown was undeniably work from the same person I had thought it was. When I called them on it, though, they just told me they changed. Changed to the point where they don't want to discuss the past and just focus on artwork.
I called them out, told them why I had removed them and that I was going to do it again, to which they called me a faggot and removed me in what I can only describe as a ragequit. Their FA page went unviewable right afterwards.
Now, what I want to know is is it wrong of me to still hold something against someone who so blatantly showed such disregard for my and other's interests, showed little to no respect to those they didn't deem good enough? Should I have overlooked the attempts to deceive me for their own agenda without so much as an acknowledgement of the issues they made and an apology?
I try to be a nice guy and give everyone a fair chance. Half the time, the way this person acts is akin to a 'troll'. The other half the time they seem fairly genuine in their wants to improve and get involved despite the questionable methods and processes that goes on.
I want to hear your thoughts, on everything. Advice for me, advice for this fella who's probably still watching me from somewhere, whatever it may be.
And please, keep in mind I've not giving any names or details as to who this person is, nor will I because I don't want to be rude, draw any negative attention, get suspended again and they don't seem to like staying on one account to long so why bother. Some of you may have had an encounter with this person before, or thought you have, either way, don't be throwing out names.
Probably gonna get suspended anyway because from the last I checked, FA's got a lot of loose rules so bleh. If I do, I'll just stick to Weasyl, or not posting at all anywhere. Because effort.
Whoop, Followup journal
Posted 11 years agoFuckin', didn't know what else to call this journal. I don't post often enough and I'm sure you guys want to hear from me more, especially those of you that recently watched me over the past week or so, even though I've not really done anything.
Not a problem, just... baffles me that there were an influx of watches when I don't recall doing anything. I appreciate it all the same, and I'd love to know why I'm being watched, as always, by anyone.
Anyways, onto journalling.
So, I'm now officially technically a game developer.
The college I'm with is pretty fuckin' sweet. 15 hours minimum, plenty of information, assistance and utilities to work with. Clear objectives and soon enough I'll be issued an Alienware gaming laptop to work on. I keep it when I complete the course. ;3c
Right now, first cluster of work is Workplace Health and Safety stuff that no one cares about but is mandatory so bleh. Next half of the cluster is about being an effective worker in the workplace which is also bluh, after that, laptop and modelling. :D
Needless to say it's going VERY well so far. Just about completed one of 3 assessments for the WHS stuff. Just need to get a copy of Microsoft Office so I can work at home and just power through all this shit and get mah laptop and start modelling~
I've recently got a hold of Dark Souls 2, Metal Gear Rising: Revengeance, Battlefield 4 and... that's it I think. Been on TF2 a lot, wanting to do more Mann Up MvM but no one's around for it. Wanna play Dark Souls 2 but SM is a hindrance. Wanna play BF4 since so many of my friends have it, but none are on to play it. Wanna hear Sundowner say "I'M FUCKIN' INVINCIBLE" over and over but I can't really spare 23Gb's of download. :V
Gaming is fun with friends and yeah play with me. Scrubs. Get gud. GG. Faggot. 1v1 me, Hang'em High pistols only. get rekt.
I've been on the fence about drawing. I've been wanting to do more, newerishnesslying stuff but don't really have the ideas of my own, and I'm too much of a cynical cunt to do most of the things suggested by others because of whatever reasons I have.
Wanna do something more... bleh. In-depth? Showin' a bit more to characters and what not beyond "dilligaf about u im hungry" 'cause... eh. Feel myself wanting a bit more than just that. Lil' scene to draw, wanna see how well I can portray a scene because we already know how I do at noms and stuff.
I was considering opening up trades, but I'm not all to sure. No particular reason, most people seem to understand the concept of a fair trade, and at the same time I always feel I'm somehow giving less than I should.
Still not gonna colour stuff because fuck it. But...Mmmnh. Yeah, why not.
If anyone is interested in an art trade, do let me know.
If there's anyone I owe, because I don't check that shit, contact me privately and we'll work something out.
If anyone wishes to game with me, I'm good with that too.
I... well, I think this was a bit underwhelming of a journal. Maybe, I'unno, feel like I forgot something.
Suppose I'll catch you all later. Hopefully I'm modellin' some sick as fuck vore porn by then.
Not a problem, just... baffles me that there were an influx of watches when I don't recall doing anything. I appreciate it all the same, and I'd love to know why I'm being watched, as always, by anyone.
Anyways, onto journalling.
So, I'm now officially technically a game developer.
The college I'm with is pretty fuckin' sweet. 15 hours minimum, plenty of information, assistance and utilities to work with. Clear objectives and soon enough I'll be issued an Alienware gaming laptop to work on. I keep it when I complete the course. ;3c
Right now, first cluster of work is Workplace Health and Safety stuff that no one cares about but is mandatory so bleh. Next half of the cluster is about being an effective worker in the workplace which is also bluh, after that, laptop and modelling. :D
Needless to say it's going VERY well so far. Just about completed one of 3 assessments for the WHS stuff. Just need to get a copy of Microsoft Office so I can work at home and just power through all this shit and get mah laptop and start modelling~
I've recently got a hold of Dark Souls 2, Metal Gear Rising: Revengeance, Battlefield 4 and... that's it I think. Been on TF2 a lot, wanting to do more Mann Up MvM but no one's around for it. Wanna play Dark Souls 2 but SM is a hindrance. Wanna play BF4 since so many of my friends have it, but none are on to play it. Wanna hear Sundowner say "I'M FUCKIN' INVINCIBLE" over and over but I can't really spare 23Gb's of download. :V
Gaming is fun with friends and yeah play with me. Scrubs. Get gud. GG. Faggot. 1v1 me, Hang'em High pistols only. get rekt.
I've been on the fence about drawing. I've been wanting to do more, newerishnesslying stuff but don't really have the ideas of my own, and I'm too much of a cynical cunt to do most of the things suggested by others because of whatever reasons I have.
Wanna do something more... bleh. In-depth? Showin' a bit more to characters and what not beyond "dilligaf about u im hungry" 'cause... eh. Feel myself wanting a bit more than just that. Lil' scene to draw, wanna see how well I can portray a scene because we already know how I do at noms and stuff.
I was considering opening up trades, but I'm not all to sure. No particular reason, most people seem to understand the concept of a fair trade, and at the same time I always feel I'm somehow giving less than I should.
Still not gonna colour stuff because fuck it. But...Mmmnh. Yeah, why not.
If anyone is interested in an art trade, do let me know.
If there's anyone I owe, because I don't check that shit, contact me privately and we'll work something out.
If anyone wishes to game with me, I'm good with that too.
I... well, I think this was a bit underwhelming of a journal. Maybe, I'unno, feel like I forgot something.
Suppose I'll catch you all later. Hopefully I'm modellin' some sick as fuck vore porn by then.
Absence Explanation + Updates
Posted 11 years agoOkay, first of all, I know I'm normally not to active around here, and I know I usually explain it away when I don't need to, but this time there's a bit of a difference.
Essentially, I've been jobless for quite a while now, and it took a fair toll on my mental well being. Lack of self confidence, lack of interest, self esteem, lack of direction so on so forth. Just ignore it and play games. Pretend it doesn't exist or matter. That shit don't work just in case some of you are wondering. :I
So, after help with obligatory job seeking for my doll pay, my job search assistant brought up a few alternatives, one which stands out so well I couldn't pass it up.
Essentially, I'm signing up for a college course in 3D Modelling and Game Design. The course covers everything from making a 3D model to making a functioning game, according to their website and course guide.
Taigon and I will be heading into the campus tomorrow for an info session and official registration to the classes. 15 hours a week of in class lessons, programs and laptop provided for the course along with very flexible lessons and tutoring. Hopefully the information we get tomorrow will be the information we both want to hear, and both Taigon and I will be able to work together and have some good fun doing it.
So hopefully it all goes well. I've been waking up at 3AM the past few nights with ideas and contemplations of the potential things I can do with whatever I learn. Might regain some of my passion for creating things as there are plenty of things I've wanted to do for plenty of people. Dunno about you, but I think I'd feel pretty darn happy if a decent 3D model of one of my characters just pops up one day.
Also, I have been doing a lot of drawing lately, but it's mainly been focused on fun and character development between my characters and Taigon's, as well as a few other people. Want to ground out my characters a little more. Also wanna get more commissions of my characters because I couldn't be arsed colouring things anymore as I feel no one cares unless it involves more popular friends or explicit sexual/fetish material. I've run into a lot of rude, unappreciative people lately. :V
tl;dr
Bad sleeping patterns and no job make Solid upset and volatile.
Doing a course for 3D Modelling and Game Design with Taigon Potentially get into 3D modelling for reals. Maybe model gift/trade/commission that shit if it's good.
Still arting, not colouring because some people are cunts and I'm lazy.
Essentially, I've been jobless for quite a while now, and it took a fair toll on my mental well being. Lack of self confidence, lack of interest, self esteem, lack of direction so on so forth. Just ignore it and play games. Pretend it doesn't exist or matter. That shit don't work just in case some of you are wondering. :I
So, after help with obligatory job seeking for my doll pay, my job search assistant brought up a few alternatives, one which stands out so well I couldn't pass it up.
Essentially, I'm signing up for a college course in 3D Modelling and Game Design. The course covers everything from making a 3D model to making a functioning game, according to their website and course guide.
Taigon and I will be heading into the campus tomorrow for an info session and official registration to the classes. 15 hours a week of in class lessons, programs and laptop provided for the course along with very flexible lessons and tutoring. Hopefully the information we get tomorrow will be the information we both want to hear, and both Taigon and I will be able to work together and have some good fun doing it.So hopefully it all goes well. I've been waking up at 3AM the past few nights with ideas and contemplations of the potential things I can do with whatever I learn. Might regain some of my passion for creating things as there are plenty of things I've wanted to do for plenty of people. Dunno about you, but I think I'd feel pretty darn happy if a decent 3D model of one of my characters just pops up one day.
Also, I have been doing a lot of drawing lately, but it's mainly been focused on fun and character development between my characters and Taigon's, as well as a few other people. Want to ground out my characters a little more. Also wanna get more commissions of my characters because I couldn't be arsed colouring things anymore as I feel no one cares unless it involves more popular friends or explicit sexual/fetish material. I've run into a lot of rude, unappreciative people lately. :V
tl;dr
Bad sleeping patterns and no job make Solid upset and volatile.
Doing a course for 3D Modelling and Game Design with
Taigon Potentially get into 3D modelling for reals. Maybe model gift/trade/commission that shit if it's good.Still arting, not colouring because some people are cunts and I'm lazy.
Birthday Tomorrow, Weasyl and Thanks
Posted 11 years agoSo! Tomorrow's my birthday
I have nothing planned at all. Just chillin'. Uh... nothin' much more to say. Really just putting this here so I don't have to post another journal tomorrow.
I do have a Weasyl account. I'll put it up in my journal header.
No, I'm not moving from here, but I will be uploading to Weasyl over the next while or so. If you're there, come follow me if you wanna so I can tag you in any art I may have done for you.
https://www.weasyl.com/~solidscale
Since the beginning of the year, I've had 26 new watchers. One for each day, essentially.
Thank you to all of my previous watchers and my new ones. Sorry I haven't had time to personally thank all of you, but I do really appreciate your interest in me and my work.
I have nothing planned at all. Just chillin'. Uh... nothin' much more to say. Really just putting this here so I don't have to post another journal tomorrow.
I do have a Weasyl account. I'll put it up in my journal header.
No, I'm not moving from here, but I will be uploading to Weasyl over the next while or so. If you're there, come follow me if you wanna so I can tag you in any art I may have done for you.
https://www.weasyl.com/~solidscale
Since the beginning of the year, I've had 26 new watchers. One for each day, essentially.
Thank you to all of my previous watchers and my new ones. Sorry I haven't had time to personally thank all of you, but I do really appreciate your interest in me and my work.
Cheers
Posted 11 years agoThanks for all the clarification.
...
So... I do have an Inkbunny account. Gonna put that in my journal header.
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So... I do have an Inkbunny account. Gonna put that in my journal header.
Happy New Year
Posted 11 years agoFor me at least.
Stream's over, I'm tired and happy at how the year turned out. Catch you all next year~
Stream's over, I'm tired and happy at how the year turned out. Catch you all next year~
Christmas and the New Year
Posted 12 years agoNow this is a story all about how my life got flipped turned up-side down and I'll stop with that before I spend to much time thinking up some way to parody that.
Merry Christmas! Hope everyone had a whimsical as fuck Christmas holiday and what not. But I'm not writing this up as a... well, generic YO HAY SEASONS GREETINGS FAGGOT journal, I actually wanted to put some things out there for everyone to know. Personal thoughts and observations, retrospective of my year and future plans.
Let's begin.
The Year Gone By
Of course, as I expected, it'd take until the end of the year to be able to truly see just how I was doing throughout the year. Honestly... not that bad I'd say.
In terms of Drama/People
I had a fair few run-ins with people I had issues with, though after a little while I... came to realise something. Most of the people I had issues with were, simply put, long held resentment for reasons I no longer care about. I realised that I was holding onto a lot of hate I didn't want, and by taking a step back I managed to rid myself of those feelings and even made up with a lot of the people I was at odds with.
With saying that, I'm more than willing to give anyone a second chance. Chances are that if you've removed me or dropped contact with me for any negative reason, I've forgotten about it and moved on. I welcome another try at something, because I don't like to hate people.
In terms of Artwork
Though I feel like I've improved considerably over the past year or so, the amount I've actually committed to finishing, touching up and the over all quantity of my work is... pretty piss poor I'd say. The year flew by and I barely posted anything, though I feel that disappointment is outweighed by my progress and improvement.
Looking back on it all, I now want to do a few more things over the next year.
I want to do more Art Trades. Because I'm greedy and love getting art.
I want to do more gifts. Because I love drawing for the few people that don't beg me for it.
I want to go back to streaming. It was a lot of fun and gave me a chance to interact with those that followed me, whether they be friends, casual drop in's or those that consider me a 'popufur' (I honestly don't consider myself that popular at all)
I want to do more commissions and finish what I owe with interest. Because I'm a lazy lonely prick.
In terms of Generating Attention and Being Involved in the Community
That Terraria comp. Lel. That didn't happen.
I wasn't ready for it, and to be honest, that'd take a whole lot of time to set up and balance properly. It would've been fun, I've no doubt of that. Just way, WAY to much time and dedication, especially with Starbound being announced and shown off not long after I posted that journal.
I think the main problem being is that, if I wanted to do a gaming comp with art as the prize, it should probably be done a much simpler game. Instead of picking an almost sandbox type game to make rules for, might've been a better idea to just pick an off the bat tournament game, or some point based competitive game. Maybe something like Orcs Must Die! 2 or The Showdown effect.
Regardless, the idea of hosting some gaming events to win artwork from me has not left my mind at all. So, here's my thoughts for the future:
-I will hold these events every month or so with the gaming event starting at a set time and date.
-The games will range from both Free-To-Play, small size, easy to learn games all the way up to Beta Pre-Purchase games, usually cheap games on steam. I've actually got a few games in mind already, and a lot that show promise and/or provide just the kind of gameplay for this.
-All games that are in mind for selection will be listed in the first week of each month. People are to vote on what they want to play or watch be played. After the week of voting is passed, the game selected and date, as well as the minimum amount of participants required to carry out the competition will be posted in a journal, giving participants the rest of the month to acquire the game, get some practice and what not.
-Prizes will be decided on once I can figure out something fair and a reasonable system to reward people for joining and playing. I don't want anyone leaving empty handed.
Outside of the gaming thing, I just want to be involve din more things overall. I miss being a part of this community and I want to be involved more. Art Trades, Collabs, cross-overs, stories. Whatever. I just like doing things with others.
In Regards to Personal Agenda and Life Goals
Get more money.
Buy more stuff.
Well, that about does it. I should post another journal some time soon, probably about art.
I hope you all had a lovely Christmas/holiday, and I hope all of you have a lovely new years as well.
Thank you everyone that has stuck by me regardless of what's happened. I appreciate all you've done in terms of following my progression, commenting on my work and showing interest in me as a person. To those of you that selflessly give to me, know that at any point you wish, I'd gladly return the favour. You have but to ask.
Thank you for adding more to my life than I could ever ask for <3
Merry Christmas! Hope everyone had a whimsical as fuck Christmas holiday and what not. But I'm not writing this up as a... well, generic YO HAY SEASONS GREETINGS FAGGOT journal, I actually wanted to put some things out there for everyone to know. Personal thoughts and observations, retrospective of my year and future plans.
Let's begin.
The Year Gone By
Of course, as I expected, it'd take until the end of the year to be able to truly see just how I was doing throughout the year. Honestly... not that bad I'd say.
In terms of Drama/People
I had a fair few run-ins with people I had issues with, though after a little while I... came to realise something. Most of the people I had issues with were, simply put, long held resentment for reasons I no longer care about. I realised that I was holding onto a lot of hate I didn't want, and by taking a step back I managed to rid myself of those feelings and even made up with a lot of the people I was at odds with.
With saying that, I'm more than willing to give anyone a second chance. Chances are that if you've removed me or dropped contact with me for any negative reason, I've forgotten about it and moved on. I welcome another try at something, because I don't like to hate people.
In terms of Artwork
Though I feel like I've improved considerably over the past year or so, the amount I've actually committed to finishing, touching up and the over all quantity of my work is... pretty piss poor I'd say. The year flew by and I barely posted anything, though I feel that disappointment is outweighed by my progress and improvement.
Looking back on it all, I now want to do a few more things over the next year.
I want to do more Art Trades. Because I'm greedy and love getting art.
I want to do more gifts. Because I love drawing for the few people that don't beg me for it.
I want to go back to streaming. It was a lot of fun and gave me a chance to interact with those that followed me, whether they be friends, casual drop in's or those that consider me a 'popufur' (I honestly don't consider myself that popular at all)
I want to do more commissions and finish what I owe with interest. Because I'm a lazy lonely prick.
In terms of Generating Attention and Being Involved in the Community
That Terraria comp. Lel. That didn't happen.
I wasn't ready for it, and to be honest, that'd take a whole lot of time to set up and balance properly. It would've been fun, I've no doubt of that. Just way, WAY to much time and dedication, especially with Starbound being announced and shown off not long after I posted that journal.
I think the main problem being is that, if I wanted to do a gaming comp with art as the prize, it should probably be done a much simpler game. Instead of picking an almost sandbox type game to make rules for, might've been a better idea to just pick an off the bat tournament game, or some point based competitive game. Maybe something like Orcs Must Die! 2 or The Showdown effect.
Regardless, the idea of hosting some gaming events to win artwork from me has not left my mind at all. So, here's my thoughts for the future:
-I will hold these events every month or so with the gaming event starting at a set time and date.
-The games will range from both Free-To-Play, small size, easy to learn games all the way up to Beta Pre-Purchase games, usually cheap games on steam. I've actually got a few games in mind already, and a lot that show promise and/or provide just the kind of gameplay for this.
-All games that are in mind for selection will be listed in the first week of each month. People are to vote on what they want to play or watch be played. After the week of voting is passed, the game selected and date, as well as the minimum amount of participants required to carry out the competition will be posted in a journal, giving participants the rest of the month to acquire the game, get some practice and what not.
-Prizes will be decided on once I can figure out something fair and a reasonable system to reward people for joining and playing. I don't want anyone leaving empty handed.
Outside of the gaming thing, I just want to be involve din more things overall. I miss being a part of this community and I want to be involved more. Art Trades, Collabs, cross-overs, stories. Whatever. I just like doing things with others.
In Regards to Personal Agenda and Life Goals
Get more money.
Buy more stuff.
Well, that about does it. I should post another journal some time soon, probably about art.
I hope you all had a lovely Christmas/holiday, and I hope all of you have a lovely new years as well.
Thank you everyone that has stuck by me regardless of what's happened. I appreciate all you've done in terms of following my progression, commenting on my work and showing interest in me as a person. To those of you that selflessly give to me, know that at any point you wish, I'd gladly return the favour. You have but to ask.
Thank you for adding more to my life than I could ever ask for <3
SO FA IS SUPER SHIT RITE?
Posted 12 years agoMmmmkay. So. I had someone remove me from skype over this whole FA thingo that happened recently. I was a bit of a cunt, but I feel justified by that.
See. SEE. Here's how I see this, right? Ready? I'm pretty complicated so... like, if you have a small attention span or something, this might go right over your head.
FA is online.
I didn't pay for this service.
I'm good.
Now, let me level with you all, kay? The internet is not my life. When FA goes down... eh. I can still draw. I can still talk with my friends and loved ones over skype and steam. I DONT FUCKING ROLEPLAY ANYWAY SO I DONT KNOW WHERE TO GO OUTSIDE OF MY SHOUT PAGE FOR THAT. So... I don't care. FA is just a place for me to put my art, meet people and make friends.
It is a medium for me to start things. T'is not my whole life every day forever. I check here out of idle boredom, clear my inbox and post shit sketches for people to fap to.
What am I losing when FA, or any website goes down?
Nothing. Gives me time to be productive instead of distracted. So when someone comes telling me that FA is archaic, dying, aging rapidly and that people NEED to leave here and go to other websites and the like, I think it's understandable when I don't give a shit, and say it how it is. If you think everyone needs ot leave FA, lead by example, please, then say nothing more of it, because I don't care. This website is not my life.
Now, if FA were to be all like "OI RITE. U CUNTS. WERE GONNA MAK MONAY OFF YUR ART AND CELL IT TO SHADY PEEPS" or... something along the lines of "everything you do here is OUR property and content that you relinquish your rights to by uploading or even having an account here", then I would leave. But, as far as I know, that's not the case.
The case is that the actions of the staff are debatable. I wouldn't know 'cause... I... haven't been affected by it. I've heard a lot of one sided, over exaggerated and even entirely falsified stories about admins, so I don't pay much mind to the shit I hear about drama, unless I have both sides of the story.
tl;dr
Welcome back FA.
Back to the usual business.
See. SEE. Here's how I see this, right? Ready? I'm pretty complicated so... like, if you have a small attention span or something, this might go right over your head.
FA is online.
I didn't pay for this service.
I'm good.
Now, let me level with you all, kay? The internet is not my life. When FA goes down... eh. I can still draw. I can still talk with my friends and loved ones over skype and steam. I DONT FUCKING ROLEPLAY ANYWAY SO I DONT KNOW WHERE TO GO OUTSIDE OF MY SHOUT PAGE FOR THAT. So... I don't care. FA is just a place for me to put my art, meet people and make friends.
It is a medium for me to start things. T'is not my whole life every day forever. I check here out of idle boredom, clear my inbox and post shit sketches for people to fap to.
What am I losing when FA, or any website goes down?
Nothing. Gives me time to be productive instead of distracted. So when someone comes telling me that FA is archaic, dying, aging rapidly and that people NEED to leave here and go to other websites and the like, I think it's understandable when I don't give a shit, and say it how it is. If you think everyone needs ot leave FA, lead by example, please, then say nothing more of it, because I don't care. This website is not my life.
Now, if FA were to be all like "OI RITE. U CUNTS. WERE GONNA MAK MONAY OFF YUR ART AND CELL IT TO SHADY PEEPS" or... something along the lines of "everything you do here is OUR property and content that you relinquish your rights to by uploading or even having an account here", then I would leave. But, as far as I know, that's not the case.
The case is that the actions of the staff are debatable. I wouldn't know 'cause... I... haven't been affected by it. I've heard a lot of one sided, over exaggerated and even entirely falsified stories about admins, so I don't pay much mind to the shit I hear about drama, unless I have both sides of the story.
tl;dr
Welcome back FA.
Back to the usual business.
Gaming Competition - Terraria
Posted 12 years agoWell, now, if it was missed in my last update journal, I was planning on doing some gaming competitions for prizes, namely artwork. I wanted to see just how much interest there would be.
I'm.. well, I'm not all that good at running competitions, or even participating, as I've not done many of them before. However, I feel that I could manage hosting one, perhaps. Maybe. >_>;
Anyways, onto more details.
Basically, what I'm going to do is select a game every so often, a common, cheap game that everyone should have like Minecraft (though I don't plan on doing any Minecraft anytime soon.) and, simply put, give the players an objective to complete. This is what I had in mind.
Terraria
For this simple game comes a simple challenge for players to compete to complete. Atop a tower in the centre of the map is a room sealed off by an incredibly strong set of bricks. All your gold, silver, and even your demonite pickaxes wont even dent these bricks. There's only one way for you to find out what's inside, and that's to make a pick strong enough to break down the walls.
To hell you must go! Mine that searing ore and forge yourself a pickaxe to break down those walls.
Rules:
Fairly simple, really.
-No Exploits/hacks/cheats/trainers
-Completely empty character inventory/safe/bank
-Obey instructions
Don't follow these, you'll forfeit your position in the competition and running for prizes, be booted from the game and potentially be excluded from any events I may hold in the future. Simple simple. Don't be a dick and you won't get kicked.
Depending on how well received this gets, it may or may not be team based.
If Team Based:
-Teams will compete to be the first to craft a Molten Pickaxe to mine through the walls and claim the items inside the sealed room
-Teams will be placed by how close they were to breaking in. IE,
1st goes to those the team of the player who obtained the first item.
2nd to the team with the most Molten Pickaxes crafted/held
3rd goes to the teams with the most resources for crafting the Molten Pickaxe(Should the only one team other than the first to have Molten Pickaxes)
4th goes to the team that remains, because there are only four teams in Terraria.
-PVP -WILL- be enabled on ALL players.
-Characters that participate must be fresh, completely empty inventory/safe/piggy bank and set to Mediumcore. This will allow players to kill opposing teams and loot their gear at the risk of being killed themselves.
-However, conflict is not at all mandatory. Players should be prepared in case another team decides that you shouldn't be allowed to live any more.
-All teams will have a designated spawn. This spawn building, once left, may not be re-entered by normal means, as only dying or using a Magic Mirror to return to home will work.
-Inside each spawn will be a row of matching armour to display your team as vanity items, along with sets of gear to fit different combat roles to assist. -Inside will also be a limited set of items for players to distribute amongst their teams
If Non-team based:
-Players will compete to be the first to craft a Molten Pickaxe to mine through the walls and claim the items inside the sealed room
-Players will be placed by how close they were to Succeeding. IE,
1st goes to those the player who obtained the first item.
2nd to the player with a Molten Pickaxes crafted/held
+ If multiple players have a Molten Pickaxe in their inventory, placing will be determined by how much money each player has
3rd goes to the player with the most resources for crafting the Molten Pickaxe
+ Again, if multiple players have the same amount of those resources, placing will be judged by the player's money count.
-PVP -WILL- be enabled on ALL players.
-Characters that participate must be fresh, completely empty inventory/safe/piggy bank and set to Mediumcore. This will allow players to kill opposing players and loot their gear at the risk of being killed themselves.
-However, conflict is not at all mandatory. Players should be prepared in case another player decides that you shouldn't be allowed to live any more.
-All players will have a designated spawn. This spawn building, once left, may not be re-entered by normal means, as only dying or using a Magic Mirror to return to home will work.
-Inside each player home will be a set of armour, matching that armour tier inside every other player home
-Inside will also be a few items to help the player survive and proceed
Prizes
First place will be a full colour drawing from myself featuring the winner's character/team, and may involve any of the other players that stuck around until the very end.
Second place will be line art/flat colour of their team. If Individual, this may include a maximum of three other players that stuck around until the end.
Third place will be line art of their character/team, which may include up to two additional characters from those that stuck around until the end.
Depending on how many others enter, compete, and stay until the end, players may or may not receive a sketch of their character/team
Any criticisms, opinions you'd like to share, please do. I'm all ears, and I want this to be as enjoyable as possible for all.
Let me know whatcha think :3
I'm.. well, I'm not all that good at running competitions, or even participating, as I've not done many of them before. However, I feel that I could manage hosting one, perhaps. Maybe. >_>;
Anyways, onto more details.
Basically, what I'm going to do is select a game every so often, a common, cheap game that everyone should have like Minecraft (though I don't plan on doing any Minecraft anytime soon.) and, simply put, give the players an objective to complete. This is what I had in mind.
Terraria
For this simple game comes a simple challenge for players to compete to complete. Atop a tower in the centre of the map is a room sealed off by an incredibly strong set of bricks. All your gold, silver, and even your demonite pickaxes wont even dent these bricks. There's only one way for you to find out what's inside, and that's to make a pick strong enough to break down the walls.
To hell you must go! Mine that searing ore and forge yourself a pickaxe to break down those walls.
Rules:
Fairly simple, really.
-No Exploits/hacks/cheats/trainers
-Completely empty character inventory/safe/bank
-Obey instructions
Don't follow these, you'll forfeit your position in the competition and running for prizes, be booted from the game and potentially be excluded from any events I may hold in the future. Simple simple. Don't be a dick and you won't get kicked.
Depending on how well received this gets, it may or may not be team based.
If Team Based:
-Teams will compete to be the first to craft a Molten Pickaxe to mine through the walls and claim the items inside the sealed room
-Teams will be placed by how close they were to breaking in. IE,
1st goes to those the team of the player who obtained the first item.
2nd to the team with the most Molten Pickaxes crafted/held
3rd goes to the teams with the most resources for crafting the Molten Pickaxe(Should the only one team other than the first to have Molten Pickaxes)
4th goes to the team that remains, because there are only four teams in Terraria.
-PVP -WILL- be enabled on ALL players.
-Characters that participate must be fresh, completely empty inventory/safe/piggy bank and set to Mediumcore. This will allow players to kill opposing teams and loot their gear at the risk of being killed themselves.
-However, conflict is not at all mandatory. Players should be prepared in case another team decides that you shouldn't be allowed to live any more.
-All teams will have a designated spawn. This spawn building, once left, may not be re-entered by normal means, as only dying or using a Magic Mirror to return to home will work.
-Inside each spawn will be a row of matching armour to display your team as vanity items, along with sets of gear to fit different combat roles to assist. -Inside will also be a limited set of items for players to distribute amongst their teams
If Non-team based:
-Players will compete to be the first to craft a Molten Pickaxe to mine through the walls and claim the items inside the sealed room
-Players will be placed by how close they were to Succeeding. IE,
1st goes to those the player who obtained the first item.
2nd to the player with a Molten Pickaxes crafted/held
+ If multiple players have a Molten Pickaxe in their inventory, placing will be determined by how much money each player has
3rd goes to the player with the most resources for crafting the Molten Pickaxe
+ Again, if multiple players have the same amount of those resources, placing will be judged by the player's money count.
-PVP -WILL- be enabled on ALL players.
-Characters that participate must be fresh, completely empty inventory/safe/piggy bank and set to Mediumcore. This will allow players to kill opposing players and loot their gear at the risk of being killed themselves.
-However, conflict is not at all mandatory. Players should be prepared in case another player decides that you shouldn't be allowed to live any more.
-All players will have a designated spawn. This spawn building, once left, may not be re-entered by normal means, as only dying or using a Magic Mirror to return to home will work.
-Inside each player home will be a set of armour, matching that armour tier inside every other player home
-Inside will also be a few items to help the player survive and proceed
Prizes
First place will be a full colour drawing from myself featuring the winner's character/team, and may involve any of the other players that stuck around until the very end.
Second place will be line art/flat colour of their team. If Individual, this may include a maximum of three other players that stuck around until the end.
Third place will be line art of their character/team, which may include up to two additional characters from those that stuck around until the end.
Depending on how many others enter, compete, and stay until the end, players may or may not receive a sketch of their character/team
Any criticisms, opinions you'd like to share, please do. I'm all ears, and I want this to be as enjoyable as possible for all.
Let me know whatcha think :3
Oi, Mind if I ask something?
Posted 12 years agoI know my next journal was supposed to be about competitions, artwork and what not, but I have to ask this.
Can all you people that lack common sense, rationality and what not just... not go all emo, self loathing and drop a shit tonne of sadness, drama and depression on me?
Seriously, one of the most adorable pictures I've ever seen has nearly been overshadowed by "the tears of a lost soul who can't make his place in the world, surpassed by his peers, left to die alone without a love" and shit.
There's so many things I want to say right now, but I'm sure it'll all be offensive.
I suppose tomorrow I'll have to write up something to help out artists just starting out. Probably should do some tutorials as well.
And stop coming to me asking to be my 'mate'. I have one, he's fine, sexy, has a nice beard. That's all I want. If you don't read up on me, or anyone, don't fuckin' ask, ay?
Can all you people that lack common sense, rationality and what not just... not go all emo, self loathing and drop a shit tonne of sadness, drama and depression on me?
Seriously, one of the most adorable pictures I've ever seen has nearly been overshadowed by "the tears of a lost soul who can't make his place in the world, surpassed by his peers, left to die alone without a love" and shit.
There's so many things I want to say right now, but I'm sure it'll all be offensive.
I suppose tomorrow I'll have to write up something to help out artists just starting out. Probably should do some tutorials as well.
And stop coming to me asking to be my 'mate'. I have one, he's fine, sexy, has a nice beard. That's all I want. If you don't read up on me, or anyone, don't fuckin' ask, ay?
