Once again we're approaching the holiday season, and I dunnooooo if anyone wanted to get me something, there's a couple lists here you can peruse :-"

Amazon.com
http://a.co/hfQd0gL

Amazon.ca
http://a.co/jfWFyDJ

Steam:
http://steamcommunity.com/profiles/.....78120/wishlist

So there are 2 people I know who have gofundme pages rolling and they need the cash, so if you guys are able to spare it, they could sure use it.

First the obvious one  prismalin needs help in order to get back home here with me, so she set up a page so she could do that https://www.gofundme.com/get-lisa-back-to-canada


And next, my old friend  midkantakina is looking to get a new comp to help out with her game streaming so she has a page up as well: https://www.gofundme.com/video-streaming-computer

Just sitting around thinking and I've come to realize my gamer sensibilities have shifted. I used to be all about videogames, they were my outlet for everything and my inlet to new worlds and stories and fun, but more and more I seem to be drifting away from them. I don't know what happened or how or why but the games, while still fun, just seem to be lacking something they used to have. Where's the heart? Where's the soul? Where's the passion?

Which brings me to where my sensibilities ended up shifting... table top. I didn't grow up playing games like D&D, it's only been a fairly recent indulgence but I've known of it and how it worked (basically) for a very long while, and now that i'm actually playing it (every sunday, check out Prismas picarto for when we stream it!) I feel like the pieces of the puzzle that were missing just took a different form. It's a game that is all heart and passion and creativity, it goes as far as you want it to and you're free to make whatever choice you want (and face the consequences of said choices) and the more I think about it, playing RPGs like Mass Effect, Dragon Age, Elder Scrolls etc. have been sort of prep for it.


So now I sit here in wonder, I love videogames but will they ever have the same spark they used to have for me? Will I fall deeper into the tabletop rabbit hole? I'm just musing here really ^_^;

Shamelessly stolen from  lavojeto

Pretty self explanatory topic, what do you like about the characters who represent me? Sled, Sleigh, Seth and to a lesser extent because I have barely any artwork of them at the moment, Ben and Thelapidus. What are their attractions?

Some of you may have heard by now but its official, me and  prismalin finally did it and got ourselves married ^_^

for all my dearest perverts out there, worry not, this wont affect the smut or the smutty RP thereof, we're still good for that (when mood strikes, its been really off and on lately) ^_^

Say uh.... if there are any players out there familiar with 5th edition, I don't suppose you can help me figure out how to be a better bard? So far I feel like i'm pretty lousy at it. I have more success with my secondary character (a monk).

what all goes into building your own PC?

Well I gave it another shot and i'll say... this time went waaay better. Took my time and went nice and slow, wasn't afraid to get messy and had a much better choice of visual and audio stimuli...results? It felt good, a lot better than I expected it would really, but i'll most likely do it a few more times before graduating to the next step.

Another thing though... is there some method of cleaning off lube i'm not aware of? It feels like no matter how hard I scrub in the shower afterwards it still clings to me in places, plus it makes turning the doorknob to my room a lot more difficult.

I know i'm usually pretty free about what I post in this things but I feel that this time it warranted the warning...so if you don't wanna know about my real life icky stuff, best to stop now and check out somewhere else.

Still here? Alright, here goes. Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking. For as long as I could remember I've been pretty good with myself about sexual things. I've known what I liked and what I was into and that was that (don't forget, i'm a straight guy in real life) ....lately though I've been thinking of branching out, trying new things and so forth...so tonight I attempted my first bit of anal stimulation during masturbation. I've been reading up on many guides and tips for first times with this sort of thing and went and took my time real slow like which brings me to my next point...

Have you ever thought you'd settle down for a nice long masturbation sesh only to finish prematurely because the porn you picked was very much unimpressive so you rush because you just wanted to get it over with but you didn't want to take the time to pick something else? Totes happened to me. Though you're not interested in that... long story short I finished prematurely just to get it over with but...with moderate success in my experiment. Maybe next time I wont rush through it and we'll see where that takes us.

I have come down with something horrendous... laying in bed switching constantly between too hot and too cold so now I got a blanket with a fan pointed at me to try and equalize it....fever. Feel weak... I wish I had someone to come take care of me :(

Everywhere I go, in my head, all I hear is violin...

A module within the transmission. $4000 to fix...

Sigh...

Welp, as per usual, my paypal is open for donations ^_^;

I feel like recent events call for some classic acoustic Nirvana, how about you guys?

Well folks, its been quite the week. Prisma had to go home to the states so major bummer there, I've had to work 2 jobs because my dad and brother love monopolizing my time but mainly because I ran out of money (again...) but the topper to it all was my car broke down. This part I might need some help with.

I know I got a few of you who are very much mechanically inclined so how about helping me identify the problem?

First issue, I came home from work to get ready for work again, at most there was probably an hour in between when I shut off my car and when I attempted to start it again...but when I tried starting it, nothing. It wouldn't crank in the slightest. Electrical works, AC comes on, headlights are bright as fuck....but no response from the engine whatsoever. I've managed to rule out anything involving the battery and what little research I have points me to the starter relay or fuses or god forbid, the starter itself, but again, i'm no expert. My best friends uncle came and took a look at it and he said somehow power wasn't getting to the starter somehow, my brother thinks I just need to give the starter a good tap with a hammer, but he told me that over the phone and me not knowing anything about cars, have no idea what the starter looks like or even is in my car.

I drive a 2005 Nissan Pathfinder... please help?

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It seems like every time I start pulling myself out of the hole and get to a point where I can start treating myself again, something like this happens. I just got my property tax letter in the mail. I owe $881 by june 30th. God friggin dammit. I was finally set to go back to PAX too but there's no way i'm paying for that now.

TONIGHT AT MIDNIGHT! I've been invited to participate in a Pinball Tournament at my local cheap theatre! WISH ME LUCK! GET ME HYPED!

hit the F5

Is it just me or has Heavy Metal sorta lost its touch the last few years? Like, don't get me wrong, its still enjoyable and listenable but it's just sorta....not as hard as it used to be. Example this:




I love Volbeat but it kinda staggers me that this is considered "new-old school metal" when it can't really compare to this:





Even Metallica are just shadows of their former selves and I won't even go into that particular change. So what happened? Have we as an audience just gotten soft or are labels afraid to let metal bands be metal?

People who have known me a long time know that my characters have simultaneously somehow evolved and haven't evolved at the same time ^_^; Sled has always served as an avatar for me sure but mainly as well as an outlet for fantasy. He's been a lot of things over the last decade, such as a rancher, adult film star, lighting technician, landscaper (briefly), stage actor and now a fighter (with some of the adult film star in there, wink wink) but the reason I bring this up is a question in my head... As an avatar for the self as well as an outlet for fantasy, should I keep putting Sled in varying occupations in the interest of variety or do I create some new characters (like I said I was gonna do ages ago) with these new occupations?

First I'd like to thank the people at  FALendAHand for the support they gave me from my last journal, it helped quite a bit and they deserve to have the word spread about them.

I figured my last journal was going to be the last word on my problems, that my paycheck would come in and everything would be fixed but my paycheck was far less than I thought it would be. Long story short I'll be able to cover my power and maybe groceries but I'll be screwed for condo fees and phone bill. Currently looking for a new job and still accepting donations via my PayPal sled130[at]hotmail.com and am totally willing to dust off the cobwebs and offer my writing skills in trade. I'm rusty but I am getting more desperate by the day so we'll see how that goes. So here I lay, barely able to sleep, typing up this journal on my phone... ultimately I suppose I'll be alright in the end, but this certainly has been a pretty rough month. Here's to 2016 eh?

EDIT: Things just got worse. The condo just handed me a bill for $900 to fix a thing I broke a couple months ago. There's no way I can climb my way out of this one... I'm done...I don't know what else to do other than go to my dad and tell him what a massive failure I just became in the hopes that he helps me out.

Welp, looks like i'm back in the hole because work has been cutting my hours to literally 1-2 shifts a week, and now the power company tells me I need to give them $300 or get shut off. They've actually put a limiter on me currently as i'm in an apartment building, so if I go over that usage, i'm shut off.

So if anyone wants to do me a solid and help me out, my paypal is sled130[at]hotmail.com

I hate asking but i'm running low on options.

I've been thinking lately that while I love the MMA attire I've had on sled for a while, i'd like to also give him a more dedicated wrestling gear, but what style to go with? I'll give you guys some examples and you can tell me what you think, and keep in mind that these are just the different styles, not the fancy designs that would be on them.

Trunks:
http://worldwrestlingwear.com/tr04.jpg
http://img11.deviantart.net/7dad/i/.....5g-d4nofsp.jpg
https://www.authenticsigningsinc.co.....ages/med_BG-T-(1).jpg

Tights:
http://i44.tinypic.com/2nq8ui0.jpg
http://smacknetwork.com/images/caws.....011/3022_1.jpg

Pants:
http://g04.a.alicdn.com/kf/UT88DiJX.....hXXagOFbX2.jpg
http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_zVKCsd69j.....aker_dlc_3.jpg

Singlet:
http://www.wwe.com/f/photo/image/20....._Photo_064.jpg

Kinda funny how the second you have to save cash, you suddenly get like 30 ideas for artwork youd love to commission ^_^;