I'm going to get back to work hopefully, and try not to let all the people I promised to make something down. It's just getting harder for me to find a point in trying each day.

Having to hide all of this cause of blackmailing issues-

Over the next few days, I'm going to be slowing down my work, not only because of school but because my health has been slowly declining over the past few months, so I will be putting myself first. I may post every once in a while, but I will be taking time to take care of myself. I'll write another journal when I'm ready to dive back in fully, but for now, I'll be taking a break.

I think the all nighters I’m pulling are starting to wear me down. I’ve been working on commissions non-stop for about 98 hours and I haven’t eaten anything within that time. I’ve had nothing to drink, no sleep, and worst of all, school’s today. I’m not sure how much more sleepless nights I can take before collapsing but I guess it’s time to find out

I just want to take a quick second to thank everyone who has watched me over the past couple months. It really means a lot to me, and y’all have helped me more than you will ever know. When I first signed up for fur affinity, I was struggling with depression and thoughts of suicide, and over all was having a really rough year, but all of you have made me feel so much better. I’m glad I have people like you guys in my corner, and be able to come to y’all when I’m upset, it really makes me feel like I matter. And I don’t think I will ever be able to repay you guys for helping me, but I’ll try my best. Thanks for all the good memories so far. Cheers <3

So, I'm thinking of doing an adopt raffle for my closed species, and let someone have one. But I'm not so sure. What do all of you think?

On a cold night in November, I was snug in my bed, nodding off to sleep with no bad thoughts in my head,
and as I closed my eyes, I heard the noise.
A blaring siren, piercing the calm sounds of the night.
And as I looked out my window, head filled with hate,
I saw you standing there, out and awake.
You looked back at me, and continued going,
Not even knowing,
HOW MUCH I WANT TO BASH YOUR SKULL IN
I don't care what happens, I'll win.
As I saw you leave, I gave a sigh of relief
And as I crawled back in my bed, with you in my head,
I heard it again
The noise so loud, so clear
anyone far or near
could hear that noise
from a mile away
you should have saved that noise for mid day
you better run,
you better hide,
cause when I find you,
no one else will see you alive.





Moral of the story: TURN THE NOISE OFF IM TRYING TO SLEEP YOU DEGENERATE PIG

So, some of the species I created (Zekials, and the Zekies) Have been closed for a while. Due to me writing the second book, they will remain that way. BUT, I've finished the reference sheets, and the Do's and Don'ts for making a Zekial or Zekie, and will open it soon. Who knows, I might even have some OCs that people made be canon in the books, (With consent of course) It's something that I will have to think about. Anyway, have a good night! Cheers <3

So over the past couple of weeks, I have been having to go through constant therapy, stress, anxiety, and change in medications, etc, and it's been hard for me to get any work done. I hope all of you can understand, and in time, any work that I had originally promised I would get done WILL get done, but it will take time. Thanks for being here for me, I really appreciate it <3

I've been writing a book for a while now. I've made my own canon species, as well as drawn art of them. I'm debating on whether to open the species up for others to use (within moderation of course) Currently, it is a closed species and will remain as such until further notice. I will however make a base for others to use in the event that I do decide to open the species to the public eye. I hope you understand and will look forward to the release of the first book, Into The Shadows.

As of right now, I'm trying to get as much money as I can to treat my draft pony, Flash, for strangles. Strangles is a common disease but can be fatal if not treated. It swells the horse's lymph nodes, and can and slowly strangles the horse. Death is caused by a nervous system malfunction. Obviously, that is VERY BAD and I'm not the kind of person why likes to watch my animals die slowly, so I'm starting commissions for stories cause that's what I'm good at, in hopes that I can raise enough money to get Flash treated.