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Turning 29 today
General | Posted 5 years agoAh shit, here we go again. Another year's closed for me, another one opens up. And hell this one has been a mess.
I'm not going to spread about the virus and such, just here to make fun about a shitty weather here, that's going to stand for several days. Also temperatures got freezy already, we've lost like 17°C in a week, this is quite a slap in the face. Fan heater's already back to work, that's crazy. Never saw that where I live before.
Hope you guys are doing good. And stay warm!
I'm not going to spread about the virus and such, just here to make fun about a shitty weather here, that's going to stand for several days. Also temperatures got freezy already, we've lost like 17°C in a week, this is quite a slap in the face. Fan heater's already back to work, that's crazy. Never saw that where I live before.
Hope you guys are doing good. And stay warm!
Quarter a century now
General | Posted 9 years agoThat's it, here I am. This is the day of my 25. Shit, I can feel myself getting older as I write this journal XD
Okay then, this is kind of a testemony. I've been through a lot of things, I've known desperated situations, but never ever like this one I am getting into. I had several time to think about, trying to figure out things, solutions, but for the very first time of my life, I have no clue. I can't find a solution. I am gettin' ass kicked by my decreasing health. It's now about 3 years I am looking for a stable job that wouldn't destroy me more, and I can't manage to find one. Also, I can't even take care of myself. I've hurted much peoples that tried to help me. I've been a close minded bastard for years. I was certain I could find a way out of this misery alone, like I've always did. But shit, I was wrong.
To all that I've hurted, there are excuses to be done. I won't find myself a reason for what I've said. I've been a scum. By the way I wanted to thank you for trying to help me. You are scarce, but you were here, unlike my own family. You're a part of the man I've become. It's been 9 years now that I am in the fandom. It changed my life, in good and wrong ways, but this was a nice experience. I've met incredible peoples.
I want to thanks them too for entering in my life, and for supporting the grumpy draggy I used to be.
But I have to excuses once again for being toxic. I am lost. Lost deep in my soul. I am losing this fight, I won't lie to you, I am desperated. But some are still here. I am very glad and impressed. You peoples, gives me a reason to continue this fight.
I know half of my contact list will probably not take a look at this humble confessing, but to all who will read these words, Thank you.
Okay then, this is kind of a testemony. I've been through a lot of things, I've known desperated situations, but never ever like this one I am getting into. I had several time to think about, trying to figure out things, solutions, but for the very first time of my life, I have no clue. I can't find a solution. I am gettin' ass kicked by my decreasing health. It's now about 3 years I am looking for a stable job that wouldn't destroy me more, and I can't manage to find one. Also, I can't even take care of myself. I've hurted much peoples that tried to help me. I've been a close minded bastard for years. I was certain I could find a way out of this misery alone, like I've always did. But shit, I was wrong.
To all that I've hurted, there are excuses to be done. I won't find myself a reason for what I've said. I've been a scum. By the way I wanted to thank you for trying to help me. You are scarce, but you were here, unlike my own family. You're a part of the man I've become. It's been 9 years now that I am in the fandom. It changed my life, in good and wrong ways, but this was a nice experience. I've met incredible peoples.
I want to thanks them too for entering in my life, and for supporting the grumpy draggy I used to be.
But I have to excuses once again for being toxic. I am lost. Lost deep in my soul. I am losing this fight, I won't lie to you, I am desperated. But some are still here. I am very glad and impressed. You peoples, gives me a reason to continue this fight.
I know half of my contact list will probably not take a look at this humble confessing, but to all who will read these words, Thank you.
