Hello FA.
It's been a while. I'm not the same little pony you once knew. Life has many chapters, and I suppose little documentation on the order to read them in. It's been pretty much five years since I joined this place and my journals (I have never deleted or edited a single journal) are somewhat of an archive of my journey.

Two weeks ago I was 20 and being kicked out of the house. Now I'm staring down my 26th birthday and I'm about to move 1,500 miles away from the home I've found here in Houston. Current friends are worried that communication will be dropped, and rightly so in retrospect of the relationships I've lost contact with or let sour over a measly 300-mile move.

I don't have a job lined up. Yes I know California will be expensive, but at least I've saved up enough for a few months' worth of expenditures if budgeted correctly. I feel.... excitement. Trepidation. Nervous. Longing. Depression. Sadness. Ancient. The closer the door gets, the more I find myself looking behind me. Ironic that my fursona species represents freedom and aloofishness, and yet I'm terrified of change.

Harvey was a couple of months ago. Last year I was 21. Now when I think back to when I was still slinging tires or working for Chic-Fil-A back in Burleson I have to stop and remind myself. "Oh yeah. That was almost a decade ago."

Anyway. Enough remembrance. I just have one thing left to say.
2020 better be ready. Because I'm gonna kick its ass.

Just an update on the progression of the storm as I'm living through my first ever hurricane.
We were told not to leave by the Mayor, I couldn't leave because the hospital was not evacuating and they need people to staff and help support the influx of people that are coming from the storm.
The flooding is bad. I've never seen water this high before. It took out my car and flooded my roommate's car as well. The rain is still coming as the storm is stalled out on top of the city. We're holed up in the house while the river that is our street grows outside.
I got a call from the hospital for employees to come in because the emergency department is overflowing with patients. I have no ride and the buses aren't running, so I will be hiking to the hospital. Luckily it's only three and a half miles. They're going to have me spend the night with the possibility of staying more.
This is crazy though. I am lucky the flood waters haven't reached the house, though and I am thankful for that. A person in our community had to be rescued as his house and car were totally underwater.
This is going to be an interesting few days as the storm continues to dump torrential rain on us and cause non-stop flood watches and warnings.

If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]

HAVE YOU...

[ ] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol (Got drunk pretty badly one night)
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex (Furries...?)
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex (I love my boyfriend ;P)
[x] kissed someone of the same sex (Hell yeah)
[x] had sex (Lost virginity at 14 sooooo)
[x] had someone in your room other than family (I get the feeling whoever wrote this was a 12 year old homeschooled kid)
[x] watched porn (Rule 34.... and if you haven't, you will :3)
[ ] bought porn (Who TF PAYS for porn?!)
[ ] tried drugs (Fuck no)

TOTAL SO FAR: 7

[x] taken painkillers (I got hit by a truck while crossing a street. so hello tylenol my old friend!)
[x] taken someone else's prescription medicine (My friends like to play doctor)
[x] lied to your parents (I'm gay and have conservative parents... 'Nuff said)
[x] lied to a friend (Yeah, I TOOK YOUR PHONE. NO SANTA CLAUSE DOES NOT EXIST)
[x] snuck out of the house (I lost my virginity at age 14... how was this NOT gonna be checked?!)
[x] done something illegal (See line above)
[x] felt hurt (Who doesn't? The world is a hurtful place)
[x] hurt someone (He kept tickling me. I warned him that I flail and he kept going. THAT BROKEN NOSE WAS EARNED, BUDDY)
[x] wished someone to die (Hitler)
[x] seen someone die (Wikileaks made me cry)

TOTAL SO FAR: 17

[x] missed curfew (WTF am I ten?!)
[x] stayed out all night (Yeah... shoulda seen the shower I had to take in the morning ;P)
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself (I'm a horse, what do you expect?)
[x] been to a therapist (Conservative christian parents find out son is gay)
[x] received a ticket (I'm a horse, what do you expect?)
[ ] been to rehab
[x] dyed your hair (Once, red, not doing it again)
[x] been in an accident (totaled my brand new car. Not even two months old.)
[ ] been to a club
[x] been to a bar (I grew up in a small town)

TOTAL SO FAR: 25

[x] been to a wild party (Do furry meets count?)
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night (See line one)
[ ] had a spring break in Florida
[x] sniffed anything (Do panties count?)
[x] wore black nail polish (rebel in high school using sharpie for nail polish)
[x] wore arm bands ('Tallica)
[x] wore t-shirts with band names ('Tallica)
[x] listened to rap (The 'Em!)
[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD

TOTAL SO FAR: 32


[x] dressed gothic (I had my phase)
[x] dressed girly (I.... had my phase >~>)
[x] dressed punk (I... oh for dog's sake)
[ ] dressed grunge
[ ] stole something
[x] been too drunk to remember anything (See line one)
[x] blacked out (See above line)
[ ] fainted
[ ] had a crush on a neighbour (A. My neighbor was a girl B.She liked to stalk me)

TOTAL SO FAR: 37

[x] had a crush on a friend (goddammit yes)
[ ] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped (having a boyfriend is so nice)
[x] been called a slut (cums with the territory I suppose)
[ ] called someone a slut (...I refuse to use that word)
[ ] installed speakers in a car
[ ] broken a mirror
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house (Furries... what are you gonna do?)
[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL SO FAR: 41

[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie (What are you, 9?!)
[x] cruised the mall (until I found better stuff online)
[ ] skipped school
[x] had surgery (had a rock stuck in my ear canal for a year >~>)
[x] had an injury (I literally hurt myself in some form every day.)
[x] gone to court (...skip)
[ ] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[x] caught something on fire (It's... fire)
[x] lied about your age ("This site contains pornagraphic content, you must be 18 or abo-blahblahblah")

TOTAL SO FAR: 48

[x] owned/rented an apartment/house (I'M AN ADULT GRAAAH)
[x] broke the law in the police's presence (Why do you think I got those tickets >~>)
[x] made out with someone who had a GF/BF (Open relationships are common in the fandom)
[x] got in trouble with the police (Come on now... if you've come this far, you should know)
[x] talked to a stranger (Furries)
[x] hugged a stranger (Furries)
[x] kissed a stranger (Furries)
[x] rode in the car with a stranger (Jesus fucking christ Furries)
[X] been harassed (FURRIES)
[x] been verbally harassed (....parents)

TOTAL SO FAR: 58

[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online (FUCK ARE WE REALLY ASKING ME ABOUT FURRIES AGAIN)
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight (don't judge >~>)
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight (I SAID DON'T JUDGE DAMMIT)
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight (The Walking Dead ain't gonna watch itself, now)
[x] been to a fair (Country.... town)
[x] been called a bad influence (I am literally the worst)
[ ] drank and drove (But I'm not this bad)
[ ] prank-called someone (I didn't have that kind of life)
[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex (what are you, 5?!)
[x] cheated on a test (Shaddup.)

TOTAL = 66




..........don't judge >~>

I have successfully relocated from Fort Worth to Houston.... Quite a long drive. I find myself living in good company (For the first time ever) with some really good furry friends I've known for a while, and I'm really thankful for their help. I'm also thankful that despite their best efforts to scam me out of everything they could, my former employers were forced to pay me unemployment. So now I have a source of income while I look for a job.

That's the hardest part of it all though, finding a job down here. If I can, I'll be much more stable and confident about where I am. My friends and my mate all have my back, but that doesn't mean I can sit around and not try, it means I have to pull harder at the bit to get this heavy chariot we call Life to move. Some days it feels like an immoveable object, but I know that the power of my will can help me get back on the right road.

Maybe sometime in the near future, I can restart making MTG cards, I know I really enjoyed working with you guys on them.

Anyways, thanks for taking he time to read this and... thanks for being here. (You know who you are!)
~Shadow

I thought working hard, giving one hundred percent, and generally showing the world that you give a shit about what you do was a good way to ensure that upper management maybe would care about you.

Apparently I've been operating under false pretenses!

No. I'm treated like I'm an average to below average employee, and they've let me know where I stand. They know I barely am able to support myself with what I make in the 35-40 hours a week I used to work.

Now I'm being scheduled less than 20 a week, with only bleak outlook of hours in the future... And get this; they've let other partners transfer from other stores and they're getting 40 hours!

What the hell am I doing wrong?
What sort of sick game am I a part of?!
Why can I never rise off the ground without recieving yet another swift kick from life???

I'm sorry if I offend with my rant but hey, isn't this what writing journals is all about?

It's different being 22. People around me note that I have the looks of a 17 year old with the mentality of someone who is 25, so it seems I never really look or act my age. But that number... In our society the numbers mean something, and it also means that the perception of that number, at least to myself, is something that doesn't quite fit.
This June, I take a look back one year and the immediate thing that comes to mind is how I seem to have come full-circle. What once was progression now seems to me to be stagnation. To say the least, I can say that in retrospect I am deeply disappointed in myself.
On June 19, 2015, I was an employee for Wal-Mart making a dollar and a half more than I am making exactly one year later, with a different company. Also on that day, I did not own a vehicle or any sort of transportation. One year and two cars later and I am once again without a ride, doing the horse thing and riding a bicycle or taking a bus to get me where I need to be. I'm still sub-renting from someone who quite frankly doesn't give a shit about me, and has some bad habits that in my mind makes them more irresponsible than I... and they have had this proven on multiple occasions.
2015-2016, the year that Shadow once again let himself down. Maybe June 19, 2017 will show some true progression.

Oh, but I do have one thing to say that isn't negative. For those who have stuck around for the wild ride, thanks for being here. For those that have lost connection with me... All I can say is I'm sorry it happened and thank you for the good times we did have. Maybe one day our paths will cross again and we can all laugh and observe the fire in our eyes together once more.

Last night I spent some time with my family and the friends I used to hang around with before I moved out.

The differences between them and me were amazing and somewhat surprising, and caused me to have some deep introspection before bed. I feel I have grown up substantially compared to when I moved out. Instead of loudly conversing and partying with friends that I used to go and act crazy with, I was instead the quiet and reserved one of the group who would more often than not, have to draw attention of the group to things that mattered. ("Guys, I know you're having fun discussing if Captain America would beat Thor in a fight, but really, this is a drive through line and we need to get our orders together before we hit the box please?")
I've learned that I simultaneously care less and care more. As vague as that sounds, it makes sense from a logical standpoint. I used to care a lot more about my public self-image, that is, inasmuch as the public opinion of things that concern me. I care a lot less about what other people think. A year ago I might have scoffed in surprise to see me wearing a gay pride necklace and some tight-fitting jeans (things I was wearing last night) and would have probably have panicked at the thought of someone judging me for it. What I care more for instead, is responsibility. while the guys were all conversing loudly about somewhat nonsensical matters, I was sort of the "Group mother" that everyone gets annoyed at for trying to get them all herded in the same direction with intent.
Twelve months have made me into a person who instead of asking "Can I...?" asks "Should I...?" and for this I think I should be proud, even though it seems to put me into isolation with a quite a few people I used to know.
(As a post-script I'd like to add that last night I came out as a furry to my father. He took it pretty well, looking at pictures I took at TFF and comparing it to zootopia, which he had just seen. One of my only regrets this year is underestimating how much he cared and was genuinely concerned for me. He's an amazing person.)
However narcissistic this next statement sounds, just know I did it for me. Happy one year anniversary, Shadow. Hopefully things pick up from here.

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I had a moment of clarity and self-discovery a few nights ago, and I'm not sure how I feel about it.

All of you know me as Shadow, a friendly horse that likes Magic and motor vehicles... I've made a lot of friends since moving out, and therein lies my problem. Lack of communication. I've made excuses in the past for myself, as far as chatting with other furs goes, and I have come to the realization that... There's a heckuva lot more incoming communication than there is outgoing. I'm very social at times, and at other times, very withdrawn. This troubles me, because it troubles other people, and quite frankly, is rude to keep someone hanging when they greet you.
So now I'm stuck with the dilemma of trying to figure out how to get back into the groove of being social online, with the burden of working a bunch, and also not having my face stuck to a screen for 98% of my free time. But wait, there's more. I have a roommate who sleeps during the day, so voice chatting is a scarce option, and when she's awake, I really don't want her to be privy to my private conversations.

No Privacy + Lots of work + Social life (A little one, but it exists) + Fatigue when I finally do have the time = My friends feeling like I've abandoned them/ are ignoring them (Which, truth be told, sometimes I am, because I'm tired and/or gaming).

I don't want to be known as the horse who makes people feel abandoned. I have to fix me... but I'm not sure how to do it. I feel like I'm a conceited and selfish person.

I just printed the last of my commission cards!
-Jumps for joy-
These were long overdue, and needed to be done ASAP. They will be mailed out later this week.
Now is the time for me to start experimenting with different formats and templates for magic cards. I got a nice new laptop that has the capability to actually RUN PROGRAMS (There was a time, with my old one, where I'd try to print some cards, and the printer would freeze up mid-print because the computer ran out of memory). So with that being said, I found a blog of someone who was a major Star Wars fan, and decided to make his own custom set of 265 cards, all with a star wars theme. That being said, I took a look through the collection, and while the art and flavor text were very impressive, the lack of adherence to the color pie made me cringe. So I might try my hoof at essetially re-making this set as I see fit. Because... Artifacts that cost colored mana kind of upset me, and cards like "Ravenous Wampa" leave a bad taste in my mouth, as sac'ing a creature for benefits seems more like a black ability, and gaining life seems like more of a black/white ability, and monstrosity, while, shared with other colors, seems more like a green trigger (Yes I realize that red is a trigger as well, but adhered to the creature type, it seems like it should be more G/B/W instead of pure R).
Anyone wishing to look at the collection themselves can check it out at: http://imgur.com/a/4EcK2/all

So it's been a wehile since i've psted a journa
thats been non-business related . I was wan ting to see what yuo guys ethogth of my work.. I've p4ogressed a llt since my last journal, especially seeing as it ewas five monthas ago, and I haven/t posted anything yet... ssince then i have progressed in life.. io osee, 6ok have been seperqated from wa-mart. I work at stqarbucks now, making coffee and hanging out woith frtiends. i have been working on commissisons lately... been putting them off for foar too long... I hope to mail them oit by this weekend, barring no furut=re happenings...
yu guys have a nice day and know tha shadow ous ALWYAS aWAFCHINg!!!
-huagx everyone tightly-0
~Shadow

MY TOS

This journal is to explain the process of Commissioning a custom card from me, as I have had a lot of inquiries as of late as to my exact terms of service and whatnot. So here it is. I have laid it out in a numbered rule format:

1.) I will not start the physical part of printing your card until I have payment in hand.
This includes E-checks, for which the subsequent commission will be postponed until confirmation that the check has cleared. I will still be happy to go through the design process beforehand with you though, as I want to make sure you are happy with the card I will be making for you before resources are utilized.

2.) There are special rules regarding proxies!
Anyone wishing to have a proxy of a current Magic the Gathering card made needs to be aware of this.
a.)Art on the proxy will not be allowed to share art with the actual card. This is to protect both yourself and me, as you can be fined quite a substantial amount of money if someone thinks you are trying to pass a proxy off as a real card. You could even be banned for life from participating in officially sanctioned tournaments!
b.)All proxies (and custom cards) will be made with a line of text on the bottom of the card that reads "FAN MADE CARD - NOT FOR SALE" This is to further protect you, as no one can really accuse you of counterfeiting if the card says "Hey, I'm not a real card!"

3.) Wills and Will-Nots of the NSFW Game
I AM comfortable doing NSFW work on cards. I have been around the fandom a while and have seen things, and am not sensitive to the idea. However, I do draw the line somewhere. This section is to define that line for everyone to see.

Wills
·Straight NSFW
·Gay NSFW
·Interspecies
·Feral
·Vore(limited)

Will-Nots
·Babyfurs/Cub porn
·Scat
·Blood
·Rape
·Anything depicting harm to another creature
·Anything that would copy a real Magic the Gathering card.

4.) Ordering and delivery
I will be using the UPS store to ship all of my packages, as they seem to know what they are doing. When the cards are finished, I will give them a 2 day curing time to make sure that the protective coatings will not rub off on any surfaces, and then I will be ready to ship them to you. You must pay the shipping cost. I have priced the cards a bit low on the spectrum as far as time and materials are concerned, so paying for shipping is not an option for me.

5.) Balancing issues
You are in complete control of everything on your card, from the ability text to the border color. You are the purchaser, I am just the designer behind the screen. However, there are a few people who order these cards to play with freinds in a casual setting. If this is the case with you, then I can offer my assistace to help maintain power balance with your card, to ensure that it's not banned immediately upon reveal. If you are not interested in help, that's ok. I just offer it to people just in case they need a little help.

6.)Payment
All payments are taken in paypal only. Payment is taken upfront and must be in USD. Payments are to be sent as Services, not gifts or friends/family. I will provide invoices or request payment on Paypal. (I just send you a bill on paypal for how much the piece will cost.) No address information is to be exchanged or notes via paypal.

If you can accept my terms and conditions, then we can proceed with your card, and you'll end up with something I hope you will like!

I am -Tentatively- taking commissions on custom-made magic cards. This is a Beta-Test for myself to make sure that I can handle production. Prices for the cards:
$10 - This will get you a foil custom card, or a non-foil. Foils are priced at the same rate as non-foils because non-foils are actually the hardest to produce and take up a lot more of my time.
$40-This will get you a "Special Pack" giving you three foil cards and two non-foils. You can have up to two different card designs in this pack, with each additional card design costing an additional $5 (for time spent in the design process).
I accept paypal - The link is here: My Paypal

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Every day I feel more and more part of this community. It's making me happy to be surrounded by so many supportive and positive people who actually understand me more than the typical people that are around me "In real life" as they call it. There are so many of you guys I want to meet, ugh its just a big family and I love it. Thank you in advance anyone who takes time out of his day to talk to this dumb little mustang and I gives you all hugs!

My brother was all like, "Heyyyy... you've got a laptop now?!"
and i was like *Gulp* "Uh... yeah, why?" -suspicious narrowing of the eyes-
"Dude, you should totally download League of Legends and play with my squad!!"
*Sighs in relief* (Thinking how he could've questioned why I got a laptop and I'd have to come up with an answer why besides Furry Pron and FA and stuff) "Oh.... ok sure. I'll do that."
*starts downloading LoL*

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TWO DAYS LATER

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"HOLY FOOP WHY IS IT STILL UPDATING?!"

Brother: "you should watch some youtube videos on how to play first!"
"oh, Sure i'll do that"
*watches youtube videos*
*subsequently dies of brain overload*
"W-What... I don't understand this!!! Why do people spend so much time playing this?"
(FWI I play Magic the Gathering and still this computer game boggles my mind)

I like to get along with my brother and enjoy time with him instead of fighting and bickering. But wow. This game.... *shakes my head*

So finally I have a machine capable of running the stuff I need to post my writing things on here... Yay! Happy early birthday present to me from myself lol. It's a nextbook, and I got it at a great price... and its RED! yep... red! I'm really happy, but now I have no excuse but laziness for why I wouldn't be posting some more reading materials for my.... oh. 16 followers. well, shoot. That's gonna have to be fixed somehow.
;/

Why do people push away whenever they are upset, even though companionship is what they need the very most at that moment? It's frustrating to try to comfort someone and they are like "just go..." Or "I just need to be alone..."
Making people feel better about themselves is what I do, it's my duty as a friend. I don't understand when I'm pushed away even though I have nothing to do with their problems...
When you cry
I'll be there to wipe your tears
When you fall,
I'll be there to lend a hoof,
When you need someone to lean on, I'm that fence post.
I may be unstable at times,
But I'll always be there, just beside you.
Waiting for you to need me.

Hey guys, I'm building up a squad in the game Star Wars commander, and I want to fill it with furries only! If anyone is interested, just message me. The squad name is Furry_Revolution

So..... Not only have I stumbled upon someone who actually wants to be with me (More like HE stumbled into ME lol), but He wants to take me to his prom... and I'm not even out of the "Closet" with anyone except for my coworkers. Even bigger problem? He goes to my brother's school, so MY BROTHER WILL BE THERE. Just for clarification, my brother is not the most accepting person in the world. I'm kind of at a loss. I've never been to a dance, let alone a PROM, and I'm a little scared of all this newness.
-Hugs myself nervously-
-sighs-
I talked to my dad, and he thinks it's a bad idea to try to get into a relationship seeing as i'm off to college in Oklahoma in three months. But I've never had something like this before, at least in real life, and I don't want to pass up an opportunity like this. I feel like if I pass this up, I'll regret it for a long time, and I'll probably not find a mate for another four years (Uber-Christian college).
My dad says my mom might freak out and kick me out of the house, and there's nothing he can do about it. I don't want to keep seeing him in secret, it's not right or fair to him. I just don't know what to do. Being kicked out three months before I leave for college will be a huge setback, but at what cost? I shouldn't have to make a huge sacrifice to be able to be myself, it seems a little wrong and backwards.
:-/

Sorry for the rant, I'm just a stressed little horse right now.

Honestly I'm wondering, how many Furries here would like to live a week as the feral version of their fursona? What wouls it be like for you? How would you cope with the change in lifestyles? What's the positive/negative aspects? Would you have an inter-species relationship? Have a litter/colt?

Ok, so now we've answered that question, partially. How about living life as your anthro-fursona? Do you think you would be happier? Would you like to see the entire world turned furry? Or maybe just the furry community? What if there was a serum you could imbibe that would let you transform into your fursona? How much pain would you be willing to endure to do that? (Hint- Captain America)
-rests head on palm, thinking-
Ok, so let's say for a minute that you did in fact choose to undergo your transformation. How important would it be for you to have the resulting genital morph that would occur? Would you really want a sheathe/knot/horsecock/barbs/etc? What if your mate was a human? how would you deal then?
-Sighs, tired-

Sorry guys if it's annoying. I just found these questions to be fascinating, maybe I'm just tired lol.
-Neigh! whinny! Snort!-

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I was troping around on the internet during English class and found an argument website:

"Homosexuality is immoral and unnatural. J. Matt Barber, Associate Dean for Online Programs at Liberty University School of Law, stated that "Every individual engaged in the homosexual lifestyle, who has adopted a homosexual identity, they know, intuitively, that what they're doing is immoral, unnatural, and self-destructive, yet they thirst for that affirmation." A 2003 set of guidelines signed by Pope John Paul II stated: "There are absolutely no grounds for considering homosexual unions to be in any way similar or even remotely analogous to God's plan for marriage and family... Marriage is holy, while homosexual acts go against the natural moral law." [147] Former Arkansas governor and Republican presidential candidate Mike Huckabee stated in Oct. 2014 that gay marriage is "inconsistent with nature and nature’s law." [148]

First off, Gay marriage is unnatural and goes against God's law. Well good for them! Did you know that the United States of America has NO OFFICIAL RELIGION? Hats off to the people who shifted their paradigms back to EARLY NINTEENHUNDREDS THINKING When it was "a crime against nature to marry an african american and a white..."

Secondly, apparently we care what nature thinks about us now (Poke at the anti-environmentalists and their Nemisi) and we are going against her laws? Oh well, you're welcome, straight people! most gay couples who wish to have a child end up adopting the spawn of straight couples who didn't want/couldn't take care of a child.

people fear what they don't understand. And then vehemently oppose it. You should not fear us. We are nice people (For the most part) .

Check this out:
"Gay marriage will accelerate the assimilation of gays into mainstream heterosexual culture to the detriment of the homosexual community. The gay community has created its own vibrant culture. By reducing the differences in opportunities and experiences between gay and heterosexual people, this unique culture may cease to exist. Lesbian activist M.V. Lee Badgett, PhD, Director of the Center for Public Policy and Administration at the University of Massachusetts at Amherst, stated that for many gay activists "marriage means adopting heterosexual forms of family and giving up distinctively gay family forms and perhaps even gay and lesbian culture." [14] Paula Ettelbrick, JD, Professor of Law and Women's Studies, wrote in 1989, "Marriage runs contrary to two of the primary goals of the lesbian and gay movement: the affirmation of gay identity and culture and the validation of many forms of relationships." [15]

hold up.... What?! Did she just say that marriage equality will essentially capsize the LGBT community?! WTF is this logic?

Random thought of the day... I seem to have metaphorically burned myself. anyone else concur? or just have another random thought? I'd appreciate reading it lol

The adventures of Caramel Dapple!
Caramel is a rich tan dappled horse who leads a high-octane life jumping one partner to the next. will this bright flame cause him to burn out quickly?
"caramel, would you like to be my mate?"
"a...a relationship? I'm sorry, but I don't do those any more. people who try to tame me end up hurt. Not on purpose but because I'm just that way. I guess what I'm saying is that I'm a fire. stand too close to me, and you'll get burned."
stay tuned!

I feel like I'm just not a good friend. I think I annoy those that I care for. I try to talk to people all the time, because for the most part, I think i have a problem with being alone. I have tasted the furry chat kool-aid and can't help but want to talk to people I care about/find interesting/have the same interests as me. But lately Iv'e been getting the feeling that my regularity of chatty-ness has started to annoy people...maybe even my best friend who may just be too nice to tell me. But of course, I'm a horse, and horses worry too much, so this may be all just perceived with no basis. But I'm worried and I want to fix my problem if it does indeed exist. I don't want people to be annoyed at me, that's no way to be a good friend.

poking around on my school's database, I found this:

TITLE: Furries; enacting animal anthropomorphism.

AUTHOR: Dobre, Carmen.

PUBLISHER: University of Plymouth Press

PUBLISH DATE: 2012

PAGES: 150

PRICE: $29.99

BINDING:

LIBRARY OF CONGRESS CLASSIFICATION: TR680

REVIEW: This book offers photographs of furries, a fetish community whose members identify themselves as animals, or else are uncomfortable in their human bodies as humans and wear full-body "fur-suits" to express this. After introducing the culture, most of the book showcases several furries, both male and female, living across Western Europe. These cases consist of an interview describing their motivations, their experiences as furries in a world of non-furries, and their views on the community particularly in light of the Internet. The photographs are somewhat random shots of the furries' homes, but usually feature the furry themselves in their suit and out of their suit. Carmen Dobre, the author, is a documentary photographer. (© Book News, Inc., Portland, OR)



COME ON NOW...
We are not just a Fetish Community! Why do people do this??? Ugh it makes me frustrated. We are just people, not a bunch of weirdo sex fiends. Thanks scholasticism!

Hello FA. I've recently discovered that the lack of activity on FA wasn't due to a real lack of activity on FA, but to the fact that I was using a mobile app that SUCKS BALLS(and not in a good way). over the past two months I have missed 32 notifications. Thanks developers! So yeah.
I have not been a member of FA for very long, so I don't know if there is a section for writers (wow this is a very art-y site isn't it?), so until I find it, I will continue to write on wattpad. if there is anyone on here that likes to read furry fiction (hopefully that's a lot of furs?), you can find me on wattpad as shadowstallion94. any comments or suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
your friendly stallion,
Shadow
-Neigh!-