Well I just learned on the News that someone that I knew from my High School's Graduating class was killed in a tragic car accident that resulted from drunk driving...I'm in shock and pretty depressed by it, seeing how it was actually someone I knew and talked to...although we were not friends and just aquantences, He did always say hi to me in the hallways of my High School and I was in a class with him during my Junior year at my high school...the class was called Vertual Enterprise....

This hits me really hard for other reasons I won't get into because I'm afraid people would only get enraged at me....this is a horrible tragity due to irrisponsibility, drunk driving underage...I forgive the person responsible for this, even though some may not....I'm not sure if I'll go to the funeral or not, I would like to but...I dunno.... :((

Well its 11:11 p.m. on 11-11-11 lol XD I got Skyrim today at Gamestop, funny story actually. So when I got there and asked for Skyrim it turns out I only got the standard, not the Special Edition, so I asked if there was any way I could get it and as it turns out there was only 1 more Special Edition that wasent pre-ordered and I was able to get it! What unbelievable luck right? Wrong! I believe it was a gift from the Lord to me, thanks God! ^^ In any case I probably won't be playing it until I beat The Elder Scrolls IV Oblivion lol but until then I'll be satisfied with the Dragon Statue and the Concept Art book woot! Goodnight Everyone :3

That's right I got the final book for the Inheritance series, cleverly named "Inheritance" lol
I just got it in the mail today, witch is strange seeing how the books actual release date is tomorrow; November 8th. In any case I'm pretty excited, however I'll have to put off reading it for now since I have a lot going on in college (a persuasive essay for English and a project for 3D Design as well as reviewing for my Math class). I'm in no hurry to read it. :)

Well I came up with a really neat idea for an Anime...of course I dont even have the assets of resources to make said Anime but I do think its a solid idea to work off of...I cant go through with it unless Trancey Mick allows me to, and even then I would give most of the credit to her (after all Sergals are a copyright of Trancey and obviously not my own creation)....The Anime Idea has little to do with Mick's own story work of the Old Age and New age (although that would be a good idea two)....

Without further adue here is my idea:

First off this is influnced a lot by the game Killzone and the Anime Movie "Jin Roh The Wolf Brigade."

The Anime Takes place in the near future 2134 to be exact....a Powerful Superpower know as Shurssia(in many ways mirrors Russia) is comming to power within the planet known as Exonieah. The UEM (United Earth Military) is agianst them an views Shurrssia as "evil" there are many innsurectionsits and terrorists within Shurssia....

Due to enormous casulties the Shurssian Goverment invests in biological experementations and bio-tech research, eventually it leads them to bring back a long forgotten race believed to be extinct (the Sergals) The bring them within there own goverment and provide them with food shelter and other nessesities to keep them alive, the Sergals in turn provide Shurssia with a powerfull military, foot soldiers, piliots, mechanics and field medic's some have even become Generals and Commanders of the Shurssian Grand Army (SGA for short)...
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There are a couple of "unique" characters I have; both human, Sergal and a few other species. Among them are Senetors of Shurssia and the Elite Commando Squads known as "Omega Betaliom.
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Well Being Single dose have its benifits.... ._. and as of right now I dont think having one would be a good thing as relationships need time to devote to and thats time I dont have because of college and stuff....I do want one that should be of no suprise but my beliefs are pointing towards patience rather then just seeking out who I think is fit for me...
Most would probably just laugh at me for my christian beliefs but this is Stuff I've seen first hand...at my friends weeding for example and I know that this will work but it is hard waiting. It will probably be YEARS before I'm ready for a devoted relationship with someone and that will probably be the happiest day of my life. It is something I am really looking forward to in the future :)

They say that people act differently online then in person...I can completely agree, I may seem to be a very strong and cool person but thats just pride and arragonce :( Im not a strong person I am weak, I dont know how my grandmother and mother arguing can render me emotional frail, its pethetic...God iis the one thats helped me through this he has helped me a lot, but why dose this have to happen? The two of them constantly yelling and arguing over irrelevant things and then they have to take it out on me :( I dont like being selfish but often times I find myself being what I dont want to...I no God is there for me...but why cant I just get a hug T_T

Im not trying to have people feel sorry for me,I just cant take it anymore DX In all honesty there are people that have suffered more like Narse lossing Athus... He suffered a greatly lost then I have ever experienced....

I just got back from Ohio, my friends wedding saturday was a true blessing! To celebraate marrige is a really exciting thing to witness! This is actually the first wedding I've ever been to :3 I really enjoyed it. Instead of a cake the bride made cup cakes for every one! :D This whole weekend has made me very happy, for my friend and for looking onto the future for when I am married. :D

Thats right my youth group leader from my church is going to get married this weekend (Saturday the 8th of October to be exact)! This is surely going to be an exciting event, I only wish the weeding was local and no all the way in Cleveland Ohio ^^; but no matter I was able to get a ride to there and be back at home Sunday evening. Im on my way to School (at College) right now with my stuff for the weekend. I packed my things last night so I wouldnt have to rush in the morning. I'm being picked up after my last class at 2:00 p.m. from some people from church and then were going directly to Cleveland. This is sure to be a huge blessing and I pray for the best for my friend. :D

Tonight I'm going to my Youth Group leaders Bachalors Party tonight and your playing indoor Paintball! Its going to be alot of fun Im on my way there right now! No theres not going to be alcohol there like most "wild" batcholar parties this is going to be good clean fun and I cant wait to play, I'm also going to my Youth Group Leader's (his name is Tim) wedding in Ohio in Early October which should be a blessing. This weekend I'm heading back to Camp to work for the weekend to help out and the following weekend after that whitch should be a fun time. :D

Yesturday I got my Gears of War 3 Epic Edition :D I only got to play it for 10 minutes since I had class that afternoon ^^; But over all the new installment to the legendary franchise is pretty good, the only con for it that I see is that Beast Mode has a countdown which I think is more challenging but a little less then what i suspected. I just started Campaign and so far its pretty fun. I cant wait to play online when I move into my college dorm :D

Thats right today is my High Schools Graduation ceremony! I am really excited for this :D I am looking foward to getting my deploma and walking across the stage :D this trully marks the bittersweet end of High School but also marks the beginning of a new endevour and new memories to follow. :)

Hello everyone, I'm leaving tomorrow to work at Camp Cory this summer. I will be leaving tomorrow morning and I wont be back till the end of August. I might come back to my Grandma's house to stay for a night on the weekends every now and again but for the most part I wont be very active online, see you all later :D

Lest talk about an interesting topic: First Impressions...well in my opinion there a lie, sure I dont exactly give the greatest impressions to people, I can be anoying and can be a pest, I spam people with to many damn messages, what I've learned is if someone dosent want to talk to you then so be it, I can almost gaurentee no one is going to read but I just wanted to type this up anyway...

First impressions are what people look for, but what alot of people dont understand is that people wont always act the way they are, people change, I can tell you that much. I admit I create drama, I try not to, but I dont do it as much often as I used to...If people new about my past they would understand where I'm comming from, but its a hopeless argument why should anyone care?

Thats right my Senior Prom is Tonight starting at 8:00 p.m. and ending at 12:00 p.m. tonight. I'm on my way there and hope to have a great time :D

Hello everyone, I have recently got Xbox Live Gold :D I'm ussually on late at night now thought XD. I play mostly Gears of War and Halo but I have a few others I like as well. I am making my own clan called the Gamers Elite, if you are interested in joining please send me a note :)

Well this is just great I think my mom is using again . Last night I went over to the ARC of Monroe for the Special Sitters program training and when it was done at 8:45 and I called my mom telling her to pick me up...So then it comes to 9:10 and she still isn't at the place and I called her at least 40 times during which she only answered a couple of calls saying "I'm on my way" (yeah right). It comes to 10:15 and I finally called my friend Tim and told him my situation and he told me to call Joy (the person me and my family live with presently) and then he gave me her cell phone number. I called her and told her what happened and she told me she would try yo pick me up...So then it comes to 10:30 and I get a call from my grandma and she asked me if mom picked me up (I could tell that she was scared just by her voice). And she was very nervous I told her I would call her back when I found out when I'm getting a ride home...no immediatly after this my mom calls and says she is going to take 20 minutes to get to the ARC of Monroe building, then it hit me...IT TAKES 20 minutes to get here from my house! So at this point I am assuming she is using again! Then Joy calls me and tell's me her son Eric is on his way to pick me up. Now at 11:10 Eric picks me up and on the way home we talk for a bit about my mom and stuff and it was comforting....when I got home I finally decided to call the police...I didn't care if it would ruin the whole court thing my mom has been in for the past 5+ months...I was worried about her. So the police came and it turns out one of the officers that came was the same one that worked on the case when my mom had her first relapse back in October....We soon found out that my sister was not with my mom but at my grandma's house (thank God)...So about all I could do was file a missing persona report on it and hope they find my grandma's car with my mom...


This whole thing has emotionaly DRAINED me :cries: my mom is nowhere to be found! and She still hasent contacted anyone, no one knows where she is. She still has my grandma's car and God know's where she is....I'm really scared. I just cant believe after coming so close with this court appeal she has done this! This is unbelievable....I didnt go to school becasue I'm so tired and emotionaly drained so I am just going to hang around her....I got no choice for the special sitters training because if I skip I have to do it another week in April....

Hello everyone guess what? It's my Birthday today!!! I am no officially 18 and an adult! I was looking forward to going to a play called "Over The Tavern" but apperently its sold out which sucks cause it only plays up until sunday but oh well sometimes things like this happen. ^^; I am looking forward to tomorrow when I go over to my grandma's house and have dinner over there, and my close friend Owen is going to join me and my family for my Birthday dinner. I dont really care what kind of presents I get (although I hope I get Dead Space 2 lol) what matters is just reconizing that this is a very special birthday for me since I am now an adult.

Oh and another thing, this year I am hoping to attend Anthrocon (if I can get a ride and find someone to room with that is). I am really hoping I get to go this year but the only problem is that it falls on the week of Staff training week for Camp Cory where I'll be working this year. ^^; I did however talk to the associate director and he told me that I could come for monday and tuesday of staff week and leave wendsday. Another problem is that my Graduation is on that friday of that week lol why couldnt they just pick another month. XD If I do go to Anthrocon I would like to do a little "theater" preformance for The Phantom of The Opera :la: I would have to make a costume though, all in all I think I'm going to have a great weekend!!!

Todaywas the official "compititio" at RI. It went reallywell for my team, this years game is deffinitley my favorite and you can find out more at usfirst.org and look for the game info. It really exciting to be at the Regional especially with over 40+ teams attending! Its a lot like a sporting event but better! Teams help each other in the robot "Pit" teams and stuff and cheering is always fun! I had a really great timetoday overall :D

IM BACK!!! Hello everyone I've returned from the Winter Youth Retreat I went to for the weekend, it was pretty fun, I got to hang out with fellow Christians and play pool and stuff, and I even got to go sledding in an inner tube. The teachings were really interesting, my personal favorite was when the youth group leader from my Calvery Chapel came up and taught about relationships and how God has "designed" someone spacificaly for every person and that they should seek him instead of seeking for someone to be with, I thought it was really interesting and a very good teaching

Overall I really enjoyed going

This is a rant about How I didnt get the Collectors Edition of Dead Space 2, just to give you guys the heads up....



I AM SO PISSED OFF AT EA GAMES!!!!!!!!! This is unbelievable I ORDERED THE COLLECTORS EDITION AND DIDN'T GET IT!!!??? I'm not mad at the retailer, F.Y.E. but I'm REALLY pissed at EA Games...They have the most horrendouss business practices and I just plain hate them My mom got back from shopping and told me she went to F.Y.E. to pick up my Dead Space 2 Collectors edition but the receptionist told her they didn't have any, she talked to the manager of the place and he told her that they didn't receive any of the Collectors Edition because there was "supposedly" only 30 collectors edition copies and were already made for certain individuals. This is freak'n beyond believe I cant even begin to tell you how outraged I am...I'm just going to get the standard edition for now until I can file a complaint against EA (more like a lawsuit):frustrated: I also learned there is at least 20 other people who pre- ordered Dead Space 2 Collectors Edition and didn't receive it...they must be pretty pissed to....anyways that's the end of my rant for now....

Hello everyone :D I havent been on here in a while now XD mostly because I use DA more often XD anyways I just want to say hello to everyone out there, I'm going to be uploading some of my art from Deviant Art now :D