Just now I beat the game and all I can say is...wow! What a great game. It's hard to believe that, not only was this the brain child of one man, but that the same guy, Dean Dodrill created the entire game almost single handedly. In the gaming industry today, such a feat is almost unheard of. For a sidescrolling plateformer, most would think this game to be a bit outdated for today, but I will say that, that is what makes the game a bit unique as a opossed to some of the other games you see nowadays. The gameplay was pretty fun, a tad bit repetitive at times but still great. The music I have to say was pretty amazing and the story and characters I practically fell in love with. I have to say for an indie game this is probably one of the best I have ever played, and one of the best games I have ever played even though it felt a little short. all in all I give this game a 10/10 not a rating I give out a lot. :)

I dont believe it myself, I have dreamed of this day! It has finally been revealed, Pokemon will be revisiting the Hoenn region once again! Pokemon Omega Ruby and Pokemon Alpha Sapphire! You have no idea how excited I am for this! As a kid these were the games I grew up with and I've always wanted a remake of Pokemon Ruby and Sapphire! Emerald still stands as my all time favorite Pokemon game, with the expansion to the story line and the original Battle Frontier. Hopefully this game will be revisiting those elements. One of my favorite things about Emerald was that you could rematch against the gym leaders who had new Pokemon. There hasnt been an official release date, however the Pokemon Company has stated that it will be released sometime in Novemver of this year, I cant wait! :D

Happy Easter everyone or for all you Christian Furs out there, Happy Resurrection Day! :D

Well I have to say UBcon was a hell of a lot of fun! I got to go fursuiting in my suit and it was a lot of fun, although a little hot I might add ;)

I didnt really go to any panels or anything, I did go look around the dealers den area but I just looked around. I had a lot of fun hanging out with my friends and I look forward to going to more cons this year! :D

Yep, I'm going to a convention :D
There's a small comicon going on at the University of Buffalo here in Buffalo NY that I am attending with some friends. I cant wait to debut my Sergal Fursuit there! I'll be sure to take a lot of pictures for you guys! :D

Hello everyone, I should have posted this yesterday but I completely forgot about it X3
Yesterday was my 21rst Birthday so now I'm legal! :D I didnt really do anything much for my birthday. I got up early in the morning and a friend of mine gave me a ride to the local UPS distribution center to pick up my fursuit, which was quite the birthday present to have. I got back home and just played video games with my friends, so like I said I didnt do to much but it was a good day. I plan on going back to Rochester yet again, to meet up with family. It's been a difficult year, lots of drama, not to mention I lost a close friend :/
But I'm still holding on and I know that God will help me through this and throughout my life :)

Well I'm back in Buffalo. I just got back from Rochester yesterday with visiting my Grandmother. I have to say I enjoyed myself :)
My Grandmother is staying in an independent living facility for senior citizens. She doesnt really like it there but she did enjoy me visiting her. I went back to Rochester last Friday, and it was my Mothers birthday. We went out to eat and then we went to see "Son of God" in theaters. We missed the showing at 7:00 p.m. so we went to a nearby mall until the next showing at 10:00 p.m. The movie itself was very good I have to say, very powerful with its message :)
The days after that was just me lying low, I got to hang out with  docredwolf Saturday. Sunday I went to church with my Mom and came back and hung out with my grandmother and we watched "The Phantom of the Opera" (the 2004 version). Other then that I just read and talked with my grandmother and came back yesterday. Overall I had a good time :)

Happy Valentines Day Everyone.

Have to say that this day kind of gets me depressed because I'm still single :/
Well maybe one day I'll meet the girl of my dreams and my soulmate but I dont know...
Well Happy Valentines Day Everyone, and enjoy it with your mates! :3

So I got this idea in my head for my own fan fiction for Bishock that revovles around a man looking for his daughter that dissapeared in 1956. She was kidnapped by Agents and brought to Rapture to be turned into a Little Sister. As the years went by, the girl who I'm naming Alice was eventually turned into a Big Sister and one of the most powerful among them. The Father, who's name is Michael goes looking for her and eventually finds Rapture and tires to find her.

I got the idea through the whole story behind Mark Meltzer and his daughter Cindy Meltzer, although my story is a bit less tragic then that. I'm still working on the details.

Happy New Years Everyone! :D

Merry Christmas Everyone! I'm staying with my grandmother so replies will be slow. Hope you all have a great day! :D

Yep I'm making a new character, although technically he is not my fursona. His name is Vzaron and he is a 7'11" 320lbs Anthro Neon Green and Black Hornet. Why a hornet you might ask? Well because I thought it would be unique X3
I plan on having a fursuit done, but thats not until a long ways off from now.

Vzaron is going to be part of my own species that are anthro hornets but I'm still in the process of developing them. The dont havea thorax, instead they have a long tail with a stinger at the end of it but thats all I have now :3
More soon to follow!

So I've been thinking a lot lately, of things that have gone past, of things that are happening now, and of things that are comming in the near future.

It seems that a lot has happened since Anthrocon, although arguably nothing for the better. For those that already know I apologize if I'm stressing the same subject over and over again. This is not a cry for attention, just something I wanted to post for people to understand where I'm comming from.

August seemed to be the month where everything begain to fall apart. A potential relationship I was seeking never came to be, one of my close friends that I have known in person ever since 2008 (back when I first became a "Furry" and joined this Fandom) passed away in a tragic drowning accident, and in that same week my Mom notifies me that my Father is back in jail...again. To make matters worse a whole bunch of drama happened between me an individual I was hoping to date and that ended up a huge drama bomb so things really havent gone well.

But the storm has since passed and I am recorvering, although old wounds tend to bruise easily I suppose, especailly with recent events taking place. I mended my friendship with the person I was seeking to date, not to the point of actually considering a relationship with them because that opprotunity is long gone and honestly I dont think it was the right choice on my part. I made very bad decisions and they still effect me to where I have deep regretsm regrets I wish I could go back and fix, to prevent them from happeing...but you cant go back in time, you can only move on and hope for the better in your future, in that lies security in hope, hope of a better tomorrow.

In any event I think I have decided what I want my life's career to be (although I'm still deciding honestly). I think I am going to persue education in the automotive industry as an Auto Mechanic. May seem a bit strange, especially with my initial career goal being that of Video Game Design, but honestly I dont think that is very practicle for me as an individual.

I think it's an interesting field and a booming industry. Mechanic's can make a decent living, although it is hard work and I understand that it is, but I'm willing to take a chance at it and see where it leads me.

My one true goal is to creat my own Novel series which I continue to work on, although I sadly havent made much progress due to obvious personal reasons but in all honesty with all this spare time I have, it seems rather petty that I havent got a head start on anything as of late. I guess I can give things a try but I'm unsure as to what I want to do for my story.

In any case, things are looking up and I hope to meet my goals.

Happy Thanksgiving to all of you.

Cant say I'm really having a good thankgiving, not having a dinner or anything or spending time with family do to some circumstances but I hope you area all enjoying it and having a great day :3

Although I'm not realy in the best of spirits and a lot has been going on, I am thankful for the thingsI have been blessed with and the friends that I have. Much Love to all of you and Happy Thanksgiving! :3

 krispup is having a Raffle for over $1000! :D http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5266668/
The rules for the Raffle are posted in the Journal, good luck everyone! :D

Oh and for you Krispup, my favorite animal would have to be...hm I dont know? Dragons maybe?
No of course I know, Dragons! :D

I try to being this journal and I guess I am just having great difficulty, difficulty searching for the right words to say. '

Today I attended the memorial Service for my good friend Trey, and I have to say the day was pretty stressful, but in a good kind of way, if that makes sense. I just wanted to be their for the family and others who have known my friend that I have known since 2008. Honestly this is a very hard time for me, not only because I've lost someone that was a good friend of mine but for many other reasons as well which I dont care to discuse here.

The day itself went pretty good. The person I am living with offered me a ride and I got up early in the morning and he drove me to Rochester. I met with my Mom and she got my suit for me, the one my Grandmother bought for me. I got changed and left with her to go to the cemetary where Trey will eventually be burried. My good friend  docredwolf came to the cemetary and got dropped off by his mom. I am really thankful for him and his support, I deffinitly need friends like him as I go through this hard time in my life, and I do appreaciate everyone for their thoughts and prayrs.

I met with  DocRedWolf at the Cemetary after his moom dropped him off and we went to the place where Trey will be burried. At frist I didnt know if he was actually burried there already. I spoke with the Mom of Trey and she said that he wasnt burried yet. I talked to her and some other people and offered my support for such a hard time for everyone.

I was informed that people were going to my to the Pastor's house. I knew him from when I went to a Calvary Chapel in the Rochester area. My Mom brought me, my sister and Doc to the Pastor's house and I hung out there for a little while before everyone got ready and left for the Church. We got to the chruch and the memorial service went well. I even got to speak a few words in memorium of Trey. Latter on I was told by a few people that it was really nice what I said. I gave a drawing I made of Trey and his self portrait used for the memorial service and I gave that to his Mom, she thanked me for it and for comming out for the memorial. After a while people bagain leaving and I said my goodbye's to a few people and then I went with my Mom, my little sister and Doc and we stopped by his dads house and picked up a few things and then my mom drove me to Doc's, Mom's house. My mom left me and I said goodbye to her and thanked her for the ride. As of now I'm staying at Doc's place until tomorrow, although I wish I could stay longer...

I could use you guys for support, I'm not asking for your moeny or anything like that, just your time and words.

I would ask that you take a look at these songs if you have time

VNV Nation "Beloved"
A great song and one that has helped me emensly through this hard time in my life: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kfc3zcnrWMQ

DeVotchKa "How It Ends"
This one has a more personal story to it. Both me and Trey loved playing Gears of War 2 together. "How It Ends" was the song that was in hte main Gears of War 2 trailer and is considered to be the games theme song. The song's mood and meaning also give me encouragment and comfrot through this difficult time and it will be a song that I will always remember him by.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kfc3zcnrWMQ

I know that Trey is in a much better place and that one day we will meet again, in a place where no pain remains, no feeling, just eternity awaits.

Rest in peace dear friend you will be missed, but never forgotten.

*sighs*

Things just havent been going well...and with me that is nothing new, but this is different...
I dont mean to be such a downer all the time, I just like to express myself and how I feel, especially with what I have been going through for the past 4 months...

Ever since I moved to Buffalo from Rochester it seems that things in my life have been getting progressivley worse and I dont know why. I was hopping this was going to be the start of a new beginning but this dream of mine is turning into a nightmare. Anthrocon was the climax, the heighest point of happiness for me...and then things went downhill....
My first attempt at trying to start of a relationship with someone didnt go well but since then I have fixed things in that relationship and we are still good friends. Then in August I get word that one of my close friends, Trey dies in a tragic drowning in Florida, to make matters worse that same week my mom tells me my Dad (my actual biological Father) is once again back in jail for going on a crime spree.

Now this situation I am in....I couldnt go to Furfright because I didnt have enough money....but that in itself was not the cause for all the anguish I have been feeling the last few weeks. A person that I had interest in and that I wanted to try something with outright betrayed me. I asked them if I could date them and they said they would give it a chance, but then they went on about how they dont do long distance and that someone they wanted to date themselves betrayed them and used them and that they were not ready for a relationship yet...I bugged them about it and how I wanted to try something with them, and I did irritate them a bit.

And then a Bomb Shell, I found out they have started dating someone...
Hypocrisy at its finest. The person I was friends with and wanted to try to date wound up dating someone else, and on top of that, the person my "friend" was dating was long distance, which just added insult to injury...It's just unbelievable. Not to get into detail but my friend's relationship with the person they were dating didnt go well and they eventually broke up.

It's been eating me from the inside out for the last few weeks and even though everyone tells me to just move on its so hard to when something like this happens. I feel betrayed and left behind...I've been trying to contact this person and talk to them about this but they dont reaply and I almost get they feeling they are deliberatley ignoring me. I guess I dont know what I want, perhaps just closure or an apology but honestly I feel like this person doesnt even care about me or my feelings.

I guess that in all in all I just feel extremely depressed and lonely about this whole thing because I feel I'll never have a chance with anyone. My already low trust for other people has been broken...again, but honestly I'm not surprised. I guess all that is left for me is to just move on in life. Bad things will happen to everyone, it's inevitiable, but Life goes on, with or without you.

Happy Halloween Everyone!

I think I'm just staying home for the most part lol. What are you guys going to be doing? :3

Unfortunately due to financial difficulties I will be unable to go to Furfright this year...but hey there is always next year right? Hopefully I'll have more money by then. Im really bummed Im not going but it's ok, I plan to have a Holloween Party at a friends house instead....

Oh and some other news I am applying for a Job at Dollar General so hopefully I'll be able to get a job :3

On a personal note....emotionally Im just not doing to well...its not just Furfright and not being able to go, there are plunty of other things going on that are part of it...none I really want to mention but if you want you can PM me or talk to me on Skype about it...

In short Im just unhappy...being single that is. I find myself trying to find someone to be with but I feel I just make a really bad impression and they dont like me anymorel...I dont handle things as maturely as I should. I just get upset because I feel I make a really bad first impression and it ruins everything...oh well

I do rest in the hope that one day I'll meet the person of my dreams :3

Yep, Im still keeping the two I have now, Azoran my Dragon Fursona and Novathalve my Sergal Fursona....now...
Let me introduce you to Winston the Tabby Cat! X3
He has Navy Blue fur with Gold stripes, Blood Red eyes and purple hair with florecent blue highlights. He is 7'0" and weighs 210lbs, he's a big cat X3

If you guys have any more questions please feel free to talk to ask me :3

I am creating my own species, not that I am making a new fursona I just feel like being creative :3
The new species will be a mix of Avian and Reptilian, a bit like the supposed Veloci Raptore if you will. More details soon to follow!

So I just watched the cutscene where Dom dies....just wow.
I know he gave the ultimate sacrifice and saved Marcus, Anya, Sam, Jace and Dizzy so that they could all escape from Mercy...but wow. I knew that one of the main characters was going to die in Gears of War 3, I just know which main character it would be. I thought it was a shock that Dom died during the game...

Dom was one of my favorite characters and I know he was like a brother to Marcus. It saddening to see dDom die but then again he did give his life for Marcus and the others so I guess its not so bad. I honestly knew that Dom would be the one to go, after the cutscene where he takes off his COG tags and puts them on the statue of where his family is barried...

I can campare this to one of my favorite Bible verses, John 15;13
"Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends."

Although I never have experienced war I have experienced the lose of others, people who were close to me. My Grandfather who was
the closest thing I had to a Dad and my good friend Trey. Although they are gone I know that one day I will meet them, in Eternity.

I know its kind of weird to make a video game and compare it with real life circumstances lol but Gears of War 3 has meaning to it, meaning that I can relate to, suffering, lose and victory. Gears of War was a game series me and Trey both loved to play so I guess its fitting that I take into account Gears of War 3 so much...Rest in Piece Trey

Well I got the news on Facebook at 4:18 p.m. today from my Mom on the Facebook instant messenger...my friend Trey Starks has passed away, apparently he drowned in a pond in Florida. I do not know the circumstances surrounding what happened, all I know is that he is gone...I'm at a lost for words honestly...

In truth, the sad irony is I thought something like this would happen...why you may ask? Trey had struggling alcohol and drug addiction problems but I was hoping he would clean up his act and be able to move on with his life...I always that that here in Rochester, New York was the best place for him to stay with the love ans support of the Church I went to. As a matter of fact Trey's Grandfather was the Pastor at the church.

We have been friends ever since I started going to my Church their and it was around this time back in 2008 that I officially became a furry, my Dragon fursona Azoran being my first fursona. Trey himself wasn't a furry but he knew about them and my involvment in the Fandom and would make fun jokes about it, nothing mean of course, just playful teasing if you will.
I remember when he used to come over to the apartment I was staying at while I was going to High School and we would play video games together on Xbox like Halo or Gears of War. Sometimes I would go over to his Grandfathers house (who he lived with while staying in Rochester) and we would play on his Xbox...

I have to say I'm deeply saddened at his passing but take comfort in knowing he is in a better place. Rest in Peace my friend, you may be gone but you will never be forgotten.

Out of all the Bands out their, I would NEVER even think that of all else, Judas Priest would make a song such as this: Lost Love.
I'm not saying its a bad song, on the contrary its an amazing song. The thing is, Judas Priest is a Heavy Metal Band XD I wouldn't think that they would make such an emotional song such as this.
The song itself comes from one of their last Albums, Nostradamus. The theme of the Album as one would expect is about Nostradamus and his life, the song "Lost Love" is about Nostradamus losing his wife.
But I got to tell you this is one of those songs that literally makes me break down in tears listening to, it often makes me think of all those that have lost their mate or someone really close to them. Although I personally have never experienced something like that I did lose my Grandfather when I was young, the year was 2005 when I was around 12 years old. I reallly wasn't that emotional when my Grandfather past away which is really surprising considering I was young when it happened and he was the closest thing I had to a Father growing up. Nowadays I get pretty sad thinking about him but perhaps one day we will be reunited once more. "Lost Love" is a sad song, but it is optomistic, speaking how one day loved ones shall be together again in the next life.
Now without further ado, here is the song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_s6.....e_gdata_player

Yep I beat both games on my Xbox on Doom 3 BFG Edition which has Doom, Doom II, Doom 3, Doom 3 Resurrection of Evil and Doom 3 The Lost Mission. I have to say Doom 3 was a walk in the park compared to Doom II x.=.x I beat both games and the bonus expansion for Doom II, No Rest for the Living. All in they are pretty good games, although I obviously prefer Doom 3...I just wish they had Co-Op for the Campaign on the Xbox 360 version like they did with the Xbox version...oh well lol. Its official that Doom IV will be released and rumor has it that its a remake of Doom II...guess we'll just have to see won't we? I think its a remake of Doom II because Doom 3 itself was sort of the remake of the original Doom game but we'll just have to wait for now.