Hey, want to just give a reminder that I am open for commissions! For those interesting, you can click the fun links below to check my ToS and Forms.


Commission ToS can be found here!
Commission FORM can be found here!

If you wish to get in contact with me to talk about a commission idea or just general commission info, then feel free to note me, message me over telegram, and/or discord!
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This year has been an interesting journey in making art. I am rather happy that I have been more active than I have in a very long time. I have felt like I have had some rather good experiences with the clients who have chosen to take a chance on me to create work for them! I deeply appreciate the opportunity they have given me since it has helped boost my confidence as an artist, but also allowed me to make art that I may not have drawn, and I enjoyed doing so!

I hope I left a good overall impression on them and that, over time, many more new and returning faces will take a chance to commission me when they find they are able to!

Hey, I spaced out and forgot to send out a journal for an update I have done to my commission form and price sheet! I am offering refine sketches for those that just prefer to have some line art or a monochromatic picture with some basic shading.

I have also updated my ToS to reflect some of the changes made with updating my price sheet with a new option. I do go into explaining a bit of a break down of flexible pricing and cost difference for things such as; Full body, Half Body, and Bust/Headshots~

As of now I am always open to taking on commissions to those that wish to have some art made by my hand!

Hey everyone, wishing yall a good new year and also bringing some small news!

So I been trying to be more social and active in ways... failing at it, but like in an attempt to be more active I have decided to open up a Telegram group!

It is just gonna be another way to be able to talk with folks that want to join and post art easily while also haven a faster way to post some WIPs of non-private work!~ Also will act as a hub for folks to help easily get in contact with me for commissions and information and updates in regards to that.

Anyway, click here if you may be interested!~ https://t.me/+PsNvz55weJE0MmIz

will also be updating my Linktree and FA profile with a link to it!~

So for my recent picture set, I created a YCH for the pose, I just finished updating it to include all genders while fixing up a bit of the base details! If you're interested please click here to go to the submission link on FA https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58255212/ or click here to go to the google form directly for the YCH https://forms.gle/KCyArfrR6KH6TwuR9 !

I am also open for commissions! If interested click here for my commission form! https://forms.gle/oNtQeEekwDZePLLW7

I am pretty excited that I finished my first commission. In a sense, it is my 2nd since I did one year ago before art had to stop for a while for me. But that is the best, I am rather excited that I got the artwork finished and I am happy with how it turned out. I hope to attract more folks to consider me for making some art for them!

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If you are interested in a commission, then please click here https://linktr.ee/shadom to my link tree. It has a commission form link! Or you can contact me via Notes on FA, discord (shadom), or telegram (@Shad0m) if you want to inquire about a quote for a commission idea you have! Just be sure to tell me where you got my contact information from if you contact me via Discord or Telegram! That said the commission for me to keep track of any commissions!

I currently have 3 slots open for comms, slots will be freed up after the completion of a commissioners commission!

My linktree! will have links to my commission form along with other ways to find me via Twitter and Bluesky! There is also a link to my Ko-Fi page for those who wish to show support in a different way!~

I plan to keep my commissions open as long as I am free, so I hope to work with many people in the future and do great awesome artwork!

So I have taken the time to adjust my prices a bit.

If you are interested in a commission, then please click here https://linktr.ee/shadom to my link tree. It has a commission form link! Or you can contact me via Notes on FA, discord (shadom), or telegram (@Shad0m) if you want to inquire about a quote for a commission idea you have! Just be sure to tell me where you got my contact information from if you contact me via Discord or Telegram! That said the commission for me to keep track of any commissions!

I currently have 3 slots open for comms, slots will be freed up after the completion of a commissioners commission!

My linktree! will have links to my commission form along with other ways to find me via Twitter and Bluesky! There is also a link to my Ko-Fi page for those who wish to show support in a different way!~

I plan to keep my commissions open as long as I am free, so I hope to work with many people in the future and do great awesome artwork!

Due to what happened with FA, I giving this journal a repost!

Something else to note is I updated my profile on FA for the changes! Wolf profile got a new look~
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Hey, so sending out my first major announcement of the year that I am opening for commissions for the first time.

This is something that I always wanted to do, but life hasn’t been the easiest for the past couple of years. But I want to change that around for the better and I think the best way to do that is to start doing the thing I wanted to do for a long time.

I currently have 3 slots open for comms, slots will be freed up after the completion of a commissioners commission!

My linktree! will have links to my commission form along with other ways to find me via Twitter and Bluesky! There is also a link to my Ko-Fi page for those who wish to show support in a different way!~

I plan to keep my commissions open as long as I am free, so I hope to work with many people in the future and do great awesome artwork!

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Due to the situation with FA, I have also working on putting my artwork on a few different websites. If you like what I create then please give me a follow on them! The websites can be found on my Linktree.

I am also considering making a Telegram group for posting artwork as well! If anyone is interested in that, then consider letting me know! I will probably still make one, but maybe after I get more art made so that way there is more to see from me!

Hey, so sending out my first major announcement of the year that I am opening for commissions for the first time.

This is something that I always wanted to do, but life hasn’t been the easiest for the past couple of years. But I want to change that around for the better and I think the best way to do that is to start doing the thing I wanted to do for a long time.

I currently have 3 slots open for comms, slots will be freed up after the completion of a commissioners commission!

My linktree! will have links to my commission form along with other ways to find me via Twitter and Bluesky! There is also a link to my Ko-Fi page for those who wish to show support in a different way!~

I plan to keep my commissions open as long as I am free, so I hope to work with many people in the coming future and to great awesome artwork!

The  TheJoyfulDragon has started a FREE ART RAFFLE!! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55376228/

Hey, it has been a while since I last posted something without any information on what has been going on with my friends overall and people in general. So, 2023 was a terrible and wild year… The last 6 years have been very wild and not in a good way. From taking care of my mom and her eventual passing to…. Current events. So, while a few people know this, my father has been fighting cancer for a good chunk of 2023… we thought he was doing well for a while since it was benign for a long time, and what we were told.

But that stopped being the case in September. And it saddens me to say, that my father lost the fight against his cancer after it went through Richter’s transformation and turned into an aggressive cancer called Diffuse Large B-cell lymphoma. My father solemnly passed away on Thanksgiving night. As of now, I have become parentless and I just… feel so lost. I was never truly got great terms with my father; we were almost always at odds with each other on EVERYTHING. But I didn’t want him to pass because of cancer…

Since then I have been just trying to get a lot of stuff in order in my home and figuring out what to do with my life for a long time. So many turns have happened that it has made just trying to do a lot of things difficult for me. It has been hard dealing with my depression and trying to connect with people. I have made a lot of mistakes with my overall actions on how I have spoken with people in the last year. Mainly just unreasonable actions towards old friends, new friends, and even their mutuals. I know things are my fault and I am responsible for any action I take and that there is no excuse for them. Dealing with anxiety, depression, and insecurities.

For that… I do apologize to any person who has dealt with me and got some serious unjustified words or actions. Being catty and just an asshole for no reason is not how you treat people. I know I do not like it when someone acts that way with me…. You would think I would know better than to do it to others if I didn’t want to be treated that way. But shit choices were made, and this is where we are. I cannot truly take back words or actions once they are made, sorry doesn’t always help… I just must do better. Actions speak louder than words after all.

As of now, I am trying to just try and move forward with my life in 2024 and get things figured out the best I can. I hope I can rekindle some friendships I have lost or let down and move passed my BS and emotional baggage to have healthier relationships going forward.

So making this journal for what is going on, but it is a post I had done at discord in referring to a post on facebook. It will be in quotes.

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"So it is kind of that time again to use my discord to inform the people in here of what is happening in my life and... well what is primarily really going poorly.

I am simply going to post my facebook blurp before I actually write something new.


'So we just got the news of my father's biopsy to see what is going on with his cancer... and in light of his recovery and things starting to look better, the cancer has overall ranged. It has changed from Follicular Lymphoma to Diffuse Large B Cell Lymphoma. This is a Richter's Transformation from his previous cancer to this one.

The plan that we have is ultimately the same... get my father healthier, have him go to rehab proper PT, and get his body stronger to handle treatment to help manage his cancer. But as we got informed today this is a much more severe case and the treatment does need to be more aggressive to manage it.

But there is a lot going on, sadly this situation is us having to take it 1 step at a time.'


So with this stated now... my father has been in the hospital for 4 weeks. He was admitted originally for a stomach problem, but it has turned into situation where his Cancer has become very active and is now more aggressive and different from before. Fact is... I am not sure what to say or do about this now. I am trying to be optimistic about the situation... but there is nothing to be optimistic about. If things go according to plan and my father is able to recover, then he has 5-10 years possibly to live. But if his body is unable to recover... it could be possibly as little as 6 months to 1-2 years.

I just do not really know... I do not know if there is really good alternative treatments for him, I do not know if like that Rick Simpson oil stuff will happen, I do not know if anything can really help him in this situation.

There is a fine line in staying positive and being stupid when trying to be optimistic... I am not sure what side of the line I am on now."

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As of now... it is hard to do art, I just started, and well... I do not want to stop. I do have another picture to post and such and I need to just practice and get back into the flow. Everything that has been going on has just made things hard. I have not lost my dad or anything yet and there is still a fight that we are at the start of... I need to do the things that make me happy in light of the problems.

A lot has happened to say the least... my mother on Feb 16, 2022 has passed away do to ALS. And ... even worse shortly after my mother pass, my little kitten Wally passed away on Feb 22nd 2022. My kitten was 10 months old and was going to turn 1 in April...

So say the least this year feels terrible and I am just... want this year to pass... I have had to make to many choices that no one should have to make in life... but had no choice to because of the responsibilities I took on as a Caregiver for my mother.

I know it is best to look forward, I now have a lot more time, I get to have a life and live... but it was sadly at the cost of losing so much I love.

As of now I am doing well for what it is worth, trying to not be depressed or get stuck in a terrible spot. But I know it takes time to get over any lose... I just wish at this point that I had my kitten still and that I had more energy to be motivated to do something or go back to doing art or just something.

But time heals all... just have to wait and live.

For those whom have spoken with me and know me... they are aware that I am caregiver for my mother who has ALS. As of 2/9/2022, my mom has stopped receiving her tube feeding like before. From what I have been told she will likely pass by next week.

This is a big... change in my life. I have been taking care of my mom since like ... 2017 due to her condition turning into something from what we originally thought was recoverable to being ALS... she was originally diagnosed at the end of 2018.

This is a lot for me to take in... considering from 2017 to now 2022... that is been like 4 years maybe 5 when I consider when I started to take care of her or at least very close to 5.

Many may not understand how like 5 years is to give up a lot in ones life for another and many will understand... not just in a care giving sense but parenthood too for many. I have learned a lot from this express about myself... my faults, weaknesses, and strengths.

As for the future... I do not know, I am still trying to come to terms with the shock of all this and how things will change. That said... I hope to at some point this year get back into art and attempt to do something with my life to honor my mother and her care she gave to me.

I know one of the things I have wanted to do was to learn to use Unity and make a game... and I have a vision for a board game I have made to try and make it into a digital product and well... maybe if I can achieve that I can make a life for myself and live a life long dream I have had in some way in getting into game making. I am simply trying to think of new possibilities for me in order to attempt to achieve when I have put off so much in my life.

I quit my possiblity in progress of my art career due to the pains in care giving and the struggle to balance work and life... I will have that time again to attempt it and other things... but that is still a lot to take in with no certainty.

As of now... I am just hoping to just get through this time.

Turning 30 is a big time in many peoples lives. It for many can signify living halfway through your life... well for many it does when so only reach the age of 60.

I hope that this year can turn out to be better than prior years.

It is that time of year where I have to acknowledge me being older. Turning 29... closer to the big 30!

It... was something no one in my family was expecting. He was doing rather well and was looking very good.. and suddenly last night he just wasn't feeling good at all... and around 2:40 AM he died in our home.

He name is Rocko and he is a Shar Pei Chow Chow mix... he was such a sweet boy...

This year is fucking terrible, we have lost 3 animals now. My sisters cat RJ, a stray cat we have taken in named Freeman, and now our Dog that we have only had for like 5/6 years.

2020 needs to do the world a favor and jump off of a cliff.

So I am going to release my contact info for Discord and Telegram. I normally add or allow others to add me after talking to them through notes. But I think I will just release the info for awhile and see what happens.

Discord: Shadom#2178

Telegram: shad0m

Feel free to add and what nah. I am not sure how long I will keep this open for, maybe for a few months or something or just permanent.

I am also open to talking to people that I may not have spoken to in a good couple years and wish to attempt to reforge or rekindle a thing.

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On another note, life in quarantine has been... well no different a lot of regular days since I have been taking care of my mother.

She recently went through a small surgery to get something called a Feeding Tube put in via a tube peg. This involve them like piercing her stomach to allow the tube to enter. It was a rough night since I stayed over night with her at the Hospital, but over all she is doing well and still living through ALS. The tube has caused some discomfort for her, but we are working through it and she is feeling better every day so far!

She is still able to eat, so the tube is not mandatory use, but it is just something more to work with on hard days. Something to make sure she stays feeling alright!

It is my birthday and I turned 28.

I oddly have been feeling the old age slowly leak its way into my life since so much stuff has happened these last few years. A lot of stress with taking care of my mother, but... I am rather happy that I get to spend at least one more birthday with her, not knowing how many more I will get to spend with her. Lots of back pain... but nothing time wont fix.

But yeah, thank you everyone who have reached out to me in this time of need. It is really appreciate and helps keep life a bit more on the bright side when facing down the disease which has taken so much joy away from my mother and her family. ALS is a bitch... and a cruel one at that. But it is on these special occasions to be thankful for life itself and be with loved ones.

So I am going to give a quick run down of what has been going on and why I have not been posting artwork. But before I start, I would like to say thank you to the people who have been encouraging me to do artwork and those who support my art through consistent viewing and favorites and so on and so forth. It really does mean a lot to those of us who do not have a massive following or draw consistently... but still have some few folks who do appreciate what I and others create.

And now down to the nitty gritty. The reason for why I haven't been posting art as often or frankly really making art is because... I am my mom's caretaker. She was diagnosed with ALS in late summer/early fall of 2018. A lot of if not all my time has been dedicated to her and her wellness now. Because of this... it is hard to properly make time to sit down and do art. I do not have a very healthy work ethic since I never got into the flow of just making a few sketches or getting into a good mindset to do artwork on the daily... and it is my own fault. But now with this going on... it is even harder to do so. I still do love to draw... but I just can not get inspired like I did before... and my body is so tired and drained all the time that it is hard to just will myself to do much when it comes down to creating things. A lot of ideal projects I loved doing as a hobby has stopped almost indefinitely till... time has passed and I regain my freedom to do so as I please. On top of that, the other issue is my work ethic is easily disturbed. I HATE to sound like some primadonna, but I tend to work take time to get into an art mind set than I draw for a few hours... I inherently work rather fast when I get into that mindset, but every time I get up or have to do something... it breaks it bit by bit and based on what I have to do sadly throws off my mood and vibe... which stops me from doing art. It is not the right kind of work ethic at all when wanting to create artwork... but it is sadly mine and it sucks. It also does not help that the small distractions in my work space when doing art seriously dapper my mind set... I used to handle it better, but now I almost try to make any excuse to communicate with others over committing to my craft or playing a game since... I might be called on at any moment and point in time to help my mom or something else.

Uhhh back to my mom... So since I am the main care taker, I tend to be the one to get her up in the morning and take her to bed, feed her, change her, give her medication... so on and so forth. My family does help me in this task, mostly my sister now and my dad to a degree... but it is mostly me carrying the brunt of the task. This sadly over time has left me with developing some... rather upsetting PTSD when it comes down to hearing noises... in thinking it is my mom wailing out for help or something else that may be going on... which does to a degree cause small panic attacks that last as quickly as they come... but it is something that happens rather frequently. With all this comes to the fact that I no longer really get out of the house now and I have been developing depression for a long while... but it has gotten worse because of all that is going on. The other thing that makes it worse is my family is not eligible to have it so I am my moms paid caregiver through Arizona... which means the only job I could have is not possible to get. I am not able to work and make money at this time like a normal person would because of the position I am in... which really sucks and makes things worse for my future because anything I spend money on... is always a big hit to my funds... aka I am dirt poor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Most of my time now I am either taking care of my mom, trying to talk to people online to help anchor me down, or even playing some video games in spare time between helping my mom. ... I know that I over all am looking to find an alternative method to do digital art. My big thing I want to get some day is an iPad pro to work on procreate... that way I can get away from my PC and distractions and just have a tablet to work on for art and only art (I am not a big fan of Apple products... no shade, just disagree with a lot of their methods of business and how they do stuff). I feel I need a disconnection from it all... but at the same time I am really tethered to everything that is PC and internet now because of it being my primary source of communication with friends.

Anyway... there we a lot of things I was hoping to do once I could get back into art, like make a patreon when I can get into a better work flow and possibly grow more as an artist... though as of now that is just a dream that is up in the stars. A part of me is considering starting a Ko-Fi to help just get a little bit of money to support small purchases for myself or possible things to go towards my moms medical needs. But I am not sure since I have never made something like that and I am not sure how it really works... nor if anyone would be willing to amuse it.

But yeah... that is what has been going on in life... I am sorry to anyone who may have been look forward to seeing my art... I do feel like I am letting someone down to a degree. But I hope that hopefully in the near future, I will be able to create again and maybe find a balance between me taking care of my mom and working on art... till than I am just afloat and hoping not to drown... in all that is going on.

Just turned 27. I feel the age setting in bit by bit!

Well another year has passed for me, a sign that I have truly grown older this day. 26 now!

turned 25, yay :V!

As the title says, I have jumped on the wagon and got my own, if anyone is interested, they may check it out by click this link.
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https://beta.furrynetwork.com/shadom/
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I do not plan to wipe my FA account, I just felt like maken a Furry Network account.

It is another one of those days, one of those days that say, "HEY, YOU ARE GETTING OLDER!"

I made a tumblr to show off my artwork that would other wise not ever be posted on FA, I am rather new at this stuff so forgive how bare bones it is, enjoy!

http://thevoidfilledwithstuff.tumblr.com/