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Posted 9 years agoWelp, as my dad always said, this is what happens when you play with your food, you end up with me >w>
Just sending out a hello to the incoming influx of fox, rabbit and maybe even new fox/rabbit hybrid fursonas soon to be thanks to the amazingly good movie. :3
Just sending out a hello to the incoming influx of fox, rabbit and maybe even new fox/rabbit hybrid fursonas soon to be thanks to the amazingly good movie. :3
So..
Posted 11 years agohow has everybody been, am curious to know what you've all been up to? :3
Merry christmas
Posted 12 years agoHope everyone has a happy holiday! :3
Booting up
Posted 12 years agoTaking longer to get this back up than I imagined ^^;
Re-activating this account
Posted 12 years agoyep :I
some things to say
Posted 12 years agoFirst off, I just want to tell everyone that I am sorry for what I did, running away like that wasn't fare on anyone, especially myself, but it was for the better, I was having a hard time and was broken on the inside, yet I kept that mask on me, and grabbed for any happiness that I could find, trying so hard to hold onto it for dear life.. but yes.. apologies must be made, to anyone still watching this account.
some back story on the whole thing to fill people in.. There are only a few select people that I have ever told these things to, but I feel I need to get them off of my chest to live a happy new life, because without saying them, they will only continue to haunt me and make me miserable.
The main two reasons that I left Sam, my fursona, everything about him/her.. is because of emotional baggage and because of drama, both about myself, some towards others, but the drama to others doesn't matter right now, I need to say this about myself. I was born with a rare syndrome that only happens in about 1 out of 1000 male children born, but it's called kleinfelter syndrome. Basically, I was born with an extra x chromosome, making me have an xxy chromosome, and as a result of this, many things have happened, I had trouble with reading, writing and speaking from an early age, I have a slight case of autism, or down syndrome, and since puberty, I have what people call, bigendered. I have two genders in my body, one male, and one female. Because of this bigendered, I have been switching back and forth between the two for years, though I'm not the only one that has it, and it is rare, it's called MGI, multiple gender identities, it's like multiple personality disorder except I don't change who I am, just which gender I am, and I never know when the changes will happen, hours, weeks, days in-between the switch, sometimes even months, so I would go months feeling as though I was in the wrong body, that I was transgendered, only to switch back to being male and feeling content with myself.
That was starting to cause too much emotional baggage and strain on myself, I would wake up hating myself only to change and be happy, and to change again despising my body, and who I was, I got art of both male and female Sam, changed my species multiple times before I even joined fa as well.. and after 11 years of this, I finally broke down and couldn't take it anymore, I even had thoughts about suicide, but my friends helped me through it, but shortly after that, well, you know what happened from the last journal I posted..
if you read this far then I thank you for reading about me.. and why I just had to leave, and start fresh, as much as I will Miss Sam with all my heart, there is just too much past and trouble for me to ever come back as Sam.. but I have been better, I am happy now, I just can't return or let the past get me now, thank you everyone for all the wonderful and maybe not so wonderful, years of Sam's life, (s)he will always be in my memories, and you have my thanks.
~James
some back story on the whole thing to fill people in.. There are only a few select people that I have ever told these things to, but I feel I need to get them off of my chest to live a happy new life, because without saying them, they will only continue to haunt me and make me miserable.
The main two reasons that I left Sam, my fursona, everything about him/her.. is because of emotional baggage and because of drama, both about myself, some towards others, but the drama to others doesn't matter right now, I need to say this about myself. I was born with a rare syndrome that only happens in about 1 out of 1000 male children born, but it's called kleinfelter syndrome. Basically, I was born with an extra x chromosome, making me have an xxy chromosome, and as a result of this, many things have happened, I had trouble with reading, writing and speaking from an early age, I have a slight case of autism, or down syndrome, and since puberty, I have what people call, bigendered. I have two genders in my body, one male, and one female. Because of this bigendered, I have been switching back and forth between the two for years, though I'm not the only one that has it, and it is rare, it's called MGI, multiple gender identities, it's like multiple personality disorder except I don't change who I am, just which gender I am, and I never know when the changes will happen, hours, weeks, days in-between the switch, sometimes even months, so I would go months feeling as though I was in the wrong body, that I was transgendered, only to switch back to being male and feeling content with myself.
That was starting to cause too much emotional baggage and strain on myself, I would wake up hating myself only to change and be happy, and to change again despising my body, and who I was, I got art of both male and female Sam, changed my species multiple times before I even joined fa as well.. and after 11 years of this, I finally broke down and couldn't take it anymore, I even had thoughts about suicide, but my friends helped me through it, but shortly after that, well, you know what happened from the last journal I posted..
if you read this far then I thank you for reading about me.. and why I just had to leave, and start fresh, as much as I will Miss Sam with all my heart, there is just too much past and trouble for me to ever come back as Sam.. but I have been better, I am happy now, I just can't return or let the past get me now, thank you everyone for all the wonderful and maybe not so wonderful, years of Sam's life, (s)he will always be in my memories, and you have my thanks.
~James
goodbyes...
Posted 12 years agoare sometimes the hardest thing to ever do in your life.. even more so to those you love but know it's time to say good bye.. with my now ex mate broken up with me.. I think it's time to say goodbye.. but sometimes, they aren't forever, I may be back one day.. but for now.. Sam, this account, everything.. is being shut down, I'm only focusing on who I am, what I want, and who I want to be.. I want to thank everyone on here who has helped me and became my friend.. It's kinda hard when who you are and your entire life changes.. emails, facebook, video games, psn and xbl, everything under the name sam toxx is dead.. I'm starting new.. I came into fa as Sam, and am leaving James.. and with that, I bid you all adieu.
~James <3
~James <3
