I need to start posting more music again x3 been really busy lately xD

I think I’m growing up :3

So I’ve just been suddenly hit in the face with so many different things at once, I think I’ve finally come to another sudden realization that some people in this world are just doing what they can to hurt me. From not letting me hang out with certain people, to telling me false info and lies about others just to get me to stop talking to them the list goes on. Though now, I finally realized that, “Huh, if these people were so bad then why are they still talking to them on amazing friendship status terms?” Just now did it smack me in the face that, “Huh, I’m sure the people that I put a lot of my trust into were and still are completely full of shit. Just indefinitely full of shit.” So now I’m on bad terms with some of these people because of believe what my ‘friends’ who I’ve known forever told me about them. Though I believed them because I thought they were just trying to help me out. Though I can’t be mad at them, they probably had some form of motive to try and ruin my relationships with these people they were just upset.

I used to be worried about what people say about the things I’m into or about what I do. Though now I realize that the fact that I’m into macro and paw art isn’t nearly as bad as some other things and if you don’t want to be friends with me because of that one trait or make it your goal in life to completely ignore everything about me then sure deal that’s on you.

There are also people who are upset with me over videogames. DUDE IT’S A VIDEOGAME :C how could you possibly be on exile terms with someone over a stupid game? Did I accidently strike your ego SO HARD that it’s the end of our friendship? Did someone on my friends list beat you or say something to you to be like “Eh! I cant hang out with you anymore you hang out with x person BLOCK DELETE” Jesus... I finally realize that I don’t, should not, and will not have time for these people.
At FWA I met and talked with a lot of the friends I’ve made from online in the furry community and some I even talked so that was amazing, There was some personal stuff that arose during the con but I did my best to stay happy and chipper though someone who I’ve known brought me almost to tears when they said it was a “Disappointment meeting me” because I didn’t spend enough time with him at the con. Also because I was drunk all the time or close to it. My bad dude, sorry that I spent pretty much all of Saturday afternoon, and went to lunch with you at the mall that day. I am sorry that I made time to do this with you, completely sober, just for you. I guess that wasn’t enough.

The part where I’m growing up is realizing that I need to make my own decisions, not ones based off of what other people tell me, if someone’s horrible I need to forget people who get mad at me over pointless things. I need to not apologize for how things go at a con if I did nothing wrong, especially my first one ever. I need to stop being worried about people that don’t agree with what I’m into or being a ‘typical furry’ if that also includes me being in school for nursing and trying to help and hang out with people then yes I’m a ‘typical furry’. Lol I’m not even mad at the people I was told to be mad at anymore, I’m just upset that I ever listened to what my ‘friends’ had to say about them. I’m so pissed at myself for being stupid enough to listen to them. Those shady bitches.

So yes, I think I’m growing up, learning some of the warning signs of what I should or shouldn’t be worried about. And being able to defend myself against people trying to make me feel horrible for illegitimate reason.

I am glad I have met everyone I’ve even run into still. Even the people who may still dislike or even hate me because of things that have happened between us in the past. To those people, I’m sorry I have wronged you in one way or another but from this point forward I’m going to take better responsibility for my actions and interactions with others.

Comments below are always welcome.

Ok so I sat down for a good 20 minutes today and decided that I want to make more music. I think things will start sounding a little more dance-ish but let me know what you guys think :3

So I have some magic cards I want to sell, but now I just need people that want to buy it :D

Cards for sale:
Items already purchased will be in red :D


Angelic Overseer x2
Curse of Echoes x1
Snapcaster Mage x1
Geist of saint Traft x1
Falkenrath Aristocratx1
Garruk Reletless/Garruk the Veil Cursed- x1
Liliana of the Veil x1
Stromkirk Noble x3
Curse of Stalked Prey x3
Blasphemous Act x2
Kessig Cagebreakers x4
Moldgraf Monstrosity x3
Bloodgift Demon x1
Elite Inquisitor x1
Mirror Mad Phantasm x1
Geralf’s Messenger x1
Drogskol Reaver x2
Geralf’s Mindcrusher x1
Dungeon Geists x1
Fiend of the Shadows x1
Angel of Flight Alabaster x1
Requiem Angel x1
Dearly Departed x1
Laboratory Maniac x2
Falkenrath Marauders x2
Instigator Gang x1
Splinterfright x5
Daybreak Ranger x1
Elder of Laurels x1
Skinshifter x2
Arachnus Spinner x2
Grimgrin, Corpse-Born x3
Evil Twin x1
Creepy Doll x1
Rooftop Storm x2
Endless Ranks of the Dead x3
Heatless Summoning x2
Curse of Death’s Hold x2
Call of the Kindred x1
Curse of Misfortunes x1
Stony Silence x1
Heretic’s Punishment x3
Gutter Grime x2
Creeping Renaissance x1
Monomania x 1
Alpha Brawl x3
Sever the Bloodline x2
Cackling Counterpart x1
Nephalia Drownyard x1
Moorland Haunt x1
Witchbane Orb x3

Ok so I want to make more music, but I need to start getting better equipment.
Here are a list of the things that I am working towards in order to reach my goal.

New Computer for better compositions: 800-1000$

Better equipment/ microphone stuff:
Blue Yeti Microphone 150$

Midi Pad Control 200$

Reason 6 400$

Total= 1,750.00 USD
Donations Earned: 10.00 USD


I am uploading an album to bandcamp under:
aigeyv.bandcamp.com

for .50$ or name your price on some of the songs. as a means of donations towards making money for these things I need.

Also, if you just want to donate directly to my pay-pal, I'd be more than happy to just give you some of the songs without having to go through bandcamp. I don't want you to have to feel like you need to give me money, but I wont lie, it would help alot.


I will continue to post music here, and on other places such as:

Soundcloud.com/aigey

aigeyv.bandcamp.com

Anyways, thanks for your support regardless of how much money you give me, listening is all I really want to happen. Better equipment would just be a bonus. :3

Ok so I want to make more music, but I need to start getting better equipment.
Here are a list of the things that I am working towards in order to reach my goal.

New Computer for better compositions: 800-1000$

Better equipment/ microphone stuff:
Blue Yeti Microphone 150$

I think I'm going to continue my progression with music, I've switched my style up alot. From pop to hip hop, Drums and Bass to Dubstep, Electronica to pointless rambling over a microphone... I guess I am happy that no matter what is said, I'v learned a little something from every genre that I've tried to let my mind grasp. Maybe one day I'll be some guy that you see on the tv making songs. or maybe I'll do a part of the sound track for your favorite game. Who knows. I just want people to enjoy something I create and just have a bunch of people to enjoy something with.


Lol just something that I can do to bring people together and break antisocial barriers that we usually tend to not be abele to break on our own.

HOLY SHIT LIST OF THINGS I"M TOO LAZY TO WORK ON RIGHT NOW

1. School work- Cuz I wanna just play videogames till my brain explodes.
2. Cooking - I really want sausage biscuit for breakfast but I'm just not in the mood to get out of bed.
3. Dancing - or maybe I'm just too sick to do so :C LE SIGH
4. Exercise - Or maybe I'm just too sick to do this too.

Fuck Bronchitis. it kinda sucks and drains you from wanting to do anything thats pretty much important... I'm to lazy to eat fucking breakfast.

Every person that I've ever wanted to be with in life has fucked me over.
Why are people so incredibly selfish that they don't understand how their actions affect others? I guess the world wins. I've got more important things to focus on than finding a good mate to love me because apparently, No one is sincere when they say those words. So I guess i resort to these things that scream attention whore because all I want are fiends and a mate. Kinda like Chips and a drink only they cost a lot more in time and are supposed to last a lot longer than a few hours.

My Grades are slipping as I am just working more on playing videogames that help me get no where in life. I constantly scold the world for having people working on and talking about video games where I know I could do a better job (For example, IGN strategies telling people how to play the game in a way that limits diversity and playability)

I'm still living at home, not really allowed to hang out with people unless my parents know them because they don't want me to get harmed in some way. But that's probably a good things because someone bad happens that only one person knows about and I refuse to tell anyone else.

I'm anxious and stressed all the time. and I have just not been in the mood to do much of anything... I try to sleep but I just end up staying awake.

Oh well, its good I know a lot of great people here that help to keep me sane for as long as I can. I'm just breaking down again and I don't know how to fix myself back up.

Vote NOW! GO GO GO

Which Label name should I use for the label I want to make?


Dancing Puppy Records
Dancico Records
Delicious Soda Records
Dis Niga be trppin Music Label
Fax Machine Sex Records
WATUTANK Records
QQscrub Music Label


Etc etc D:

I unno guyz, what do you think

Since I don't feel like posting a song at 3 am here, I'll just tease you guys with the lyrics :3

If the world is black and white,
Why is it that we never fight,
If i stay here, will you stay with me?

[Chorus]
If the world is your canvas, make me your pen
so we can travel the world, just together
we would make it known
that were together
and we could make it know
that we're forever

I
You
Cant
Watch
Watch
Your friends
This
Leave you

[Chorus]

If my name was on your tablet
would you think of me
or would you be reminded
of what we used to see

All i can remember
is that i love you
and all i can remember
is that you love me too.

[Chorus]

move your body
Move your, move your body
dance with your,
move your body
You move so nicely
Body, you move so nicely.

Everyone makes mistakes. but I seem to make mistakes with some of the best people a person could ask for. by going off on a community

 Sinqus Is someone I met after I posted a song on fa called listen to their tear. a very touching song that I made about emotions and thinking back to all the things that Have happened to you and just letting them go.

Sinqus has helped me when I felt lost and abandoned on several occasions and we've bonded amazingly well and connected. He's an amazing person and a great friend to whom ever he puts his trust in. and he put that trust in me, he told me that I'm someone he senses that he could trust and I opened up for him. Truly opened up for him and share parts of my life with him.

Then I threw a fit and wrote those things, and he read it and was terribly hurt. just like most of you whom also read it as well.

And he let me know that it upset him. other people let me know it upset them as well. and all i can say is that I cant remember the last time I felt this horrible.

So I though about it really hard... I truly stepped back and thought about what I said that day I was pissed and how I reacted to things.

All i can say, is that saying that I cant trust anyone here with anything of mine was a lie.
It was a angry, rage filled lie that I've already posted and cant take back.
I cant just go to the post and delete it because everyone I hurt will remember those words forever.

But When I sit down and think about it, I can go though my list and name people.

I mean, foxy aka Sparkx has always been there since i broke up with like my last 2 bfs I think.
BlackVolk, who has commented on just about every piece I have made
Ragey who has been my friend FOREVER. goodness
Hansomedadude who is a great individual and really kind hearted person
Shockwave who is amazingly understanding and fair with what he says.
Imiko who changed their name to soundlessinsanity who is an amzing person as well
Calibur who always referrs to me as big guy.
Wrathykins who is amazingly silly and loves to talk about things that are equally as bouncy.
Sinqus, I trust you with my life and I mean it. If there was ever something where I had to trust just one person with that. I know it would be you.

and everyone else I've met recently are just great people.

In reality, There are people i cant trust in the world, and everyone at FA isnt on that list. everyone I know here are the opposite, you guys are the people that I trust the most and let everything out with while in my home town of Kentucky, I don't share with any of them. I cant trust any of the friends I know here because I know they wouldn't be there for me. But you guys here are a different story...

So I'm sorry about the way I acted a few days back. but I can never erase that memory of how you guys felt to see that from me. and for that I only hope that you can understand my thinking... and how I make very stupid mistakes....

Everyone I've ever met has turned out to be a great person. I just know that most everyone I know is incredibly busy. I try to message people see how they are doing and just try to keep up with everyone I know because I don't feel like being alone is all that much fun. I never or ever believe I could be a loner.

So yesterday I was just mad that everything was going terribly and I discovered something that just made me incredibly angry and that is what I'm going to share here today.

For starters, There were 8 parties that all of my irl friends hosted/had over Christmas break. I wasn't invited to any of them. My friends also never invite me to go do things unless they just want to get a ride there and back really. I found out about the party after they had happened, from people asking me why i didn't show up. Well, I wasn't invited I would tell them or I didn't know about it. That was a major self-esteem drop. On top of that, another one of my friends I texted a few days ago, replied with 'who are you?' no number change, someone I've been texting for a long time and talking to in person. When they could have easily started a conversation with me this month, they just choose not to. Then, a group of different friends were at taco bell together having a get together. I was not invited but I was super close to these people because of all the stuff I've done for them. I was pleasantly gay bashed in public until I just left,

Then I get online and I just start going though names, looking at people and just being angry/upset with everything that's happened to me over this Christmas break from school. and I just said to myself for no reason that no one cares anymore.
So I got on fa and made that last journal about how I didn't trust anyone or how all I do is care about people and get nothing in return. Well, not all of that is true but I felt like it was the only truth because I am tired of being screwed over.

The second half of things that happen to me are family related.

My brother and I are very different. He's very counter productive, I'm very productive in various things. He lives at an apartment with friends, I live at home. He doesn't have a job, the state is paying my college in grants and scholarships from me doing well in high school.

So now that we have this down, my parents give 5,000 dollars to my brother to buy a car for his use, He was unhappy with it and eventually wrecked it until un-usable because he didn't listen to our parents when he decided to drive in the unstable car to Florida for spring break after that, parents have been paying his rent in his apartment for every month of last year while also buying his groceries.
He was also given a credit card which he maxed out and built up a 3,000 dollar charge on it.

so there is a good... 600x12 +140x12 + 5,000 -3,000 that my parents gave to him.
Some how, my parents believe that it is unfair that I should get money for doing the right thing and doing well, so the are going to give me a check when I get out of school, and also give him one for some money as well.

The thing that kills me the most is that my brother plays this all off as though I'm the favorite.

And after all this happened, and on top being sick since the beginning of this year, I'm just not a happy camper i guess.




Oh well, things work out like they always do.

I need friends that know how to say hi to me.

When is this goning happen?

Why is talking to someone you call a friend such a good damned chore?]

All I do is sit here and post my music on this site for people I give a fuck about and they cant even say hi to me in return.

I LOVE YOU TO FRIENDS :33333333.

I love you all so very much.

I seriously sat myself down today and though about anyone of you people that I could feel safe with and actually be a roommate with and I couldn't thinking of a SINGLE DAMNED PERSON.

thanks, goodnight.

So I've been posting more music lately?

I'm not done :v :3

I just thing that's a funny thing to say.

Tiddy...
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Tiddy buffer.

I have officially filled 30 seconds of your day with Derp. I am is accomplished.

If you are reading this and wondering why you aren't on my xbl friends list any more

Please Read Before You Rage.

To be a friend to someone:
You must donate time to spend with them and invite them to come do things with you on a healthy basis.

You should be truthful and straight forward with them with out having to worry about their feelings.

Ignoring people makes them question your friendship with them. If you ignore that person, they may question "Is this person just someone I know or a true friend?" Friends tell friends whats up, not leave them hanging so they'll never know.

Friends care enough to actually go out of their way to do things with you, Even if its something so much as chatting with out any real choice in what should be discussed.

Consider This:

If you have been removed and you somewhat care. I am sorry, we probably didn't play enough in the first place for me to consider you someone to have on my friends list. Don't add me unless you have intentions of actually playing with me and then complain if you get removed. It just doesn't make any sense to do that.

If you never talk to me, Why should I keep you on my friends list?
If you ignore me, Why should I keep you on my friends list?
If I end up in a party with you and you just come up with bullshit as to why you couldn't do so much as to tell me why you ignored me in a message, Why should I keep you on my friends list?

So once again, before you consider me an asshole, Do this:

Remember All the times I sent you invites to my parties and you ignored me.
Remember All the times you've removed me from your friends list and re added me claiming it was an accident.
Remember All the times you've joined a party of mine and just talked about irrelevance or talked about how you are just a bad ass hacker in the cyber world.
Remember All the times you've popped offline to avoid talking with me.
Remember All the times I've asked you to play and you decided that you weren't going to play with me and decided to play with someone else instead.
Remember All the in game things that I've given to you and you just didn't care.
Remember All the time I've donated for you to help you out in any and every way I could.
Remember All the "Does anyone want to play..." messages That I've sent to you with no response.


So remember those things and honestly think about where you stand. And try to understand that I've removed you for a majority if not all of the things listed above.

I also clearly understand that it is not your responsibility to keep up with all of your friends. But choosing to ignore the ones who try to hang out with you will result in things like this.






Discuss below.

Well, we all have our moments when we just walk around and feel like we're the biggest dick in the crowd. I'm not talking your actually cock size folks, I'm talking about how much of an asshole you really are. Today, I believe that if I were to have asshole today, my name would have been legally changed to Mr. Colon Anus. For starters I was sick and in the hospital 3 days ago, (enough said about that ask me in a pm and I'll explain everything there.) I was completely sick when i came home the day after and today I am feeling a bit better and I was just in a bad mood because of school. Anyway, I got on and was talking to a dragon today who asked me a question regarding my sexual orientation. Well I told him that I was gay and the next question was, "Why do you like Males?" And I said a pretty obvious answer as to why I did so I said, "Well, I like the penis." And then another question, "Is it all about the sex?" At this point I was like, (Ok, is this guy serious? of course its not all about the sex.) but I answered, "No its not all about the sex, I also like the personality of the male as well." And then another question, "Why not females?" and I answered "Because boobs and vaj turn me off."

Why does this make me an asshole? Because I was agitated for no reason to someone who didn't deserve it. Just because the last time we talked he asked very personal questions, and made a joke about a 23 year old friend I have saying that "Well, he does like em young" (referring to sex) I honestly believe that I was being trolled. Even though I have been trolled, stalked, and creeped on in the past, I don't have the right to just assume that someone is doing it to me again.the right way to have handled this situation was to have maintained a chill head instead of being so agitated to someone who considered me a friend. Just because of my extremely bad experiences from the past that led to terrible trust issues, I mess up and assume that people who want to cause no harm, i mistake them as a person who is trying to attack me. and yes I messed up on that again.

Another thing I happened with someone else i was talking to that i really just don't wanna talk about it... I'm just having a bad week... it will all get better...


some day...

Alrighty folks!

I've got alot that i need to work on in order for my master plan to work!

Wish me luck guys XD I'll give you guys a heads up on how things are going by December.

I AM NOT LEAVING FA.

I'm just letting you guys know that I've got a plan that i hope to execute soon ;3

That's all i want.

Just someone i can talk to forever about nothing and it make perfect sense.
Someone who I can help and talk to and feel the same is going to happen in return.
Someone who can put other things behind themselves so that we can be alone.
Someone who can say "I love you." And I can feel it with every nerve in my body.

All I do is provide and love.
All i do is care and share and include.
All i do is want you to be happy and satisfied and forever in my arms.

But that's just unattractive.
It's unrealistic

And it has yet to last

Always and forever like it's always and forever been promised to me.
And now, I don't know what to think. I don't know what to do or say and I'm just happy to know...

That I still have a life and I'm not gonna let this tear me to pieces because I deserve better.
I need someone who understands what my love is so they understand What I mean by

I Love you,
Always and forever,
With all of my heart.

[x] you meow/bark to get attention (or whine)
[x] you find pets toys amusing
[ ] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[ ] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food
[x] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you(quietly)
[x] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection(depends)
[x] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and brings it back(basketball)
Total: 5

[ ] you love to be scratched behind the ear
[x] you love fish/meat (meat only!)
[x] you like to stick your head out trough the window of a moving car(I like to hang out of a moving car )
[x] you like when people pet your head
[x] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper(I don't like such things happening though)
[x] you think feathers are fun to play with (Lul i'z gonna tickle yoo :3 )
Total: 5

[x] you sleep a lot during daytime (I basically stay awake all night and sleep all day)
[x] you enjoy scaring birds (who doesnt?)
[ ] you lick peoples faces to show you like them
[x] you bite people if they annoy you ( I have before)
[x] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours(Some times when i'm feeling fat ;3
[x] milk or water is your favorite drink (wata )
Total: 5

[ ] you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it
[ ] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it
[ ] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit
[x] you enjoy long walks in the park
[x] you meow/bark when you see something you want (O yip! i wants I say oh yip sometimes)
Total: 2

[x] you call your hands and feet "paws"(i've done it before)
[x] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about
[ ] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk
[x] you really enjoy cuddling
[x] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up
[x] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around
Total: 5

[x] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep (I love to sleep on the floor)
[x] you meow or bark very often
[x] you hide when you get scared
[x] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house
[ ] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[x] you tend to chew on stuff a lot
[x] you like to do tricks to get a treat(Free treats are rad)
Total: 6

[x] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it (collar tag)
[ ] you refer to your self as an animal
[ ] your username has something to do with animals
[ ] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better
[ ] you look for edible stuff often
Total: 1

[x] you often find yourself looking trough the window for a long time
[x] you like to say hi to strangers
[x] you like to be petted when you have done something good
[ ] people think you act like a pet
[ ] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like
[ ] you like to eat grass
[x] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water

Total: 4

Final total 33

X2 to get total

so 66% Furrah

So easily. it's just done.

Two people
Two paths

One outcome.

Why cant you defend what you believe instead of running like a child? Understand that no one is the same and understands what you believe until you can make your point apparent to those who don't get it.

I don't understand everything that is told to me, I'll formulate my own opinions and ask you about it. if you can't defend it, should I believe you?

I choose no side's on a situation that is between two others. Like a detective, I'm looking for the real story. Not everyone's opinion.

I understand that you're upset over everything that happens. And you feel like everyone is against you You're right. However! That doesn't mean that I'm on anyone
s side either.

I don't others the stories they tell me because I want to hear how everyone is taking the situation and I'll challenge your thoughts and beliefs on subject to make sure that you really believe what you do and that you've made the best choice.

And with that.

I leave you to your business.
Those involved know who you are.

Some times I wonder about what happens once you die.

"Was everything I worked so hard on to do a waste of time?"

"Why am i wasting time trying to figure out where i need to be when everything just stops in the end."

Sometimes I question this community and just seeing everything as anonymous and no one is really there, (Except for the select few whom i believe to be real :p )

I wish that people were serious when they say they are your friend.

Sometimes I wonder if I'll find that one person who i can just talk to forever and never get bored of that person or vise-versa.

I guess my goal is to get rid of the fake people in my life. I'll just get rid of all the anons and just have a name for the faces I see. Not just... "Random person 1 " but a name that i can actually call them.

 silvercloud Stolen from that person <---

1. Your Name: (can be IRL or nickname)
2. Age: (you can round this number up if you want)
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean: (I leave this question open to interpretation.)
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of FA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?


(You fill it out, not me :3 )

So I'm gonna just be an indie artist for now.


meaning I'm just not gonna be under a label clause :3


Go Go Aigey Go