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Halloween
Posted 3 weeks agoHappy Halloween!!
I didn't get any fursuit pics this year :/
I didn't get any fursuit pics this year :/
Q&A! Fursuit edition
Posted 2 months ago
gave me a great idea to have a little fursuit Q&A, which I thought would be awesome. I would be answering as Josh for the most part, but you can ask me Pidge questions as well just let me know which. In wanted to come on and gauge interest for this. Thank you ^^Considering comms
Posted 5 months agoI'm considering opening story/fanfic commissions. It's tough with my current line of work, summer is out busiest month. But, I am considering.
Colossalcon!
Posted 6 months agoOmw to Colossal!
No Subject
Posted 10 months agoHhhh I have noooo motivation to continue this account.
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Posted 11 months agoI know this is a Josh account but can we appreciate my favorite demon giraffe for a moment? 🥺
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59323439/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59323439/
No Subject
Posted a year agoI'm alive just been really busy with 2 jobs for a time and then I got a new phone and didn't have the login info for this account
Going though the usual moment where I feel totally completely disconnected from the furry community for a period of time
Hoping to be back at it sometime
Going though the usual moment where I feel totally completely disconnected from the furry community for a period of time
Hoping to be back at it sometime
Healing!
Posted a year agoSo, I'm almost completely healed after my fall off my friends horse, Honor! I rode today and got over some of that lingering anxiety!
All I have is some delayed pain in my hip, making it difficult to walk sometimes and I can't sit down in certain ways that are usually the most comfortable for me, such as sitting with my legs crossed.
While I am super bummed I wasn't able to go to Anthrocon this year, I just know I would have been in too much pain to fursuit or walk around or really enjoy the con at all. But, I had a very fun Fourth of July weekend regardless last weekend!
Anyway, while I'm almost healed, and on a day when it's not too hot to fursuit lol, I plan to hopefully take some new pics soon! Thanks for your patience. ^^
All I have is some delayed pain in my hip, making it difficult to walk sometimes and I can't sit down in certain ways that are usually the most comfortable for me, such as sitting with my legs crossed.
While I am super bummed I wasn't able to go to Anthrocon this year, I just know I would have been in too much pain to fursuit or walk around or really enjoy the con at all. But, I had a very fun Fourth of July weekend regardless last weekend!
Anyway, while I'm almost healed, and on a day when it's not too hot to fursuit lol, I plan to hopefully take some new pics soon! Thanks for your patience. ^^
Reopening sketches!
Posted a year agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10883986/
The sketch requests that I set out to do completed the goal I set out for - getting me excited about drawing again! So, I am opening for 2 more slots for now. Once those are completed, I'll open them again. First come first served, thanks so much everyone!!
The sketch requests that I set out to do completed the goal I set out for - getting me excited about drawing again! So, I am opening for 2 more slots for now. Once those are completed, I'll open them again. First come first served, thanks so much everyone!!
Doodle requests OPEN (2/2)
Posted a year agoBefore you make a request, please read EVERYTHING below! :)
I REALLY need to get back into drawing....
Disclaimers:
- I am not a great artist, at all. These will just be silly or simple little doodles for the most part.
- These will all be traditional art sketches.
- You may post them elsewhere, if you credit me!
- Once posted, they will eventually make their way into my scraps. If you want them sent to you another way, let me know.
- I can't guarantee I'll get to all of them, but I will at least try, and I will try to go in order as well.
- There are no deadlines.
- No edits, I'm sorry. Unless I make an agregious error, what you see is what you get.
What I will be doing:
- SFW doodles
- Preferably something belly related, but, it doesn't have to be!
- I'll be super motivated if they have something to do with my OC or fandoms lol.
- Furry, feral, human, humanoid, monster, etc.
- Feel free to request something with your character and mine.
- Certain fandoms I'll gladly do!
- Feel free to give me multiple ideas.
- Feel free to suggest a new character for me to create.
What I won't be doing:
- Hard vore.
- Scat.
- Underage characters.
- Hate speech.
- Emeto.
To get one, simply tell me what you want (and if your character is a prey, pred, a feedee, a feeder, whatever the preference is!) and send me a ref. Lastly, recommend me a book to read or a band to listen to(I need to branch out ;o;), and I'll get started!! (you MUST complete or acknowledge the final request.)
Thanks :')
Slots:
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I REALLY need to get back into drawing....
Disclaimers:
- I am not a great artist, at all. These will just be silly or simple little doodles for the most part.
- These will all be traditional art sketches.
- You may post them elsewhere, if you credit me!
- Once posted, they will eventually make their way into my scraps. If you want them sent to you another way, let me know.
- I can't guarantee I'll get to all of them, but I will at least try, and I will try to go in order as well.
- There are no deadlines.
- No edits, I'm sorry. Unless I make an agregious error, what you see is what you get.
What I will be doing:
- SFW doodles
- Preferably something belly related, but, it doesn't have to be!
- I'll be super motivated if they have something to do with my OC or fandoms lol.
- Furry, feral, human, humanoid, monster, etc.
- Feel free to request something with your character and mine.
- Certain fandoms I'll gladly do!
- Feel free to give me multiple ideas.
- Feel free to suggest a new character for me to create.
What I won't be doing:
- Hard vore.
- Scat.
- Underage characters.
- Hate speech.
- Emeto.
To get one, simply tell me what you want (and if your character is a prey, pred, a feedee, a feeder, whatever the preference is!) and send me a ref. Lastly, recommend me a book to read or a band to listen to(I need to branch out ;o;), and I'll get started!! (you MUST complete or acknowledge the final request.)
Thanks :')
Slots:
1.
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✅3.
✅4.
✅5.
✅6.
✅7.
8.
Monie
Posted a year agoHow on earth am I supposed to afford trying to move into a house, having a wedding and everything that goes with it, and a honeymoon. It all seemed so achievable until just now x.x No joke I'm about to have two jobs again. This time, full time and a part time one.
Ideas
Posted a year agoI put this on my main account too lol but I am looking for any and all ideas for a Mayternity story! Lay em on me
This always feels like a major setback
Posted a year agoCW: Self harm mentioned, relapse
Yesterday, for the first time in several years, I had a relapse in self harm. Today I'm feeling very sorry for myself and trying to take care of the minor injuries. One thing I will never ever do again is cut, and the old scars from high school on my body remind me not to do that. But, bite marks and minor bumps and bruises have happened. The one on my knuckle especially hurts and I'm sort of afraid it's trying to get infected. I don't know the cause. Is it a culmination from feelings of grief? Or is it because I'm weaning off my antidepressants? Is it the high stress of my job?
I feel that once I find a job that better suits my talents and is more comfortable a fit, I'll be a lot less stressed. And I'm hoping everything else falls into place.
I'm not suicidal, but those tendencies came out of nowhere when I've been successful with avoiding self harm over recent years (drawing on myself or a piece of paper instead, ripping up a piece of paper, holding ice cubes.)
I don't feel the urge to do that again right now especially because of how I have hurt my poor hand, my writing hand, and I have been working so hard on self love. And I do not feel like I deserved harm now, which is a big step from the past and shows me how far I've actually gotten. But relapse sucks and it feels like a set back. I just wanted to bring it up, I didn't want to zoom into anyone's DMs with such a depressing tale.
Yesterday, for the first time in several years, I had a relapse in self harm. Today I'm feeling very sorry for myself and trying to take care of the minor injuries. One thing I will never ever do again is cut, and the old scars from high school on my body remind me not to do that. But, bite marks and minor bumps and bruises have happened. The one on my knuckle especially hurts and I'm sort of afraid it's trying to get infected. I don't know the cause. Is it a culmination from feelings of grief? Or is it because I'm weaning off my antidepressants? Is it the high stress of my job?
I feel that once I find a job that better suits my talents and is more comfortable a fit, I'll be a lot less stressed. And I'm hoping everything else falls into place.
I'm not suicidal, but those tendencies came out of nowhere when I've been successful with avoiding self harm over recent years (drawing on myself or a piece of paper instead, ripping up a piece of paper, holding ice cubes.)
I don't feel the urge to do that again right now especially because of how I have hurt my poor hand, my writing hand, and I have been working so hard on self love. And I do not feel like I deserved harm now, which is a big step from the past and shows me how far I've actually gotten. But relapse sucks and it feels like a set back. I just wanted to bring it up, I didn't want to zoom into anyone's DMs with such a depressing tale.
Semi hiatus to grieve
Posted a year agoI will be slow to update and add content as I am grieving the loss of my very special skinny pig Beanie. I deactivated my account for a specific unrelated reason but after talking to some people and coming to my senses, the threat is not as serious as I thought. So this account is enabled once more. I will update as I try to finish Josh before late May.
Scammers
Posted a year agoThe people that come into my DMs like "let me draw your character for $20 and then you can pay the rest of the $180 when it's done" like stop how stupid do you think I am?? It's insulting no one's going to fall for that. And I've fallen for several scams before, virtually ALL OF THEM in the furry community. Stop pretending to be friendly and leave me alone because I'm just going to block you. If I want a commission, I will come to you. That is how it works. I'm not going to pay you 1/6th of my paycheck for a single illustration that you probably paid someone else to draw for less than half the price. Nor am I going to tell someone else to come to you. 🙄
Sorry for the stating of the obvious and being whiny about it but I am soooo sick of this especially when they start off with "I love your character tell me more" it's like hard to trust anyone already and it just gets worse.
Sorry for the stating of the obvious and being whiny about it but I am soooo sick of this especially when they start off with "I love your character tell me more" it's like hard to trust anyone already and it just gets worse.
Vet
Posted a year agoI'm taking my piggies to the animal hospital today, so I'll be taking fursuit pics tomorrow evening when I have a bit more time and less going on. So there's still time to give me some ideas or requests for pics if you're interested! I need ideas heheh
Photo requests!
Posted a year agoI'm trying to do a photoshoot in fursuit tonight, please give me requests/ideas/suggestions!!
I plan to do:
Harness + muzzle pose
Plushie sitting
Giant plushie riding
Popsicle pose
Double + triple Josh
Macro/paws
I plan to do:
Harness + muzzle pose
Plushie sitting
Giant plushie riding
Popsicle pose
Double + triple Josh
Macro/paws
Requests
Posted a year agoYes! I do take requests for fursuit photos! In fact, please give me ideas to inspire me again XD I will take most reasonable requests!
Hopefully more pics soon
Posted a year agoIf lady things are a major ick to you, don't read ahead.
I wanted to take fursuit pics recently, specifically belly harness pics plus muzzle. But unfortunately, I've been bleeding for over 2 weeks now. x.x It's not heavy or anything but it's steady and just isn't stopping. So, I don't want to get period blood all over my fursuit. But I want to take pics since I was starting to feel better and then I got sick officially, with a sinus something or other. Hopefully I stop bleeding/feel better soon. Ugh. x.x
I wanted to take fursuit pics recently, specifically belly harness pics plus muzzle. But unfortunately, I've been bleeding for over 2 weeks now. x.x It's not heavy or anything but it's steady and just isn't stopping. So, I don't want to get period blood all over my fursuit. But I want to take pics since I was starting to feel better and then I got sick officially, with a sinus something or other. Hopefully I stop bleeding/feel better soon. Ugh. x.x
Quick thoughts about my maker
Posted a year agoQuick journal here. I submitted a fursuit review of Josh. I know I've griped a lot about his creation (TLDR I paid for a fullsuit but didn't get one and agreed on a partial refund and unfinished product.)
But looking back on the conversation, Feral Studios was open and honest with me and was patient with my delay in a few payments after I got COVID car troubles and lost 2 of my pets at the same time. It was a rough year for me at that point and I feel really bad for those delays. I've come to terms with it and I'm just grateful I got anything at all. Was I disappointed yes but at the end of the day I just wanted to say that I feel bad for being so bitter about it in the past.
But looking back on the conversation, Feral Studios was open and honest with me and was patient with my delay in a few payments after I got COVID car troubles and lost 2 of my pets at the same time. It was a rough year for me at that point and I feel really bad for those delays. I've come to terms with it and I'm just grateful I got anything at all. Was I disappointed yes but at the end of the day I just wanted to say that I feel bad for being so bitter about it in the past.
Stressed
Posted a year agoHonestly, I don't know when I'll return to making content. I want to, but I'm so stressed out with my current job that I can barely take care of myself right now.
A bab
Posted a year agoBaby Josh!!! I was gonna upload but I'm not sure about the reception lol, I am not usually very open about my age regression lol. Just for the record I personally don't sexualize it. ^^
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55779319/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55779319/
Struggle bus
Posted a year agoI'm struggling a bit with my job RN not feeling the relief I was hoping too. Not very motivated to take fursuit pics but I'm gonna try tomorrow
Existing
Posted 2 years agoI just feel like I'm posting into a void right now. I'm sure the feeling will go away. I'm really wishing I could afford therapy again but I simply cannot at this time. Really struggling with being a loner and trust issues bestowed upon me by previous "friends" are really affecting me at this time. Makes me wonder what rumors they spread about me to people they meet.
I'm more and more like my mom. She has maybe 2 friends IRL that she sees once a year. Online friends are all well and good and a huge support but I'm having challenges with people in my immediate living situation. I tend to isolate. I guess that's why I've always been a vixen, a loner. Just want to reiterate the focus of this is at my functioning outside if the Internet mostly. I'm such an introvert that I often want or need to shut down.
I'm more and more like my mom. She has maybe 2 friends IRL that she sees once a year. Online friends are all well and good and a huge support but I'm having challenges with people in my immediate living situation. I tend to isolate. I guess that's why I've always been a vixen, a loner. Just want to reiterate the focus of this is at my functioning outside if the Internet mostly. I'm such an introvert that I often want or need to shut down.
Ill brb
Posted 2 years agoTaking a break, this is common for me at...this time of the month. Being a woman sucks sometimes, my cycle comes with severe depression and s******l thoughts/ideation and I am not a fun person to be around at that time. I'm not feeling supported right now and I'm frustrated at the world and angry. I don't want to interact. Hope you can understand. I'm trying to find the right BC to fix this for me but for now I have to power through these intense negative thoughts.
Edit: I'll still be around for replying to notes as needed for commissions and stuff just as far as posting and replying to RPs or comments I'm taking a moment to step away. I need to step away from social media to engage in healthier ways of coping until my body regulates and the thoughts and pain go away as they always do. It comes and goes with my cycle it's annoying but it is what it is and I know what I need to do for my mental health.
Edit: I'll still be around for replying to notes as needed for commissions and stuff just as far as posting and replying to RPs or comments I'm taking a moment to step away. I need to step away from social media to engage in healthier ways of coping until my body regulates and the thoughts and pain go away as they always do. It comes and goes with my cycle it's annoying but it is what it is and I know what I need to do for my mental health.
