I'm sick and tired of the overly dramatic BS that seems to cling to all Massachusetts furries like a bad perfume. Not gonna name names, not gonna go into details, not gonna alienate anyone from my friends. I'm just gonna be leaving. As soon as I finish my AS degree, I'm going to college out of state and not looking back. Guess that might make me an elitist douchebag, but w/e. I'm above constant arguing.

The winner of the contest to be in a pic with me is

 themrdeviate


The reason for this decision is that the poor dragon needs a nice shiny pic. People keep thinking he's plushie

I need to spread my art around a bit more, and I still don't think it's good enough to commission. Next best thing: trades. I'm doing them. I'm mainly doing it to keep the slobbering throngs of furries looking for the word "free" at bay. I honestly don't care what kind of art you do or how good you are. Expert at stick figures? Sure, I'll write a story for one. I'm opening 5 slots, just to keep myself from getting overwhelmed. I have one project currently going, anyone who gets a slot here comes after. I generally don't take more than a week for each story, if anyone's concerned about timeframes. Let's give it a shot.


~Slots~
1.  Namelessimp
2.  Nerian
3.  EmptyShadow
4.
5.


Now I'll go build some skyscrapers while I wait for this thing to fill up.

Am I the only furry who doesn't have one? Kinda freaky going to peoples' pages and seeing that they have a master...then going to their master's page and seeing that they have a master, then going to their page and seeing that they also have a master...and their master is the first person in the chain. Convoluted furry politics give me headaches

Well, I have a head and neck portrait of myself complete with my new blue markings. Still not sure how I'm gonna work them out across my body, but I like how it came out. I'll show the rest of the world once I can figure out this scanner/copier/printer demon that I got 5 birthdays ago.

Insomnia with work later...nuff said

I'm considering adding some markings to my fursona...pure white just looks a bit bland. I want them to be pale blue, like the delicious member  tojo-the-thief drew for me. My one stipulation is that I want them to be naturalistic markings, not tattoos or anything like that. Any ideas...? And lord help the one who suggests spots >.=.<

EDIT: Now that I'm thinking about it, what would be nice is if I could get a full-body pic of my fursona in pure white, then noodle around with it in paint until I find something that pleases me. Any takers on such a commission? It would need to have a front and back view.

I'm just having a random bout of depression. I'm feeling really shitty and I have no idea why. Attempts to cheer myself up have failed, mainly because I can't identify what's bothering me. Does this mean nothing's wrong or I just don't know what is?

I'm considering writing another story up. I'm a bit nervous though. It seems like every time I start a story, some sort of catastrophe incapacitates my computer. I'm beginning to think my stories are jinxed. Either way, I still have the 3-way dragon spitroasting orgy story that WAS 75% done on my other computer that I need to do. I also have a trade story to work on, so I guess there's really no reason prolonging the inevitable....

Well, it's officially been 5 weeks since I had any sort of social interaction at all, and that doesn't look likely to change. Miserable dragon is miserable.

The good news is that I might be able to sell my car for the value that's currently left on it, which is $12,000. If I do that, I can afford to work part time and get myself back to school. The bad news is that my computer fried and died, meaning I have to buy a new one. Gonna see if it's possible to get the HD contents shortly thereafter. No real point now. Either way, the possibility of getting back to school makes me happy, cross your fingers for me.

I really need to find a way to get rid of this car so I can afford a part-time job and get back to college. Right now, my schedule is 3:30pm-12:00am work, 12:00am - 6:00am awake doing stuff, 6:00am-2:30pm asleep, and 2:30pm-3:30pm getting ready for and driving to work. As you can imagine, this makes cultivating a social life nigh on impossible. I log in every day and see people offline, or logging out within moments of my arrival. My two days off are filled with the errands I didn't have time for during the week. The fault for all of it can be traced back to the fucking car. Worst mistake I ever made. Why I thought getting a $15,000 vehicle was a good idea, I will never know, but now I'm stuck with $600 a month in insurance and loan payments. If I keep going with the payments, I'll have it paid off in January of 2014...not a short time. I either need a get rich quick scheme, or a sell this damn automobile scheme. Any suggestions are welcome

P.S. I already thought of torching the thing, and if you know anyone willing to do so, please tell me lol

I'm like the only person I know or know of, save a select few, who isn't there. I don't particularly care about AC itself, but it's never fun working when you know all your friends are out having a blast. Can't be helped I suppose. I guess the main thing is that I really despise my job, and the thought of doing anything other than work seems very appealing. I suppose I have the sickness that cost me all of my vacation days and my little $15,000 mistake to thank for my absence this year. Then again, maybe it's for the best that I start out small. I see no reason I can't go to FurFright, and it might not cost a king's ransom either. So, to all my friends at AC, have fun and BRING ME SOUVENIRS DAMMIT!

Had to happen sometime.

1. (X) Have you ever howled at the moon? Once

2. (X) Have you ever barked at someone? I rawred at someone, that should count.

3. (X) Have you ever found yourself drawing or scribbling furry art when you're supposed to be doing something else? Writing out furry stories in boot camp. Fun and dangerous XD

4. (X) Have you ever worn an animal costume or tail as a child and pretended to be an animal? Mother's fur coat. Don't ask....ever

5. ( ) Have you ever eaten out of a dog bowl? No, never went that far

6. ( ) Have you been to at least one furry con? Sadly, no

7. (X) Do you like to look at furry porn all the time? Yes, there is no better porn.

8. (X) Do you RP or play second life as a furry character? Yes

9. ( ) Do you own a fursuit or at least a tail? Nope, never seen any dragon ones good enough

10. (X) Do you know what all these words mean or have used them at least once? :{ YIFF SCRITCH BITCH ...use all of them liberally lol

11. ( ) Do you have at least 5 videos of you acting or doing something furry on YouTube? Nope

12. (X) Has your character been drawn in a furry porn type manner? Tojo did it lol

13. (X) Are you well known in the furry fandom? I have a small fan base, but only the people who read lol

14. (X) Do you dream furry while you sleep? All the time

15. (X) Would you transform into your character if you were given the chance to live like that for the rest of your life? Without a second's hesitation

16. ( ) Have you ever worn a collar? Nope

17. ( ) Do you own more than 20 art badges of your fursona or characters? Don't even have 1 lol

18. ( ) Have you been to more than 20 furry cons in your lifetime? Yes...I've been to 20, but not 1 =P

19. (X) Do you think that deep down you have the spirit of an animal within you? Yes, insofar as I can see such things

20. (X) Do you enjoy hanging out with other furries? Depends on the furries, but yes

21. ( ) Do you think we should have a furry run for President of the USA? Some things just should NOT happen.

22. ( ) If you ever became rich would you own a room in your house that was just to display your fursuits or furry art? Yeah. The yiff gallery, sure. I have some class...

23. (X) Is your best friend furry? All my friends are furry

24. ( ) Do your furry friends call you by your furry name in public? No, most people don't even know my fur name. Trying to change that though ^.=.^

25. (X) Have you been in the furry fandom for at least 5 years? Yes, I joined FA in '06, but I've been a furry since the first time I saw The Land Before Time lol

The stent running from my right kidney down and out of my penis is preventing me from closing off my bladder, what a shocker. Therefore, I have what amounts to a constant, not-too-small leak. Needless to say, this caused quite a few pairs of wet undies before I killed my pride and got some diapers. The scary thing is that they're not really that uncomfortable or degrading to wear, which is surprising. Not something I'd probably do as a fetish, but I can definitely see things a bit more clearly when it comes to babyfurs and diaperfurs. Nothing helps perception more than living in others' shoes I guess. Regardless, I no longer view the aforementioned furry minorities as weird, and a broadened view of others is never a bad thing. This all doesn't change the fact that I want this fucking stent gone...like NOW

The surgery went well, according to the doctor. Could have fooled me. It hurts like hell. Imagine sounding your cock with rusty barbed wire and you've got it. Also, I can't fap for 8 days. Not a happy dragon.

Oh joy, I get to have surgery today. What fun. Maybe, if I'm a good boy, I can have my molars ripped out next week. -.-

Yes, I have that. Hard to believe...? Probably not. For those who don't know exactly what it is, it isn't necessarily the "I'm better than you" complex. That's extreme cases. In a case like mine, it's more like a "there's no reason why I can't be better than you" complex. Examples would be when I'm watching Tojo stream her art, I get agitated because I feel that there's no excuse for me not having the same level of skill if not more. Seeing someone who's good at Martial Arts, someone who's polylingual, someone who can play guitar hero better than me, someone with better gear in WoW, or someone who is more popular than me all cause the same feeling. It's not really jealousy so much as feeling I failed somewhere. The thing I keep trying to remind myself is that nobody is incredibly skilled at everything, and everybody is good at something. It's likely that I am a better writer than most great artists, that I know more biology than a black-belt, and that I am more masterful with the English language than someone who speaks eight languages.

Unfortunately, no amount of rationalization rids me of these feelings. Instead, it motivates me to try to get my skills to higher levels. This is why I have 10,000 hobbies and I'm not particularly good at any of them. Therefore, I've decided to narrow it down to just 3 goals so I'm not trying to be the best at everything. First, I want to get better at art. I won't say something like "I want to surpass Narse as an artist," that would just be stupid and unrealistic. I just want to be the best I can at it, and if I become better in the process, awesome. Second goal is to get to Expert level on Guitar Hero...just because I want to and I find it fun. Third is to learn Japanese. I blew a ton of money on the Rosetta Stone learning program disks and I've used them once since I got them. Everything else is being deleted from my mind. If I become completely fluent in Japanese, can draw great pictures, and can beat Lou on Expert, I'll make new goals to go for.

The result of this will be that I'm going to quit WoW, since it's leeching my soul away. I'm also going to give my electric guitar to my ex as a b-day present. His is broken and he'll actually use it. I'm going to stop trying to scour the area for good Martial Arts schools, and I'm going to stop upsetting myself whenever I see someone on FA with more watches than me. If my art skills get good enough, I'll get more watches anyways =P.

Anywho, that's my plan to fight my little psychological problem. If anyone had the patience to break through the text wall and has any other suggestions for me, I'd love to hear them.

Kidney stone's killing me today, next story's probably gonna have to wait. No painkillers, so it feels like someone's tearing out my urethra using rusty barbed wire

I have my next story planned out. Dragon fans rejoice, because it's going to be dragon-only. I'm making this one a threesome too, I'm kinda in the mood for spitroasting lol. It should be out by week's end, depending on how this whole doctor thing goes down. If anyone has any suggestions, such as the physical features of the dragons in question, how the whole situation should come about, or the setting of the story, feel free to contribute.

Well the kidney stone is still there. Unless it passes before Thursday, I'm probably gonna need surgery. What that entails is taking a probe with a camera and laser on it and shoving it in my cock, through my bladder, and up my ureter to the stone, then blowing it to bits with the laser. Needless to say, I'm a bit apprehensive about the whole probe in the dick thing. Not sure whether I'm more afraid of getting a boner in the process or of the pain. Luckily, I'll probably be put under for the whole thing. Hopefully the doctor won't molest me while I'm out lol...apart from the whole sounding my cock thing X.=.X

I'm going to be posting my next story in a day or two and I need some ideas for themes/species to use. If anyone has suggestions, feel free to post them. Bear in mind, I don't write about extreme things such as scat, watersports, mutilation, or death. I might do some supersoft vore if I could figure out how to do it without any characters dying or disappearing forever. Anything else will be considered though.

Well, given the incredible popularity of my current series of stories and the way furries seem to love well-written literature...(hyuck hyuck sarcasm), I'm going to start writing some faptastic one-shots. Many species and themes will be involved. Hopefully, many furries will spooge over my writing, but I'm not counting on it. It still requires reading *hisses and runs away* Either way maybe some good artist will see my work and be inspired to make a pic of it, then people could fap to that. I so wish I could draw lol

I just want to give a HUGE thank you to  tojo-the-thief for the gift she just did for me. It's incredible. I'll find some way to make it up to her when I don't lack skill in every artistic discipline lol. Regardless, Tojo's the best!

All of my friends who have the damn thing have some kind of automated BUG THE FUCK OUT OF ME program. Example:

Chris:<ding>

hey what's up

Me:Hey

Me:Is this Chris, or some automated message trying to get me to join something?

Chris:hey there

#

Chris:just got done taking an iq score test lol

Me:Maybe not Chris O_o;

Chris:I got a 104.. I bet you can't beat me haha

Me:Definitely not Chris.

Chris: go to http://www.crushurl.com/iqscoring and try taking it.

Me: Leave me alone. I dun wanna go to your super aids link

Begone

Chris: Its http://www.crushurl.com/iqscoring

if u can beat me ill show you some pics you will want to see

Me: o____o how about you go away now....buh bye

Chris: no problem! PEACE


This plague needs to be purged....at least if you're on my friends list. I swear, I'm very close to killing all of you.