First off, I'm not going to name anyone here, simply because I do not want anyone to go after anyone else. This will not help anyone out, and if they see this, read it, and understand, maybe they'll come back.

I've been having severe depression the past few months, been feeling ignored and trampled upon since June. Recently, even some of my closest friends, abandoned me, not realizing how traumatized a person made me by acting the way they did. The trauma I'm referencing about is when I was going through Parochial (read: Catholic) grade school, where this one person or group of people would antagonize me, get a reaction out of me, and I would be the one to get into trouble, and the one that started it, was always the innocent party. The reaction was always violent. This happened until about the 5th grade, where the teacher saw the person or group antagonizing me, and would also have him be in trouble as well, because he was the one whom antagonized things further. I did not want to be reminded of this, but this person has, and it feels like I'm in the other grades, where I am the one whom always gets into trouble, and the antagonizing party wouldn't get into trouble at all. I don't always get jokes, and while I'm not as bad as before, lately this person has been rather...antagonistic and like that one person or group from my childhood. The thing is, this group of closest friends that have abandoned me, decided to side on the friend whom was antagonizing me, instead of trying to understand why I acted the way I did. They piled on shit and drama, adding to the antagonizing, pushing me into a deep depression.

With the depression, sometimes, I've put on a mask, but even then, feeling a bit like an outsider at times. Games I used to enjoy, now make me feel like an empty shell, or I don't want to play them, because there's some negative feelings about it. Or because I've simply been pushed away too much. I've been having thoughts of suicide, mainly in December, but this month, I had my first thought since then last night. It was not fun, and I've tried reaching out to someone whom asked me to reach out to them when I have these thoughts, only to be ignored. They may have been asleep, but still no response from them at all, even then, no response since last night. I'm attempting to contact them again.

I'm sorry about hiding this from you all, but...I didn't feel like I should bring this much attention to the issue. Until today.

Whelp, today's my birthday

My birthday is coming up, on Feb. 5. Right now, I'm not working on that day.

Yesterday, I was watching Leonard French's Sunday show, and he announced that his team is working on an alternative to Patreon, and they also mentioned they would allow adult content (and that's not just porn), while maintaining non-profit status. They would also allow the creator to choose how to process fees (Creator pays fee, person pledging pays the fee, or the person pledging chooses). They haven't announced the name, just how they're doing it. They're expecting to be in beta by January of 2018.

As I said, I would upload the artwork I got commissioned. There are some that are private, and those will not be uploaded. Others will be uploaded, though, both general and adult.

I'm getting more and more watches, I think I got 4 in the past 24 hours, which for me, is more than normal.

For those that have started to watch me, thank-you for the watch! If you started to watch me a long time ago, and I haven't gotten around to saying it, Thank-you!

Please note that I will be posting old artwork that I have either commissioned or been gifted to on here soon. I am planning on utilizing folders to designate which ref sheet was used to base the artwork. I will be posting them in a somewhat chronological order, and get it up to my latest one, which does have a cock vore/Endosama scene.

Also, I will be going to Orycon in a little over 2 weeks. Due to my financial situation, I will only be going to my local conventions, until I am done with classes and have a new job.

I know I haven't announced this publicly, but I have used it for some time, and I'm pretty much on there all the time. If you want to get a hold of me, best chance would be there.

Note me for my Discord name, please.

Also, I play the following games:
Guild Wars 2
Warframe
Star Trek Online

While watching a few videos talking about microtransactions inside NBA 2k18, it seems there's also sponsorships within the game (i.e. JBL and Gatorade all within that video you just posted of NBA 2K18). Of course, this isn't the first time games have had advertisements/product placements within the game (see Burnout Paradise and Alan Wake), but lately not a lot of games are having these product placements in the game itself, or at least perceived as such. Maybe outside the game with special codes, but not within the game.

There's also been a history of microtransactions in paid games as well, and to be honest, it has been coming. Guild Wars 2 had microtransactions and loot boxes right out of the gate, with their Black Lion Trading Company Chest (Which is their seasonal lootbox) back in 2012. While this isn't the first game to have these microtransactions, it's an earlier example I could come up with. Also, back in 2012, you had to pay for the core game as well. Nowadays, they have a free account, with even some of the microtransactions locked behind a paid gate, which has also lowered in price recently. (From $60 for one expansion, to now $50 for both the first expansion and the second, newest expansion). And what are locked in these microtransactions and loot boxes? character visuals, appearances, convenience items such as infinite use tools (which, for a full set cost approximately 2400 to 3000 Gems, their paid currency, which can be exchanged for either real money OR Gold, one of the in-game currencies), special access areas, consumables, Episodic content that you missed for not logging in within the time such content was first out (which, to be honest, is a 2-3 month block of time), among other things. You can see the full list of these microtransactions and their costs, including how much it would cost to purchase gems: https://wiki.guildwars2.com/wiki/Gem_Store
Also, here's the article on their official wiki on the original cost of Guild Wars 2: https://wiki.guildwars2.com/wiki/Gu.....s_2#Purchasing

Now, do I hate Guild Wars 2? No. Do I enjoy Guild Wars 2? Yes. Have I been guilty of paying these microtransactions for convenience? Yeah. Do I understand why they do this? Yes, because they make a story that, to be quite honest, feels rich in lore that builds off the previous game and expansions, Guild Wars, and they have made Guild Wars 2 better as time has gone on. From making it where the question "what server are you on?" mostly null and void with the megaserver update (which was a minor inconvenience to begin with, as you could simply guest on other servers, unless you want to participate in the World vs. World game mode) to offering their Living World content for free as long as you log in to pick it up while it's free, even if you do not have that expansion. Even some of the microtransaction stuff you can earn by "grinding" which could be from just map completion (getting hero points to increase your character's abilities, completing renown heart tasks, going to/discovering points of interest, viewing cinematic vistas, and finding waypoints), to completing achievements and finishing storylines. They even offer a small amount of stuff that is for microtransactions through login rewards (four times during a 28 day cycle), including keys for their lootboxes. Now, how long does it take to complete a map? Depending on the area, it could take an hour or two, and that does depend on how big the area is, how much you have to do to complete it, and how forgiving or unforgiving those renown hearts are.

I was originally going to do this as a comment on YouTube on one of these videos, but I figured it would be best put here, because of how much of this is me talking about it.

The Eagle Creek Fire is close, but I am not yet in the prep for evac mode yet (Level 1). Right now, that is about 10 miles away. However, there may be rain on the way to help combat this fire starting tomorrow through Saturday.

Hey, I will be uploading gift art and commissions about every few days to a week. You'll get to see some art of the older style of Salem, versus the newer, 2017 style.

I'm not going to spoil anything, but...oh...my...god. I should had known this was going to happen, considering what happened in earlier seasons/series.

...and the song actually close to the original, with a few changes, and see if you see a few character changes.

Well, I'm going to be at Furlandia this year again. Probably will be enjoying myself, maybe do some pre-con and post-con stuff, but during the convention, relax (hopefully!).

We're now streaming Eclipse Phase! Watch myself and three others go through battles on ships flying in space!

https://www.twitch.tv/SalemAdams

I haven't done this in a long time, but it's time to update here.

My life isn't going all that well. I've been sick for nearly a year, don't know what's been going on at all, and the doctors can't tell what it is. I've been waking up nauseous and having pain in my abdomen that I've now attributed to Crohn's Disease (Been diagnosed since 2002).

With that, my relationship with my RL father hasn't been all that well either. When he and I talk, I don't know if it'll be pleasant, or if he and I will get into a shouting match, and it's over the silliest things. And because of the shouting match stress, it hasn't helped with my health (in fact, it has hurt my health, because of additional stress). The only good thing that has happened this past weekend when they were here, was going to see Rogue One, and that even had a shouting match over when we leave for the movie theater.

Lately, I've been losing some friends, because of either something stupid or something that is either a lie or they think I am supposed to be a mind reader when they don't say or hint at anything. In fact, lately, I've had a lot of friends either yell at me or just treat me like shit, and it's not a good feeling. Granted, I have some friends that I've been talking on discord with that have been extremely supportive and been there for me. Even cheering me up, like  mathewwolf25, Cobalt,  obliviusfox,  skyican,  Selendis,  renamon09, Kirina, Kuri, Alynna, and a handful of others that I know. These friends, I can honestly say, are true friends, and they have been helping me through these tough, stressful times.

I really like having my friends being there for me, and helping me emotionally, because I have been there for them, or at least have tried to. While I have had a few friends that come to me for emotional support, some don't do that with me, but others do. I try to be a good friend, and I want it to be reflected back too.

...is my 30th birthday.

My Skype account was compromised last night, and I spent half the night sending the same message to over 400 people, while also fixing the issue. I did a little investigation, and here's what I was able to determine.

Someone from a Brazilian IP address (thank-you Microsoft for showing me the GeoIP) managed to log into my Skype alias, using my Skype credentials (and not my Microsoft credentials, like I normally do), and sent a link to a massive amount of people. When I realized this happened, I flagged Microsoft that login wasn't me and changed my password.

Now, my account was -supposed- to require my intervention to allow the login, as I converted my Skype account into a Microsoft account years ago, and had a form of two-factor authentication active. Meaning conventional security wisdom would have me use my phone to allow the login. HOWEVER, because Microsoft did not extend that to the Skype alias at the time of this journal, they were able to log in using my Skype alias and password.

Because of that, Microsoft has a gaping hole in Skype security, and there's really only one way to fix that. Disable the Skype alias.

Here's how to do it (and I did it myself, due to this):
1.) Go to https://account.microsoft.com/ and login.
2.) Go to "Security & Privacy"
3.) Click on "More security settings"
4.) Under "Sign-in preferences" click "Change sign-in preferences"
5.) UNCHECK your Skype alias, and any other aliases you don't want. (Will require your email as a login, though).

I was watching Star Trek: Enterprise, and during one episode, I noticed some parallels between the US and Al Quaeda/ISIS (even though they didn't exist at the time of airing).

The Episode I'm referring to is "Chosen Realm." For those not familiar, a group of religious zealots take over the ship, to destroy their enemy to end a war with them, and that anyone whom doesn't agree with their perspective is an enemy. It's almost like every religious and zealot war out there, including our war against ISIS/ISIL and Al Quaeda.

Your thoughts?

I was balancing a fan, and I was just thinking, it would be neat seeing my character doing some home maintenance work, especially using fan balance kits.

Ok, I'm starting to see a fwe changes happen that are coming from the carriers. It seems like T-Mobile is leading the changes. Here's what I've noticed:

Verizon just announced having Carryover Data. AT&T has Rollover Data. T-Mobile has Data Stash. For all intents and purposes, I'm going to refer all of this as 'carryover data' to make things simpler.

However, AT&T and Verizon only allows the carryover data for one billing month. T-mobile, one billing Year, and only for their 6 and 10 GB data plans (data stash). Sprint doesn't offer this at all.

Speaking of data, what happens if you go over your allotted data amount and your carryover data (if supported)?

With Sprint and T-Mobile, you get slowed down to 2G speeds. AT&T, you get charged for overages. With Verizon, if you have a 16GB or higher data plan OR pay $5/month for their 2, 4, or 8GB plan, you get slowed down to 2G speeds.

Plus, T-Mobile has data set up as data per line, not combined. AT&T, Sprint, and Verizon have their data combined

And let's look at what you get for international options for free.

T-Mobile has unlimited data and text in over 140 countries. Sprint is unlimited talk, text, and 1GB of data in North America, Central America, and most of South America. AT&T charges for international roaming, and only covers Talk, Text, and Data in Mexico, and unlimited talk and text to Canada and Mexico, if you have a 15GB or higher data plan. Verizon charges for this.

T-Mobile gives away free stuff every Tuesday. None of the other three do.

So...which carrier would I go for?

...the one that I currently have, T-Mobile. :D

Speaking of T-Mobile, I'm gonna claim the free unlimited Pokemon Go data offer they have today. :D


Sources are retrieved from the carrier-specific websites at the following URLS and were retrieved on 7/19/2016:
AT&T: https://www.att.com/shop/wireless/data-plans.html and https://www.att.com/shop/wireless/i.....rnational.html
Sprint:https://www.sprint.com/shop/plan-wa.....lan=individual
T-Mobile: https://www.t-mobile.com/cell-phone-plans.html and https://www.t-mobile.com/optional-s.....s/roaming.html
Verizon: http://www.verizonwireless.com/land...../verizon-plan/ and http://www.verizonwireless.com/supp.....l-travel-faqs/

Ok, I'm going to do a classic "blog" here, because this is a serious increase of copyright abuse.

For those that want to report copyright violations AND are the copyright holder, here's a link for some of the most popular places, and if login is required, it is noted here:

Facebook's reporting page: https://www.facebook.com/help/249141925204375

YouTube Reporting page: https://support.google.com/youtube/answer/2807622

Google Removal of Content Request: https://support.google.com/legal/tr.....hooter/1114905 (ALL Google products)

Instagram's reporting page: https://help.instagram.com/126382350847838

Twitter copyright reporting: https://support.twitter.com/forms/dmca (requires a twitter account)

Twitter Impersonation reporting: https://support.twitter.com/articles/20170142#

Vine Copyright issues: http://help.vine.co/CommonFAQs#stolen (requires a twitter account)

VK Copyright reporting: http://vk.com/dmca?act=new_dmca (requires a VK account).

Heh...seems like every four years, I get hit with a health issue...

So...I've been emailing my doctor, visiting the ER and coming in for all of these exams, and well...so far, nothing. Sunday, I ran a fever, and then on Monday, the building at work was pressurized like an airplane. Honestly, what the hell?

I've been feeling like I want to throw up, but don't. I feel the extra gas, but my doctor keeps coming back to the gallbladder.

OH, and not to mention, if it wasn't for my family, I would be dealing with expensive bills (health insurance, health bills, etc.).

Ok, I've kept this quiet for a very long time, and at this point in time, it's gotten to where some conventions are getting kicked out because of the damages.

At RF2015, besides some of the damages I've noticed, there were a lot of people with ROOM SIGNS using tape that DAMAGES EVERYTHING. Instead of blue painter's tape (which most hotels let you use, because it does not damage anything, yet still am able to stick things up there) they would use anything from gaffer tape, to duct tape to other kinds of tape (even an orange kind, clear tape, and masking tape, possibly even the gorilla glue tape). I found several rooms whom have room signs, and used other tapes other than blue painter's tape. This adds to the damage of the hotels, even on something innocent such as a door, these tapes leave a residue that is hard, if not impossible to remove.

tl;dr, if you have to have a sign up, use blue painter's tape, nothing else.

I haven't been posting as much, but perhaps I should start to.

Let's start at the beginning of Feb. For the first few days of Feb, up to, including, and following a day or two after my birthday, (Feb. 5), I have been dealing with nothing but drama from one source.

During such time, my health started taking a bad turn. I then started missing two weeks of work starting on Feb. 14, because I couldn't be at work or anywhere without feeling like I wanted to vomit. I talked with the Advise Nurse and then the gut doc had me come in for bloodwork (normal) and then wanted to do an upper endoscopy towards the end of Feb. (normal). I had to go to the ER a couple of days later (last Monday) and they took X-Rays (Normal, but mentioned that I was full of stool). HOWEVER, I got meds, and they started working...

...Until last Friday, and now, I have pain still. I'm taking something for it (a stool softener), so...hopefully this unknown disease gets fixed.

EDIT: OH! Almost forgot!

So...also during this, during the last week of Feb, my laptop's mSATA SSD died, so now, I can't use it. My desktop's HDD is dying so, I may have only my tablet to connect, which means I may not be on Second Life until these get fixed. The good news, is a friend is going to help me get replacement/upgrade parts for these drives, so I don't have to worry about it too much.

Ok, for 2016, I'm only going to two local conventions. Part of the reason is due to income levels. I am planning on visiting some friends from out of state, but not for a while.

I'm also going to figure out my 2017 conventions as well. Stay tuned here!