I just want to say Thank you. Thank you if you have ever interacted with anything that I post, or have ever stopped by and said hi to me on any platform or website. All of you wonderful people make life worth living, and make me happy every single day.

I love each and every one of you 🐻💜

OK!

Finally got through the entire backlog of art. Some of which I've been sitting on for a while. Sorry for the spam lol. The only things that are not yet posted are a few adopts of characters that I have not yet written a story for. Hopefully I'll get around to that soon!

So as far as an update, I'm doing ok. Currently not working due to company changing hours and days of operation at my location which leaves me with no hours at all. They say that they are looking to get me some hours elsewhere, but I'm just looking for other work currently, which has proven to be a bit difficult. But I'm positive that I'll find something palatable soon.

Hope you all are well, and remember:

You are loved
You are valid
You are wanted

Big bear loves each and every one of you. <3

Today is my birthday! I turn 35 today.

The year was filled with ups and downs. Feels like more downs than ups really, but currently I am pretty happy for the most part.

Might celebrate by posting some more art that I've gotten, but that'll be later tonight as I still have to work today lol.

Huge hugs to all of you and the planets you all live on! I'll probably end up smashing through quite a few as another way to celebrate haha

Big bear loves you all!

Hey everyone! I hope you are doing well. Hope you don't mind a ramble from a massive bear.

TLDR: I'm doing OK, birthday next month, job hunt sucks, trying to work on myself, might post more rambling journals. Love you all <3

I have been feeling pretty empty over the last month. There are days where I'm definitely happy, and days where I'm not. Sometimes it does feel like there are more sad days. The last week or so has been pretty good. Got together with some friends to play a bunch of magic the gathering. The Eagles won the super bowl which was great to see. (I'm from Philadelphia and grew up really liking the team/sport) And have my birthday coming up next month, which is the 12th.

But I also see all the things happening around me that are bad, and it just brings my mental health down. I don't know if I can claw my way out of it quickly with the way things are going. This caused me to retract a bit and just stop talking to a lot of people. And for that I'm sorry. I'm trying to get better with keeping up socially, but being social is the first thing that normally falls to the wayside when I'm feeling down. I'm sorry I'm not always around or responsive to messages. I both want to get out of my comfort zone and talk to everyone, and want to just slink away and be alone. I'm definitely trying a few different things to drown out the noise and focus on myself. It will probably be a long road, but I'm optimistic about it.

I'm still working, but still also only 2 days a week. I really need to find a new job, but have had very little luck in finding something that isn't a call center or a sales job. All I want to do is answer emails for people, or assist other people with their own work, offering advice or proofreading/work checking. Something like auditing, but with less finance, more of work process or something along those lines. Can't find anything like it.

I have a bunch of art I also still have to post. Hopefully I'll get around to it soon. I need to write another story for one of the pieces. But I probably won't be getting much more art this year unless I can find more steady work. Can't survive on just two days a week.

I guess overall I'm OK. I'm not good, but I'm not bad. I'm just trying to take things one day at a time. Just living with the ups and downs of life at the moment, but also trying to not let things pass me by. I guess typing all of this out helps in a way. I should try and do this more often. Just typing it all out can provide a bit of relief. Would any of you mind if I tried to just type my thoughts out more? Kind of like a semi-public digital journal? Or would that get way too annoying?

Anyway, if you read all of this, thank you <3 It really means a lot to me.

Happy Valentine's day. I love you all so very much. Some big, strong, crushing bear hugs to you all~

Happy New Year to you all!
Unfortunately, I'll be powering through work today while trying to fight off this cold >.>
Probably won't have time to post this at the new year moment for me, so this will have to do!

Hope you all have fun! 🐻💜

From your local planetary menace bear!

Hope you all are having a good week! Currently out at my folks place having a pretty good time. Going to see more friends the rest of this week.

Big bear loves you all 💜🐻🌎

Not me posting the same picture twice with a different description lol. Took the duplicate down

Don't post (or do anything of greater importance) when you are tired folks, just get some sleep instead!

Anyway, I'm doing ok as of these last two weeks, even though I've been feeling semi-depressed. Hoping that this month will be decent. Thankfully, I am able to take time off near the end of the month to fly home to visit family. With the way work was being iffy about it, I thought I'd have to either resign or get let go over my travel plans. Just means that I should try a little harder at finding a job that actually closes during holidays.

Hopefully more art is to come, just been slow at posting. Hope you all are doing well!

Big bear loves you all <3

So.

I haven't felt the best mentally for the past couple of weeks. I guess it is because of recent happenings of where I live. But it could also be the difficulty in finding meaningful full time employment. I moved out here in February, and still only have a part time job that I don't like to show.
I feel like that the bachelor's degree that I earned 10 years ago isn't good enough these days. I feel like I haven't learned any good, marketable skills. To my current company, I'm a warm body in a seat so that the business can stay open.
I want something more than that, but don't know what that is.
I liked helping people when I worked customer service, but absolutely detested doing anything over the phone. I was much better via email or text based web chat service. I enjoyed finding and fixing the issues that were brought to me.
I enjoyed looking over my other co-worker's work at my last job. I enjoyed doing the super tedious tasks that other people didn't want to do.
I just haven't found the same type of things out here. If those type of jobs are out here, they are well hidden.
On top of all of this, there's this looming question of "Hey Raakk, what do you want out of your working career?" I never had an answer for that in High School, college, or even now, and I don't think I ever will.
I'll float from position to position, never finding the "thing"
People around me all seem to have found the "thing" that they are good at, something they can get a job with. Something that they can build a career out of.
I don't know if I've found that yet. Don't know if I ever will.
What I do know is that I need to keep looking, even if it sucks.
I tried something completely different for a job this year. Turns out, I don't like it very much. Don't think I want to stay in this line of business. I have ideas of what I'd like to do, but don't know if an opportunity will ever come up for it.
I both want to find a job that isn't too stressful and/or doesn't feel like a job. I want to be able to afford the life I want, but don't know how to achieve that without burning myself out. I want to enjoy life to the fullest, without too much everyday stress.
I just really want to be happy. That has eluded me this month so far. Some days are better than others. I also need to do more things for myself, which is something else that I haven't been doing much of. I always want to be there for others, often putting my own needs on the back burner.
I don't know. I know that I'm just vomiting my thoughts into the void really, but in a way typing all of this out helps. Even if no one reads it, it helps me by actually putting my thoughts down onto something. Something I probably need to do more often is to just write out my thoughts.
Even after all of the ranting, just know that I'm ok, not good, not bad, just ok.
I know my communication skills are not the best. It is never, EVER, my intention to ignore or ghost anyone. Some times I just can't find the right thing(s) to say, so I just don't say anything.
Well this turned into quite the rant.

If you did read it, thank you. Even if you didn't read all of that, thank you. Thank you for following this silly bear. You all mean so much to me. 💜

Getting this all down made me feel a bit better today.

I hope you all are having a wonderful day.

You can find me here: https://bsky.app/profile/raakkduskfur.bsky.social

Although the sky may not stay blue for long if I keep growing~

Hey! One of the artists I follow  Serjonator has a TG channel for updates and art! Go check it out if you can :D


https://t.me/sergonatorr/798


Big bear loves you all <3

Didn't know him personally, but if it wasn't for this place, I'd probably still be in the closet. Thank you Dragoneer, I hope you rest in peace.

Happy Pride to those who celebrate!! Loud, massive and proud!!

Job has been pretty good, still wish I had more than 16 hours a week, but hey, at least I'm working. Also will have a new and updated reference sheet for Raakk done at some point soon!

Currently I'm also working on a few stories as well. Both of them are backstories for characters that I adopted, but have not posted yet. Hopefully will have one of em done soon :D

Stay large my friends, hope you all are well!!

Big bear loves you all <3

Sorry about the silence on my end, last month or so has been pretty crazy. Just started a new job and the training is a little intense. There's a lot to learn haha.

Haven't really had time to respond to various thing on every platform, so I'm really sorry about missing messages. I'm not ignoring anyone, I just haven't had the time or energy to do so.

I hope you all are doing well

Big bear loves all of you <3

It me. I'm 34 today!

Hope you all are having a wonderful day!

OK, that was most of the backlog, there's still a few images that I need to resize since they are too large lol. That and there's a few characters that I have not yet written stories about, so I'll get around to that eventually, hopefully.

Other than that, tomorrow I load my moving box that is being shipped to my new place on the other side of the States. I've been super busy packing and cleaning, and it is almost finally done with. I will definitely be a bit more absent around here, discord and TG as I wait for my flight which is next week. After that, it is then a wait on my things to get there so I can unpack, and then try and look for another job.

As always, thank you for all the favorites and comments on the things that I post. It really means a ton that you all like seeing the art that I get.

Massive macro bear loves each and every one of you. Stay large my friends~

I probably won't be online when the clock turns over for me, but wanted to get the new year's wishes out early!

It has been a pretty up and down year for me, and the next year is going to start out busy! I'm going to be moving cross country to a new state and a new area! A good friend of mine invited me to come move in with him and his partner, and I think this change of location and pace will do wonders for me in the long run. I may or may not be even more absent on here and other places during the moving time. I do have a lot of backlog to post of things I have gotten earlier this year, so maybe I'll get around to that before the move takes place at the end of January.

As for New Year Resolutions, they are mostly the same as last year!

1. Cook more
2. Draw more (which is also learning how to draw)
3. Stream more (did it a few times, but would like to do it more!)
And new for this year: 4. Write more (almost have a long story done-ish)

Thanks for reading everyone! And thank you all for all the watches, favorites and comments. I appreciate each and every one of you who find me interesting enough to interact with :D

Have a great New Year celebration and as always, Big bear loves you <3

Merry Christmas and happy holidays! I love you all a ton! 🐻💜

Got four blue sky codes, let me know if any of you want one and I'll send via note :D

Going to try and get some pieces uploaded that I've had ready for a while. Expect some art over the next couple of days!!

Hope you all are doing well <3

Macro Statue raffle here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51411457/

Come Join!

Happy Birthday to me! I turn 33 today!

Probably not doing much to celebrate, which is fine :D

I hope you all are having a great day so far!!

Hello everyone! Happy Macro March!!

Love March due to all the big things people tend to make, as well as my birthday being on the 12th.

I'll probably have a few pieces done for me this month maybe, and I'll share them when I get em! :D

Granted EVERY month is like Macro March for me lol, but just happy to see more Macro stuff!

I hope you all are doing well, and as always, thank you all SO much for all the favorites and comments, I truly appreciate them <3

Thank you all again for all of the faves and the comments, it really means a lot to me that you all like the art I get from all of these amazing artists!! :D

Each and every one of you get a massive bear hug from me, and just know that you are all valid, loved and wanted <3

Now go get some size and break a planet >:D

Hopefully I'll get around to getting all the pieces up on here soon!

Hope you all are doing well! Really glad each and every one of you decided to follow me, it means a lot for this giant bear <3

2022 has been filled with ups and downs for me. There were times where I thought I couldn't climb out of the pit I was in, but here we are. In November of last year, I finally was able to get Raakk's ref sheet done. It was my introduction into the furry community. Since then, I have talked to a LOT of new people, probably more than I have ever in my life. Being able to leave my comfort zone and move past a bit of social anxiety has felt really liberating. Coming out of my shy shell a bit more every day has lead me to meet a ton of great people this year.

I just want to thank all of you for being here. Just the fact that over 200 of you watch me on here is mind boggling. I'm just happy to share all the different art pieces I get with all of you! Thank you for putting up with all the macro pieces I get, even all the destructive and lewd ones. Macro art really brings a smile to my face, and I'm glad and lucky I was able to get this much art this year.

I hope to get to get to know some of you better this coming year, and hope that many more big things are to come for everyone!!

Stay huge everyone <3