It's been 2 years since I updated my last journal. Im not very active online the way I used to be I just kinda scream into the void on bsky and otherwise keep to myself. This is probably going to be kind of a bummer but I don't really know how many of my friends are still active here. Sorry to those I've lost touch with I hope all is well despite the state of the world. I am mostly keeping it together things are at least steady in terms of my family's ability to get by.

Currently I'm conflicted on the state of my online presence and the art I have documented online. Unfortunately over the past few years I have slowly been reducing my online presence both because I need to for my mental health but also because my mom was stalking me online. During quarantine my mom outed me to my grandparents I guess in an attempt to idk disown me? Im not rly sure what her end goal was. After my spouse and I got our house she threatened me multiple times and I went no contact. After I did that she continued to try to distance me and my family by finding my online accounts and showing people my furry NSFW to prove what an evil pervert I am because I must be fucking animals if Im drawing this kind of filth. I am very very grateful that my grandma didnt buy into this. My grandma and I have had difficulties in the past and there are still things we do not agree on but she was able to see something was wrong with the way my mom was trying to paint me as some kind of irredeemable villain.

It's hard for me but because of all of this Ive stopped really posting any of my NSFW art online and Ive thought a lot about deleting what I have up right now. I wish I didnt feel this way because I really like having my art online regardless of content and quality because I like having multiple homes for all my art. If something ever happens to a hard drive or if another site goes down I have my art somewhere so I can save it again and keep it.

I lost my house as a teenager and most of my possessions couldn't be saved. Theres so much childhood art I wish I could look back on and I deleted my old devianart account before it happened so its just gone now. I am probably overly attached but its just made me really averse to deleting stuff. If I do delete all my NSFW I dont know if Ill repost it but will probably just have to back it all up and keep it stored so I have it. If I ever take commissions again NSFW will still be allowed I just won't post the comm.

Sorry like I said this was kind of a bummer but I felt somewhat nostalgic unloading my thoughts on a gallery journal. If I go through with the purge I'll post another journal saying so ig. ILU BYE BYE

I tend to not post journals much since art isn't my job but I don't expect everyone to follow whatever is my currently most active social.

ANYWAYS
HI
HOW ARE YA

I'VE BEEN ALL OVER THE PLACE SINCE MY LAST JOURNAL ON HERE. I got married, I went through various jobs after I lost mine during the pandemic, I moved, made and lost friends. It's been WILD.

I have been doing a lot of practicing with different art mediums and my approach to art too. I probably won't post most of it here just because I don't feel like all of it is a good fit for my gallery but if you care about sketches, sculpting, crafts, etc I'm back on tumblr! https://pumpkingdomart.tumblr.com/?source=share

I also have stopped taking commissions...sort of.
Commissions have always been hard for me because I am not a full time artist it was just kind of a side hustle I did now and then that I did on top of my full time job. I don't have the same amount of time or experience that some other artists have and they tend to make me very nervous. I have taken a type of design commission where I draw people's ocs as Oni and that has been fun since there's an element of artistic freedom based on my interests but I only take a limited amount of those once or twice a year.
I have a commission concept in mind for a type of drawing I want to do that I am working on right now to help cover a couple bills so that may be up soon. I still need to finish my examples for this.

I also ALSO likely have arthritis (test results came back high and i have the signs of it just haven't been able to see a specialist yet so yknow) so I have to be a little more careful about how much I'm doing with my hands.

If you read all that THANKS I'm glad you're still here and have followed my silly little art page this long

Hello everyone! I just posted an updated commission sheet. It's a little rushed and I wasn't planning on taking commissions again for a little while but the reason for this is because due to the state of emergency that has been declared during the covid-19 outbreak. My place of employment is now reducing its operating hours from 10am-8pm (9pm fridays and saturdays) to 12pm-5pm. My hours have been cut in half. I have just moved in with my partner and we took in some pet rats 2 months ago. Until things are back to normal I will be open for commissions to work on during this sudden extra time. Our schedules have been changing almost daily so I'm sorry but I will not be able to provide an estimated time frame for completion at this time.

Here is the updated price sheet
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35456501/

Howdy nya'll!

For a few years I have tried to keep my NSFW very separate from my main accounts on all platforms. While on certain sites like for my social media I prefer this it's become very difficult to manage that everywhere. I have also jumped ship to new accounts on a few different platforms and I've started to lose track of everything. I've kept my more extreme kink art off this account and really only posted nudes at most. I am going to start posting all my content here including all my nsfw. If my content makes you uncomfortable and you need to unfollow I understand. I will be reposting some more recent work from my NSFW account here.

I hope you all understand and have a good day.

https://www.patreon.com/pumpkinoverlord

I will be focusing tailoring my patreon for both larger personal projects and getting an idea of what kind of content y'all wanna see. This also will provide more ways people can get art from me.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29075993/
 Tobiyond made the cutest fucking pokemorph adopts. His art is really great please consider checking them out!

MMMMMNNNNN I HAVE HAD SO MUCH HAPPEN
MOSTLY GOOD

I got engaged to my girlfriend of SEVEN FUCKING YEARS back in February. At Katsucon I hosted a Dungeons&Dragons cosplay photoshoot and at the end of it I proposed to her. It was in front of the color changing fountain and it was at her favorite time of day and almost all of our good local friends were able to make it. Also fucking projared was there and that was fucking sick.

Was sick a few weeks ago and now allergies are kicking my ass. While I was sick our elderly dog had to be put down. She was suffering and I knew it was coming but I didn't realize how soon it was going to happen. About a week later I learned that my mom had to also put down my pomeranian who I sadly had to leave with her when I moved in with my grandparents. I've recovered from the loss of two amazing pups but it will never be the same without them.

I wanted to start positive and sandwich the negative in between more positive so I didn't start or end crummy. Towards the end of May, a little before my birthday, my fiancee and I will be travelling to New York to visit our boyfriend. I've never been to New York before and I've been wanting to visit somewhere new. We're going by bus and staying for two nights.

And lastly my fiancee got a new job that pays significantly better than her previous one. So after our trip we're going to be saving to finally move out. All very exciting!

Howdy ya'll! I'm taking commissions so I can get gifts for my friends and family!
here's my prices~!
http://pumpkinoverlord.tumblr.com/p.....77/commissions

I ended up taking the promotion at my job so I'm management now. I ended up breaking up with my most recent gf due to stress. Avery and I are still together but my other gf got a job where I work and it was too hard dating someone when I'm their boss. We're still good friends tho.

Also I got permission from my boss to dye my hair pink. So I did that. I'm pink now.

I'm now on art fight!
http://artfight.net/~pumpkinoverlord

hasn't been that long
very anxious rn
getting medicated today which is great

a person I've been friends with for 5 years who made me and my girlfriend miserable decided he didn't want to be my friend anymore and honestly it's been GREAT.

Girlfriend and I are starting on making a video game. More on that in the future.

I made a very depressing journal 2 months ago about why I left my previous job. Things have picked up since then.

I have found a new job that I like a lot more. It's small but the environment is much better and I'm a lot happier. It's been a little stressful because they're understaffed but it'll work out. They really like me there and despite me only working there about a month they want to promote me to management. I haven't taken the job because I'm still adjusting and not done with my training so I'm not 100% comfortable with taking a management position so soon.

I also started therapy and got diagnosed for my mental health issues. On top of having depression and anxiety which was already something I knew I struggled with turns out ya boi is bipolar. I'm going to be starting medication for it soon.

Also ALSO I'm in a poly relationship again. I know the last one ended poorly but I rushed into it with someone I barely knew. The person I'm dating now is one of my best friends who I've known since 2nd grade. So now I have 2 girlfriends. Eyyyyyyyyy.

I left my job a week ago now
I kinda just vent to calm down so I kind of wanted to talk about that situation. I've kind of always had issues with my job treating me unfairly or fucking up my hours. I kind of became complacent despite all this because it was stable. I've never really gotten along with my boss but I also never really hated him. We would butt heads on occasion but nothing was ever really THAT BAD. A couple weeks ago things between me and my boss got worse. I was getting scheduled for hours I wasn't available to work and when I asked him to change it he got mad at me. I was becoming extremely worn out due to being worked 5-8 days in a row and recently he had a family emergency and he would have to leave early fairly often (which was understandable but still stressful.) A few days before I left he had scheduled only him and I to work. He left early not because of his family emergency but because he had to pick up his truck. He said an order was coming in that day and I was left the only person in the shop. The order that came in was huge and it's all refrigerated goods so it HAD to be put away. There was no room in the cooler because we shared it with 2 other departments. I had to break it down and put everything away individually. This wouldn't really be an issue but because of the size of the order it took me about 3 hours to put everything away. I ended up accumulating overtime because I didn't have the time to close down the shop. Where I worked you would be in trouble for working overtime. So next day rolls around I closed the night before and then had to open so I was exhausted. My boss was actually upset with me for putting the order away even though he left me with it and didn't tell me what to do with it. I worked a fairly short shift that morning and during my last 2 hours I was asked to make and package a product that takes a fairly long time to make. I had to make and package 4 variations of this. I was told not to leave a mess. I said I would do my best but with the short amount of time I had I would not be able to finish all of it and would need the next person coming in to finish it. I almost complete making all 4 but my time to leave comes up before I can finish packaging it (again we get in trouble for overtime at this store) so I explain to my coworker that I am unable to finish and I need him to take over for me. He's fine with this.

Come in the next morning. I am in trouble. I am sat down and told I am not doing my work and leaving things unfinished so as punishment I would be only working nights and would be receiving less hours. Now normally I just walk away even if I don't agree with my punishment and just try to do better but I was PISSED. I argued that he couldn't just leave me with all of his work or with extremely time consuming projects by myself and then say I wasn't doing my work. He was mad but didn't continue to argue with me. He apparently also told high members of management I wasn't doing my work. I got even more mad because I had all the managers watching me now because my boss said I wasn't doing my work when I was doing HIS work. I said "Fuck this" and walked off. I took a few deep breaths and returned. My boss asked if I was fit to work and said I should go home. I said I was fine and needed to take a moment and he walked away. I started crying. My coworker tried to comfort me and told me I should go sit down. My girlfriend showed up because I told her what happened and she tried to get me to calm down and stop crying but I couldn't. This went on for 30 minutes and eventually she went and told my coworker and boss that I needed to go home. I want home and it took me a while to calm down. Every time I thought about work I started crying.

NEXT DAY WORKING LIKE NORMAL CALLED UP TO THE OFFICE I'M IN TROUBLE AGAIN. I normally don't get in trouble at work. I'm in trouble for the previous day. I'm being suspended. Apparently after telling me to go home and me letting him know I was leaving my boss turned around and reported me saying I walked out on the job without permission. I told them that my boss said I could go and clearly it was just a misunderstanding but I was suspended anyways. I would be notified if I could come back to work. I went home and came back to the store and turned in a letter of resignation. It wasn't worth continuing to work for someone who would lie about me to get me in trouble.

So now here I am. Unemployed for the first time in 3 years. It kind of sucks because so much of my life went to the job so there will be people I'll really miss working with but also fuck that place. I came home after quitting and for the first time in years I didn't feel like I wanted to kill myself. Hell, my girlfriend cried because she was so happy I was out of there (she works in the same store.) Trying to find another job is going to be hard but I'm a lot happier at the moment.

and shameless plug but while I look for another job I am taking commissions http://pumpkinoverlord.tumblr.com/p.....12/commissions I appreciate signal boosts but please don't feel like you have to or force youself to

Recently left my job of 2 1/2 years due to personal reasons. I don't want to go to deep into it online but honestly it's the best choice I've ever made. I'm looking for work right now but until then consider checking out my commissions.
If you can't commission me I appreciate signal boosts.
http://pumpkinoverlord.tumblr.com/p.....12/commissions

http://koumori-ouji.tumblr.com/post.....50/commissions
eyyy

I've been sick with a nasty cold that won't leave my system for like 3 weeks and I just violently puked all over my floor
my life does not know peace

Hey ya'll! Christmas is coming up and I've been thinking a lot about offering button commissions.

This is for 2 1/4in buttons the art will be done in my chibi style unless requested otherwise.
it will be $10 per button and I will have them sent out before christmas.

I probably won't accept many cuz it gets crazy busy at my work during the holiday season.

examples

http://pumpkingdom.storenvy.com/pro.....sien-ko-button
http://pumpkingdom.storenvy.com/pro.....8-genos-button

Hey ya'll! I've been a little slow since I came back from Omegacon. Kind of a lot has happened. I recently had a falling out with one of my best friends and we're no longer speaking and it kinda fucked me up and pretty much immediately after me and Avery tried dating this guy but it didn't work out because he decided a poly relationship wasn't for him but I wasn't really ready for it to end so soon. I spent a lot of time mourning a relationship that didn't go anywhere and found out recently that this guy basically only pretended to agree with me on major issues that I really care about because he wanted to sleep with me. I feel really bad because I've been slow on owed art but I've just kinda worn myself out and feel like I really need a mental health day. I think I have a paid vacation coming up and I want to take it as soon as possible.

I do this to myself a lot so I'm sorry if I complain a lot about just feelings n stuff

Hello everyone! I have returned from OmegaCon and I had a pretty great time. I was in the artist alley this year. Omegacon was my first artist alley 2 years ago but I did not return last year. I was kinda skeptical about going back but I'm really glad I did. I was extremely disappointed in how little I made at my first artist alley but this year I made almost 4 times what I made my first year.

Now that it's over I am having a post-con sale on some of my stuff. Avery's perler merchandise has been removed because we sold out of all out their pieces but more of their stuff will be added in the future. Also the only thing of mine that isn't on sale are my DMMD charms.

http://pumpkingdom.storenvy.com/

saving up for a new computer. Mine is about 6 years old and it has quite a few problems. Fan is broken (I am using an external one to keep it cool), it's so outdated that current security software won't run on it, pieces of plastic have broken off of it. It's just kind of a mess.

I'm taking some flat color commissions to kinda help fund a new computer

Chibis
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16398749/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16398781/
$5-$10 depending on complexity

and normal flat color characters
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20155484/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16921016/
$20-$25 depending on complexity

please note me if you're interested. Also if you want to I would appreciate anyone spreading the word. Anything helps really but don't force yourself.


also please note I am currently working longer hours at my current job cuz we recently lost some people and I am filling in so I might take a little while on comms

SOOO I ordered a christmas present for someone and I thought paypal had already charged me for it and I was like HEY GREAT I CAN USE THE REST OF THIS MONEY TO FEED MYSELF FOR THE REST OF THIS WEEK
and so I did
and paypal just now charged me and I got charged for that + a $35 overdraft charge

I'm doing $8 flat color chibi commissions if anyone is interested

examples
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16398713/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16398749/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16398781/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16648542/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16438858/

also willing to do these like tiny simple cheeb things for $5
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18093886/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18093879/

heeeeeeeeyyyyyy guuuuuyyyyssss
I know my last journal was kind of a bad time. I'm sorry for like not really updating here. I wasn't sure like what to even say? I haven't been drawing much either. I have a few things that have been sitting around to post and just kinda like get out of my funk. I can say things have been getting better sorta? There's some things I can't talk about online but like basically ever since I posted that last journal things got way worse before they got better. But I've had that space I needed and my partner and I have been saving up to go on a short weekend trip so I've been looking forward to that and we get to see one of our friends who lives further out for the first time in a really long time and in a few days will mark my first year at my job which means I'll get a raise. Everything's looking up for now.

I had a breakdown and told my family I was suicidal. I wasn't ready to tell them about this because I know how they'd react. I told them I need medication. They said I don't need meds I just need Jesus and religion. I'm not doin too hot.

http://monstertownusa.tumblr.com/
made a blog for me and my partner to use to talk about our monster based headworld
we'll be posting some character bios
feel free to check it out c:

felt like filling something out and saw this

1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
I guess the boyfriend?

2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
evening I guess

3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
I prefer to sleep in the middle tbh
I'm a bed hog

4. Do you masturbate?
OH IT'S PRETTY TMI NOW
yeh

5. How often? Lately?
pretty often

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
nope

7. Do you prefer showers or baths?
baths UvU

8. Have you ever had sex in the shower or the bath?
naw

9. Do you watch/read pornography? With other people?
real talk me n my friends kinda just casually watch porn together and make fun of it

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
depends but I prefer aggressive

11. Do you love someone on your friends list?
yes c:

12. Do you know all the people on your friends list?
not really

13. Would you choose love or money?
love I suppose. I feel like this isn't even a real question.

14. Your top three favorite kinks in bed?
biting/body worship/footwear

15. Has anyone ever gone beyond your personal line of respect sexually?
yeah

16. Where is the most romantic place you have had sex?
only ever been in a bedroom

17. Where is the weirdest place you have had sex?
I'm not a very adventurous person. Sorry.

18. Have you ever been caught having sex?
not yet but I've gotten caught doing sexual stuff

19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
no but I wouldn't mind (a lot of places like that around here are 21+)

20. Ever been to a bar just to get sex?
again most bars are 21+ and I'm just not into that sort of thing

21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club for sexual reasons?
nah

22. Ever been picked up in a bar?
still no bars

23. Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex?
yes/no

24. What's your sexuality?
pansexual

25. Had sex in a movie theater?
the fuck?

26. Had sex in a bathroom?
I got caught trying to give my boyfriend a blowjob in the bathroom

27. Have you ever had sex at work?
nooooooo? it's a gross grocery store

28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
naw

29. Bought something from an adult store?
never went

30. Do you own any sex toys?
not yet but a friend offered to get me a nice one for my bday

31. If yes, how many and what are they?
~0~

32. Does anyone have naughty pics of you or are you on film?
yeh

33. Have you ever had sex with someone and called them the wrong name?
nope

34. Have you ever had phone sex?
tried but it was weird and we weren't into it

35. Have you ever had cyber sex?
yeah

36. Do you think oral sex constitutes a form of intercourse?
I think it's very different from penetrative sex but I think that sexual experiences and how someone or a couple might view intercourse is different to everyone so I think it counts

37. What's your favorite sexual position?
I really don't care

38. What's your favorite sex act?
I haven't experimented enough to decide on a favorite

39. Have you ever had sex with more than one person at a time?
no

40. Who do you think has the guts to re-post this
dunno. that's their business.