Yeah, a lot has changed. I've been through two career change attempts. Finally on on that I think will work out. It has ups and downs. Last year I got really healthy and started working out trying to become a conservation officer. Made it to the initial interview. Which was pretty much the worst experience of my life. There's worse things but that was pretty soul crushing.

I'm about 9 months into a 20 month program to be an A&P mechanic. (Licensed to fix on airplanes)

I've had to cut my work hours back to about 36/week. So i still have medical and vacation benefits. And school is about 33 hours a week.
70 hour weeks have really been wearing on me. I'm often angry and irritable. I don't like it much. It's a short time and it sucks.

Work also sucks. We have a crew of 8 with 4 under a year experience and 2 under 1 month. It's the busiest time of year. The guy they tried to place as trainer and lead tire technician is in the middle of a mental breakdown from the stress of 20-35 orders up on the board by 9am. Trying to make it all work with this crew is hell.

I tried to leave and they gave me a $2/hr raise

Not all is bad. But there's going to be a fair amount of juggling for awhile.


Mff was great as always. Even if I was only there for Sunday. Got home from that at 4am.

I'm beat. I took 4 days off for Christmas. And I need it.

I'm feeling much better now. My views on things haven't changed but I feel less gloomy. Like there's sun on the horizon. Or the moon. I'm ok with either.

MFF is on its way and I WILL BE GOING. I'm showing up. Thursday-Friday night after a long week of working. Plans are as follows

Wolf shit up.
Eat pizza

And Im all out of pizza.

The reference was necessary.

But I plan to just kick around with  sharpe19 my wife. Don't hit on her if you want to keep your balls. Seriously. She will remove them. With a spoon.


Anyway. I opened up the laptop to watch a movie before bed. 2 hours later I complete a pricy Car parts order
It's just some odds and ends from summit while stuff was still on sale. I didn't go for the panhard bar. But I got control arms coming that I'm going to put on the posi rear end when that goes in. Maybe this year. Maybe not. I'm halfway to pulling it off anyway. But that mission creep on this car has been murder. I don't need more.

I got little things line throttle cable brackets and throttle return springs and a couple AN fuel line fittings to test fit along with the proper adaptors. Those part numbers were sourced from  Rukhwhitefang can't thank him enough for that.

. I'd love to go stainless braided. But I'm going to see if I can use AN fittings and the hose I already bought. I also need to lay it out and figure out which fittings I need exactly.


Also also. I managed to score some 8x something r15 Hoosier drag radials. Used. They have some heavy feathering. And some are a bit melty from what we think are burnout competitions. But they were dropped off for disposal. And I obtained permission to take them home. For...disposal... There's also 12 of them.

I need 8x15 5x4.75 rims now.
Oh the evil evil things in store right now.

I have some words tonight. You may not agree.
I generally don't support abortion. I generally support gun rights. And generally don't fall with an liberal leanings.

But this planned parenthood terrorist attack is appalling. And an chilling warning to the country.

I'm a 19-35 year old, white, male, gun owning christian.
The biggest difference
Between me and that radicalized terrorist:
I value those I disagree with.

I come from a religion that taught me to love my enemies. To pray for those that spitefully use me. To turn the other cheek to those who attack me.

To try to love everyone.
And I don't. I fall short of this. A lot. But to twist that to justify shooting people you disagree with. People you feel are immoral? This goes against everything that my religion teaches. And it goes against everything I stand for.

Killing people IS NEVER a proper form of self expression. We have so many other means especially today.

I will fight to my dying breath for those I love. And your right to disagree with me.

I will never block or unfriend anyone for disagreeing with me. I welcome that. By the process of answering the questions of those that disagreed with me I have made my own opinions and ideals stronger.

Because I question my beliefs. I find where they aren't so sure. And I can strengthen them.

Our country is radicalizing. Everyone is either a pansy liberal or a redneck conservative.

This division of our country will destroy us. There is no force on earth that can defeat us. Except for ourselves. We can take ourselves apart if we loose our value of our fellow humans. Whether we agree with them or not.

It will start with little things like this. Just rhetoric. Things to fire up the voters to get them to vote. To promote our ideals over theirs. To pass laws and make changes that favour our own ideals.

It turns to people who believe the rhetoric. They defend them online and in person. They become exclusionary. "You're either with us or against us" they'll say.

The silencing of any opposition. Any alternative viewpoints are decried and vilified.

They'll shrink the middle ground where compromise and progress and harmony take place.

The sides will form, then there will begin to be physical violence. Probably starting at political rallies where people are charged. Then loners. "Just nutjobs" the nutjobs are the canaries in the mineshaft. They are the most easily manipulated will be radicalized first.

Then. There will be others, the mob mentality will help. And if the trend is not stabilized and brought to the moderate Center. It will continue to escalate in violence until it leads to violent physical unrest and possibly civil war.

The extremists will turn into warring factions. As they have in Syria and Egypt. You may be killed or exiled for holding a different ideal than the people you encounter. Or failing to swear allegiance to a particular side.

I hope it doesn't get that far.

I hope the rational will stand up to the radical.

This is how 11million Jews were killed almost 80 years ago. This is how the world was set up in a fire that killed hundreds of millions.

Because people were blinded by their own interests to the concerns of others. Those that opposed them. Their fellow men.

The people of our country have never agreed entirely on anything. There have and always been dissenters to everything.

But we have always been United and unless we continue to be unified. We will fall as all dominant powers eventually do. And it will be bloody when and if we fall this way.


To be honest. I'm sad. Sad and livid and angry. Im sad that we keep dehumanizing people. I'm sad that things have gotten this far.
I'm angry that this is happening right in front of my eyes. And I can see it. And...I feel powerless to help.

I've written emails. I've called senators. No one seems to listen. But I'm stubborn. And I'll keep trying. Even if it's just loving one person at a time.

Yeah it's been awhile.

I've been trying to go through the process to become a DNR conservation officer. Part of this is a standardized physical test

So, about July...ish. I realized that I was going to have to do this. And I could barely run a quarter mile. In like two minutes. So I've been going to the YYYY MMM C A
And now that song is stuck in your head for the next 7 hours.

You're welcome.

I've been going about 5 or 6 days a week since then. I can now run a half mile in about a 3:40 and I got up to running a 3.7 something mile run in 30 some minutes.

I ALMOST HAVE A FOUR PACK. THE PACK IS DEFINIFYING!!!!!!

Alas. However. It has been at the expense of work on my car. The engine is in. The driveshaft is bolted on. The track bar is on.

Fuel lines need to be routed and I need nifty elbows for that. I need stupid little things like throttle return spring and bracket. I need to get electric fans and finish wiring them up. Also a relay for said fans. Possibly a temp switch.

I also managed to score some used Hoosier drag radials 8" wide. 15" rim size. And some nice Mastercraft radials in a 275/60ish r15

So. I need to get some 15 inch rims. Aww shucks.

There was also some news today.

It turns out all this intensive preparation for the physical exam. Yeah. We were supposed to Schedual for an interview and exam and be selected by June.

It seems I was denied...CRITICAL...NEED TO KNOW...information.

This seems like "hey important. Put on webpage." But apparently not.


*sigh*

At least I'll be ready for next year. For sure. And just maybe my car will be driving.
<yeah right>

Smother her in furry good feels like only us awkward furries can.
 sharpe19
@ sharpecostumes

Hello Internet.

How are you today. Are you seated comfortably with your assorted snacks and/or sandwich?

Great!

So much has been happening, I hardly get time to be on here anymore. The engine is all ready to come out of my car. But I need a cherry picker(engine hoist) that had a boom about 10 inches longer than I can buy. Yes. My car is a borscht because it isn't long enough. Har dee har har. Yes that was an autocorrect error but I like it better that way. A red cabbage soup is definitely a good moniker for this sticky situation.

I actually have time off. The weekend of anthrocon. And I am halfway across the country at my inlaw's family reunion. Yay.

This is ok. Family is important and we haven't seen them in over a year.
It was cool because fon our connecting flight out of PHX I saw the Grand Canyon for the first time in my life.

Holy. Shit.

I've always been on the wrong side of the airplane for that. It is really. Really something. Words can't even expresse how big and impressive it is.

Anyway. We're in Idaho now and I hope I don't have to engage in political conversation with my father in law. I'm a moderate, which means 60% of the country and 80% of the vocal political...stuff... Hates my opinions.

So. Not opening that can of worms if possible. Also need to withstand the "come move out here" schemes as possible.

I may rag on them a lot. But my inlaw's are actually really nice, good hearted people. They're very loving and supportive of my wife. My father in law no longer wants to take me out on the desert and shoot me. It's not that bad. And the weather out here is really nice.


OH. ONE MORE THING!
Guy at the rental desk was having a really bad time. There were three people in front of us in line. All pissed off and angry because their reserved cars werent availible to be rented (because the current renters handnt brought them back yet) so they decided it was the fault of the guy at the desk. And that being rude would get them a rental car faster.
So the guy at the desk turns to me and asks a magical question.
"So you know how to drive a manual?"
*cue angelic singing and heavenly choir music*
*puppy eyes*
So I then have the keys to this 2015 Ford focus with a manual transmission in my hand pressing the: lock the car and also honk to horn so I know where the hell it is button.
And I hear it honk behind me.

And I turn and I see a red hatchback. With an ST spoiler.

No

Way.

Nofrikinway....there is nowayinhell they rent a Ford focus ST in a manual. That would be *presses button* HOLY SHIT I RENTED A FORD FOCUS ST WITH A MANUAL
*more angels, tears, and I'm pretty sure there was a beam of light from the heavens that shone down though it may have been a parking garage light*

Mother of all that is holy that little snot is quick. Turbocharged.

I want one. But not in red.

So like an idiot I degreed the cam wrong. It's retarded. So I'll be advancing that today. Hopefully do a rotate test of everything to check my valve to piston clearances and see if the valve springs bind up. Hopefully they don't. Also going to look at the valve train geometry and see if that will be satisfactory.


Then pull off some main and rod bearings to check them because when I pulled the oil pan off. There were a lot of sparkles in the bottom of the pan. I'm hoping it's just the hone being knocked off the cylinder walls. But if it's bearing materiel I want to know now while it's out instead of when I turn thekey. Or make a pass.
Getting closer.

So. Greatlakes fur con has been pretty well just that. Great.

We've been derpin around and stuff. The hotel staff have been good. And all in all its been pretty laid back.

Got to meet  Rukh_Whitefang a pretty cool wolf. also has a 3rd gen f-body. Which has been awesome.

There's also been. Uh. That one guy with the Sbc he wants me to buy off of him. Which I probably will, cause. Hey. I will need one to build with a nice rotating assembly for the next build. Perhaps I'll have use for the 19.5 tire as an engine transport again.


The dances have been much slower than last year (YAY actually worth going to!) and then there's been some pretty good parking lot hangout.

The venue is a mite small.


I'm meeting a lot of cool people who I will likely remember and not be able to identify.

And. Yes. It's been ages since I've done a jornal. K. Fine. I've been busy. And lazy.

For the interested parties, mostly me, my head gaskets arrived on Thursday. Finalizing the compression ratio to 10.0:1 next begins the assembly. Oh shit I need head bolts too...always one more thing. Then test the valve train geometry to see if I need pushrods.

Shooting to be done by July. Realistically by end of July-august.

So I should be there Thursday late/Friday and then again after work on Saturday.

Ummm. Yeah. Standard jornaloo.
No drinking
Can't wait to see the car show.

Still managing that life stuff.
My big nemesis is taxes and my consumers energy bill that I've been slacking on.

So I've honestly been really occupied. Work mostly. We're renting the house now and it's so much better than the apartment. It feels like home for no good reason, but it's nice.

I've mostly been haunting Twitter. Causing all sorts of puns and aweful commentary. And it's about all I have time to maintain.
Bills are a lot higher at the house, coping with that. Hotrod funds are running a bit dry. Lol. Such is life.

So. Yeah. Just some short update.

 sharpe19 started a campaign for  calicocougar For those who aren't familiar with her, she makes fursuits, plush, digital art, and is all around an amazing angel.

Around December 30th, 2014, Calico was admitted to the emergency room due to an ongoing illness and pain in her abdomen. For the first 2 weeks the doctors were unsure what was the trouble until a few tests came in. The source of the problem was her gall bladder, or more specifically, what was left of it. Gall stones had passed though her gall bladder, one lodging inside the gall bladder itself. This caused the bladder to swell but instead of bursting, it dissolved in on itself, collapsing, and calcifying to the surrounding organs and tissues. Once it had dissolved itself, the infection was released upon the rest of the abdominal cavity, spreading rapidly without much sign or warning.

Earlier in the year she suffered severe chest pains but the underlying cause of said pains wasn't discovered until much later, long after the infection had spread. The doctors realize now the chest pain had been the initial warning sign of the gall bladder in distress.

An emergency surgery was scheduled and she went under to remove the infected tissues. 3 hours and 3 pints of lost blood later, the infection had been removed. The incision had to be made from her hip bone up to her sternum because of how far the infection had spread.

According to the doctor, it was the worst case he had ever seen and that she shouldn't have been alive (or wouldn't have been much longer...).

It will take at least 6 months of rest and time for her to recover fully, preventing her from working properly to cover the bills.

I've started this GoFundMe in hopes of helping alleviate the strains of bills and possibly, just possibly, help make enough to cover the cost of the surgery itself.

Like I said above, if you are able to donate, that would be amazing. However, spreading the word is also greatly appreciated.

I thank you with all of my heart for any and all help and support sent towards this wonderful angel and I wish everyone that reads this the best.


!!!!LINK HERE!!!!
https://www.gofundme.com/ko8zi8

Which has been absolutely amazing for moving. Unfortunantly I think that Michigan has finally remembered its almost frikin January and has decided its about time to drop below freezing again.

Christmas has come and gone again, i was very glad to have had christmas eve as well as christmas day off from work. I was able to spend more time with my grandmother and decompress a little. We were able to get out to a shooting range on christmas eve and pop off a bunch of rounds from her AK47, which was alot of fun. And then we sat around the pool table cleaning the guns like we used to do with my grandfather when we'd go shooting...i still miss him...i think i mostly miss that now, i understand things well enough...that i have quesions and conversations i'd like to have. but they'll have to wait untill i catch up with him, and i hope thats none too soon.

We've been sleeping and operating mostly out of the house now which has been WONDERFUL. aside from the creepy noises we're not used to yet. its a big improvement..

and i think ive procrastinated from packing and dinner long enough so ..there

umm...

i dont even have a witty closer for this..

Hi. I'd pretty much forgotten I have a FA for like the last month.

K so updates.
My brothers supra started. It caught fire only a little on the test drive. It's been leakin oil and I wish I'd let it burn. Just hauled it up to the exhaust place today....errr. Yesterday now.

We have a bed and a couch moved into the house we'll be renting. What more can you ask for really? It's actually kinfof an awesome couch for 35$. So. That happened. Next is a dresser. And then pitching a bunch of clutter that we don't need.

And work. Yeah. That place. So they didn't give me the time off for MWFF so I ended up working a 7:45 to 5 on Saturday and booking it down I-94 to rosemont.
Showed up at about 8something. Smashed on some Chinese and suited with sharpe for the dance. Which was AWESOME. OMG. I died the set was amazing and on the UV lighting. Bones looks SIIIICK UNDER BLACKLIGHT. And i didnt last long out thrre. Something to do with having worked a 48 hour work week with too little sleep.
So we decided to call it a night for the suiting around 12:45 or whatever.

Sharpe says "hey I might take the spook out to get some floor time with that little beastie, but first I need a shower.
Some minutes later  jake_bolt comes in "I wonder what's up. There's a bunch of fire trucks out front."
We notice from our 8th floor vantage point, firefighters on the 10th floor waving around a magical fireman tricorder thingy that's reacting pretty regularly. We watch someone approach them and they push him back. Quickly. We also started smelling chlorine. Which was really weird.

*gears start grinding in my head.
*more grinding
(That's a gas detector thingy. It's going off. They just shoved that guy out of there in a real hurry. I bet there's a natural gas leak....shit, we better get our shit ready to bug out. Shit...sharpe's in the shower.

So sharp had a whole thirty seconds heads up before someone banged on the door telling us there's gas we gotta go. And I had thirty seconds to prioritize what we were taking. I'm like. Marble fox spook, that's pretty irreplaceable, coat it's cold out. Pizzas head. Bones head is pretty irreplaceable. Keyswalletflashlightknife. Oh shit my work boots...dont want to have to explain that one...And we were out the door.

Thought we were gunna watch the place burn down that night to be honest.
Of course I thought it was a natural gas leak.

It was a long frikin night. I'm actually really impressed with everyone. No mass panic. And everyone really pulled together to lift each other up. I felt really bad for the non convention hotel patrons who were actually asleep at the time and suddenly thrust into a world of...well...us...

And we pretty much spent the next two hours moving around watching the ambulances file from the hotel one at a time and combing twitter for info and retweeting whatever we could.

Got to bed around 5 am. The hotel people were amazing about the whole thing. Seriously. Amazing.

Visited some vendors on Sunday. Goobered around in pizza until it was time to load up and go. Which is the worst part of any con. Especially mff.

This is my home con. And I love going every year. Yeah it's "big" but. It really doesn't feel it to me. And there's never a bad time to suit. Other than being in the dealer den looking over the merch. I really want to suit 100% of the time. Well. Accounting for time with sharpe. Maybe 80% of the time.

Umm. After that we had Denny's on the way back and. And spent the better part of Monday thinking of plausibly deniable statements in case anyone had heard of the chlorine attack in Chicago. Umm yeah.

I crashed one of sharpe's streams. Which is one of my favourite things to do while she works. Hahaha. She had such an adorable squeaky laugh it was adorable.

I guess that's all I can think of. Now I'm going to wake up in four hours and go work.

So. Now that I'm almost awake. I think I can squeak one of these suckers out.

Oh and if you don't see yourself in this journal, it isn't because I hate you. I may still hate you but the placing or not placing of persons in journal has no bearing on this.
If you are unsure of this status you will just have to suffer.

So this was a con of firsts
It was the first time we've done a pre-con video.
The first time  sharpe19 has ever been guest of honor, I'm über proud of her and all that jazz. It's also the first time I have ever had a handler in suit. And let me say. I was not used to it.

The location was incredible. And it was SOOO NICE to be by the pool in 80 deg weather while it snowed back home.
I would've killed for some powerade or Gatorade tho


First off. Bones was adorable. At one point there was indeed a box top on his head and it was the cutest ever and I cant really even begin to explain why. This is a character sharpe really can tap into. Anyways. She mostly zoomed around in bones. Gave panels.

I really just kind of derped around making heckling comments at everyone. I was tempted to try my hand at MC for a bit. But I chickened out.

Sharpe on the other hand entered into her first ever dance competition. Highly last minute people were like "we'll there's only about 6 people entered. DOOO EEEETTT!!!!
And she did. In about 15 hours she stressed and finaggaled a song to dance to and a bundle of nerves.

And she did amazingly. Her set was incredible. I had seen her practicing as a bundle of nerves and i was beside myself watching her performance. Her set was actually cut early and they demanded she re-start and encore. Which just about killed her in the most adorable manner possible.

She took judges choice from tayerr. I really wish we could've had judges commentary after the performances. But the MC really rushed them along...meh.

It was also a pleasant surprise to be able to tag along with the other guests and ming and el. It was particularly nice to get to know Ahmadia and her husband. Wonderful people. Genuinely wonderful. And talented.

We were able to catch up with ino a bit which was fun. And I got to finally have carne asada dinner I've been missing for so long.

I loved two griffin's panel on "how to talk to your parents about furries" that was fun. It was actually very insightful in a very dick sort of way. And I like a good dick perspective. Helps me feel better about my own dick perspectives.

Oh there's so much that happened. This con was really a blast. It really didn't feel like a second year con, And to be honest. I liked just covering up the GOH part of the badge and just derping around.

It was really hard to leave...
Yeah. This morning PCD hit pretty hard. I really didn't want to go back to work.

Just curled up in bed wishing I could just...yeah. It's better now. Work turned out to be less draconian than I remembered.

And they've put into policy a mandated buddy system. We will see how that goes. But for cereal, there's about five pages detailing their ideal system for two tire techs to do rotates and flat repairs and what have you. I wish I could get paid to sit in an office a d draft that beauty.

Or if I could get paid by the dumb idea. But I really don't want to work in politics.

Anyways. It was con weekend for a lot of y'all and it seems like a time good was all by had.

http://youtu.be/RycigE_6YQk

Pardon the wind noise.
Just kind of threw this together.

Also. Hi. It's getting chilly up here and I'm looking forward to bein in Arizona for Halloween. I could use a break.

The really big thing I'm worried about is askin the scheduling manager if I can get out wayyyy early on Thursday to make the flight to Arizona. Yeah. Nerve wracking talking to him. I just really can't read him and he always seems angry.

Anyways. What the fur's been up with all y'all?

And I've been plotting. Ohhh have I been plotting. Ohh I can't wait to see what we'll do with this assemblage. I am so excited to see her again. This has only been a week. But we did the long distance thing. And it sucks. 60% of the time you're pining for each other. 20% is distracting yourself so you can't think about it 40% is talking on the phone directly and 10% is holding each other like you never will again.

I broke down sobbing when I heard she made the flight. Yes. I am a man who can be reduced to sobbing by my woman. The only woman to do this. She is indeed special.

I'm on some sort of emotional up and down I don't even kno.

Can't words.

Missing sharpe.

Just a few more days until I can see her again.

Hold her again. Feel her in my arms. Smell her sweet smell. Hear her voice, not over some damn speaker. Wrap my arms around her and never let go. I can't wait to make my stupid puns and see her smile, or those other comments and enjoy her doing the little spaz thing where she hits me and freaks out.

I can't wait


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Because I can twitter. I'm on tweetbook. Or twitspace or facer or whutever.
I'm pizzawolf.
Add me I guess. I'll probably post offensive and rational content somewhere squarely in the pg-18 range. So that'd be on the upper end of pg-13. Whatever.
Watch me...or follow...me. That sounds creepy.

Anyways if you want to get more info than you ever wanted to know about the insides of my skull and the genuine insanity housed there. Take a peek
pizzawolf
Or however the hell you link that shit.

Hashtags and twits and thatall

We have new tire balancers at work.

They

Do


Road force balancing.

Srslu. These machines are smarter about tire balancing than I will ever be. And no more getting bit hed at for double cone balancing and not using the finger plates. No more debate on "the tire is hopping like a mofo. It's out of balance because he has shit tires on his car."
"Well...err..umm...just balance them and bolt them on."
It will now be definitively tire or rim.

I'm so geeked aboun these suckers.

So sharps made me a kilt to traipse around in at the ren faire. It was pretty ballin. Unfortunately the day we went it was about 55 degrees out. Fun fact kilts actually keep things pretty warm above the knees.

Anyway it was pretty awesome and I look forward to all the tuna Halloween stuff we have coming up. Sharpe has a gig in hell for hell-o-ween season and that'll be fun.

My brothers car is nearing completion. Jus a bunch of stupid little shit left and me getting the balls to actually start it.

Anyways. Miss you all. My life has been this damn car for the last 5-6 weeks.

I've been pulling around 55 hours a week between time at work and my brothers engine project. He drove his 86supra mk3 back from school for break to fix up a bit between semesters.

Yup it totally has rod knock. For those who don't understand what this means. It's about the equivalent of cancer. Bad cancer. As in its just a matter of time till it seizes or puts a rod through the block.

So he found a turbo engine project with some snazzy aftermarket stuff for a grand. And it's completely absorbed me for the past two weeks.

It's actually been fun in a masichistic s&m sort of torturous way. And I am excited to hear this thing lay rubber.


And it's been nothin but hot and humid here.

But sitting here with my last few minutes on my lunchbreak has been wonderful. Hopefully I can take Saturday afternoon and spend some time with sharpe.
We will see.

So this was an interesting experience. To say the least.
By the time it came to attending this con it was mostly out of sheer deliberate stubbornness that sharpe an I have a natural overabundance of. Also to see calico cougar and Shar. Our favorite lezbutts. Ever.
We had to fly out standby and it was one of those times where flying standby looked really good if we could make it to msp. Which we did. And then it all went south. We got barely bumped off the first two flights. I made the third. Sharpe missed the fourth and fifth before I finally broke down and bought her a one way ticket with some emergency money I had squirreled away.

The convention was pretty awesome. We were mostly only there saturday. Which was cool. So many cools things. I bought contact soap. Because their wild coyote smelled like leather and wood. And because I need to find a new soap because they don't make my blade howl anymore.

We had fun at the Saturday night dance. We hung with caninehybrid and her man which was pretty cool.

Oh and we saw guardians of the galaxy. I'm pretty sure you've seen it by now. And if you haven't. Beg,borrow or steal 8 bucks or whatever to go see this thing. Seriously. It's one of those that I am buying. Flat out buying on DVD when it is released.

It's that good. Wonderful writing. Amazing characters that are deep and natural and just
*fanboy squeee* omg rocket is my spirit animal.

Oh. Flying back from the con was amazing. Because we had bought tickets. It's amazing to show up and know you're getting on the plane as long as you show up in time.

Since then my brothers motor project is taking off. His 7mge has rod knock so be found a 7mgte with a t4 and aftermarket stainless headers and fun goodies for a grand. His motor just came out tonight. I'm goin to be so damn tired tomorrow at work.

Pretty frikin awesome. Since we got here that is. Lots of cool peeps.

So. We fly out tonight hopefully to begin our trip to Denver for rmfc.
Staying with lady shar and calico cougar. Our favourite lezbutts in the world.

Life is busy. Lots of stuff going on at work. Lots of stuff going on everywhere. It's been busy, crazy. And I'm glad sharpes there to hang on to.

I think her root canal went well so as her jaw loosens up she should be feeling much better as long as she doesn't overdo her wrist. *stares purposefully at a particular fursuit maker tha I'm married to*



So we've made it to MSP sharpe and I have found a decent couch thingy to curl up on.

That is after this conversation.
Us at McDonald's.
Sharpe:I haven't eaten here in awhile. What do they have to eat?
Me: well they have the diarrhea. Oh and also the gut punch.


Anyways.
She has a copy of digger that I've been pestering her to read since I picked it up and couldn't unglue myself from it.
My brother got it for us for. Aniversary I thing. Amazing book if you were considering picking up 8 years of webcomic in book format.

Also. There's this announcement that always comes over the intercom. About once every 15 minutes
"Passengers be sure to keep your luggage under control at all times."
And this smartass in my head that is pizzawolf shouts
"AAAAAHHHHH. HELP! MY BAG IS TOTALLY OUT OF CONTROL! AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!"

*violently shakes backpack*

Three years ago. Doesn't feel like its been that long.  sharpe19 and I promised ourselves to each other for all time. And then some more.

I know it hasn't been easy on her. But she still makes me smile nonetheless. Helps me make those really poor decisions that best friends help you make.

She didn't marry the perfect man. Hell sometimes I wonder why I haven't been shot. Three years of unwashed dishes. Dirty socks in her workroom chair. Insulting her potential clients intentionally or otherwise.

She still loves me. And my life would be empty without her. Somewhere north of four years ago I was saying to myself. "No. This stuff doesn't happen like this. Well. I don't care how it ends up, if she's the one. Or if she just becomes one of those friends. I'll take whatever she'll let me have." Or leaving after a week that changed my life thinking. "I feel so happy around her. For once in my life I found a girl that makes me feel this way. And I have to drive off....what the hell am I doing." Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined we would've ended up here.

You never know how things are going to work out.

I remember kneeling across from her three years ago. Happy as I had never thought possible.

It's late. I'm rambling.

But I will always be grateful for the firey, independent, talented, beautiful and surprising woman that I met. From a random, creepy note that I sent asking to split toe cost of gas telling her I fully expected her to say no and for her to at least give me a mildly plausible excuse.
I met someone I couldn't control. Someone with a kind heart and a stubborn streak and as much resisting to authority as I do.

Someone I love more than myself.

Thank you for three wild years. Here's to more. Wilder ones to come.

^^