Got stuff I'm working on, I'm just not in a huge rush ya know.

I have a discord server which is fairly chill, I post scribbles there. It's an okay place to be https://discord.gg/NxQK3SvFut

Last weekend I didn't post an update for Distribution day, and I'm probably not going to post this weekend either.

There are two posts left for Distribution day, and both those images are pretty much finished. I've got some work to do on their backgrounds ect, but I've been busy irl with irl stuff and I've ran out of time a bit.

Next weekend I'm gonna get them done and posted for, ontop of doing a general clean up of some older posts.

So I guess it's a small break before the end. Sorry about that.

Join the discord, it's a place.

https://discord.gg/3dV6EcRSsY

My government is doing it's thing.

A few sites are just refusing to jump through the hoops and blocking users from the uk. Others are jumping through the hoops, which generally means I then have to jump through hoops to verify my age. It's pretty invasive, and I don't have much choice other than to comply. Ya know how it be,

The UK government kinda just does what it wants. It doesn't care about hundreds of thousands of people requesting that they do the bare minimum in the face of a genocide, they really wont care about people complaining about these laws.

So, yeah.

I don't know what FA's approach will be, but if they just block uk users I'm just kinda fucked. :/

Those sure be places to interact with me.

I generally only post my finished art on FA, and I don't tend to ramble. So if you want that, here are some links.

https://bsky.app/profile/omnipresen.....on.bsky.social

https://discord.gg/3dV6EcRSsY

You know how it is.

I'm hoping to get back to drawing things, my brain is just not in that space right now. In general however, art production will probably slow down considerably again.

I am very happy with the general interest in the project. People often ask me questions about Distribution day, Project 13 and the general setting. This is great. However, often I don't answer. This is not because the questions are bad, instead this is because these are the exact questions I want people to ask.

So, why don't I answer them?

It's complicated.

I could infodump, however that is not really the way I want to display the information. I also think it would rob people their opportunity to fill in the gaps.

The issue is also that the story comes from Fives perspective, and Fives doesn't yet question the things going on around her. They just kinda are the way they are because thats the way they are.

I'm honestly a but unsure what I'm trying to say here.

I just worry that some people might feel a bit dejected If they've reached out wanting to know more and I've either blanked them or side stepped the question.

Anywho, we're about 2/3rds of the way through. Hopefully we'll reach the end, and then I can start a story that actually explains things a bit.

Ya know how it is.

Sometimes drawing hurts and you have to stop for a bit, however now I can limp my way through drawing sessions so hopefully I'll get back the pace I had going.

Even for me I've been posting less recently, been trying to get ontop of things again. However honestly I don't see much time for commission work in the future which is rough as I'm broke :2

I think I'm going to restart my Patreon.

Now there is nothing to worry about. This wont change anything, my content will be free still. I create my stories ect to be viewed, and I don't have enough commitment to properly create and sell a product. I will however be posting links to all my artwork as files ect on Patreon as some people like that. I might also include text-less versions of some images, I may also include various WIP's/sketches that went nowhere as I have a lot of those.

Those WIP's/Sketches can be found on my twitter, it's just a ball ache to hunt them all down... so ya know kinda a perk for paying.

Which uh, perks for paying. I'm going to try to draw an image of Briar (My fursona with the plush arms) at least once a month to post on Patreon. This will be an exclusive image. Which YEAH I KNOW I just said I wasn't doing anything like that... but it's not really the same. It wont have a story attached, and it will also probably only be tiddy pic's at best as Patreon has rules around animal genitals.

It's additional content which only exists for patreon. You're not missing out on anything.

Anywho, none of that is set up yet.

I'm going to launch it proper at some point.

Have a link.

patreon.com/OmnipresentCrayon

Started a YCH thing and then posted rabbit bewbs a month later, what is going on here?

I've been going through some things IRL. Personal things. Still going through those things but ya know.

So I did uh,

https://archiveofourown.org/users/AutumnBriar

I have a sever, it's pretty active.
https://discord.gg/bZyYPX3X

It sure is a site.
https://itaku.ee/profile/briar

I made an animation error uh.

It's fixed now, but if you already looked at that image... maybe go back to it and view again.

Going to be honest, I haven't been paying attention to a lot of things recently but I did pick up on the whole Policy changes drama here and there.

I draw characters that are, when compared to other characters, child sized. However, my proportions are adult.

Just very smol adults.

So I'm not all that worried.

So I've been taking commissions recently as you may have noticed? I did like, two of them so far.

Inshort I had some money saved up to visit my partners in the US, but my desktop died and I had to replace it to continue doing what I do. Mostly sculpting. Ate all my savings and I've been working on repaying myself. At the same time however, I was saving up for a 3d printer as I want to produce animal people minitures. Little guys for painting/table top games blah blah. Shared some of that here.

That's taken a back seat.

HOWEVER, okay and this is where the irresponsible finachial decisions come in.

I have a bit of money on me, and there's a sales going as it's that time of the year.... including on 3d printers.

Most my savings for the printer went to replacing my desktop. However, I kept what was on Patreon on Patreon sitting in a corner. So that combined with the money sitting in my paypal... it's close to the cost of the printer I wanted on sale. Not quite there... but with a few donations if anyone was interested in supporting that side of what I do >>https://ko-fi.com/A7831L2R<<; you know. Could just, push me there.

So twitter isn't looking too hot right now,

https://screechingsounds.tumblr.com/

It's gone alright.

Six images, one perday as I started on tuesday.

Next week there's some difficult weather coming where I live, so that might disrupt things.

At some point I'm going to figure out commssion pricings, we'll see how next week goes.

I don't want an insane ramble cluttering up my page

I don't even generally read them.

Here I am though because I felt like rambling, as I don't generally ramble here on FA. I don't honestly tend to interact awhole lot at all on FA, you just get my images chucked at you with whatever amount of context I throw onto them.

What am I rambling about though?

I'm rambling about being a failure, as well I am a failure.

My art has been improving? I feel like it's really starting to get to a good quality, however I'm also losing all my "go" juice to actually draw. To produce content, posting is stressful? When I actually finish an image I kinda get paralysed? I'm stuck.

Part of me really wants high polished content, with a ton of words. A coherent story? I want to tell stories, but telling stories is a lot of work. It doesn't help that I never finish the stories I do start? Which, I do a lot of starting. When, I really want to finish.

I also really don't want creating content to be work. I want stuff to be easy, quick, throw it out there into the wind?

I don't really know what I'm doing?

I feel like my art is improving, and my writing is improving but my actual abilty to put those skills to use? Plummeting.

I want stories, I just don't want to be the one to have to do it? Or I do? I don't know? That doesn't even make sense?

These things wouldn't exist if I didn't make them exist, but I just want them to exist. Making them exist is just so grinding? And demoralising as at the end of the day, I'm a failure? And I know I'll find something I dislike about a project, and then I'll start stalling, and I'll move onto something else.

I just can't finish anything?

It's taking away my motivation to start anything, as I just know ultimatly I'm going to fail. I'm going to fuck it up, I'm going to end up hating it, and I'm going to end up abandoning it.

I can't commit.

Which makes it pointless to follow me? As whats the point in getting invested in anything I make if it never gets finished?

I wouldn't follow me?

It sound frustrating.

Though for me it's never been about being popular? I don't honestly care if people follow me or not, but I'd like to be respected? I guess? I want my content to be good, I want it to be interesting, I want it to exist and to exist it needs to have an end. Start, middle end. I want to actually have finished content to share, and have shared. For people to be able to go "Hey this is the thing that person made."

People ask me what I do, and I honestly never have a good example of my content to give them.

But then as I said, I want to be respected? And who do I even want to be respected by? My peers? My icons?

My favourite artists and writer Coracleboat is my litteral proof reader now, and has been for awhile. She's the main reason my writing has improved so much, and from what I understand she enjoys my content? So I've done that, I've got that recognition form my icons. I've done it, I've suceeded.

But it doesn't feel like I have? I honestly think I let her down a lot with my content?

She'll probably read this and see this, and idk what her thoughts on that is. I'm probably wrong? I just personally feel like I could be doing better?

I could be making more interesting content? Sometimes I think my settings are boring, that I'm letting my icons down? But I've honestly only really got one icon to work off from these days. I'm not really a part of a fandom, and most other artists just spew out mindless porn.

In a lot of ways I feel fake?

I talk a lot about wanting to create, and having a need to force these things to exist. I ramble out these settings, I'm inspired a lot by the settings Coracleboat makes.

But I sometimes just feel like the knock off brand?

Kid "I want coraleboat content"

Mum "We have Coracleboat content at home"

Coracleboat content at home - "It's me, OmnipresentCrayon."

Not that I even use that fucking name anymore outside of being my account name. I'm Briar, hello if we've never met.

If this is the first thing you've ever read from me, the artist writer person, well hey. This probably makes no scense whatsoever. I'm just rambling incoherently. I don't even know where I'm even going with this. I don't know the point, I have no direction.

In this ramble, or just with my content. My work, my life.

Fuck.

Wow look I updated NoBs, what's going on there?

Well, I've decided I want to try and keep a schedule. Usally I tend to over focus on one thing, burn out, leave it for a bit while jumping to the next thing for a bit. Rinse and repeat.

Instead here I've decided I want to try and post NoBs every weekend.

We'll see how that goes.

Come mingle with me, a sexual degenerate.
https://discord.gg/eEYRf2y4

Wow, I haven't mentioned this in awhile... but I do actually have a discord channel.

Feel free to join and come chat I guess.

https://discord.gg/85X6b9w