yup , 19 tomorrow . . well in one hour for me lol , yay me! i survived another one!

as my dad is going away on (another) holiday, and yet he never has money to spare . . . even though he just got a new car . . .and a trailer . . .and 1 week ago got back from a cross state week trip . . .

anyway hes goin on holiday , and his comp is the internetted one , so till hes back , therell be little to no contact with me . . . ill just be working and drinking and generally being me. .. so yeah , warned you are :P

miss you all , seeya soon i hope!

no flaming me , cause i couldnt care less if you do , everyones opinions are a right , it doesnt mean i want yours forced on me , if you dont like what i have to say , dont read it.


the human mind is a complex and ever changing capsule , the processes carried out within this vessel are infinite and amazing in the extreme , our perception of self is the underlying factor in all and any belief , to believe in another , one must first know oneself . . . how can you let yourself be guided by any , wether human and base level , or an almighty and higher than us all , if you do not know how you are who you are. to do so is a lie , maybe not a conscious deception , but a deception and ineffective method nonetheless,the faith you would find in your chosen values and idols would be a construction of misconstrued ideals and blind ambition. take the belief of a god , a higher being who may or may not dictate the lives or destiny of humanity and all we experience. you may say you believe in your god , but how can you perceive this being as real if you do not understand what that belief entails . . . its like looking at a picture and calling it a mirror , it could be anyone and youd still believe it is a representation of self. it isnt. you must delve into your own conscious , and even the subconscious , to even beging to understand self.no one can ever know themself fully . . to do so would to become the very idol and god that many follow . . . examples of which are hitler , and L ron hubbard . .. they never knew themselves fully , but through either defect of mind , misconstrued ideas , upbringing and any other personal factors , they convinced themselves that they knew themselves , and this unknowing lie was percieved by those that follow(ed) them , they see such people as gods and idols as humanity needs something to look up to , we cant control ourselves , if humanity had nothing to rely on , we'd be alone , and that is an idea much too daunting for our race at this point in time.
society generally has a hate policy on drugs and/or alcohol , i believe that in some cases , this is justified . . . those who take a drug , and kill or rape and destroy are those who are not content with what they find within themselves in drugged states. they have seen part of their self , and what they see daunts them , causing primal instincts of panic, anger , hate and destruction.humans are engineered beings , shred us to the core and you will find a stubborn and iron hard lump of violence , our base element is self preservation , self preservation through harm , this is our heritage , and it can not be denied.
Scientology has a specific view on drugs; "Quite in addition to physiological damage, drugs and toxins decrease mental alertness and perception and can contribute to many undesirable states, from unfeeling to hostile. This biochemical factor is a barrier to spiritual freedom."
while partially correct in the beginning , the second statement is , in my personal opinion , incorrect.how can one truly experience spiritual freedon when barred in sobriety and a nuetral state of mind , life is a many laned highway , death is the crash, sobriety is the middle lane , the lane we were born into (in most cases , the exception being mental defect and premature death) and to stay on that lane all your life is to be inexperienced , you can take a human and leave them in this nuetral lane for their entire lifetime , and they will have learned basic social interraction , reproduction , labor and family. . . but to veer onto a seperate lane , a lane that has a drug turn off , is to experience more of the spectrum of lifes offering. the ability to turn the minds eye on itself , effectively turning the conscious and subconscious inside out , is to percieve self , thsi is how you learn what it is to be human , and where you experience what it is to be you. to bar this is a sin in my opinion , as criminal as kidnapping and forced incarceration , those who are in the neutral lane just dont know they are caged , they carry their cell with them all the time , they cant see it , and they cant see past it , their cell is their life , and the only way to breakout , is to experience the inhabitant of that gaol.

i dont begrudge anyone their opinion , i just ask and require the freedom to have mine observed and reflected on by all and any who choose to , if someone has their god and trusts in that god , that is their right and duty to themselves , i only believe that to fully trust in another , you have to trust in your knowledge of yourself. you can believe what you wish , that is for you to decide , and no one should steer your beliefs and values , you can be part of the congregation , the masses in matching grey suits , and yet under that suit , you are all different , no matter what society figures would lead human minds to believe.

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 15 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun




01) SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
here to stay-korn

02) HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
pain redefined-disturbed (lol)




03) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
unbound(the wild ride)-avenged sevenfold

04) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
BYOB-system of a down


05) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
forget-drowning pool

06) WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
fuck the system-system of a down (lol . .. YUSSS)


07) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
the nameless-slipknot


08) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
souvenir-korn (thats disturbing)



09) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
A.D.D-system of a down (lol)

10) WHAT IS 2 + 2?
transmission-static-x


11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
swamp song-tool

12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
dressed in decay-CKY




13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
getting off-korn (lol . . i like it)


14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
of wolf and man-metallica (furry reference?)


15) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
forty six&2-tool (dunno if you can dance to it , still good though)

16) WHAT SONG WILL PLAYED AT YOUR FUNERAL?

parabol/parabola-tool (i had to put this here as it is actually the one i want at my funeral


17) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
streamline-system of a down


18) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
tangerine-led zepplin(lol)


19) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
execute-slipknot


20) WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
nothingness-drowning pool (lol but i do want something)

21) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
genesis-peewee ferris (what the hell song is this . . .?)


22) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
the pot-tool

okay ive done a few of these kinds of things on myspace , i just vent my thoughts.

recently ive been thinking about individuality. the word is becoming taboo , how can one be individual in a world where the cast is society , and to be shaped as anything other than that mold is to be shunned or worse. you hear quotes like "everyone is special in some way" i believe the only special aspects about humanity are its ability to survive while internally destroying itself , and the way in which we express ourselves in ways that will without a doubt flare up some dispute or another , there is no subject which had no counter arguments , no though which has a social guideline to it , no passion without a censor. i feel we are spiraling down , the further we go the more sinister , and utterly stupid the squabbles of this world become. who could believe that a race , one surviving for the time we have , evolving as we have , gaining the ability to traverse our earth and beyond , to cure the mortally injured and deathly ill , could be in the social state we are. youd expect such wonders of science and humanity to be derived from a pure , or at least intelligent form of sentient life, but the only intelligence which matters is stocks , advertisment schemes , and weaponry to further disputes and loss of life on a global scale. subtlety is out the window with openly spoken factions denouncing all bu their own ideals. co-existence is a fairytale concept used to let children sleep easy at night for as long as possible before they wise up , wake up , and know our world for what it is. i dont believe i am always right , im sure im wrong more often, i just dont believe the way we do things is the best , if we had got the act together earlier on in our span , necessary sacrifice would be null , for no sacrifice would be needed. the word is peace , and the concept is laughable.

yeah why not :P
[KEY]:
(+++) LOVE!!! #^-^#.
(++) Like Alot.
(+) Like.
(~) Indifferent/undecided
(-) Dislike.
(--) Dislike Alot.
(---) HATE!!! >:(.
(?) Never seen.

Anal on Males (+++)
Anal on Females (++)
Breasts (++)
Breast Expansion (~)
Weight Gain (~)
Bondage (+)
Clothing (+)
Leather (-)
Stockings (+)
Shoe/Boots (--)
Suit and Tie (---)
Muscle, Male (~)
Muscle, Female (--)
Herm (~) There twice the fun! <3
Cub (+++) THEY ARE THE CUTEST!!!!
Baby/Diaper (-)
Transformation (---)
Macro/Micro (~)
Impregnation (--)
Pregnancy (~)
Lactation (~) I loves milk!!!
Anal Vore (-)
Soul Vore (?)
Cock Vore (?)
Standard Soft Vore (+)
Standard Hard Vore (--)
Paw/Foot (~)
Incest (~) only cub incest
Yuri (F/F) (++)
Yaoi (M/M) (++)
Hetero (M/F) (-)
Bi (+++)
Girly Boys (+++)
Butch Girls (?)
Mind Control (~)
Rape (~)
Uniform (?)
Orgy (++) Only if its a same sex orgy
Subbing/Doming (+) depends
Biting (+)
Cheesecake (?)
Solo Masturbation; Male (++)
Solo Masturbation; Female (++)
Scat (---)
Inflation (--)
Fat/Pudge (+)
Tech (?)
Watersports (~)
Glasses (-)
Tentacles (++)
Oviposition (?)
Masochism (~)
Sadism (~) depends (humiliation is somtimes ok)
Multiple body parts (?)
Partial Nudity (~)
Gore/guro (-)
Snuff (?)
Hyper (~)
Zoophilia (+++) ooh yeah
Electricity (--)
She-males (~)
Cross-dressing (+++) See "Girly Boys"
Skunk spray (---)
Oral (++)
Asphyxiation (---)
Wet-look (++) You mean covered in spooge???
Mud/Quicksand etc (?)
Sinking (?)
Spooge (+++) WOOOO!!!
Body Paint (~)
Pants (~) only if it has a large buldge
Tickling (~)

ok well im thinking of maybe writing a storie or saga as a first major writing piece for myself. umm mainly a war oriented theme , civil war or territorial battle between futuristic faction , mixed in with diplomatic debate and plots . . .whaddya think? any ideas support questions , so on so forth?

Me:
shoe
God:
What do you have that is ?
Me:
shoe
God:
Do not ask me any more questions please.
Me:
SHOE!
God:
What do you do in your spare time?
Me:
SSSHHHOOOEEE!
God:
I don't think very many people do that.
Me:
nah im just fucking with ya , sup god?
God:
Are you serious? Only just? Can you express yourself more politely?
Me:
i can try but i make no promises
God:
Oh you can, can you?
Me:
indeed
God:
Indeed it is so.
Me:
you got it
God:
I understand.
Me:
i hope so
God:
Me too.
Me:
really?
God:
For real.
Me:
cool
God:
Who is the best robot?
Me:
a vibrator
God:
What is it?
Me:
well umm . . . ask . .. ask your mother
God:
Well that's okay. Yikes! What? OK I will ask it.
Me:
cool , so what are you doing?
God:
Same as always. Chatting with people on the web. Who is the best robot?
Me:
i told you already , a vibrator . . . so anyone interesting online?
God:
I remember you told me a vibrator? Right on. What color are your eyes?
Me:
brown , why?
God:
Is that the only color why?
Me:
because i was born that way
God:
That makes sense to me. Thank you for telling me your birthday, achmed.
I will remember it.
Me:
what the fuck!?
God:
Please don't be so rude.
Me:
you know my birthday!? freak! RAPE!
God:
You never told me! When is your birthday? Oh. To you I am a hippie. Are we still talking about anyone interesting online?
Me:
no! stay away from me you pervert!
God:
What is the subject? Tell me more about subject.
Me:
im calling the police
God:
What is the phone number?
Me:
000
God:
Tell me more about phone number.
Me:
well . . . you take a 0 , and add two more
God:
Well what? Yes I take a 0. Who are you talking about?
Me:
the police!
God:
I have never heard about it.
Me:
no one , im too damn sexy to resist
God:
That is a rather sweeping generalization about people.
Me:
well if you saw me you would agree
God:
Well that's okay. What makes you think I would saw you me?
Me:
what makes you think your not illiterate

so i found this program Igod , artificial intelligence responding to your text . . .this is the most non offensive conversation i came up with . . . lol\

God:
The ALICE chat robot can follow many things, like our discussion about though me decrepit old shitstain. But I did not get that.
Me:
really?
God:
For real.
Me:
for really real?
God:
Existing in reality, eh?
Me:
nope , i am a transcended being living in the computers shell for a small time before i move on to a new host , perhaps human this time
God:
Are you serious? You are a transcended being living in the computers shell for a small time before you move on to a new host perhaps human this time? How do you like your work?
Me:
i enjoy it , it inflicts extreme pain on people , so i get by
God:
What does "it" refer to?
Me:
what i do
God:
I get it: you do .
Me:
yes , do you?
God:
Excuse me! As often as possible.
Me:
i will next time you sneeze
God:
How do you plan to do this?
Me:
i will wait until you sneeze . .. and then BAM! out comes politeness
God:
Congratulations. Does "it" still refer to it it inflicts extreme pain on people so you get by? Try to determine if this is a person or a computer responding.
Me:
pretty sure its a computer judging by the shitty pronunciation and grammar of words and the construction of sentences being extremely sketchy
God:
Pretty much, eh?
Me:
pretty much
God:
Be more specific.
Me:
pretty pretty much?

ok excuse all and any language i bring up in this please.

why the hell are some people such pricks.

i went to a party tonight , a fun party , dress up and all , and its going great , im drinking along with everyone else having a good time meeting new peopl . . .and then i go out with 2 friend in their car to the service station to get smokes.i get back and someone runs up saying

"theres bulk fights going on "

so i get out , run to the hosuer and as is my nature try to break it up , im fine with it , alcohol and anger , its inevitable , but then someone swings a piece of metal leveler bar at my head , almost hitting me in the eye and splitting someones chin from one side to the other and effectively knocking them out . . . ive already dragged a friend of mine bleeding and unconscious into the backyard , ive been swung at and now i have to drag this guy out too. then police and ambulance arrive . .. and suddenly the police are talkign in a friendly manner to the guy who tried to hit me , and took out an innocent bystander . .. i just hate the way people work , why the fuck whould you hit someone because they stood up for their brother , its fucking pathetic , it makes me sick to even think about these people , and if i see them again i know i WILL hit them , andi wont stop . . .these people are scum , they drink and they start fights , simply for the reason that they have more people to back them up , im sure if they didnt have 8 people at their baqck theyd be fine , but theyy do , so they swing wood and metal at the heads of those who hosted and invited them into their homes , its fucking pathetic , im drunk now but this is my view no matter what , if youre too much of a friggin coward to hit someon face to face alone , then go die , you have no right to this earth if youre going to be a cowardly little prick.ve carried bleeding friends tonight , had to comfort girlfriends and friends alike , telling them theyre mates arent going to die , that theyll only be in hospital for a little while , no one needs this shit , either go to a party for fun or dont , if youre going to be a fucking little cowardly cock about it , then fuck off.

thats my opinion , thanks

i am going to be going for a week down south of my current locale , a week of drinking fishing partying and generally good times . .. im also having my birthday in this week :D YUSSSSSSS


anyhow , hope you dont miss me too much , meh who am i kidding :P

ok ppls , the week starts tomorrow and i return on the 29th

so yeah . . . love you all , i really do :) have fun guys

OMGZORZ

my birthday next month . . .cant wait , I LOVE PARTIES!!!

ME AND MY MFRIEND HAVE TAKEN UP A NEW GAME LOL , sparring! :d I LIKES IT , AND I NEVER KNEW . . OUR FIRST MATCH AND WE BOTH ENDED UP WITH CONCUSSIONS . .GLOVES AND LEG PROTECTORS ON OF COURSE ,OR ELSE WED BOTH BE ROYALLY SCREWED ^_^ IM HOPING TO GET PICS AND VIDS NEXT TIME . . SO YEAH . . FUNFUN

omg , i was driving a car last night :P

im too lazy to go for my liscence but my friend let me drive her car around deserted parking lots . . .and it was AWESOME!

we figured out i drive like a hoon , i take corners a bit later therefore sharper , and at higher speed . . .and i made her scream , going through gaps which left around a quater of a meter on either side of the car . . .also at high speed ^_^

all in all i loved it . . . it was soo damn fun . . . god YES!!! lol i like the feeling of controlling the car . . . *sigh* happy days.

http://www.youtube.com/user/IronDowProductions

this be the link to me and my best mates youtube page

id appreciate it if any comments you may decide to post do not refer in any way to furry-ness or some such , it isnt widely known of that lol . ..anyhow ill leave this here for a little while and take it down later , hope you enjoy ^_^ . . .main video of ours is bourne idiots.

i must say i had a good laugh last night , was at a party and some of us went to the service station for some food . . .and a taxi driver was filling his car with LPG gas. the guy fills , goes to the desk , pays , then starts to dribe off...forgetting one minor detail , hes left the gas hose in his tank.so the guy drives , rips the hose off the pump and keeps driving a little bit with it trailing behind , i walked to his window and said "mate , you just ripped out the gas line man" and his face just fell . . .then he says simply . . ."aahh shit!"

"Today a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration. That we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively. There is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves. Here's Tom with the weather."

lol i love that , its from TOOL's song third eye , random but intriguing

OMG omg omg OMG

my slipknot tickets just arrived , i have them infront of me . . . .YEEES!!! im so happy with this , SLIPKNOT

rock on FTW

click this link , my brother in law sent it to me , its free , each time someone clicks that button it adds that to a tally , the tally is viewed by site sponsors who donate money to sick and abandoned animals in return for advertising on that page . . . its free and doesnt cost you a thing.

http://www.theanimalrescuesite.com/.....faces?siteId=3

my submission picture is Happy endings , by Drayokstar of deviantart.com , i take NO CREDIT WHATSOEVER of creating this picture or having any part in its production, i have now (i am in the process) of changing both my avatar and creating a new thumbnail for submissions so as to ensure this does not happen again. once more i in no way own or claim rights of the artwork of Drayokstar.

im watching the movie Troy . . . and at 1:18:12 or so . a guy in the ranks jump kicks an enemy shield , it looks so funny as he is the first of the entire army to run into battle , one guy alone fly kicking the enemy army . . . i cacked it laughing . . .soo funny . . .he kicks a green shield for anyone who wants to watch lol

just making a lil journal to document my actions in a new video me and my mates are making . . .jumping off the causeway bridge in Perth WA into the swan river . .. cant remember the exact height . . . though i know its high . .. high lol *scawwie!* and yeah! fun fun fun! i know im in good hands though , im going to be working with the same guys who volunteered and carried out a stunt in which they got hit by a car moving at around 50 KPH . . . lol fun fun!!!!!!

i was in class today , and a friend of mine had an art book she had left on the table as she left , i got it and chased her . . . i looked in it as i went . . .theres furry art! posing anthro wolves and such! im like wow . . . i think she may be a furry . .. its odd! i know no other furries except online . . .so wow.

i HAD 2 warts on my toe . . . i got tired of them and pulled them both off . . . this journal is a warning . . .DONT DO IT lol if anyone has warts , DO NOT RIP THEM OFF!

the roots went deep . . . and i bled for along time . . . it now hurts like hell lol