First off I would like to say that I am not dead. I can't apologize enough for my absence and lack of sustained communication with my friends and acquaintances... Despite a lack of input from me, know I've missed you all terribly and thought of everyone often throughout the years.

I figure that the best way to explain what's going on would be to honest. I have been struggling for years with depressive and manic episodes brought on by Bipolar 1. Unfortunately the only time I seem to have the energy to try to reconnect and engage usually heralds the beginning of a manic episode. To be frank, those moments in my life are not kind, I become a different person, one who believes in delusions and has disordered thinking. For years I've been trying to find the center between these opposites, to be who I want to be again. I think I'm finally starting to get things under control, but it's still impossible for me to say for sure. If I start saying or doing strange things it's possible that I've entered another bad point. Either depression or mania will sometimes make me withdraw, but I intend to try my best to stick it out and engage with all the wonderful friends I've missed over these years. My interactions might be slow and irregular, but this is me trying to make progress.

Again I know there isn't a way to turn back the clock and improve or change my behaviour over the years, all I can do is ask that people forgive me.

I still don't have anything new art-wise to share, some of my medications make drawing and concentrating on art very difficult.

If you want to ask me questions or leave comments I would be happy to answer them

so yeah, put some doodle drawings and BS here
http://yfrog.com/user/NullEnigma/photos

I arted, but it was entirely done with my fingers

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XH-groCeKbE I love birds <3

HIGGS BOSON YET?

Still sick and still inexplicably undiagnosed(I don't want to discuss specifics here, but basically pnuemonia symptoms and other nasty stuff). The amount of time I can devote in my life to keeping up with the Nullenigma stuff is pretty much at 0%. I'll post art when I both feel well enough to draw and up to posting it.

Thanks again to all my watchers and well-wishers, love you guys <3
Extra special thanks to all my friends who have both stuck with me through this or welcome me back when I am able to rejoin them.

Still sick, hard to draw when I feel crummy. Hope that changes soon.
Much love out to everyone<3

http://www.joystiq.com/2010/09/17/p.....anzer-dragoon/
'"Futasugi-san does have a passion for dragons and the interactions between humans and dragons," Spencer said...'

Oh hell yes :D

Between this and the Last Guardian, there are some really great games to look forward to from a potential naughtiness angle :V

EDIT: OR Tell me about one you've made that I can join!

Just need 5 people to group with the character "Immodest" (me) on the Freeport *extended* server and I'll make something called <Murr> or something like that. Casual and mostly so people can hook up :3

And if no one joins I'll just run around harvesting mats until I pass out~

http://everquest2.com/free_to_play

EDIT: I passed out, might try this again another time :3

Had a hiccup with the DNS autobilling but it should be fixed in a couple days or I have some very angry phonecalls to make :T Sorry about this

UPDATE: Ok I got another email saying the DNS renewal is for reals now, so we'll see in about 24 hours or so.. let me know if you can access it again

Anyone running servers? :V
Trying to get a cool server list going :3 You can note me or something if you don't want to give out the server in the journal.

http://english.aljazeera.net/news/e.....958118128.html

I don't really understand the difference between a law requiring clothing must be worn and a law saying certain clothing must NOT be worn. Is there a perspective I'm not understanding as an american?

I'm sure I'm not the only one making this type of journal either but .. *shrugs* It seems like a really awful move from my perspective, especially taking the reasoning they allegedly used into account.

Due to several complaints I've decided to tag my watersports/sounding stuff with a custom thumbnail, made a macro to help :> Hope this helps guys

http://www.livestream.com/nullenigma
IDK if this will work or not. Let me know if audio works, but I'm doubting it will!


Edit: 5 hours and 30 mins, not bad, uploading the stuff I drew.
Thanks to everyone who came to watch! <3

One of the funniest things I've seen are the community administrators who proudly post about how bitchy and foul tempered they are, and simultaneously complain that their userbase is moronic and deserves their prejudiced treatment. The admin doing this to lower the amount of daily BS essentially applies a selection filter to screen out requests from understanding and polite users who need help. The remaining sample only serves to reinforce the bitchy admin's preconceptions as all the useful users whirl away from the impending cyclone of suck.

V: I have no real proof but it tickles my brain in a nice way~


EDIT: http://loyalkng.com/wp-content/uplo.....anger-sign.jpg

It's taking a while, this thing is nasty.

Here's a bunny eating a stalk of parsley

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Getting over a bad sinus infection (gross), I hope to be online and such sometime in the future when feeling better... I don't know if I'm up to responding to the very nice comments I'm getting on my pictures right now, but I'll try later :>

I made a little place to put the sketches and stuff that I don't bother/feel are good enough to put on FA
http://www.gpknow.com/sketchblog/

I might also put kinkier stuff or WIPs there too. What do you think?

(UPDATED)
Hi guys, I've decided to give commissions a shot, and as this is an experimental move for me the theme is somewhat related. Basically for 20bux I'll draw your character as if it was captured and changed into a slutty feral version (or just normal if they already are ;D ), along with any squishy or stiff enhancements you'd like me to add, and their reaction to the ordeal. I'll be doing these with digital greyscale shading over a pencil or digital sketch.

Opening 5 sluts
1.  mercy (WIP)
2.  p_moss (COMPLETE :D)
3.  p_moss
4.  twile (COMPLETE :D)
5.  myrilla (SHADING)


If you wanna do this, send me a note with the above information and I'll give you my paypal address. I'll be refunding your money if I don't finish it in a week, this deadline essential for me to get them done in a timely manner. Also if I have promised you a commission slot in the past, send me a note and we'll work something out, thanks :D

Let me know here if you have questions about it. :>

I kept telling myself that I'd thank everyone individually but crap I don't really have the time for that... Thanks for everyone who watches me and I'll at least keep up chatting back at you awesome people on the submission comments!


Please nuke this journal :V

EDIT: No I am not going away, just clearing my message center jeez

I haven't really made any new drawings lately so I'll be adding some of the newer search tags to my images. Hopefully that'll help people find stuff and junk! :D

EDIT: Turns out my tags make my pictures sound like virus laden p2p detritus:
link alternate opencanvas multipleartists silly multitits feral anthro quad cumming cum endless hyper bigballs bigknot medical science oral vaginal urethral anal piercings kinky awesome

or

url alternate watersports pee piss interal wet drip raise quad feral rape vulva bitch multitits multibreasts swelling swollen inflation inflated cuminflation pissinflation

:T
Gonna keep adding em anyways! :D

 xenox reminded me that it was Monkey so Happy Monkey everyone!

 stevefarfan is doing an orgy image set that graciously features one of the wolf herms I've drawn a while ago http://www.furaffinity.net/view/255697/
The set will focus on sheath and nipple penetrations on this unsuspecting gal, and has me feeling rather excited about seeing the results!

Thanks Steve!
(relevant journal entry http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/492968/ )

I don't usually randomly plug things for people to buy, but I recently bought Melonleaf's 2nd Kemono volume from dlsite and I really enjoyed it :X

http://eng.dlsite.com/work/=/produc...../RE030535.html
There's mosaics on the genitals but at the high resolutions it doesn't detract from the images much. Also this one is in a simple image and HTML format, so you don't have to break IE to view it :3

It's $8 and full of squish :O Also if anyone knows if Melonleaf has a website/HP I'd really appreciate a link.

Just saw this http://fchan.us/read.php/faq/1144776042/l40
Because of course the fchan staff verifies the age of all artists posting regular porn!
Why can't they just come out and say "Most SecondLife Snapshots as porn are fucking ugly and almost no-one can masturbate to them" :|

People inventing stupid rationalizations for things in order to lend credibility to their words is one of my biggest pet peeves ever.