It's been so so so long since I've said anything here. I think about FA often because you guys kept me going in this dreary life I've lived.

You showed me kindness. You showed me I was worth something. You showed me that there were people out there who wanted to see me and see me thriving.

I would never be alive today if it wasn't for the support that this community provided me growing up. I just want you guys to know that even if you don't think it, even if you think just liking a post means so little, it doesn't.

You affected me in ways you can't even understand. You kept me going and knowing that I could provide worth to this world. You validated my existence and I can never feel anything but gratefulness for y'all.

There's so much negativity in any fandom and space online now a days. Just know you did good for that random artist who you probably just thought "hey that's a nice piece of art." The small things can matter so much more to someone than you think. You can do good in ways you've never imagined.

Thank you for being on this ride with me for nearly a decade.

Thank you for being the light I didn't have when I was younger.

Thank you for existing.

https://twitter.com/multiplewounds_.....42997966221312 | christmas shirt with BALLS for the holiday season! | https://ko-fi.com/s/cf7ddb7d95
https://twitter.com/multiplewounds_.....50191040757762 | emote pack that I will probably update eventually as I can already do better <3 | https://ko-fi.com/s/2ed3fbced7

more free content to be listed in the future and added to this journal! (it's MUCH better to join my discord or follow my twitter for content releases like this~)

This is all copy pasted from my twitter:

NUES
With my wrist not healing and my ability to draw being only a few minutes in a sitting currently I'm going to officially say Nues are now an open species. I cannot upkeep them anymore I'm just trying to finish my current work and then step back. Please enjoy them 💜 Here is the Nue weebly page; https://multiple-wounds.weebly.com/tos--faq.html . I will not be updating it to reflect this but we all know lol. You can find other designs here; https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....folder/49255/- . All I ask is please don't steal/copy anothers design, its just courteous. Do not bother coming to me for any confirmation or updates or changes anymore, thank y'all for putting so much into them so far though and if you'd like to tag me in any made that'd be lovely to see 💜 I didn't want to give up Nues like this but I really do understand at this point I can't keep pretending like my pain will get any better. Even a second drawing /hurts/ so I feel its best for Nues to be able to continue on without me having to control them 😔 Seriously I cannot thank everyone for the patience and support thus far y'all are unbelievable
I want to add I've been dealing with wrist pain for over a year now and it has only worsened. Please take your pains seriously, unfortunately my doctor thought it would just go away after rest... trust your gut on your pains 😔

SALE/TRADE
I'm selling all of these babes still also https://toyhou.se/multiplewounds/ch...../folder:708543 Trade for art or buy with money, latter preferred but I'm open to either. Offer any amount of $ if going that route I dont really care about price anymore I just want them gone. I've added a lot of characters, Broclee/Magenta/Mimia are trade only the rest are offer

SO to be honest I've never really liked FA as a site. Its simple but it feels like no one ever gets heard by staff among other things 🙏
That being said I want to try to slowly transition away from FA, or quickly if my followers can get on board with my choice to move 🥺
Because the vast majority of my commissioners actively use FA it is a hard transition to make but I believeee
With all of that out of the way I will currently be the most active on my art twitter: https://twitter.com/multiplewounds_
I will also be checking out FurryLifeOnline when I have access to my computer but for now the vast majority of posting/commission opens will all go onto my art twitter!
Please PLEASE try to join me over there, and if you dont have a Twitter I cant suggest you join on it enough I know TONS of amazing furry artists/other artists exclusively on twitter now 🥰💜 and would be more than happy to give yall recommendations aside from myself!!

https://twitter.com/multiplewounds_
https://twitter.com/multiplewounds_


You can also ask for my discord server link! @ everyones are reserved for adopt/commission/stream openings or important announcements like this! Otherwise the server is generally very quiet and non-intrusive

tldr my hormones are fucked up and was causing all my issues. Got a medicine and I should start feeling better within two or three weeks 🙏

heads up that commissioned are going to be delayed some because I am sick and working on figuring out with what
I am so tired I sleep 50% of the day ONTOP of my regular night sleep. this has been going on since 6/21 pretty much :)))
I dont want to give too many more details that just that but I didnt want to leave anyone on the dark as to why Im struggling to produce coms as quickly as I was these past two months
thank you for being understanding :')

Copy pasta from my twitter ; https://twitter.com/multiplewounds_.....499597315?s=19

"I hope everyone is doing well! I'm very sorry I've been so inactive, I'm currently on a 6 month limit/no usage of my dominant hand so I haven't been able to draw for a bit 😔. Please make sure to take care of yourselves!!

I kind of said this unofficially on my personal account but I figured itd be good to post it here on my art one as well 🙏. I really wish I could produce content for y'all right now but it is just too painful to even attempt, I'm so sorry"

you'll be getting, essentially, an illustration~
https://twitter.com/multiplewounds_.....63254737686528

Stop asking me please and thank you :')

TY FOR ALL THE PARTICIPANTS!! I WILL ABSOLUTELY TRY TO DO THIS AGAIN SOMETIME <3
I thoroughly enjoyed this event and all the designs I have seen/am still checking!
Please note just because I haven't replied yet does NOT mean your design is null and void! You posted before 11.20am I will get to you when I can (there's a lot to go through!!)





Title says it all, y'all have 24 hours to submit an unlimited rarity MYO Nue to this journal :)
Meaning from 11:20am today to 11:20am tomorrow you can submit MYO Nues for you to own. (GMT -5)

Unlimited rarity means unlimited rarity. Always wanted a gore/goo Nue mix with a tummy mouth and very unique feet and mismatching eyes? Go ham.

Unlimited rarity does NOT mean you can give your Nues light or white sclera, that is still absolutely not allowed~ ACTUAL mouths on the face is also ABSOLUTELY NOT AT ALL allowed :)


I can't draw too much so why not a fun event? <3


edit; Forgot to link a base! You may use this base FOR THIS EVENT AND THIS EVENT ALONE. NOTHING ELSE.
https://www.dropbox.com/s/ozgh96h20.....e-psd.psd?dl=0

edit 2; Nues do not have limited traits!! There is a "generalized" list, but its restrictive and could never list the unlimited amount of ideas you could apply to your Nue!
You can find the "generalized" list here irregardless.
https://multiple-wounds.weebly.com/.....-rarities.html


edit 3; SIGNING OFF FOR THE NIGHT, as long as you POST your Nue in this journal before 11:20am tomorrow (GMT -5) I will still confirm/deny it/allow you to do any edits!!
If it ISN'T posted for confirmation BEFORE that time however, then the MYO is null and void until I choose to do an event again uwu;
thank you for all the fun, can't wait to what /if any/ designs I get to confirm tomorrow :D

SO I THINK IT'S TIME WE TALK LOVELIES.

As y'all know art has been my source of income since 2014? I've worked really hard to keep it up and really I didn't take care of myself as well as I should've in terms of wrist pain management and blocking potential future issues. I know I didn't, so my current problems are my own fault and I get that. That being said, why have I barely drawn in the last five or so months? I severely damaged my wrist to put it plainly. There are other issues too (water retention (I have to go to doctor again)/SEVERE allergies (I've tried everything)/things caused by those), but in terms of art the wrist is what makes my desire so low. I can't draw for maybe 10-30 minutes before I get severe pain, at best I can take pain meds and just work through it and ignore it, but it gets tiring doing that after a while. It's gotten to the point that even using just the keyboard and mouse will give me spikes of pain. And yes I know I need to see a doctor! I'm working on this for both my wrist and water retention, I have to get my insurance sorted first is all x.x .

But why am I talking about this now? It's not like anyone's complained, nor has my ability to get commissions done when I take them, l or soon after (holidays woo), changed any. But I do feel bad for my lack of content when I had initially been going SO STRONG and producing SO MUCH for y'all and I want to explain why it's slowed or stopped all together at the very least. I don't know if I'll quit art persay, if I do I'll likely pass off Nues to a trusted friend so they're not gone forever.., but it's so ridiculously hard to produce with my health state. And my health has been bad since early 2017! I just thought I had fixed the issues causing my health at the time, I haven't.

So TLDR; I may be quitting art, I can't produce it with my wrist and health as is as easily or well without severe pain. If I don't quit the content, at the very least, will be slower/just as slow as it is now and I'm sorry for this if you've wanted to see more from me. I tried my best with what I could until now.

To add to the MYO season I'm doing a custom raffle <3

There's only two things to note!

1. Comment below to enter :)
2. If you're participating in the MYO season also then you get an extra entry! (This does not mean GO BUY ONE, only get one if you're genuinely going to make your own Nue!!!)
(Link for MYO season here ; https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9308764/)

Every 100 entries (if it gets that many!) = another custom, adding more possible winners!

This will end the same day as the MYO season ends December 31 o7
I love you guys and hope you enjoy this event ~


edit; I forgot to mention but this is an UNLIMITED RARITY custom! Like all of my customs are!

See here for T.O.S and Nue information.

It's that time of the year again and in spirit of the holidays I've decided to change up how MYO entries work once again!

Keep in mind this is the only time you can get a MYO spot until the end of NEXT YEAR.

If you're just unaware, MYO means MAKE YOUR OWN, meaning I'm NOT The one making it.
Please keep this in mind before you jump on a spot.

MYO pricing.
★ Regular Nue ; 10$, no rarities, three mutations
★ Three Nue ; 15$, three rarities, three mutations
★ Unlimited ; 25$, unlimited rarities, three mutations
★ Special ; 50$, unlimited rarities, three mutations, can give your Nue white or light sclera (usually locked behind only adopts done by myself)

MYO rules.
★ COMMENT IN THIS JOURNAL TO CLAIM AN ENTRY.
★ Payment will be done when entering, meaning you may finish your MYO at any point of time.
★ Do NOT flood the comments with questions and etc, NOTE ME with questions or concerns.
★ You may use my nue base (here) for YOUR myo/this event and NOTHING else.
★ You may commission someone else into making it for you, just make sure to give them credit!
★ You MUST read and follow ALL of my guidelines for the nues!
★ If you sell or trade your MYO spot you HAVE to tell me so I can update the entry list.

MYO guidelines.
★ Your nue MUST have four eyes minimum in a square position, the middle eye is a MUTATION and will be considered as such.
★ You MUST include your nue's claws as that is a major part of them, keeping their norm four fingers and three toes, on the other hand, is not a requirement.
★ You can add rarities I do not have listed, the only exception being WHITE/LIGHT sclera, unless you are me (or bought the SPECIAL Nue) you cannot give your Nue white/light sclera.
★ Mutations are as follows ; mid eye, back/hip/head wings, no tail/no horns, or unihorn. You CANNOT use both no tail wand no horns. You can only use a max of THREE!
★ Anything else not listed in the mutation list above is a RARITY. Rarities are boundless and have endless possibilities, asking me what all the rarities are is impossible for me to answer!
★ If you'd like ideas (I will reject any designs directly copying another Nue) for you design feel free to browse here; https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/multiple.wounds/folder/49255/-



Please make sure you've read everything above before entering/commenting!

MYO details.
entry end date. December 31st
entry limit. unlimited (all together)

entry form. Please ensure you use this so I can be as clear and organized as possible, it helps a lot considering I'm one person!
NUE TYPE ★ Regular/Three/Unlimited/Special
WHAT ARE MUTATIONS? ★ Frankly this is to be clear you read, so what did I list mutations as? I'm hoping this will help avoid any and all confusion people have when making any of the MYOs o7
PAYPAL ★ For invoice, feel free to say you'll note me with it and then do so.

Regular Nues will be 10$ (so no rarities)
15$ for a max of three rarities
Or 25$ for unlimited
50$ for unlimited + if you wanna use the "only I can" rarity of white/light sclera 🙏

Trying out new pricing so I can give people more... price differences for things they like uwu

And if you rather I just make you a Nue then customs are open for 50$ ~

I'm 21 ✨ time to get drunk (responsibly ofc 💜💜)

Hi loves!! I haven't shared this yet with this site (although if you're in my discord or follow me on Twitter you'd know this already) but I'm engaged! I'm getting married May 7th! My amazing fiance is and I'm extremely excited, but it also gives me the chance to look back? At all the relationships that lead up to this. Hell I never even thought I'd date someone by /title/ willingly and now I'm getting married?? WOW 😍💜💜


So all that being said I'm going to give a TW for incest, sexual/emotional/mental/physical (yes all) abuse, and cheating.

I'm letting all of you lovely furs or watchers or otherwise get a taste of my life, the drama I've dealt with. Preface ; I know I have fucked things in a lot of situations myself, I recognize I've done shitty things before, said shitty things before, and hurt people before whether intentional or not. I've learned from these, I highly appreciated them for their experience, and I'm happy to throw it up here for anyone to read or comment on. I will not be giving out names even if you ask and if you call anyone out I will block and remove the comment/you. This is not at all to spread hate. Please do not make it that.

With that in mind, I'm going to start by saying from very young I was both sexually and physically abused. The former from my two adopted brothers and the latter from my parents and one of the two adopted brothers. And you're probably thinking “how do you say that so casually", to be frank I've had years and years to come to terms with it. It affected me for the first half of my life but when you can manage to cope in a healthy manner it just doesn't hurt as much (specifically for me, this is absolutely not true for everyone). But this took up so much of my childhood and made me such a crappy person in my teen and childe years. The two adopted brothers would make me do things with them under the guise of “it's a fun secret don't tell anyone" from five, maybe six it's very hard to remember what year it started or ended, til around nine or ten. One of them would hold my head up to ceiling fans claiming it'd kill me/hurt me if he went any further, purposely tripped me, or steal and then get away with blaming it on me. To add to this, until these last few years, my parents would verbally and physically put me down. I'd take the brunt of anything my siblings did, I'd defend them and in turn get slapped, hit, or the belt, I'd admittedly be sarcastic and get the same response as defending my siblings, I'd just generally exist and be told no one would ever love me or want to tolerate me. And all of this is so important because for years and years I was so afraid of not only men (considering the main offenders of all my trauma have been men in my life who I thought I could trust) but of any kind of relationship. If people I thought we're family didn't want anything to do with me or treated me in ways they never should have then there's no way it'd be any different in any relationship outside of that? Hell on top of all of their treatment my sister and brother (blood by both parents) had been so up each other's asses they never wanted to do anything with me no matter how much I desperately tried to get either to like me. Like truly my family made relationships feel impossible.

And so throughout all of my teen years I flitted between person to person never keeping anyone around for long, except two people. I was callous, I acted like I didn't care about anyone (and I think teen me probably didn't), and in general unless you were either of the two people I mentioned you were most certainly not going to be that important to me and to be honest I don't think young me even wanted anymore than a friend or two to put my everything into.

When I first came onto FA I had brought Nues with me and in turn I was getting attention from people I had never thought I would. One of whom came to me consistently pushing for us to be friends, throwing herself into my streams and just trying to ensure we did so much together. And that was great for a while! Until it wasn't. I started to feel excluded, they'd make group chats and claim that a single person in it didn't want me in it because I was a year underage, and that's fair! But I still wanted to be able to do things with my friends outside of that so I told the one who I felt closest at the time and they tried bringing it up with the OG friend and it just went downhill. I was told by her that I was shit talking her and that I should've never complained to that other person and it just all went so downhill. She'd go to my best friend of the time, I had three at the time; one of which was the one I complained to about being excluded and the other two had nothing to do with the group, and I can't say what she told that friend but despite having already tried talking to her once and fix things I was told I need to do it again. I was hurt, I remember crying and not understanding how it even got to that point, and yet I still tried again. I thought at the time things had been repaired, but my god was I wrong. No one from the group would talk to me anymore, and while I didn't try too hard after the first couple failed attempts, it hurt so much. In the end I quit everything for a few months to a year. A couple years later the best friend who had tried to talk to her at the time would message me and apologize and I still talk to them here and there when I can.

After the first incident on FA and my quitting I desperately wanted to work on myself. I realized I didn't want to ever have something like that happen to me or any one I know, whether I dislike them, like them, or adore them no one deserves it. So I completely reforged myself. I tried to work on all the flaws teenage me had tried so hard to ingrain in me and I managed to fix them. It was after this that I finally came back to the internet life again, I met my first relationship, and I word it like that because I can't say first boyfriend/girlfriend/significant other because there was two people involved. This would also be when I a best friend that would really impact my life.

So it was easy for me to jump into this new group of people and my god did I jump in. They were great, I did almost everything with all three of them and it was amazing. Unfortunately once again it got all muddled. The female in the pair was truly so sweet and I adored her, I can't say I loved her now but she was great (she still is and she knows who she is 💜). On the other hand her boyfriend was… well the opposite. Very shortly into meeting them he'd consistently press for me to join their relationship, I was so unsure, but I did like her? At least in some way, maybe I could like him too? But no I kept telling them I needed time, and she respected that, but he never did. After a month of him relentlessly pushing for me to join the relationship I gave in. I didn't want to lose either of them and it felt like if I hadn't agreed then I would've. Keeping in mind the ONLY people I talked to at this time was these two and my best friend at the time. At first it was great, but then he started to push me to do things I didn't want to. Like making me ERP while I was in public with my family after I already told him I didn't want to, or when I went to visit her (because she lived closer by) and she'd go to sleep (we were always all in a video call) he'd tell me to masturbate while she slept, in her bed, with her parents in the next room, or send him my most explicit dream fantasy. And yes I could've pressed to say no more, I could've hung up on him, I could've done this or this or that, except I was afraid to. I felt like if I rebelled then I'd lose them and at the time I really didn't want to. However it wasn't very long into the relationship that I got fed up. I felt used, I extremely disliked him at this point, and I just couldn't do it anymore. Out of hurt I cut them BOTH out of my life, only coming back to apologize to her later because she truly never deserved that, and moved on.

It wasn't too long after I met my next favorite person. A watcher of mine had introduced us and thrown us all into a group chat consisting of her, her best friend, my best friend, him, his best friend, me, and randomly whoever else came and went. At first I just thought he was so charming, at some point I discovered he was already in a relationship, and yet he'd make comments or flirt or ask me to stay super late in calls with him, or say that he kind of wanted to break up with his partner. Eventually he did and the flirting only went up ten times. We started doing everything together, we'd do NSFW calls, we'd flirt a lot, we'd talk about deep topics, our fear of titles, and how we so deeply cared about each other just no title was allowed until we were both comfortable with it. It was only three or so months in that he suddenly stopped all together, at the time I was working a morning job and he was only ever up at night (we fought on this because it was extremely draining on me to stay up super late, go to work, and still find some time to sleep all while he'd claim he'd fix his sleep schedule twice before I gave up and adjusted to his schedule. These fights stopped after I started getting sick mentally and physically and quit my job.) I was so hurt and confused and I felt like I had put all this emotion into something only for him to suddenly turn into a wall on me. I was so in love and it hurt. However he'd claim he told me we talked about this when all we had discussed was three months prior (when we were in the beginning of the heat of things) and that was only about titles. We started fighting a lot more, I started getting bitter, he started accusing me of not allowed him to do things with his friends and that I was just starting stuff to start stuff. Eventually for the sake of both of us not getting further hurt I told him we needed to end it. Originally I only planned on it to be for a short while, I still thought I was in love despite him finally telling me how he truly felt right at the end of the relationship and I cared so much for him. I cried for five months straight all the while battling an unknown illness (remember me mentioning I quit because I was getting sick?). It hurt and sucked and I loved him so much. I finally realized I didn't when I discovered not only had he been isolating me the entire time we were friends (claiming I was shitty to people and to avoid me) but also because after talking it out for months on end and crying it out for months on end and trying so desperately to ensure he didn't get hurt also in the aftermath that he just didn't deserve it from me. By no means do I think I was amazing in the relationship but it was a two way street and I'd been the only one trying to cross it. This would be one of the two relationships that really taught me something and I do still care about him (I can't personally let that go after caring and loving for someone so deeply even after being so hurt) but I am much happier moving on from it. Hell he's how I found my fiance. His ex is who reunited me with my fiance after I could no longer talk to them since I didn't talk to him anymore. So much good came from it and I truly appreciate it for having happened at all.

The next extremely important relationship came to me right before me and my love got together in the form of an old friend. If y'all don't recall the two I mentioned at the very beginning, the two friends I wanted to keep despite flitting between all the others. We always had a complicated relationship. I liked one, he liked me, however the other also liked me and I felt like maybe I liked him too. Of course young me clung so hard to the original one I thought I liked, he was mean and cold to me I thought it was so appealing (kids amirite?). We had all started talking again not long after the fall out from the last relationship. I was sick and I was so happy to have them back in my lives. Especially the one I had been closer to all those years. The problem was the feelings between me and him had never been addressed, they quickly came bubbling up in my high emotionally vulnerable state, and he had a girlfriend. I'm sure you can guess how things went, we'd flirt, things went too far, my naiveness told me he'd come back to me and leave her (yes I know it was fucked up, I can't say enough how awful I feel for her). I eventually made him address the situation with his girlfriend out of guilt, I'd always been an advocate that cheating was fucked up and it had been going on for two months it was KILLING me (this was during when I was still sick so technically I can say that literally). They broke up for a day before getting back together, he told me he told her he wouldn't speak to me ever again (I cried a lot) but that he was trying hard to make her change her mind. He would play mind games of “tonight's our last night talking, next day; jk were still talking" repeat x5 before I got fed up and had had enough of crying over it. I told him to stop talking to me, I didn't want to keep going through this and clearly she didn't want me to talk to him so if he wasn't going to enforce what he told her then I would.

I cried for a bit, by this point I'd gone through two heartbreaks in a year (one in the first couple months, the other at the end of the year), I had gotten surgery to remove my gallbladder (it was what had made me sick from April til January of the next year), and I couldn't really see myself wanting to live for much longer after all this crap I had been through. I was so depressed and things just kept happening. Eventually my best friend from the poly couple days, yes we had been friends that long, had started hanging out with the night owl guy's group. That was fine! Until drama started happening again. I got upset, I said group chats we're toxic, the night owl guy was toxic, and that I felt abandoned because every time I'd try to invite her to things she make up some excuse to not do them with me. It was yet another whirlwind of hurt. I told her repeatedly I didn't care if she was friends with them, I really didn't, like I said before I'd had people isolate me before I never wanted to do that to someone else it's fucked up and hurts the person so badly. But she eventually started doing something I morally didn't approve of and I told her I didn't approve and in turn she blew up in me. The entire time I'd been talking to her I had been in call with friends. All I remember was being told I was trying to control her friendships (something many of my friends know I highly advocate against), I was the that was toxic, among other things. I tried to tell her I didn't want to fight with her and that I'd give her some time to calm down and instead she got even madder, said some more stuff out of anger, and then blocked and removed me. I immediately left my call and I just cried.

So by this point I truly did believe I was a really garbage person and all the effort I'd put into making myself more kind, caring, and willing to discuss things with those I care about had entirely failed. I mean how could I possibly not be awful if so many people I deeply cared about had told me I was or said I was after we stopped talking? And to some degree I do still think they're right, I mean hell if they think I'm that way then to some degree I had to have fucked up somewhere to make them feel that way. I always try to apologize when I realize I have fucked something up too, it hasn't always been met in kind (like being told I slapped down that word toxic at someone I never did, or that I shit talk my friends, or that I'm childish (I mean classic? Aren't we all? Do y'all feel like rational adults because I'm still waiting for that feeling 😂), and I know I haven't always met others apologies in kind (like when the best friend who blew up on me later tried to apologize by claiming it was all on the group and not a single bit of it was her own actions).

But ultimately? What I've learned from all this that I've dumped for y'all to read, people are filled with hurt. It damages them so much and to still be able to put your trust into another person to not completely break your heart all over again it takes a lot.. so I know I wrote all these negative things that have happened to me, and I will freely admit I threw fire into some of them myself I know I'm not free of guilt, but I truly truly appreciate all of them for happening. If I never met the first group of people on FA I never would've met a lot of the future groups nor the person who came back to me years down the line (they truly did bring in most of my watchers early on), if I hadn't met the poly couple then I never would have met the best friend who blew up on me, and in turn the group who led me to night owl boy, if I hadn't met him then I never would've met my current best friends, fiance, and honestly everyone I adore now.

This last year or so has been filled with so much love from who has kept me from isolating, leaving the internet entirely, killing me, and crying for way longer than I did with the last three relationships mentioned above. She's been my rock and my best friend and I can't wait to see her again in person 💜💜

are always so busy and have also suffered through some extremely unfortunate events in the last couple of years but they are such an inspiration and have encouraged and stood by me and kept me from feeling like all hope was lost outside of my best friend. If it hadn't been for all their encouragement then my best friend's hard efforts to keep me from depression would have been for naught.

If hadn't caught ahold of me after some of the drama and allowed me into her life and in turn then I wouldn't be marrying the first and adore the second. I had missed them so much for the time we hadn't been able to speak due to loss of communication and I am so so grateful for giving me the chance to be friends, and more with Zac 💜💜, again.

And too everyone that's been supporting me and showing up in the past few months.. I really can't express enough how appreciative and in love with all of you I am. Sure it can be a bit stressful trying to keep up with everything, but I have felt more love, appreciation, and respect in the last year than I have in my entire life. So maybe that's not hard to accomplish? But just thinking about it and writing this out makes me want to cry in awe, adoration, happiness, and love.

To believe I went from someone who had been severely hurt by love, to someone so deeply terrified of it, to now someone who feels filled with it. Thank you so much to everyone and to my fiance especially for inspiring me, keeping me going, and just being all around amazing.




If you know anyone mentioned in this journal please do not send them any hate or messages (if I wanted to do call outs or spread hate I would've specified them by names). Even if at the time they hurt me so deeply for one reason or another, I appreciate them for the experience they gave me and for having ever been in my life to teach me the lessons they did.

I highly recommend everyone look at their past relationships and see what they did for you, even negative ones (at the time) can be positive in some way in the long run.

★ WHAT IS THIS? ★

So I decided after talking to some people about it that I WANT to feature and show off other artists! Why? Because I LOVE art and I LOVE supporting other artists. There are so many and so many styles and just SO MANY artist that I feel like they deserve to be shown off <3 ! I'll be doing this week long any week I suddenly decide I wanna show off some people! AND there's A LOT of artists I really wanna show off.

So to kick off this week we have the artist -

★  rettriverr ★

My god spelling their name makes me STRUGGLE but boy is their artwork worth that struggle!! TBH I don't really understand how people AREN'T all over this artist already?? They do AMAZING and SMOOTH animations and have such a unique and good style I just *can't believe it*. Like 500 watchers?? WHAT is this travesty!! But here's the thing ontop of their FLAWLESS animations they do regular work that is just so clean and smooth looking... like every bit of their style animation or otherwise is just so *smooth* and fluid hhh. That all being said let's get into what pieces I personally love the most and why I love them!!

★ ART SHOWCASE

As per usual don't forget this is just my opinion of my personal favorite pieces and ultimately you should just check out their gallery yourself!! ( https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/rettriverr/ ) They have a huge variety of NSFW animations, to SFW animations, to ADORABLE animated icons, ref sheets, illustrations, etc etc. All their pieces are just WONDERFUL!!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29084877/ - Wine witch animation ; I swear they do basically smol animated videos for their customers and they're so amazing?? From the way they animated the repeating animation (FLAWLESS) to the random blinking and other smol animations ONTOP of the character animation it's so freakin' good holy heck. Like just wow y'all, it's so FLUID. (and I'm js but personally I ADORE THE STYLE SO DANG MUCH)

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30661402/ - Mew couple icon ; THE NUZZLE??? THE CHARACTERS??? ITS SO CUTE HHHH. I'm am honestly AMAZED at how they decided to do this linking icon and tbh just look at it in action here -  jetkal mew - tell me that isn't adorable/fluid/smooth af/amazing and Imma call you a liar >:(

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29214619/ - Yuki ref sheet ; I LOVE LOVE LOVe they do peets, snoots, and just bodies over all!! And yes I know style preference is a choice but my god do they hit my style preference to a T. Plus like?? this ref sheet is adorable??? the character is adorable??

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26245252/ - Lottery X-mas animation ; This one's quality is slightly butchered but it's SO GOOD. I love the little ear twitch and stand-up and the tail animation?? the feet swaying back and forth??? the quality may have been butchered the animation sure as hell is still SMOOTH AF. Also those blinking lights... I love.... it's just so good... hhh

★ I'd love to keep linking all the beautiful animations (they have plenty of NSFW one's that you should definitely check out if you're into NSFW work) but I'm going to have to stop here!!

So definitely make sure you throw yourselves at  rettriverr especially if you love some afforable but quality animations uwu;


★ THIS CONCLUDES ARTIST FEATURE TUESDAY! ★

Watch out for the next ones coming up throughout this week <3 ! You don't want to miss ANY of these amazing artists~

★ WHAT IS THIS? ★

So I decided after talking to some people about it that I WANT to feature and show off other artists! Why? Because I LOVE art and I LOVE supporting other artists. There are so many and so many styles and just SO MANY artist that I feel like they deserve to be shown off <3 ! I'll be doing this week long any week I suddenly decide I wanna show off some people! AND there's A LOT of artists I really wanna show off.

So to kick off this week we have the artists -

★  hiddenwolf liillin ★

Why am I showcasing these two together?? WELL they live together so supporting one is supporting the other. And you really CAN'T go wrong by supporting either of these lovely ladies. Knowing them personally I can say without a doubt they are two of the sweetest and most caring people I know. They've been with me through some tough times and it's been a pleasure being able to help them through theirs in return <3 . Like really they're genuinely so sweet. Hiddenwolf (full-time artist) is often doing in-stream commissions (but fair warning they do tend to go quickly!) while liillin (has a day job) will take them when she can. They both have RIDICULOUSLY quick turn around though so if you like some speedy quality art then they're both definitely FOR YOU *A* (and like I'm talking some SPEED AND QUALITY OOF)

★ ART SHOWCASE - HIDDENWOLF

Look as you know this all my own opinion and personal bias so as per usual PLEASE make sure to check out Kii's gallery yourself because all of her pieces are so dang amazing and she has improved SO MUCH in the last couple of years and just oof. She's such an inspiration and sweet person you really will feel blessed being around her/getting to interact with her *A* BUT THAT ASIDE her gallery!! ( http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/hiddenwolf/ ) A lot of her work is NSFW/pin-up so if you're into that >:) then jump on her any chance you can get! Unfortunately I try to avoid picking out NSFW pieces as favs unless it was made for me so if you're looking for a showcase of those like I said just jump on her gallery! That being said here's some of my favs *A* !

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30486947/ - My eeray! ; LISTEN did you expect anything less from me when I've always grabbed a com here and then, OF COURSE they're going to be some of my favs. She did an amazing job capturing the design of my eeray and JUST LOOK AT THOSE PEETS.. I LOVE KII'S PEETS AND HOW SHE DOES THEM. The hair shine and general coloring is just GORGEOUS and EYECATCHING and the pose overall is so elegant and perfect for my babe that just HHHHH.... I still have this piece as my phone background *A* <333

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29848317/ - Tawnie com piece ; This piece IS a sketch but the BG and aesthetic and beautiful character are just so sdhbashba. The framing of the window behind the character (and the BEAUTIFUL OOF I LOVE) fits it so well!! ALSO where can I get that shirt bc uh yes please??? ANYWAYS ; I adore how she does horse feets (hello clearly I just love how Kii does feet in general), and like I said before the aesthetic is just RIGHT up my alley MMM

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29556546/ - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29591918/ - SLAP THESE TWO BAD BOIS TOGETHER ; and I'm doing this because I'm not sure if it's the OCs or just how she draws the OCs or what BUT I LOVE THESE TWO PIECES FOR THE SAME REASON! The poses, the FACES the EYESH DSAGHDA, the everything is just so dang cute!!! ALSO THOSE HIPS?? THOSE THIGHS?? UGH I LOVe

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29845807/ - ITS A PIECE FOR ME AGAin ; U know why I'm doing it. It's amazing. SHUT UP IM NOT BIAS DSHABHASDS


★ ART SHOWCASE - LIILLIN

Y'all I'm so BLESSED because this lovely lady is showing me her work pretty much anytime she draws and it's so much fun seeing it over time and her improvement and just !!! Lii does some super unique pieces I LOVE seeing and lowkey wish were keychains of something because they'd work so well..... BUT ANYWAYS. Lii is stupid sweet, constantly checks up on me and tries SO HARD to make everyone happy it's ridiculous!! I love talking and interacting with her and I love seeing the pieces she beautifully brings to life. She does a lot of fantasy-esque work, that just makes me want to make all the elves and durgens and FANTASY-FY my furries, and illustration pieces so if you've been hunting down someone to do that for you then she's definitely your gal!! You should obviously check out her gallery (http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/liillin/) for yourself BECAUSE DUH, SO WHAT ARE SOME OF MY PERSONAL FAVS?

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30250994/ - Chimaera Logo ; Lii actually showed me this piece when it was a work in progress and I had NO IDEA she had finished and uploaded it but BOY HOWDY AM I HAPPY SHE DID BC THAT MEANS I CAN SHOW IT OFF. Look it's a smol piece, but the fantasy elements - the chimera - the beautiful way she did the lion and snek tail and goat and THE WAY THE LIGHTNING BOLTS GO THROUGH THE DRAWING.... it's so good. And this is precisely what I meant when i said she needs to do keychains or charms or something because this would be a PERFECT piece for it *A* .

These next couple I'm just going to say why I love them, because again they're all for the same reason, and then slap down the links!! SO THESE NEXT FEW are all illustrations! She does the cutest faces, BEAUTIFUL backgrounds, and she always highlights the characters in a way that they feel like they actually FIT in the setting she's putting them in. Her work is more so on the simplistic side yet somehow still detailed?? and I just love that aesthetic... I really want to grab a piece from her asap > ^> That being said here a few pieces illustrating exactly what I mean by all of these!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29587339/ - Caeline commission ; I LOVE THIS DEER AND I LOVE THIS BG SO MUCh it's so pretty!!!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28548802/ - Bellcordi commission ; I don't even remember this piece and I'm SO SAD I managed to miss it?? THe face is so cute?? The expression is SO CUTE?? AND THAT BODY UGH my love
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29838973/ - Stardragon secret santa ; The AESTHETIC and what mood she gave this piece is just PERFECT IMO... the character fits in SO well with the BG and I love the fireflies!!!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29587205/ - NSFW extremedash commission ; YES I KNOW this is NSFW but its so cute wtf.....

★ UNFORTUNATELY I have to wrap it up here because I have to head out!! But POINT BEING watch these two amazing and adorable artists because it is EXTREMELY worth your time. Also did I mention they're both stupid cheap for their quality?? Like IMO they should raise their prices > ^>

So go throw yourselves at  hiddenwolf liillin because you REALLY won't regret it at all and will be so excited if you can grab a commission!!


★ THIS CONCLUDES ARTIST FEATURE MONDAY! ★

Watch out for the next ones coming up throughout this week <3 ! You don't want to miss ANY of these amazing artists~

★ WHAT IS THIS? ★

This was already posted in a submission (http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30686735/) but I'm posting it here too, because WHY NOT!

So I decided after talking to some people about it that I WANT to feature and show off other artists! Why? Because I LOVE art and I LOVE supporting other artists. There are so many and so many styles and just SO MANY artist that I feel like they deserve to be shown off <3 ! I'll be doing this week long any week I suddenly decide I wanna show off some people! AND there's A LOT of artists I really wanna show off.

So to kick off this week we have the artist -

★  here-kitty--kitty ★

This artist is just WOW. She pops off art like it's no bodies business and it's always high quality and SO DANG CUTE! Now why is she so great? WELL if you like a clean yet soft style, variety in commission types (ref sheets, busts, adopts, pin-ups, nsfw, etc etc SO MUCH), some of the CUTEST facial expressions (like oh my god I love how she does little SNOOTS TO BOOP and her eyes!!! UGh), and nsfw content then IMO she's FOR YOU.

★ ART SHOWCASE

Now! This is only my personal bias, because duh I'm picking out MY FAVS, and opinions and you should DEFNIITELY just check out her gallery yourself ( http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....-kitty--kitty/ ) but lemme pop off some of my favorite pieces from her and go into detail WHY I love these particular pieces!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29061197/ - Shark girl adopt ; who doesn't love a good shark girl okay?? But I just DIE for blue characters and pretty ladies so this piece is one of my favs easily. The adopt has already been bought so unfortunately I couldn't pop this off soon enough for that uwu; but OOF does this really showcase how beautiful her adopt design and ref sheets are. Look at those clean lines and soft colors???? UGh (Also PSH I'M TOTALLY NOT BIAS OVER THE OUTFITS.... ///)

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/29895375/ - Alchamyst commission work ; look I know y'all love some furries but who doesn't also love a good monster catgirl??? From the eye shines and sparkles to the beautiful glowing rose TO THE MONSTER GOOP TAILS JUST WoW. I mean honestly who would think I wouldn't pick a monster girl piece one of my favs? > ^> They're amazing. But yes!!! Everything about this piece is just GORGEOUS. Also did I mention that BG? Because yea it's blurry bc BG but my god is the colorwork and glow and just HNNg I'll never stop going off about this piece unless I just stop XD

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30673461/ - Monstersheltie shout out doodle ; YES this is a shout out she did for another artist (who is ALSO amazing and you should check them out too) but y'all.. it calls to me. The colors. The clean doodle. THE EYES. UGH... I don't even know how to express WHY I love this piece LMAO it just SPEAKS TO ME.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30632397/ - THE SHARK FROM BEFORE BUT ILLUSTRATION VERSION >:) ; I mean... I already explained why I love that shark girl this is just her in a BEAUTIFUL beach setting!!! Also that crab.. so cute.... I'm die....... the waves.. so soft... so good.. okay I'll stop talking like that. POINT BEING it's beautiful. ALSO NSFW HER TIDDIES OUT (WHICH IS A BONUS) U'VE BEEN WARNED.

★ I could keep going on and on because y'all.. when I start looking at artists work and nitpicking what pieces I love SO MUCH and WHY I love them SO MUCH I will never stop, but for the sake of y'alls eyes and your reading I'll control myself and stop here!

Just throw yourselves at  here-kitty--kitty if you haven't yet because her work is truly so soft and clean and beautiful!


★ THIS CONCLUDES ARTIST FEATURE SUNDAY! ★

Watch out for the next ones coming up throughout this week <3 ! You don't want to miss ANY of these amazing artists~

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