Well, happy USA Thanksgiving.....why not? I had my dinner at a truck stop.....ah well. I guess I got things to be thankful, past a year. Got out of Texas finally. I left it this morning. I am now in Mathews, MO. Still got a ways to go till I get to Gary, IN. Deliver there....then hopefully get a load to Indianapolis. Meh, I'll probably be in Indy by Saturday.....better late than never, I guess.

Texas that is. Hehehe, I love playing with words. Sadly I didn't go far after I delivered in Pharr. Since my load is going to Mexico and a lot of loads we take in and out of here is dependent on Mexico....being a boarder city, it leaves me with nothing to do till Monday....no empty trailer..AGAIN. Mexico's industry seems to shut down during the weekend...wish ours did. I would LOVE to enjoy a weekend for once. Ah well, then again, I like the option to work on the weekend...so I guess win some, lose some.

Anyway, I told my dispatcher earlier today that I won't hang around here for long. I don't want to sit on the weekend. That, and not here. SO, I may just pick a random direction and drive. Where to? I don't know.

Texas....

There's really nothing here. But it's not horrible either. Heh, finally left Houston Tuesday night. I started to make threats to leave the area unless they give me an empty trailer to swap with the customer for a loaded one. I have no idea why that's a problem. But I won and got an empty trailer. I took a different route too to get to Fort Worth area. Took the US-290 to TX-6 and shot up there to I-35 instead of I-45. Oddly enough, my atlas...which is current by the way, show's TX-6 between US-290 to I-35 in Waco as mostly two lane highway with some 4 lane sections. Hell no, it was all 4 lane highway with good chunks of it being freeway standard. Not a bad alternate route. I may do that more often...hate I-45. My only problem is I hate Houston more. :-P So no alternate route will help me avoid all that traffic and construction going on near Houston. But at least this route takes me straight to Fort Worth instead of having to deal with Dallas or it's surrounding area.

Anyway, from there, US-287 to US-70 to Plainview, TX. Not bad, delivered Wed night. Got a pick up back in that town tomorrow morning. I just sat here in Tulia since it's the nearest truck stop. Not bad. I didn't go far. Meh, this week sucks on miles. Pay period ends Friday morning. So this week I had nothing going in. I am pretty pissed off.

Speaking of going far...heh...puns. The load I am picking up will be heading a brokerage down in Pharr, TX. Ah well, this might help on miles.

Fuck, this company really drives me nuts. Either I am stuck in the northeast a lot. Or I am stuck in Texas. If I want to do local Texas shit, I would switch to a local company. They pay better.

Why the hell am I still sitting here since Saturday morning? Seriously, I hate being in Houston. Well, okay, I don't hate the city. I just hate it's insane traffic where there's so many roads....all congested with idiots who think they are in NASCAR.

Anyway, despite some tiny hic ups, I been busy since I left Washington state till I reached Houston. Reason I been sitting here? Work sent me down here from Dallas without a trailer, saying I don't need one since the customer got loaded trailers. WELL, I know this is bullshit. BUT why not? Let's humor myself? That, and I love surprising the fuck out of these NASCAR wannabees with how fast I can accelerate from 0 to 70 without a trailer on my back. Makes them give me handicap faces as they zoom past me over the speed limit. I actually made one zoom past a cop and he ended up getting pulled over. Yes, I am evil. :-P Oh I-45......why are considered an Interstate when you are an Intrastate?

Anyway, I show up, I get rejected and turned around. Told by the customer they need me to bring in an empty trailer to trade for a loaded one. Fair, yes? I tell dispatch. They go silent. Later, I get a message to go back there, they'll give me the load. I get there, turns out my load is a regular load, not "direct to store". In their lingo, not saying who, it means my load is NOT important enough to rush out the door without a trailer to give them. SO I end up coming back here last night. Told dispatch. NO WORD since then. So I been lounging at this truck stop since then. Ah well, got a lot of rest, did laundry. Showers are in great shape. I can't complain too much. But still, I have a feeling I'll be fucked with tomorrow once my main dispatcher comes in. Fun.

In Washington State, second time I been stuck here for 2 weeks. I plan to do a week off here. BUT that is all I can afford. Yet here I am, week 2, and I am still without work. I am not sure what more to say about this. Other than I guess my company don't have much work out this way. I have no problem getting work right away back in New York State when I was living there. Or Indiana when I visit relatives. But every time I came here, it seems to be a real struggle to get rolling again with work. Oh the life of a truck driver...how I want to get out of this. I am totally sick of this now. No life, no hope, no future. Just drive for the betterment of the nation. But nothing for me, no money, and now horrid health. Not sure what more to say about this. Easy to quit if I didn't put a loan on my own truck and went into hired contractor. I swear, if I was still a company driver, I would have quit last month. I am so, so, SO fed up.

I am just curious. Moved back there last month, and just curious to who's around and/or nearby. Then again, I never was part of a fur group in the area. Matter of the fact, the last fur group I was in happen to be the first and only fur group I was a part of, and that was the Vancouver BC furs. Yeah...odd huh? :-P Thank  mikefurry for that. Hehehe

Ah well, I am not sure if I am ready to rejoin a fur group. BUT I am curious though to who is near the area. Be nice to associate with a group near my home for once instead of having to travel far to either Seattle or Vancouver. Nothing against either group. But...well...it would be nicer to know at least there's a group closer to say hello to.

Well, they do. I find it interesting at the same time annoying that the testicles between a mans legs happen to be the easiest thing to knock a guy down, regardless his strength and pain tolerance. Hell, he may not fall down with high pain tolerance, but you'll definitely slow him down to a crawl and turn his face red. Hence why they are placed between the legs I guess, to give him ways to protect them.

WHY I brought this up? WELL, hermaphrodites I noticed are drawn having both fully functional cunts and cocks. I think trying to stick a dick in the herm's vagina would not only prove to be a delicate process due to the apparently LARGE AND LOW HANGING nut sack that seems to be hovering right over the birth canal. BUT trying to go deep and/or fast would prove to be PAINFUL. I mean, that nut sack riding on that pumping cock, getting hit by the body when doing missionary. Or hurting both partners nuts when they both hit. I mean, that crotch don't have space for both sexes. So I can see nuts hitting each other to be a pain. Hell, I know this is too much info, but jerking off and not being careful how the fist hits the base would hurt a bit when tapping the testicles.

It's just a thought running through my mind. It's at least not so bad as hyenas, where their long penis like clit is actually a pain to the males since it hits and even at times damages the males nuts. Remember, males are not the only one with penis bones in some species. There are species out there where females got bones in their clits. Biology is a good subject to learn PAST the "Socket A goes into Socket B" subject.

Well, had the flue last week when I cam to visit Washington state. Got over it. Then had delays getting my meds and getting back to work. NOW I got my meds. BUT still trying to figure out how to get back to work. Ah well, I got my CDL back with Washington State. So no longer NY state resident. Ah well, I guess I'll just stick it out from now on.

Okay, I purposely switched that around....but FA sure is getting a flood of it's own. As for Denver, if I didn't decide to stop in Colby, KS on my way to Aurora due to being a day early with my deliver, I think I would have gotten to join in on the chaos that happened there. Next day, depending where you were at, didn't look like much....till you got into the areas that got hit the hardest. All I can say is, that's the most insane amount of damage done in such a short period of time I ever seen. All roads and highways got affected in some way that makes travel a pain. Especially in a semi-truck. Needless to say, it was easier to just shoot east on I-76 today to get out of there, head up CO-71/NE-71 to I-80 in Nebraska. Then head west to Cheyenne, WY. There's no detours as of yet posted that I know of a recommended DOT detour for traffic to use trying to just pass through the areas affected. Which pretty much is Denver up to the CO/WY line. With this in mind, I met a lot of drivers in this truck stop here in Laramie, WY who is literally just sitting here, waiting for someone, anyone back in their company head quarters to approve the alternate routes they want to take....which is mainly what I took. Mainly cause since there is no official detour route posted by either WY or CO DOT other than I-25 and parts of US-85 (the alternative) and US-287 (short cut) are closed due to flooding. All they can do is sit. Which is ridiculous, cause all they need to do is just head to 71, and they'll be able to shoot it south till near US-287 for OK and TX.

But yeah, Denver, I don't know what to say other than hopefully things will get back to normal very soon. Easier to say though. There's more extreme damages than just a road got flooded then dried. Obviously they'll have to fix those roads that got washed away before they could even bring in a clean up crew and construction workers to start rebuilding everyone lives again. I mean, shit, one town had to get the national guard to rescue them due to no way of getting to them they were cut off by rushing waters. Insane stuff.

I should not bring this in, but I can't help but noticed some oddness with my experience going through New Orleans years ago sometime after the flooding compared to Denver when I dealt with them just the morning after. I shouldn't let myself say there's a different mindset compared to the two places due to location and culture. BUT I think it's more of just seeing the affects of those in the area who were not heavily affected, so it have not sunk in yet a day after the chaos. Compared to me dealing with New Orleans when I rolled into the place months later to near ghost town and meeting both those affected and not affected....and the fact the reality of the horrid situation finally sunk in....no pun intended. I mean, shit, there's no such thing is East New Orleans anymore. All you see when you drive in I-10 east of New Orleans is overpasses for exits that been blocked off and covered due to wild growth. If you know where to look, you could find the "East New Orleans" sign hidden behind tall grass....about all you will see of what was once there. Let's hope none of that happens to any of the areas hit near Denver. Though I get this feeling, it won't.

I am sitting here at this truck stop at the top of the hill in DuPont, PA, looking over Scranton and noticed a few SUV's with those damn family stickers on the back of them. And I been thinking about this for awhile now.....but only shared this with a few people. BUT seriously, Hollywood made horror movies over a lot of concepts. Like insane truck drivers, serial killer lawyers. Even an evil Santa Clause and Leprechaun. And there are horror flicks over stupid items and/or themes that somehow get bastardized.

SO, why have no one made a horror/thriller/action....what ever movie that involves using those stickers on the back of those cars/SUVs/Vans as a way the killer "marks" his successful kill? Like the first one he sneaks up and "scratch" off would be family dog on the back. And it slowly goes down that list.

MAYBE doing that type of movie would stop that fucking fad. Cause seriously, with the way these idiots drive, they are giving people with temper issues who are about to crack a clue on how much he must destroy in that cars family.

Leave it to my mind to think of this disturbing thought. Then again again, it's hard not to think like this when I get pissed off by people almost running me off the road while I am listening to "Firestarter" by Prodigy.

I am not sure which is weirder and confusing. Having many alts? Or having many alts that have their own alts? Or even more confusing, their alts, having their alts, with their own alts.

I think I am blowing my mind.

Utah....I guess. Though definitely Salt Lake City celebrates the Mormons settling the city. Fireworks galore and what not. And a lot of businesses either shut down early or entirely. Either way, wish I knew that before I started to get my hopes up on leaving this place today. Instead, here I am, nearly midnight, just watching the fireworks in my hotel room.

To catch everyone up to speed. I left Washington state on Thursday night. Got a load heading to Mocksville, NC from Medford, OR. When I past Wells, NV, eastbound on I-80, the damn fan clutch broke, leaving me with no engine fan to cool the engine. And it broke while I was going up a steep climb. So I overheated and got stuck on the shoulder. That was Sunday night. Got towed back into Wells, NV due to low funds in maintenance escrow. No shops there. Nearest shops was either some town near Twin Falls, ID....about 130 miles. Or Salt Lake City, UT, which is 180 miles. WELL, shooting north of I-80 onto US-93 to Idaho. Only to shoot southeast onto I-84 to head into Salt Lake City anyways. I decided to request for Salt Lake City. Of course I couldn't do it till the guys back at our main office was in on Monday. So Monday evening....after having a fun argument with work on what was happening....since the weekend idiots didn't write shit down.....I got towed to Salt Lake City, UT to get my truck worked on.

Been here since.

I do want to say that after dealing with some of the local drivers and drivers for this area at both the shop and in the hotel, I can see why locals around here treat drivers like shit. Cause....well....cause they ACT like shit. Fuck, one driver acted like a kid I dealt with in high school who always tried to make others enter the van from the back, despite the teacher telling that person to knock it off. And this driver is close to 70 years old. Yeah, keep being classy. Then again, I should not be surprised. I don't meet the greatest drivers in the world off of the I-80 corridor from Nevada to Iowa. Too busy acting big brats who just want to bully everyone around them while demanding respect. Most places, the public tries to push me off the road due to impatience. Out here, the truck drivers will try to push everyone including their fellow drivers off the road. Ugh I never realized how horrible this corridor was till I started getting work on other corridors more often. I just....ugh, hate I-80 corridor west of Illinois.

BUT I like roaming Salt Lake City. For a western state....or mountain state.....city in the Rockies.....what ever. For where I am at, this place got a lot of pedestrian side walks and what not. At least in the area I am in at the moment. I got nothing to complain about.

Still waiting for work.

BUT till then, I am gonna see if I can try....and most likely fail, to see if I could get more questions going on here for my characters. Any questions anyone like to give to them?

Or just some horrible monster when upset? I don't know.

I wont' get into huge details. I'll just say I said some really harsh things that I moronically didn't think they were that harsh in public on my Facebook about a relative. It wasn't till I got a highly stressed out and in tears relative on the phone tell me I am making said person look like a horrible person. Honestly, no, that person is not horrible. Hell, we all have our issues. But quickly re-reading what I typed again while on the phone made me realize that YES, I did type it up like this person was a horrible person....EVER. Well, the issues between me and the person got cleared up over the phone. I am truly am sorry. I even deleted the entry since it's not only horrible, BUT the issue I was having was cleared up over the phone while this was happening. BUT I don't know what's worst. The fact my relative is going to go ahead and unwatch me on facebook. BUT my relative psychiatrist said this person SHOULD block me since a week or two ago.

That last part really hurt. Am I that horrible? I mean, shit, I already felt horrible that I made this person cry her head off as she shrilled on the phone, trying to clear things up with me. I never meant to upset her. Last person in the world I want to upset. And vice versa was told to me. I knew this too. I could go on and on about this person have an issue to just shutting me down whenever I try to bring things up or shoot me down with wit 10 times faster than my own.....I am very slow in person. Topped off my issue of not being able to just talk out my thoughts with her and family cause I am just too used to being shut off that I find it easier to find OTHER means to let out my frustrations.

But I guess right there IS my biggest problem. I let my fingers type in public accessed sites about how I feel about a person. Granted, you have to REALLY do something to have me just do such a thing. And she knows this......so I can see why it stabbed her so much.

I am boggled on how to communicate with people. I am not saying what I did was right. BUT I am saying there's got to be a way I can talk it out with my relatives without resorting to not only going public.....but going about it in such a vile manner. I really thought I had down. But I don't. I don't think publicly saying I got an issue should be silenced. BUT I do realized that I just don't say it correctly in such a manner that it don't come off angry, or negative. Or maybe it's best to not say anything at all?

But now I am just curious, at least on here on FA. Do I come off as vile, at times snyde, cynical, enraged? Too opinionated to the point it's easier to just ignore than debate? I mean well......I just dish it out horribly. I am floored that a psychiatrist would even suggest that I should be avoided at all cost for mental health. This person isn't avoiding me totally. I am just not going to be watched anymore on any social media sites. But we still e-mail, phone calls, and meet up in person when I happen to roll into town due to a load going into her area. BUT still, I can't help but feel maybe I should just vanish for a long time. At least for a year.

I don't know. It's hard NOT to let emotions fly. It's what makes us living. But I am getting tired of always doing something wrong. I try to talk, I get told to hush till I calm down. Even though I wasn't angry. But being told to shut up till I calm despite being calm angers me. Especially when me being supposedly angry upset this person. And now I THOUGHT I found a way to at least make my thoughts heard.......I just made it 10 times worst. Ugh, she accepted my apology. But I doubt she's sleeping like I am not.

I may sound stupid for saying this, but this is why I had been less, and less, and less social on media sites....or even in RL. It's not just my job taking up my personal free time. I am just tired of hurting people I care about. Especially those who are very close.

Got into Washington state early on the 7th. So I went up to Blaine WA to park my truck at our drop yard there. Work failed to tell me the drop yard moved. Of course, they want me to use the Pacific, WA drop yard. They just refuse to listen that I use the Blaine drop yard cause it's easier for both friends and family to pick me up and drop me off. SO after a bit of arguing with them, I find the new drop yard on my own. They were not happy with that. They fail to realize that despite living in Buffalo, NY, I take a lot of home time in Western Washington, which should be a huge clue that I have a much better understanding of the area. Can't hide shit from me. They COULD lie to me that they drop yard in Buffalo, NY is gone if they moved it cause I am not fully familiar with the area. Despite me living there....supposedly.

Anyway,  mikefurry picked me up and I got to visit New Westminster, BC for the first time in....I think 3 years. It was late 2010 since I was last up there. While heading up, he mentions they got a raccoon family moved in the area and kinda causing trouble. But I got to see new sections of highway 15. Heh, been many years in the making....and still being worked on.

http://www.royalcityrecord.com/news.....924/story.html

In case anyone want to see these little buggers. :-P I don't want to explain a whole lot about the first night there. Nothing horrible. Hell, despite the chaos, I think it was kinda hilarious. I'll just say they normally leave a way in for their cats at night. But been working on changing that due to the new "neighbors". WELL, we forgot that night, went to sleep. Around 4 am I get woken up and faced with a fuzzy silhouette of a standing raccoon, growling at me. Of course I was too damn tired to register this, plus dark that I thought was it was one of the cats. As of the NON cat like yelling at me wasn't the huge clue out of all this. I just yelled at it, asking what the hell does it want. Stared at each other for less than a minute, probably less than half a minute, gets back on all fours and wonders away with two others who were smaller than it. Before I fell back to sleep, I was thinking, "Wait, they don't have more than two cats. And not one of them look as big as their orange one." I fell back to sleep for a short bit. I get woken up again, this time to a lot of gnawing and scratching under a cabinet and a lot of noise in the kitchen. Especially the cats water bowl being knocked over. And that's when I realized it's not the cats. Turned on the lights, gnawing and scratching near me never stopped. But the noise in the kitchen stopped. I walked in the kitchen. Two raccoons trying to open the trash. They both see me, one ran into the basement door, and the other ran out of the kitchen to where the opening for the cats is. The other raccoon in the kitchen ran off. These are small and not as big as the one who woke me up earlier. I go back to the noise and stomp on the floor. Got the noise to stop. After waiting a bit, I hit the cabinet. The big old raccoon, probably the Mother, wonders out, look at me very casually. Then casually, very slowly wonders out into the kitchen and out of the house. I then call Mike downstairs since he lives in the basement that we got raccoons in the house. Heh, so he worked on getting rid of that one in the basement. FUN night. WE cleaned things up later on in the day once we got fully awake.

From there, it was just typical days. I did enjoy my visit there. Got to see a few faces hadn't seen in a long time. I honestly didn't think that I was that missed. I don't know, but I can't help but really wish I just had the money to get the ball rolling for my workers visa.

Anyway, Tuesday, came back to Arlington. Mike came down and visited for a few days. I got my internals ultra scanned on Wed. Lounged a bit. I guess I became very anti-social. I get to my room and it's like, "Okay, I am home.......now let me veg in it till I am tired of it." Saddly, takes me weeks till I am done catching up. Ah well. Mike went back home on Friday. Hope he had a good time.

Today supposed to go back to work.......no work. Another issue with work. They think I had "left". SO now I got to call my main dispatcher back tomorrow to get myself back on his board. FUN. Ugh, you know, I WISH I could just leave. But since I am leasing the truck, plus if it's their truck and I just up and left, I'll have to pay for recover fees AND have it on my recorded that I abandoned their truck......I'll work on getting back to work.

Now blow shit up. :-P

Wait, that's more 4th of July here in the states.....

Oh blow shit up anyways. :-P And have a fun day everyone.

....a major void called Chicago. What makes Chicago worst than New Mexico and Pennsylvania? WELL, they are states for one thing. Chicago is a huge city with many cities around it to make up it's metro status...thing. So I say it's worst. Cause I could pick up a load and leave there....only to some how get back there again. But the worst thing is on holidays and weekends. Guess what's coming up very quickly? :-/

BUT to be honest, in a way, I am glad I am heading there......it beats being down here for two weeks straight.

YET how I got this load? I think it's works way of saying, "Ooops, we fucked up again. Quick, give him something before he goes from annoyed to irate." Long story short, I pick up a load from our terminal in EL Paso, TX that is heading to a Sam's Club in Las Cruces, NM. I noticed when I picked it up, the delivery time and date was the 24th on the bill of laden. It's the 28th at the time.......my intuition tells me this load was NOT rescheduled with the customer....cause Werner loves to have us just bring it in and see if we are masters of BS. And I can't BS my way out of a box. SO anyway, I show up......figured as much. So I ended up taking the load BACK to EL Paso, TX. I am still fighting with weekend dispatch to give me word I am going to be paid fully for taking this to the customer, and bringing it back to our yard. PLUS stop pay and what ever else I can squeeze out of these assholes. This week I been just pointed to go grab loads that don't exist, therefore I am only getting paid deadhead.....empty trailer miles. And that hurts since I own this damn thing...therefor I got to figure out where the hell I get funds for fuel.

Ah well, I am going to rest now. I am almost out of New Mexico, heading to Chicago. Sweet. Cooler pastures, here I come.

AH, here's a good explanation. Let's say I am a cab driver. I get calls after calls for potential passengers who need rides. Only to show up and either they changed their minds and don't hire me. OR someone else grabs them before I do, so I wasted my time and fuel to get there. Company gives me a tiny compensation for my efforts. Not much, but can't complain since it's better than nothing. NOW to finally get a passenger who wants to go to a location. I drive him there, only to have him change his mind and want to go home. So I take him home. During this time, he tries to haggle his way out of paying a full fair cause he technically didn't go to his distination. Forgetting the fact he rode with me the entire way till we were at his destination door step. Only to turn around and take him back to his pick up point. And since then I am STILL trying to get my full fare.

I am so tired of this place already. Hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, HOT. Oh, did I mention HOT? And very desert like for most of the area I been. Though going up and down the mountains are nice with a 20 degree drop in temps.....still fucking hot.

I been in New Mexico since my last entry. Mainly in the south this time. Las Cruces, Roswell, Portales, and down to EL Paso, TX.....only to go right back into New Mexico. FUN, I guess if I am not always going in and out of fucking Pennsylvania, it's now gonna be New Mexico. I would say I am doing well on miles....but I am not. Matter of fact, I drove from Roswell to Portales to pick up a load of Dr. Pepper and turns out my load was cancelled.....so I drove all the way from there to here in EL Paso, TX. BUT now I am about to get a load out of our terminal here to bring it to Las Cruces for a Sam's Club.....I am getting tired of Sam's Club and Wal-Mart loads. Funny thing is, this load originated from Buckeye, AZ......same damn DC I picked up my Roswell load that got me stuck around here in the first place. I knew PA was the void for our company......BUT I am starting to see that NM is the void of the west. And it's not just this week. LAST week I was stuck in Albuquerque, going back and forth to Winslow, AZ. UGH, ugh, ugh.

I stopped in Phoenix on Sunday for a bunch of work that I knew needed to be done. But it decided to be the top thing on my list. Long story short, got a bunch of coolant leaks that I been keeping under control with sealant putty. But there's only so much putty that could be put on cracks till there is more putty than non-crack areas.

I go here, got truck done last night. Stayed at a really great hotel that the company uses....which is rare. And now sitting at our terminal, waiting for a load as I do laundry. About it. I kinda miss Phoenix. I have not stopped here since 07. Hell, have not been to this terminal since 06. This is one of our best terminals in the company. It actually nearly outdoes Omaha for just being nicer and more organized, despite it being smaller than Omaha, Dallas, and Atlanta.

What the hell? It's like a fucking void here. I been doing what our company likes to call "net ops". The short of it is pretty much day cabs taking loads from point A to a swapping point B. Swap trailers with another truck, bring that trailer back here. Then repeat process. Apparently there's not enough local drivers willing to do this work. Even though we have a lot of over the road drivers here. WELL, I can see why now. Ugh, majority....not all, but majority in this state have such little going for their lives that they seem to make it a GAME to fuck with other cars and trucks around them on the freeway. Seriously? That's more than enough to make me not want to work here locally.

BUT at least it was easy gain of money. So I guess that's all good. Ah well, after taking loads out and bringing more in, I finally got a load that's letting me leave for more than a day. Yay. I sure don't want to live here. OH, and get this, I been staying at a different truck stop the last two nights. Unlike the other one with a huge line of people wanting showers and.....well....Denny's. This place only have 2 working showers out of 15. FUN, FUN, FUN.

Oh, I want to rant about this all day. But I won't. I'll just say with the amenities I have available to work "local", it's not worth it.

WELL, sitting in Albuquerque, NM. For another night it seems. Got my 70 back, but still no load. Heh, fun, fun, fun, not the place I want to spend more than a day in. Too many locals so damn bored that they'll hang out at a truck stop just to chat with the "outsiders" to see what the outside world is like. Which is kinda nifty. BUT it also brings in weirdos who got weird subject matter. Plus those who want to do more harm than talk. Last time I stopped here for a night in 2007, it was unguarded and dangerous. One of those places you stay in your truck when the sun goes down and hope you don't need to leave till the sun comes back up.

Nowadays, there's a cop assigned to this truck stop who's main job is to patrol and protect this area. He's mostly hanging out at the front door, talking to locals and drivers. Either way, I seen them either walk or drive around this lot randomly. So that's not bad.

I had one local try to talk to me for about 10 minutes about needing to legalize weed. Fine and dandy, great, I don't really care what you or anyone does. But I did try to make it clear to this guy that he is talking to people in a heavily controlled industry by the federal government. They can and will legally search vehicles and/or demand a drug test. You refuse, you are out of a driving job. You take and fail, you are out of a driving job. SO if you truly, TRULY out for your fellow brothers (kept calling me brother for some reason), do us a favor and find a different location to talk about this that won't jeopardize our future in this job field. For most of us, it's all we got. This conversation might just attract the wrong ears who is out to "fix" the deviants.

Thankfully, the cop seem to not care as long there's no actual exchanges going on. Please don't put us into a position that welcomes harassment. I didn't travel thousands of miles just so I can get roped into your little rebellion against "The Man".

Joy, Joy.

All I could think of saying. It's my Birthday. So let's do the happy happy joy joy song and suck some eggs with granny. :-P

Kidding aside, just waiting at a truck stop in East St. Louis, IL. I got in the area couple of hours early and just chilling at the moment. Ugh, ugh, ugh, I think I been in misery too often these last 3 months. Sorry, Missouri. :-P

Ah well,stay safe all.

What's with Nigeria? I got nothing against Nigeria. BUT it seems a lot of internet scams through the decades seems to always point to Nigeria. Nigerian Prince got money and wants to give you money if you just give him your life information. Let's forget the idiots don't spell anything right, even for the version of English they use out there. YES, there's different spellings for a lot of words in different parts of world. Hell, American English is butchered compared to the real English from England. BUT I am getting side tracked.

I am thinking about this mainly cause I been getting a couple of friend request from so called women looking for a potential boyfriend. Okay, I didn't go on Facebook to look for single ladies. I went on there cause friends are on there. And I want to keep up. Oddly enough, Facebook had me reconnected with people I lost contact with from my younger days in the Philippines. Kinda wish I can hear from old buddies from Saipan....but ah well. Getting side tracked again.

Facebook, I was told, was meant to be for business and pretty much you up on the web for potential clients and work. I guess. BUT it's been many things since. Anyway, so these ladies are all unique. From different parts of the US. Different back grounds. SO AT FIRST.

NOW, first lady, she was overly flirtatious. In two weeks asking for money to fund her trip to visit her Granny in some other state. I refused...mainly cause I couldn't IF I wanted to. SO that person dropped contact faster than a horse trying shit in a middle of horse race. No surprise there.

BUT the rest of these ladies. Despite their different backgrounds, home towns, even their family set up. They all have one thing in common. They are in Nigeria currently. Their parents died in a car crash....varies on either before are after they arrived in Nigeria. Friend currently either died in hospital or on life support. AND this person is being held captive to pay for medical bills by having her passport held till it is paid.

Do I have retard written over my face? Or am I just that stupid looking? Then again, I am sure it's just random pickings and I am stupid for even grabbing the bait.

Seriously, and why is it Nigeria? Is it that horrid of a place? Or do people really do get away with conning people from outside of it's borders? Either way, this really don't make me feel comfortable trying dating sites. I am not even on a dating site nor looking. Testing the waters so far makes me wonder how the hell I didn't step on all those Synanceias. Ugly fishes, that's for sure.

Anyway, I am just floored with this. BUT at the same time, just not surprised. I guess I am just floored with the fact I had a nasty, cynical view about the whole thing....and it turned out to be right. I try to come up with positive things to say and think about....cause I automatically expect the worst out of life. So of course I get extremely angry when my negative assumptions are correct. Pretty horrible of me, I must admit. Try not to be like that. But meh, I just don't understand the world at times on WHY it could be dark as this and worst. BUT there's always a light somewhere.

Either way, I still have no idea why Nigeria is always at the center of these scams. Makes me wonder if I would be kidnapped if I go to Nigeria. Or kidnapped to Nigeria. Hell, maybe these ladies ARE truly stuck in Nigeria and are trying to find a way out. BUT there's more to the hell that is being said. LIKE...let's say, the person that truly is holding their passport maybe acting like a Pimp almost. As in, he'll take the money she gets, bumps up the interest, make her work more to pay off her debt. I don't know. What do I know? I just know I don't want to go to Nigeria. Let alone trust anyone I talk on the net who say they are stuck in Nigeria.

Okay, maybe I am being dumb to think about this too much. But Cartoon Network lost their brains when they try tried....and still do try to convince the public that they are like Disney and should be allowed to make live action films. But I find that it's full of bullshit mainly cause if you think about it, WHY call it "Cartoon Network" if you are going to be playing movies. Disney wasn't always fully artwork....it was a MAN who made animation and named his work after his family name. HOW did "Disney" back then relates to Cartoons? IT NEVER DID.

But then I realized, Cartoon Network was started by a bunch of failed TV personalities that tried super hard to get noticed on TV in the flesh, BUT NEVER MADE IT. So they got tossed onto a "project" at the time for a new channel that was only going to be playing old out of Syndicated cartoons. Cartoon Network. A lot of personalities went in there and decided to come up with random shit that some things did make the cut. While others....faded away into obscurity. Either way, when you look up the roster for those involved with Space Ghost Coast To Coast. Most of them where failed CNN corespondents. Probably explains why the show is based around the idea of a horrible, forgettable Hanna-Barbara superhero retiring and getting a talk show to pass the time. Granted, I LOVED that show. BUT it explains a lot.

So decades later, these people are TRYING to break out in live action film. Either trying to gain lime light again. Or trying to get their buddies into the lime light. There's a few problems with this idea. ONE Cartoon Network have forgotten how to be funny in their newer cartoon line ups, especially in Adult Swim. They are too focused on the zany and not on content that flows nicely. Too dependent on shit like Aqua Teen Hunger Force. Topped off they forgot the meaning of "Cartoons", which means animation, animated art. NOT ZANY, unintelligent, low brow humor.

Cause lets face it, Scary Movie Series, Police Academy series. Even Airplane and Hot Shots where zany, almost cartoon like. But in the end, are NOT cartoons, but comedy. And way better than the shit Cartoon Network are putting out as "Cartoons" and "Live action".

They need to regain what the meaning of "Cartoon" really means. Stop trying to find their no talented buddies jobs and trying to pass it onto us as they got comic gold, timing, and skills down....cause they don't. They are horrible frat boys who think they are funny. And get a lesson from Leslie Nielson. He said in an interview that yes, he has a loads of fun on set. BUT you have to believe in what you are doing and the characters have to believe in what they can and can't do in order to let it transfer well onto screen. Which makes sense. Cause none of the actors on Cartoon Network are even taking their roles seriously on camera. You can tell they THINK they are just acting out a hilarious scene. Instead of being a character try to accomplish what ever the character is trying to do.

Last journal was interesting. Gotta ramble. Yay.

Anyway, you know you are a lonely type person when you start making pics of anatomy as your desktop background. Considering no one ever around to accidentally or purposely see my laptop, let alone what's used as a back ground. I decided to just put up....female....anatomy....that I like. I guess I finally gone to creep side for my computers. In the past it was mainly just scenery. Ah well.

Nothing much new with me for work. Trucking, what more is there to say? I am about an hour away from New Orleans. Got the whole Sunday here to relax till I deliver down there tomorrow. About all for me.