Well, last week was nothing much but work, work, work.

Wed, I had an old drunkard who me and the last rover banned from the premise a year ago. He came back, and long story short, I once again had to be the one to risk getting clobbered just to hopefully humor the guy long enough to convince him to just go home. Next time he comes back though, I will call the cops. First time his wife was a patient here. Last time we just didn't want to be harsh to him since his intention was just to tell her old friend's in the clinic that she recently passed away. If he comes again, he's got no excuse to show up next time.

 mikefurry came to visit on my days off. From must hanging around, driving around, and hanging out with our other buddy, Nick, it was actually a nice visit.

I think I am about to retire my Buick. Every time I fix something recently on it, either there's a new problem that comes up. Or there's more than one problem, and I fixed only part of it. I think it's finally giving up. Either way, it's a 20 year old car. It was good to me. But I am going to try at least one more repair on it. If it does not fix the problem. It's retired. This is the first car I ever owned where mechanically it's in great shape and sound. But what's dying are the computer controlled components. I already put a new computer on it in 2003. If that's going out on it again, I am NOT spending another 700 for it.

Other than that, fine.

 mikefurry announced this for me on his journal, but yeah, I'll be going with him to All Fur Fun. So, see some of you who'll be there. I am looking forward to see a few there.

Well, okay, so far I am only looking forward to seeing two people there, and I am riding with one of them. So anyone else going?

Well, other than being emo in the last rant...er....entry...I am doing fine.

Work is work. Not much more for me to say about it. It's just work. Guarding a lobby that don't need much guarding.

This weekend I hanged out with a buddy I had not seen awhile since I been sick more than not for awhile. That was on Thursday.

Friday I was going to see my old buddy, Nick, but the Jeep took longer to fix than planned. A "simple" fix was to replace the ignition switch that fried out the weekend before. What made it hard was it was so far in the back of the dash and in an awkward location, it was hard to see what I was doing. I had to look at it first, then feel my way around to work on it....with one hand. Cause the lower dash could not be removed cause some idiot designer thought it was a great idea to rivet a relay box to the lower panel, with no way of removing the box or unhooking the wires. SO I HAD to let it dangle in front of me, making it WORSE. Stupid AMC design, no wonder they went out of business. At least Chrysler was smart enough to give the ABS break system computer a connector type plug I can remove.......on the other side where it's not in my way. ANYWAY, it was a piss off cause there was TWO other devices bolted over the ignition switch. ALL 3 needed to be adjusted for it to function correctly.

I spent 4 hours trying to adjust the ignition switch, the shifter lock cable, and the high beam switch. It took me 4 hours to get these three things to work correctly. Cause if I didn't, the high beams would either never turn on, or always be on. The shifter lock will never engage and it would allow me to accidentally start to engine in gear (which was a problem when I got the Jeep anyway that I needed to fix). And my favorite of all, if I didn't adjust the ignition switch correctly, the starter won't start. That is the most stupid design I ever seen. Cause I only had ONE bolt to adjust THREE devices. And each device did not move in the same place.

SO, that's fixed.

Saturday, hanged out with Breimh, Purr, and others at a place in Renton for a Starfleet ship I joined. Heh, about it. Just meeting on plans, grand rules, and what to do next. Then ate, and watched "The Last Mimzi". Which, I hate to say, but I was not really impressed with the movie. It had allot of CG, and some humor here and there. But I guess I was distant to the movie cause there was nothing for me to connect with the characters. I could not feel like I can emphasize with any of them. It was just visually great. About it.

Of course my Buick decided it wanted to break down on my way home. Heh, I thought it was the over drive. But it wasn't till I dropped off the everyone that the car started to act up. When I inspected the engine (again that day), I noticed a loud air noise and it was coming from the EGR valve. Now usually a dead EGR valve don't cause problems, it just lets the fuel run richer. But apparently one of the bolts stripped, so it's being held by one bolt and it's leaking enough to cause the engine to lope and barely keep running. WELL, I guess that's next week work. Put new threads and buy a new EGR valve. Heh........I like these two vehicles, and I can work on them. But for Christ sake, I really want one car right now that's in great shape.

Today, at work again. Busier than usual for a Sunday. But at least I got a little time right now to chill a little before it gets busy with patients coming down, waiting for their rides.

About it. Take care all.

And I am still confused on how to NICELY tell some one I am not interested.

*FA edition*

I got a live journal. But I also use this as a journal cause I feel that the "Personal Journal" is pretty much, "personal". Therefore I should be able to use this as a means for anyone who gives a damn about me a chance to read what I been up to in life. If I want to make a journal of what I had been up to on projects or updates of projects, I'll do that in the "Descriptions" on the works in question.

Also, believe it or not, but my live journal account is watched by friends and family who view my skunk fursona as nothing more than an online avatar/mascot. I DO NOT want to talk ANYTHING remotely furry on there. I get to say allot more here when it comes to the furry fandom. Let alone my furry works.

Speaking of my furry crap....er...literature, I been having a writers block. I'll start something, but can't seem to finish them. I have an idea on how to to change the environment. But I honestly can't focus at home. And I can't focus at friends homes cause then they'll know I am one of the "sick" crowd.

And I am NOT comfortable plopping out a laptop in public just to type things. I mean, I just feel that going to a place to eat, you go to eat, nothing more. I am amazed at how gutsy some people can be by bringing their work to a Deny's. But, I have nothing against those who do. I just don't have the mentality, let alone guts to try.

AH well, about it.

And not doing my job. :-P

So I had a random thought/question.

I met girls who say they can't get a date. Yet these girls also complain about guys that don't interest them hitting on them 24/7, everywhere they go.

So really, do they really can't get a date? Or are they just picky?

As for guys, not many can say they get flirted with contstantly compared to even the loneliest girl.

I only gone out once in my life, and that was my senior year, 1999. Since then, I only had 2 girls made it clear they just want to go for a romp. And a girl currently who can't take no for an answer.

Yet I get told I am too picky. I guess I am. But at the same time, within a decade, that was all that happened to me. Usually, I'll be lucky if a girl would talk to me, let alone answer my question where the bathroom is when I go up to one to ask. YES, I CAN ask for directions.

I guess what I am trying to say is, I noticed last year there was an application for guys to fill out for gals who are trying to look for "Mr. Right". And to my surprised, it worked for most people who tried that method of dating.

I am not saying it's a bad thing. But I would LOVE to see a guy asking a gal to fill out an application to see if she was worth his time.

Really, there's times I rant that we are all the same. Yet the only real differences I see when if comes to cultural is, no matter what. In the end, it's all animal instinct. No matter if it's a lion, hyena, or wolf pack mentality when it comes to how the culture of the area runs for courting. The males will always compete for the females attention. And all the female needs to do is "decide" on a male or males.

NOW, I bet this gets more confusing when we look at courting ritual's for bisexuals. And my minds blown on how the courting rituals work for homosexuals.

That's my random thought for the night. Pointless with no solution. Just a random thought that's in my head and I needed to let it out.

*JOURNAL*
For those curious about me.

For those who want info on my works? I'll give it to you when I post the work in question. And if I decide to show you a work in progress, then you'll see the *journals* to that in the work's descriptions.

(Can you tell I am getting sick of people telling me what my journal is supposed to be used for on here?)

*now actual journal entry*

I been sick as hell this whole weekend. Sad thing is, I got rid of this cold a few weeks ago, only to get it back. SO, I guess there is a draw back working at a hospital. Granted, I am just the guard. But since I am in a room filled with patients who obviously came here to get better, there's a higher chance to get sick, or worse. I am over it.....for now.

I like to congratulate those I know and those I once knew (even if just a tad bit) who are currently blessed with a new born on the way....or already there. May the child be a wonderful bundle of joy.....and not turn into a terrible demon spawn.

Other than that, I had been busy working, working, working. March 26 to 28, I worked on my car on the 26th, replaced the muffler on it.....only to realize the old pipe, even though it looks good on the outside, deteriorated.....hence it was rusting bad on the inside like the old muffler on it. Ah well, next pay day, I'll order the new pipe and put it on myself.

27th, visited Breimh and Purr, mainly just hanging out and trying on uniforms. Did I mentioned I joined Starfleet International? Yes..........I am officially a Treky.......God help me. I barely know anything about it's history and I joined. :-P

28th, visited Scott for the first time in years. Last time I saw him was in early 2006, he had his baby girl and working at the lumber mill. He's an old high school buddy of mine who despite how much of a child he was, he sure grew up and started a brood of his own. Though he's still a kid after all this time. Though now he's in Everett and he's got two baby girls. Fearless girls. It's nice to deal with children who don't start crying when I look at them....or stare. Though when Scott and our buddy Nick turned their backs on me and the kids......well, I never thought I would be a playground for children. Both of them wanted me to either pick them up, bounce them on my lap, let them cuddle up to me. Or JUMP on me. And it's not all in order, it's all totally random. I think I like those girls. I hope they don't become devils later....though I am sure they already are. One to those moments that made me feel torn of wish I had kids/glad I don't have kids. Hehehehe, watching Scott care for them really gave me a new light toward him personally. Don't get me wrong, he's a very nice guy and caring. But we all felt he wouldn't make a loving father. But seeing with the girls actually interacting with him and the girls are not afraid of him, yet listen to him when he tells them its time for bit. It was just....well...mesmerizing. Ah well, Scott is currently jobless, sadly, and he's really stressing on getting a job fast. But at least his wife still works.

Anyway, about it from me. Hehehe, nothing new on my end. I am just some fat loser who'll just drift in life. But I can at least try to enjoy each moment that comes up. Even if it's nothing to do with me totally. I just want everyone happy.

I am typing this at work. BLAH!

I am just lost to why some of the people I chatted to a while back, even met one or two of them in question, all the sudden want nothing to do with me. Or so that's how I feel. I understand that I have been away for awhile. But really, when I say hi. At least be nice enough to tell me that I am nothing more than a stranger. And either give me a chance to change that, or just tell me to not bother. Just so I can get on with my life not sitting here, wondering WTF I did wrong.

Either way, I am getting really fucking fed up trying to find the time and a place in my heart to open up and let people into my life. Only to find out I been shut out for some reason not being given. Hell, at least tell me why. I would be hurt, but at least I'll know why. It's better than sitting here being hurt AND confused, beating myself up.

There are just times when I feel like I want to say "fuck off" to the world. But really, if I loved being alone, I would not feel so depressed and upset if I was rejected. Either way, it's stupid that I at least put an effort into keeping contact. It may not seem allot. But compared to me randomly coming on line once every month or say, saying hi. Compared to the most I know who DO NOT BOTHER trying to keep in contact. Then really, I think I am doing much better than most I know. Greedy little bastards. Always take, take, take, but never give.

So this is my mood currently.

I have never cleaned my friend's list since I been chatting randomly since 2000.

SO, I think it's time I clear up the old list.

So if anyone wants to stay on my list, please message me. Though I am going to be considerate and leave the IM names alone for those I chatted within the last 6 months.

Though I do have names from people I had not talked to as far back as 2000. SO it's time to clean house.

I'll be doing that when I get home after work though. I am so fed up with this place that I snuck in my laptop and just been sneaking online. It's a Sunday anyway, so nothing much happens. SO who knows, I may be seen doing small, random things online while at work on Sundays. Who knows, I don't.

I like to thank  sailoranna for the icon. Hehehehe, it's nifty. :-D I wish I had that night stick though......and got to wear blue. Though I DO have the blue shirt in case I do roves instead of my current post where I am expected to wear white with a blazer and look like a business man. Such a life of a lobby post.

I hate dealing with public, but I always end up getting the jobs where I must deal with customers directly. But at least it's like working at Holiday Inn's front counter......just allot LESS responsibility. Though there are exaggerated expectations people give me when I am not even given that type of power.


http://forums.sennadar.com/viewforu.....c&start=25


This week I like to introduce a huge story with I can't seem to find the name for. It looks more like it's just called "Kit'. Which is the nickname for the main character. His full name is "Kitstrom Lucas Vulpan III".

To sum it up simply, the story is about a disowned rich brat fox trying to live in "normal" society.

But it starts off years later from being disowned, seeing him as a homeless drifter slowly moving south west away from his home town, Boston.

I won't say more on it. But I will say this. I find it very intriguing, and found myself glued to it. And to be very honest, it's HARD to get me glued. There are allot of different personalities, and each one has a background. Some we get to see more of, some we just get a quick yet meaningful blurb of that character before they are just "there". But even then, those characters interact. And each character have SOMETHING you just adore along with something you just HATE about them. I will admit, the main character himself starts off stand offish. And later on you actually would love him. Despite how much you want to punch him sometimes for being so unforgiving. But then again, if I went through with what I had, I would be angry too. BUT, I like the story cause in a round about way, everyone around him don't agree fully with him on his total rage towards his elders. I don't get the preachy, Kit is right 100%. What I am seeing is, Kit is right, mostly. But even he can go overboard to the point the others just shake their heads at him.

It's a good read. And I like it most since it's a story based on current times. So swash buckling, no sci-fi. Just stuff here and now (at least at the time it was written).

Now I will have to gripe on some things. First though, this is just my petty idea that I find it to be hard to include actual people in the story. Just my personal opinion. It does not mean it's bad. But I guess I just feel that putting in a famous political figure to say things you may think they would say is just like shoving my own Mother into the story and have her EXACTLY as my mother, and make her say and do things that I may think is okay. But in the long run, she may not agree with it, or worse yet, be insulted. So I tend to leave actual politicians, let alone people out. Which is HARD to do when the story is actually based on our actual society figure heads.

Once again, it's just my opinion, and it's just my petty thoughts on that. Other than that, it's fine, and to be quite frank, the writer have more guts than me. So I do applaud him. And the characters that are supposed to be actual characters, well, they are NOT the main characters, nor are major side characters. Just pop up, then they are gone. So it's okay.

The other gripe I have, and I feel it is valid, is the characters that are introduced usually get a very good description and info of what they look like. But after that, good luck getting anymore info. Now I am not saying he must re-introduce the characters every time a new chapter pops up. But it would be nice to be reminded of their species. So far, there are only to main families in the story that we are reminded of their species. But the rest of the characters, it don't happen much. There's actually a character named Mike who I have never seen a reminder in the story of what his species was after was introduced. But he's in the story. And I started to think he was some dog till I looked back to where he first popped up and remembered he's a raccoon. It would REALLY help to get the species pointed out in each chapter, just so it would help.

Ah well, all in all though, I find it a good read. It's safe for anyone to read. Nothing X-rated. Though there are characters who are "wild". I think it would be worth a look over. All in all, the series is something "I" wish I can hold a candle to when I write Shandra. It's a good look, trust me.

But I currently have no guts to randomly ask an artist if they would be interested in drawing an icon for me.

I been wanting to replace the icons I have, since they are out of date and points out that I am a driver. Even though a year ago, I was.

So I need to update it, maybe be draw in a security uniform.

But I want the icon to look silly, if not, friendly.


But anyway, main reason I been worried about asking people cause lately.....either I am told they are busy (in a round about way....like read journals). Or I get a small conversation, then it disappears and I don't hear much about it. I am still jaded from a commission I paid for somewhere between 2006 to 2007 that did not go anywhere but a sketch. If I could find that sketch, I'll just post it as is.

Either way, there's been other "fall outs", but thankfully it did not cost me any. So I guess I'll just shout it here. If anyone interested, let me know. Then we'll talk.

Though I have a feeling this may not got noticed, so bleh. But I need to find a way to be sure that things pull through and that the person I am hoping to commission is going to pull through. I mean, if they don't want to do it, just say so. It won't upset me. But it's upsetting when things just fall through like it never happened. No yes or no. Just silence. Not nice.

Sexism.

Think about it.

You can not go around saying "Whites this" and "Blacks that" without setting off allot of flames.

But wow, boys and girls are more than happy to spout off the most hateful things about the other gender. And most of the time it would be laughed off as, "Oh, yeah, I can see that." Or, "Wow, I noticed that too."

What I am trying to get at is, I find it totally amazing that a sexist woman who blatantly have a pure hatred for men would be considered part of the feminist movement. The Feminist movement was pretty much women standing up for their rights to be treated equally. Yet today's view of Feminist and even their own members are fully blown out gender bashers who want nothing equal. Just a huge shift to being the next top dog of the world.

Yet for some reason, I meet allot who agree they are jerks, but that's just them. SO let them go. But of course, if a guy even says one thing remotely wrong about the other gender. He may as well be marked as a "hater".

I have no understanding on WHY I meet people from both genders telling me, "Women are this, guys are that" bullshit.

Really, we are all individuals. Just because YOU are a guy/girl, does not mean YOU are the spokes person for your gender.

I meet too many women at work and even at friends homes lately where there's a girl or two who are more than happy to let EVERYONE know how they live is how WOMEN live. Which is bullshit. Especially when at another group get together, another group of women would tell me the OPPOSITE of what the other told me.

Like here's an example. I had some women tell me, "OH, we women always have a clean house cause that's how we are (but never give me a sound logic....other than hormones)." Only to meet another type of women who say, "Society is full of shit, I am a slob, and that's how most women are. You freaking men always force us to clean up after your shit (well, in a way, yes. Sexism once again)."

Yet you introduce these type of women into the same room. And I seen this, the room just goes quiet......and a new subject pops up, tossing out the subject at hand.

This will be said the same for GUYS also.

I want to say a whole lot, but I am having a hard time fleshing these thoughts out without getting totally pissed off. I am really getting fed up with how people act. Especially when it comes to issues of gender.

Everyone LOVES to segregate themselves. Bathroom and even dorm room separation is understandable. But it gets out of hand when people start to find reasons on why male and females can't get along as platonic friends. I mean, I got a girl at work who is asking ME on how to TALK TO GUYS. ME? ASKING ME? I AM A GUY. But what drives me up the walls is, she is asking me on how to deal with guys in GENERAL. She feels guys don't communicate the same way as girls.....yet she's talking to me just fine.......go figure. And when I asked her, "Why are you asking me? Your talking to me as you talk to anyone else." She literally said, "You seem nice." NICE? All I did was talk to her like I would talk to anyone else.

Treat everyone the same way you want to be treated. This saying goes for EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING. It goes both ways, not one way. It is NOT race, colour, or GENDER specific.

So guys, stop treating women like they are fragile creatures who you have to some how impress with your strength. That they need you to comfort them when they are crying........and they have no fucking clue who you are. Just because your a "man" does not mean they want a stranger to make them feel happy just so you could hope to get laid that night. Stop flirting with a girl who obviously isn't interested. If that's her way of playing, then take your gamble, but don't come crying to me for bail money.

Girls, STOP thinking guys are heartless assholes who want nothing more than to fuck you like a rag doll. Damn it, I know there's a few bad apples. But not everyone is out to treat you like a piece of meat. There is NO special way to communicate with guys. Just fucking talk to one. Stop expecting guys to read your fucking mind. If they could, they probably be with someone else cause you probably got too much baggage to scare them off. Just talk. Stop playing stupid games with guys to see how much shit he would take before he snaps. That may be the reason the last boy friend beat the shit out of you. Also, stop teasing guys to get their blood moving. If you don't want to get laid, then don't make the guy so round up to the point he rapes you. Be accountable for your actions just as much as you expect the guy to be accountable for his actions. It's a two way street.

You know, maybe I don't know what I am saying.

But I do know one thing. When the going gets tough, men and women can accomplish the same goals. And be just as lazy, and selfish. Equally, with greed. To be very rude, the only difference I see is, I have a dick, women have a pussy. One holds the seed, the other bears the child. But other than that, parenting should be looked at as an equal job.

Oh, and if the next person says, "You should respect your mother more, she's had you for 9 months." I like to see you say that to yourself when your mom just ruined your entire day just because SHE felt like it. And not ONCE give you an apology.

I guess I caught what ever that was going around on Sunday. But it slowly got stronger. By the time I reached Thursday, it was bad. Then again, Friday was the worst. Damn headache, sore throat, stuffy sinuses, and burning eyes. Heh, I was thinking of leaving town this weekend.....of course it did not happen.

Anyway, I am feeling a little better now...........well, still sick. But not as bad as yesterday. Hopefully I'll be fine for work on Sunday. I can't afford to miss a day.

And Nyquil is my freaking friend.....except for the jell capsules. I don't have to taste Nyquil, but damn, those pills are HUGE.

Worked, worked, worked. Working @ work.

Then at home, just working on the cars. I must admit, my Buick had been good to me for awhile. But I think it finally decided that I need to focus on the body issues that I been ignoring on for a long time. As for the Jeep, it's getting close to being close to perfect. But I guess it's good to have a hobby. Maybe a little pricey. But at the end of the day, nothing feels good than doing a project myself and even it it don't 100% like a pro. It's done, it's MY work, and I finished it. Therefor it feels great. That, and I spent way less doing it myself than getting a mechanic and/or body shop to do it. I am still going to end up paying a body shop to work on the Jeeps driver side door issue. But that won't be for awhile.

I been just relaxing. Maybe type a story...parts here and there. Then most likely go brain numb playing Fallout 3.

I hanged out with  rickcoona today. It was fun. Just ate food. Then hanged out at a Starbucks with his wife. Though eventually she had to leave, then we later. He really wanted to "interview" me with his video recorder......heh, I gave it a shot. Though Starbucks is NOT what I consider a comfortable place. So I found myself talking too quietly than talking loud enough to be heard......and avoiding question that I did not feel comfortable with answering in public. :-P

I decided to look at my stats.
As of 12:44 AM, 2/27/2009, Nikki's naughty pics and the story "Nikki's Night Out" seem to have ALLOT of views. Close to 150. I am just astounded. Seems Nikki is well liked. But I could be patting myself on the back with a spiked club. Cause for the favorites, the ONLY Nikki art to make the top 3 of the highest faves happen to be THE top favorite I got. Which is "Nikki Brown Posing Nude". Then she makes the bottom 5 with "Surprise".

I must admit, within the top 5 mostly viewed submissions, "Teenagers Can Be Insanely Cruel" is the only one that is NOT porn.

For the 5 most faved submissions, "Shandra Boxing" is the non porn submission to not only make the top five, but it's the SECOND favorite in the top 3.

Okay, here's where I am shocked though. "Nikki's Night Out" is not only the only story in the list of top 5 things viewed. It is NUMBER ONE. Is it the thumbnail of the police cruiser that gets all the hits? Is it because I have a female's name in the title.....and the title gives a clear hint on what she'll be getting into in the story? Or is the story really turning heads? And the submission "Nikki's Fantasy" is at tie with "Nikki's Night Out." Either way, "Nikki's Night Out" is the only story on the top 3. Let alone even on the top 10, or even 20....well, okay, maybe at 20 to 21 is when you'll see another story pop up on "most viewed".

Either way, is "Nikki's Night Out" is at the top. And it was one of my most UNEASY submissions I done. I mean, I had to have people coax me....let alone I had to coax myself to post it. And it's the most viewed I got. Heh, I am flattered....if not perplexed.

Sadly, NONE of my stories even show up within the top 30 faved submissions I got. BUT, I may as well feel good that the COMIC form of my stories got on the list. I try to look at cover page for the most views. The ones starting in (00). So far, MMB (00) [My Masked Bandit = Shandra 2] made #8. So I do feel special a little. I mean, I am glad to see the stories turned comic is not a waste of time and funds. :-D And the other comics appear within the top 20. So I am actually quite happy with it. Though like I said, I kinda wish the actual stories made the most faved list. But I am just glad the comics itself made it near the top of the list. :-D

IT also proves a few theories I have. One, most people would rather see the stories played out in images than take the time to read them. Second, the promise of PORN, let alone just giving out the porn will get peoples attention. And third which is an add on to the second, the more fetishes played out within that porn, the more it's noticed. :-P

I do appreciate being noticed, even if it's not in a direct way. Comments are nice and all. But I am NOT going to be an asshole and force the issue. I seen too many do that to the point that even "I" am scared to even click on their gallery for fear they would come out of nowhere and say, "YOU LOOKED! NOW COMMENT, BIATCH!" Sorry, there's more than one way to get compliments and signs that your not wasting your time. YES, getting comments on how to improve ARE helpful. BUT, not everyone is going to be able to be helpful. But they'll be happy to cheer you on.

NOTHING romantic. Matter of fact, I decided to leave allot of people alone cause either they had a significant other to tend to. Or because my single friends are being ultra depressive. Ah well.

So all I did the last two days was this.....

http://www.wlsheadliners.com/tutori.....headliner.html

I need to take pics of what I done to my Jeep. But that link will give you the general idea on what I done. Except I reused the old fabric. From a glance it looks great. But up close, there's some stains from before I took it off, along with a little glue smear here and there. BUT, it is at least sticking and not ON my head like it was when I got it.

And the rear speaker box, I did not reuse the fabric. Instead, I just brushed off the old foam, and primer it up. Then I painted it black. I also got new speakers for it......apparently the old speakers in it where disintegrated. I am surprised it still gave out sound.....though Freeway driving, those speakers are crap. Either way, I am amazed to see that 4 way speakers are the new fancy speakers. And the 3 way's are the CHEAP speakers. I mean, hell, I could not find 2 way speakers. And the regular OEM speakers where only off by a couple bucks compared to buying the 3-ways. In other words, I spent close to 60 bucks on replacing all 4 speakers with 3-ways. Sorry, but that's just fancy to me. I was only shooting for 2 ways or cheaper. But 3-ways being the cheapest......makes me want to upgrade my Buick's sound system. But it's still good, so I won't touch it (that, and the rear speakers on the Buick are 2-ways that...at the time, where worth 75 bucks a pair).

Ah well, about all I did. Thursday, I visited an old friend again. And earlier on, I was just working my tail off. About it.



Hope you all had a wonderful weekend. Valentines or not.

I honestly wanted to make valentine hearts with hockey masks on them.

ALLOT had happened since my last entry.

And it's all overwhelming me.

Work sucks, but it's all I got and so far it's showing signs that I'll make my year there, and maybe a bit more. I even got my promised 34 cents raise last month.

I MIGHT be moving out of Washington, I may not. I don't really know yet. All all started when I was just making conversation with my Dad (or an attempt) and pretty much speaking out my mind. And now everyone in Indianapolis is curious if I am going or not, and WHEN. When in reality, I was just thinking aloud. And to be frank, Indiana is one of those states right now with the highest un-employment rate. It's hard here in the Seattle area, but not as bad as there. So I been seeing in the news. Either way, I am not seeing any job openings Indiana that I could just transfer to with my current company. That, and to be very frank, I want nothing to do with this company anymore. Once I leave, I am gone.

I joined a sci-fi club thing. Starfleet International, a Star Trek thing. Though I must admit, I am also feeling overwhelmed with that. Mainly cause, I enjoy hanging out, and I enjoy talking about the show. But my knowledge is very limited with the show. And sitting around a room full of guys and girls who are VERY into it leaves me feeling intimidated. Though I try to hide that. I actually find the group to be a decent lot and I think in due time I'll loosen up and actually catch on to at least the basics. But I don't need a jerk off who'll loves to ask, "And your hear cause? How could you NOT know about (fill in blank)?" Thankfully I hadn't had that come up for awhile. But it did when I first decided to join in on a little Role Play. Funny at first, but it gets old quick. Ah well, I think.

I been super, SUPER moody lately. And I'll be straight forward. I think I am at a time in my life where my mind is telling me, "GET LAID. GET SETTLED DOWN. HAVE A FAMILY. Don't worry about the damn order." And I get so royally jealous of people I don't even know who appear to be obviously a couple. I get both happy and awed seeing a couple that are actually working out. I get angry and envious when I see a couple not working out and get selfish thoughts of, "I could do better." STUPID thoughts of jumping in and saying, "Hi, I'll be your night in shining armor." And ride away toward the sunset on my white stallion (imagination running wild). I even act stupid and selfish when I see a relationship end between people I know, and I immediately think in my head, "My time to step in." Of course, thankfully I never act on those thoughts and I let things be. I value my friendship more than to do something like that. Then again, I feel so morbidly obese and ugly due to my scars on my face that I believe I'll never attract any girls. And so far no ones proving me wrong on those thoughts. Just spreading icing over my burnt cake and telling me it will be eaten by some one eventually who'll like burnt cake with icing. It gets old after awhile.

So why don't I shoot myself? Cause I have no gun. But there's more to life than all this gripe. And in the end, does it stop me from living? No, not unless I lose my job, and I get kicked out of the house and forced to live on the street. I guess. But even though, I may have a chance to come back out of it. But as for the significant other and family? Not important to continue living through life. But I do feel there are people out there who don't deserve all that family life. Yet I feel that maybe, just maybe, I could do better. In my dreams.

As for a job field. I am getting so fucking sick and tired of being the jack of all trades. But it don't give me SHIT for a living. And if it does, it's small.

So hi, glad you all had a read. I'll be around.

(special FA add on)

I have no idea what to do about my stories. I enjoy typing them. And for the small amount of readers I get, it's a good feeling. But I am starting to feel like I am wasting my time. I am not looking for fame. I am not looking to be the next furry writer that people would toss around in random conversations. Those two are NICE. But it's not hugely important to me.

What I would like is some comments. Or "signs' of enjoyment. Comments are not always important. Faves are good signs to me that it's liked. Getting new watchers who are watching me for the stories are nice. It would be nice to see these things.

Though I think the greatest compliment, to me anyway, is seeing fan art. I am not asking for free art.....though that's sweet. I mean, hell, if a fan offered to draw the characters for a price, and I had the funds, I may actually pay. I am actually paying  sethtriggs to draw my story in Comic form. So please don't think I just suck in what ever I can. And the majority of art in the gallery is paid commission. Though a good number of Seth's and  mikefurry art are gifts.

My point is, I could use some compliments of any form. Once and awhile it's nice to see something that gives me a clue I am doing fine. Cause really, I'll keep typing regardless. And I do plan to do more than just the Shandra stuff. But if I feel that no one likes it, I really should not feel obligated to post them online. Let alone try to get some art for them. I really, REALLY appreciate Seth's enthusiasm for drawing the stories into a comic format. And he really loves the stories, hence why I feel comfortable to ask and pay him for it.

Oh, and I am very, VERY shy about asking for art, especially commissions. Especially in the past, I ask for a commission. And I may get an answer, then it's dropped. Or worst yet, I'll get the process going, I PAY, I MIGHT see a sketch. Then nothing more. After awhile, I am just jaded to ask anyone out of the blue. And I sometimes wonder, is it them, or is it me. Or worst, is the characters NOT special enough to get the artist interested?

And to be frank, that's where I am at. My tiny group of friends tell me the stories are good and the characters are real. Which I strive for. But the others, I am not sure if I am watched for the story, or art. And in the end, If I am having problems trying to get commissioned art. Then maybe I should re-evaluate on what I am doing in general.

Anyway, I'll stop wining for now. After all, I know that the major half of my problem with asking for commissions is I am just shy and gut less.

Ah well, hope those who are reading the stories and/or looking at the art are enjoying all of it. Sorry to whine.

I hope you all like the current comic so far.

As for me, last few things I done since the last entry was.

I visited  mikefurry on one weekend.

BOTH cars went into the shop for various reasons, either way, leaving me broke for the end of January. Jeep is fine now, though the car current got into the shop after waiting two weeks for a certain hard to find part to be mailed in by UPS from a salvage yard out of state.......UPS lost the FIRST order. Heh, who said you don't lose shit with UPS?

I just been busy with work. Of course. But at least I still have work, so I can't complain....other than I just hate being a security guard. It's a fucking joke.

And finally, family in Indiana had been asking me...bugging me on when I'll be moving there again. All because I was talking to my Dad one day, and I accidentally said, "I was thinking of moving back there." Hehehehe, I said "thinking". BUT, of course, when that word NEVER gets much attention. So of course all he heard was, "I want to move back." I love it here in Seattle, I grew up here, I understand the place a bit better. And the ONE year in Indianapolis, it was HELL. I love the very small number of relatives there, but the state are ran by a bunch of narrow minded idiots who think that THEIR world is the ONLY world IN Indiana. And once you move there, you MUST conform with the state. I like Washington cause they are like, "OH, you want to put your foot in? Well, go right ahead." Give you an idea, Indiana was rabid on getting me to register my WA car to IN when I was there. My car was STILL in Washington. They wanted me to get ahold of a Sheriff and have the Sheriff inspect my car and fill out paper work. Washington on the other hand was, "OH, you live in Indianapolis? No problem, just give us your new mailing address and we'll mail you the new paper work." Ah well.

Only reason I was thinking of moving back was the cost of living there is much lower than here in Washington State. I really need to get away from expensive cities. If I did not grow up here and I did not love the area, I would have left the moment I had a chance. And the thing is, I DID leave. Not on purpose though. But I purposely worked my way back. But now, I just feel I need to get some where, and despite me having a steady job now. It's not enough to live on my own. When I was living in Indianapolis, I made an hour less than I do now, and I had my own little studio apartment. Not much, but it was MY own place. Here, I probably could get a slot with room mates. And sorry, I want NO room mates. I had room mates when I was in boarding school in the Philippines. I got friends who have lazy, stupid, snobbish room mates....who are slobs. Really, I rather stay with my Mother.

Anyway, about it. Unless you all want to hear how much I been getting easily depressed when I think about how close I am getting to 30 and I am still a virgin and/or never experienced a love affair. Strange, and I write that shit.

Cause the room is too freaking hot at the moment and for some reason my body decided to go into it's second wind.

Anyway, what have I been up to?

Work,work, work, work.

Days off consist of doing a bunch of random stuff, and going back to sleep. :-P

Last week, well, I did little. I got parts for my Jeep I got. When I got the Jeep, it's got no grill, not frames for the lights. No light housing for the lights to plug into. And one busted fog light. Also the driver side door got one door hinge busted.

Anyway, last week on Thursday, I got most of the stuff for the front came in by mail. And I just installed it except the fog lights. Then most of the weekend, just relaxed. Gone back to crazy ass work. Where I am not allowed to do shit for the patients. But it's a must for me to shovel snow and put deicer on the ground. Fun.

Then this Thursday, I had to remove the bumper off of the thing to remove the old fog lights, then install the new ones. I also ended up buying a new Wiper board, since the old one burnt out. Once I was done, it's all sweet up front now. Looks like a full vehicle again. All I need to do next is fix the door (body shop...not me), and it should be good for everyday use.

I thought this Thursday was my Doctors appointment for my keloid treatment. But it turns out to be next Thursday. Ah well, I am fed up with Group Health. What more do I need to say about it? I heard some call it "Group Death", and "Grope Health". Need I say more?

This Friday hanged out with a buddy of mine. Heh, nice to talk to him again. I guess his wife was not in a great mood once she got home from work. But I can't blame her, since allot had been going on in their lives at the moment. I won't get into that. But it was a nice relaxing time. And got some characters made up for Albedo RP. Looking forward to it.

Today, Saturday, my old high school buddy and I are going to a local metal concert later in Seattle. Mainly to see his brother's band play. But it would be neat to see who's up there. Ah well, we'll see. Hopefully it's not going to be insane.


http://www.king5.com/topstories/sto.....S.4ed414b.html

This is just the news report of things that been happening this week here in Western Washington State. I live near WA-530, but I was not affected. Though the town I went to school in and eventually lived there for a good while, Stanwood, was mostly flooded. Heh, makes me glad I don't live there anymore. But seriously though, it was terrible all over. Now the water is slowly draining. We'll see how things will go. Hopefully the rebuild won't be a pain for most. And most likely, everyone will go back to their insane life.

I am not sure what to say about this year so far. But so far, so good.

As for last year, despite my ups and downs. It's been a nice year last year. I asked for stability, and even though the company I work for sucks and I work 50 miles away from home. It's STABLE. And I haven't gone insane yet (though came close a couple times).

So all I can say is, it was a boring year mostly, but at least it was stable so I am happy with that.


And wow, I typed two stories recently. A week apart. Hehehehe.

I made it in to work each day despite the crazy weather. I am so glad I am off tomorrow and hopefully Friday. The current rain and close or at freezing temps is making this thick layer of compact snow super slick and icy. I was either nearly stuck on some ice when all I did was drive slowly over it....and just slowed to a near stop. Then other spots I was just gliding over it. This was just going to my house. Thankfully everywhere else I drove before I got near the house was fine.

Of course, my Mom decides to go out today and some idiot went really fast in a turn....for a gas pump....and slid into my Mom's van......while she was fueling it. Heh. The person who hit it was not insured, so this is going to be interesting.



ANYWAY, Merry Christmas everyone. Now I am going to pass out. I am one tired skunky.

The weather is just dumping snow, snow, snow around us here. Yet I am crazy enough to try to drive in all of it.

I think I may NOT go to work tomorrow, we'll see. I really can't afford to skip work. Though after driving tonight through Seattle with very thick snow covered roads, I-5 just pure white, then going through my neighborhood, plowing through snow high enough to make me stuck....but instead just shoots up in the air and blind me. OH, and did I mention white out conditions near my home. AND that I actually did get stuck in my driveway this time? Hehehe....

Ah well, at least I made it. Though I think it was neat getting weird looks from all the patients, doctors, nurses, and even Metro drivers that I actually drove through this shit Sunday. Not to mention going up Madison with my wheels pointed slightly to the left just so I can shoot straight up. I love front wheel drive and the weight of my sedan.

I made it to work early.

I made it home with no problems.

Though I noticed people around this time are so impatient that they where starting to get very gutsy despite how the roads in my area are still covered with a thick layer of ice.

Ah well, I been up since 12:30 AM. I am going to bed.

Other than we got allot of snow and low temps for a week now. hehehe, it feels almost like Indy right now....

Anyway, I am not sure what I am doing this week other than work. I got to work on Friday morning. Not sure how I am going to do it. It's freaking freezing and we got more than a foot here. I mean, I came home around 3 am and the further north from Lynwood I got, the thicker the ground was covered. My neighborhood roads are just covered with snow. I thought I was going to get stuck. WELL, here's the funny thing, I nearly got stuck pulling into my drive way. Hehehe, everyone here wants me to use my Jeep. BUT, I am broke and it's got no INSURANCE. Hehehe, so the car it is. That, and I still need to get the light housings for the lights on the front of the car. With these cold temps and snow/ice, those bulbs will shatter.

As for Wed, I have to mention this. For the beginning of the week they had been predicting large amounts of snow everywhere for Western Washington. I woke up early on Wed to drive to work. Sure enough there was more than 4 inches of snow here. I drive south, I-5 starts to get slushy, then by the time I got to Lynwood, I-5 was clear, and it was raining. By the time I got closer to Seattle......the snow from the weekend was gone.....it was CLEAR. And wet. WTF? So it was fun checking the weather reports for snow in Seattle while checking weather reports for Arlington. By the time I left, the roads in Seattle was STILL wet. I did not have to slow down till I got near Lynwood. Then the roads where covered by the time I got to the I-405 interchange. Then by the time I got to north Seattle, I-5 had a thick layer of snow. And it got thicker the further north I got. IF the entire I-5 was like that, it would have took me 2 hours, but instead, it took me one hour and 20 minutes. The average for me on a clear day is 45 to 55 minutes. Hehehe

Ah well, about all for now. Now I must sleep, I gotta be up at 2 AM just to get ready and drive for a long drive. IF nothing goes wrong, I'll be at work an ready before my 5:30 AM shift. If things do go wrong...well...what can I say?

Well, in a corporate setting....but I can go on and on with that on another day.


I can't believe I witness a typical scene in a horrid marriage.

What I mean is, some jack ass came up to me, cuts me off as I request for a iced mocha at the coffee stand in my lobby, asking for directions. Yet HOW he got my attention was, "HEY, I did not ask for that. I asked for what floor the *blank* clinic was at?"

I was going to tell him to fuck off and find it on *blank* floor. But instead, I just nicely told him the floor and that was it. He wears this strange looking green jacket that to HIS mind it's fashion. And he goes up to his wife who you may as well think she jumped out of a crappy English music video from the 80's. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WNbuG21WxsU She looks like the short haired girl with the red skirt.....only with bleach blond air...and I do mean bleahed....she had some white spots.

Anyway, the guys talks like he knows stuff while the girl just keeps telling him she's really DON'T want to discuss it (what ever it is).


Anyway, later they come down to my lobby again. And he's putting on a show of his "greatness" to her and to anyone paying attention and talks on the phone like he's the greatest, and then hands her the phone. I did not pay attention to what he was saying, cause I was trying to ignore him and pay attention to the passer by's in my lobby.

All the sudden he starts to call her names and be really vulgar with his choices of words as he berates her and calls her a bad wife and tells her he is a "people person" and he knows what people are thinking. She starts to cry a little and wants him to stop giving her shit. He then tells her to come with him back to the clinic up stairs cause he's appointment is drawing near. She says she'll stay down stairs. He then says something that floored me a bit and made me wonder, "WTF?"

He tells her that she MUST stand by her man. That's what a wife is supposed to do, she MUST stand by her man and go where "HE" goes. WTF? I had a feeling she could be a trophy wife, but I did not think it was true.

Of course she don't want to. At this point, I already called the rover (other guard who patrols the buildings) to come over in case I need assistance....cause I had a feeling it could go nasty.

Sure enough, he starts to shove her and grab her and literally try to yank her off her seat, calling her a bad wife and she must and will be a good wife towards him. I was already on my feet and hoping he would calm down (and he had here and there). But that was it, I yelled at him to break it up. He turns to give me a menacing glare, only to realize I was already on my feet, tie and coat off and had my hands fist up, though my arms was down as I try to look nonchalant (which I failed, my voice was a dead give away, cause I had others start to look at me). He then all the sudden started to bolt out of building and rant on the phone about the mean guard. Then the other guard walks past him and towards me. I pointed at him to the guard, and we both pretty much kept our eye on him as his wife just hid in a corner and cried for a bit.

Well, not much happened. She hanged around the lobby as he stayed away from her and eventually came back in and headed to his appointment.

But what amazes me is, after all that, and after she called for a ride. Here's what blows my mind (and the other guard's mind too).

When the guy came back down and went outside. SHE walked out, calm and once looking nonchalant, went BACK to him. And they BOTH left together like nothing happened?

HELLO? The guys is an obvious prick and only sees you as a possession. Why, oh WHY would you go back to him like nothing was the matter? He's a total ass, he's an embarrassment. And to top it off, he was NOT afraid or apologetic for snapping at you and treating you like a dog.


I don't understand people.

Internets was down Sunday night........not something for me to cry about. But I did say I was going to be on later to a buddy of mine, and I didn't.

Heh, Sunday was hell, I had the elevators acting up in the building I work in. Also the garage door going nuts, can't figure out if it wants to stay down or up. And while this was going on, the cops refused to do their job when I called them to ticket an SUV parked in the passenger 3 minute load and unload zone. I had angry bus drivers and patients in wheel chairs demanding something to be done. It was 3:30 PM, by the time I finally got the cops to come back (pretty much they threatened to "talk" to me in person. I told them to meet me in my lobby....they never did), they came back and towed the vehicle.....at 8:30 PM......took the tow truck an hour extra cause there was a van in the way....that the cop ALSO refused to ticket and tow cause it was a van that belonged to the King County Prison.

I can see why people in Seattle hate Seattle cops.

Today......just been depressed. This one girl, I have no idea how to explain her. She's such a hypocritical bitch who never got out of the high school mindset. And I was mostly moping about being fat at the same time I was near tears cause I am so fed up with her. I really want to beat the shit out of her till she gains some intelligence and decency. BUT, of course, I don't want to go to jail. That, and I am no bakla.

Anyway, I will whine as of.....now.

You know, I find it funny at the same time disturbing when I find people so worried about being hooked up with a significant other. I just find it silly, since no one really needs another person to show their self worth to the world. Heck,I lived this long without a significant other. So the flip side is, I am so freaking lonely. Horny, lonely, and not sure what to do about it. At the same time, I am just afraid of being emotionally hurt and disappointing as much as I fear I may not be what the other wants.

But I also started to realize that I also LOVE my freedom. I mean, really, I don't have to worry about making sure some parts of me is changed to make the other happy, nor do I have to worry about ignoring the annoying things about the other. I just have to answer to myself.

But really, I can only guess on what it's like to hold, be held, kiss, have sex. You know, what couples do. I can only guess. Really, am I missing out on something? I don't believe Love is a lie, but I do believe people have either the wrong ideas about it, and/or extremely unfair, high expectations on it. Pretty much when it fails, they are totally jaded and think love is a lie. It's not, but it sure does involves a whole lot of opening up yourself and being honest. Hell, but that's just what "I" see. But really, am I missing anything?

Reason I am asking this is, I don't want to sit and brood about it anymore. I want to move on. And obviously I'll never get it, so is it even worth trying to understand it?



Also, I been thinking allot lately on "what if". Like, what if I never left Baguio City. What if I kept going back to my old boarding school in the Philippines? Would I find work there? Would I had a better chance getting a better life? Settled down? Drop my US citizenship and become a Filipino citizen? Or would I just become a bum on the street and die away in a ditch? There are times I do miss the place. I never fully grasped the language up in Baguio City, but I am sure I would have eventually. Reason I been thinking of this is I had some old dorm mates and class mates get a hold of me on Facebook lately. And the thoughts been running through my head. So what if Baguio City, let alone anywhere else in the Philippines may seem run down and/or out of style. I actually liked it. There was something there that I liked. Either way, my school is going to celebrate it's 100th birthday next year, and I been invited. But I really don't have 3 grand for the plane ticket....and that's just plane ticket alone to get to Manila. I don't even have 400 in the bank right now.....not even 200 bucks. BUT, then again, considering how FAT I am, I am probably going to be pointed at like I am some fat Americano with huge shit loads of cash. Not like I have enough problems being pointed as a FAT Buddha....or CHINKO.


And a random not, I am getting sick and tired of not being able to stand in a room full of white people and being pointed out as the Chinese man, yet when I stand in a room full of Asians, I am pointed out as the WHITE Yank.


Anyway, I am just stressed out and hating myself at the moment. I live in a country when money and style is all the importance. NOT caring about others and being considerate. After all, doing that is NOT going to let you be first in the rat race. And lastly, I really have nothing to offer to a potential girl friend. And honestly, I really don't want to put SEX as the to offer. Mainly cause I want more than that, and I do NOT want to be some sex toy. Want to be laid but not talked to, get a blow up doll.


And really, stop trying to tell me I am not fat and ugly. Cause I am. Especially women.....you know who you are, who would tell me I am not ugly, but then quickly say I am not your type, but are pretty sure some one would like me. No really, WHO? Who the fuck is these magical people? I sit in a lobby all night in the past. My current job is sit in a lobby all afternoon, evening, and night. If some one finds me handsome, they why do they leave me alone? Yet they always flirt with the handsome guy, ALWAYS. Really, don't bullshit me. I don't have the looks, and I don't have the money. So what do I have? Cause obviously I also look stupid and don't talk clearly, so I must not be a good conversation partner.

What ever.

Seems I see that allot at work. Not witnessing death....except seeing one patient I really got along with get hauled out on a stretcher......and learned later he passed away.

Anyway, I had not been saying much. I wanted to save everyone from hearing me whine about things. Especially when things are not as bad as I make them seem.

Today was both a very good up and a shot down. The good, a patient from the Kidney Center came back after being gone for two whole months. Poor guy, he had a virus growing in him and he did not know it. Either way, he told me that he had no idea what made him call, but with all that pain, he had to. Last thing he remembered was laying in an ambulance. When he woke up, he get told he was out for more than two weeks. But since then, he was on a slow road of recovery. And now he's back. Despite how he looks like shit (he looks and sound like he was beaten by bricks), he still smiles and throw jokes. Nearly everyone was in tears to see him come back. Hell, I was. Last week we all started to think he passed away. If he died, he would have died at 35.

Then the shot down was another patient, I saw him Tuesday last week. Well, turns out he did not show up last Thursday for his appointment. And I did not see him at all on Sunday. Found out later today that his access points (I forgot what they are called) that his doctor installed on his arm to give the kidney center easy access to his blood vessel, broke in his sleep. He bled to death in his sleep. But only me a couple where near tears. The others where not told. I was only told cause apparently the people up stairs knew we where buddies. Well, honestly, I did not know the guy well. But he always gave me two cans of root beer for slices of Pizza a certain guard (who was fired weeks ago) and I would buy on Sundays. He was actually very healthy looking and for some one who was 55, I swear I thought he was 30.

Well, that's all I can say. Really. Enjoy life people. It comes to us fast. These two people, one lived, one died. But they both are living by a thread. And I say that cause they are kidney center patient. Meaning, their kidneys are dead and must be hooked up to a machine every other day to live to see another week.

Sit back and ignore the chaos of the day for a little bit, if you can. Tell some on you care about that you care. Cause its easy to forget how life is quick. We forget that there's people around us suffering just as much as people over seas. I am not saying we should not care for those over seas. But I am trying to say that we have people here too that also could be cared for and even loved. Everyone suffers differently, but they suffer. Not everyone is a good person. But not everyone is evil either.






SO, here I am about to be selfish. I don't want to die alone. And I am sure most people don't. But that's just my thoughts.

But I hope you all enjoyed the recent comic.

I must admit, I really do enjoy seeing how Seth some how is able to come up with ideas on his own when it comes to changing the story to comic form. And I hope these stories so far is interesting to those who had not read my stories.

Anyway, I actually starting to link the comics in an odd way. Like at the beginning of the comic, you can now it back to read the last page of the comic. OR, on the first page of a comic, you can hit "first" and it would take you to the first page of the first comic prior to that. Just ideas. Same with at the end of the comic, you can hit next for the next story in sequence.

So far, Steeling Courage is just a side story, so as of now, it don't link any comics before or after it. As for "A lot of Chances There.." It's on a stand alone till the stories between that and Thicker than Water fill the gaps (if it's possible.)




As for me, not much. I'll just put it in like this.

Work is stupid, but I still have a job, so I'll live for now.

Mom is being annoying and mindless. I mean, she bought me new shampoo, which is GOOD. She threw away MY old shampoo. Which is mindless cause it's still good, and 1/3 full. She just threw it cause SHE don't like it. I will NOT go into on how she feels about my car........

Most of my friends down here are mostly job less and are getting frustrated with not getting hired as they apply to places that clearly say they need people. And the small few who had jobs are either quitting or being laid off. Either way, no one I know is able to find work right now, and I had not been able to find a job to replace my current job (other than Werner, and not a cold day in Hell....now maybe a cool day....).

Anyway, about it.

I been having way to many ups and downs right now. So I am not sure what to say. But one thing is for sure, I don't want to rant about my life at the moment.

But I will say this, my life may seem bad to some. And may appear nothing to bitch about to others. So I'll just keep hush hush about it for now.

So, uh....how's everyone else?