There's no prank today but instead it's just commentary joke art. Pranked without a prank.
Just doing it to have fun, join the annual holiday event (like I did with Chinese lunar year, halloween, charismas, anniversary and more) and try make you laugh if you get the joke.
The artworks are already pre-made ready for this year event but it's not easy when deadline so i start much ealier to just more time. There's one more left is the sequel will be released in the weakend.

I'm feeling a lot exhausted from activities and work that i'm pausing the upcoming art progress.
I'm unsure will i able to do more progress when i'm feeling motivated in the break.
I'm consern about my art quality becoming more cutting corners and cheep due to desperate to get it done because of becoming tedious task to finish.

https://pronouns.cc/@Jammie_monsta_doggo

It all started in artist: luhbums_'s (https://x.com/luhbums_) Twitter/X user page that has link to Pronoun.cc (https://pronouns.cc/@abtme). When visiting, I like the idea of site that bring introduction and biograph.
Despite site that I have a accounts that has large biograph with extra things like Furaffinity and DeviantArt example but there's other sites that has very short biograph like Tumblr, Bsky and Twitter/X.
I decide to sign up on Pronoun.cc and kinda disappointed that doesn't has other extra features like interest, boundaries, triggers, portfolio, disclaimers and more and has a 1,000 words limit in biograph. At least they site offers, Pronouns, Flag, links and fields.
The site not the best with full introduction but just identity focus.
So I did my best customised my introduction about myself as possible.
I loved the concept of website that's is about a individual's and content creator's introduction and biograph about them as a person as it helped others to get to know them and when to approach in contact and socialising.
I add the link above under a category: "Introduction and Biograph" in Linktree for new comers to get to know me in summary.

I Primary focus on drawing and feature animals in my artworks as i'm huge fan of animals, an interest that never goes away and build an identity surrounding of. When it's come to introducing things from outside of bubble than usually do, it's alienating. So now i announcing the new introduction but will not be common.

Favourite artist I followed has bring me inspiration to try vehicle: FoxnRoll/FoxPop, Zillion ross, Mattiburito, Kaijvcorp/I8ora, Zillion ross, Yu-huii/Yveltzilla, Sentinel winder (Previous account) and Guitarstudio/Pootoo brigham.

I love playing Mario kart through out my childhood and used to have obsession on Wreck it ralph that I used to pretend to play Sugar rush on Mario kart as a kid. (Which this film later foreshadows in my life and discovers the resonating emotional masterpiece) Back then as younger I always wanted to go on bumper cars but able to allow when older.
I loved racing on Go kart and quadbike but when it comes to follow the instructor in chain as only thing session, it boring as hell. In my primary years, I invest myself to learn to ride on 2 wheel bike and succeeded.
When gotten into cars topic is when researching for model out of excitement to pass my driving and theory test. Because of it I know some knowledge about cars as I'm aware of Tuning and Ricing, Brands, Models, Variants, Types, Care and activities.

I have been address my internal conflict about forgive from the advice as a better way of closure in personal IRL.
The issue is that i cannot give my abuser another chance, validated their misdeed and accept everything is my fault that is not.
So the solution is to create revolutionary solution as a peace treaty and restraining order.
They don't have to forgive, apologise, accept me nor gain my approval (it's their choice) but just listen to my criticism, destructive conserquence they cause on purpose that i have to gone through and just leave me alone.
I just only want to put closure on haunting and move on.
I hate being stuck in the past, no justice, being a victim, haunted like it's was yesturday or hours ago, living in fear of returning and enemies.
I'm happy, i'm in a safe place with better people and support agency that i have improve a lot better that recognise bad things where normalised and sympathised is actually a evil and dangerous. Not everything is my fault and i can't control everthing around as it not my responsablility.
I have been embracing my anarchy, independant and individualism since after processing in recovery.
Started to able think for myself.
I'm thinking about embracing forgiveness.
Even i will never give another chance, validated misdeed, victim blame myself, reconneted, revert and sacrifice myself. Not just a hit and run.
My forgiveness be like connetion terminated.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q-Q_e6hxyyA
Just want moving on away from dark past and just running away and never look behind. This is no longer my responsablility anymore.
I'm must never be over but they are done.
I wonder my demons will be calmer or just endless horror return for agony.

I recently had the worst mental breakdown as my body and mind gain immune to meds and touching grass then the Ram smash my head so bad that i feel like i'm about have seizer.
Chat to my therapist and they me this advice to help overcome about my past guilt, criticism and abuse: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NICI7yKp7cw

It's sucks when i'm honest because i have to accept my flaws that been dagging me across the mud like criminal record. I hate lying as it's impossible to pull it off but sometime i rarely do, only in Gruffalo style of how mouse survive danger by tricking predators by lying to escape predation. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q52r23uan6A) I'm ain't saying what lie i posted online because it's top secret for safety reason.

Up to date and outdated ideology, philosophy, belief and morality as clashs in conflict. I desire and fighting to reject the outdated material as it's harmful, cringe and destructive. Trying to replace with chad of up to date version that mature, kind and wholesome but still cause risk as it's rebelous to dominat outdated that there some people in my life really believe it. I been struggling fighting supress the outdated both pysically and mentally especially traumatically.

I been given advice to be trouble maker by f**k self doubt and go self empowerment. Oh yes, i accepting how strong resistance i been throught and keep encouraging to take extra risk and get swag reward. The foes are cooked as roast poultry fowl and get doubt like they are chicken = meat sterotype treatment. Deal with it foes, suck it up.
It sound selfish but i had enough the self doubt that i want forbidden vibe check offered by my therapist.
I'm taking the advice!!!.

Since I began to come out the closet and open up about myself as I handle any more.
I has compulsively spoke out dark topics to share my experience for others to understand, relate and not feeling alone and keeping things off my chest.
I hate being the victim a lot as my past has victimised me for more and it's really stigmatised, painfully, belittled and traumatised me as bad guy and fault of everyone's responsibilities. PTSD and OCD never goes away but traps me in scars. That's why I spoke out about it to let it out especially what's going on in my mind.
It was all thanks to therapy group and counselling that made me confidence.
I don't dress like emo but majority behave like a emo and has punk theme like emo to cope and strengthen my spirit.
Not everything I bring up doom and gloom as I did bring non-edgy, non-dark and non-traumatic things to share and I have create. It's the reason why I try to avoid getting victimised again by bad peoples by putting preventative measures like risk assessment, disclaimers, annotation journal and helpline links. Just so I don't have to suffer while also enjoying peace. I put up guide for constructive criticism to help me improve in disclaimer, so people can allow critic my art while not aggressive which I another is positivity.
I like positive as it make me happy and drawing art then sharing it in public display make me happy. I'm happy I got the support, attend therapy groups and been to recovery.

How the phase will die off? Well when with psychosis disorder of intrusive thoughts it could last longer or even frequently appear to over and then reappear and respect he cycle.

Punk is rebellious but coping as I break Belin wall constantly with my own independent. My body and individualism, my choice, boundaries, civil right's and independent. Another reason is when media took risk and get big reward and comes in chance of revolutionised the industry and community like for example when Scott cawthon, the creator of FNAF took another chance on develop video game after failure after failure then took another last chance to make a horror game and took inspiration from criticism of Chip lumber co about characters resemble creepy animatronics. Scott got extremely lucky with FNAF by huge success but not just that, he revolutionised horror genre with distinct and unique gameplay. Without the risk, it would changed me as FNAF is huge impact on me. FNAF is reason why i overcome the fear of horror genre in fiction, inspire me with my own fictional creation for my web series, like machinery, mechanical, mecha and industrial and then loving Howl out which the Howl out's creator and artist Isananika/Wolf i look up to as relatable inspire me to open up about my mental illness issue and embrace the fear of counselling due to fear been lock up imprison asylum (At the time i thought mental illness rehab is) while desperate for brain to be fixed but actually the rehab is just residential hospital ward with activities. This concept and philosophy is reason why i has aspiration to challenge the outdated system, norm and cults that is possible by knowing the risk, how to handle it, add annotation in description, put disclaimers and boundaries, prepare to or self defense when goes wrong or attract ignorant sickos and tried to resolves or if emergency retreat and block.

When edgy, i now what i'm doing with it. A fragile thing needs handle with care and cannot stop spoking out about to express myself and show others they are not alone then inspired them to come out by starting with Samaritans (Link in helpline) and therapy groups.
I like exploring edge topics to experiment handling them to practice to get used them for upcoming still WIP and stuck in planning hell for years mature rated web series comic while spreading awareness about these issues.
It is shocking but has importance to beware and cautious about it.
Another reason for edge is to explore misunderstood monstrous critters and minorities especially in circumstance. Wild cannibal tribes are scary but investigate why they commit cannibal is just turn out they devour the consenting diseased love ones in funeral as mourning ritual and respect (https://youtu.be/bwwQ7N9V8xQ?si=T9U.....&t=962).

Am i a emo? Yes in similar behaviour but i don't wear fashion. (Don't know about emos?, here a vid to watch:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AzDPUwxl0_k)

What about my liking edgy related things about monster beast especially werewolves, manticore and more, chained, muzzle and hazard warning signs, animalistic and rabies like savage animal, killer hunter, hunting, cannibal and any vore related, trophies of dead foes like neo-n*zi, p*dophile and abusers? Emotionally relatable. Living in artificial ecosystem and surviving the cruel world. Make evil become my prey to feast and sacrifice these life destroyers to allow minorities of outcast, innocent, vulnerable, troubled and victims to thrive in suvival and quality of life. Being the keystone species by making the world a better habitable place worth living. Throphies of dead evil foes are achievement, reminders about karma, cautionary tales and more. Savage and rabies like animalistic as mental illness, insanity and disorder to control and manage. Monster beast as minorities.

I just remembered back in 2023 i put on questionable Antifa icon tag to show my virtue signal against f*scism and n*zism but relies it's a bad idea, so took down. I was about to make apology for stupidity but looking up for archive if there's capture. There's a lot on April 2024 and i know why.
There's a lot on April 2024 and i know why.
I became more suspisious on my online enemy, there about to do something with it and had gut feeling something not right about them as i had anxiety and suvival instinct startle about my online safety
I become distrustful towards them.
https://bsky.app/profile/d2g.bsky.s...../3lgj2tsjiws2p
Before i discover this today, in this month 13th Jan 2025, i archive myself on archive.today when discover this site then archive al my journal post (archive.is/N6gTV) as self defense and recorded history.
https://bsky.app/profile/d2g.bsky.s...../3lgj2tsk3ik2p
Now i archive my FA page to up to date let everyone knows to real me as how far i been changed from troubled vulnerable weakling to now fierce chad and counter the April 2024 archive that might been used as propaganda conspiracy against me. It sounds like i got paranoia.
https://bsky.app/profile/d2g.bsky.s...../3lgj2ttptis2p
Sorry i once used Antifa icon tag on my profile as activist virtue signal opposing f*cism and n*zism. I was stupid but luckly deside it's bad idea as antifa has tie to extremism. It's hypocrital of me for oppose extreme but use their logo and name for f**k off n*zi and f*cism.
So when some random easterner went digging in me and found this at 2025, they be sh*tting their pants like a baby when found out i'm sentinent civil humanised being like them too and how far i improved rapid than their activist supporter behind.
http://web.archive.org/web/20250124.....r/monstadoggo/
https://bsky.app/profile/d2g.bsky.s...../3lgj2tvf3m22p
Sorry for smack talk as might be insane.
But can't teach monster beast new tricks with extremism but the monster beast can learn new tricks by therapy, support and allies while even monster beast self taught.
I can be dumb but don't underestimate stupidity as they out beat ya.
Didn't expect that to be a journal as more stuff comes by as i type this.
So, Bite back wolf pack. (Favourite quote from Howl out)

I have recalled all the moldy inui-loaves for being offensive name towards native american and update the description with apology.

Sorry i used the E-slur: E***mo as name for Inuit as it's come of across as racist even from white race, me. The artwork has been renamed that is appropiate for inuit people. Look back it's cringe as hell but has the courage to fix it. Earliest upload and it's problematic as age like milk. The fact the word E***mo is term used a group of arctic native across from far east of siberia to alaska to canada to greenland and also term of language group of Eskaleut languages. The word is offensive to inuit people as it means "Raw meat eater"/"Eater of raw meat" as it made them look savages. Not ust that but term is also been normalised and used in media especially the ice cream brand 3$|<!m0, 3$|<!m0 pie (now renamed as Edy's pie) and (Slushy) 3$|<!m0 joe.
It's my fault for being ignorance at first in 2021 and 2022 but now after i been changed through out time and now remembered it, i just quick to fixed it right now.
Sadly i cannot remove and censord the writen name on artwork because it's already too late but now been rolled over to scraps because of it.
Don't make the same mistake i did with the Inui-loaf artwork and avoid calling others demographics and someone else a offensive or controversial names even if you a edgelord.

Example: https://www.deviantart.com/jammiedo.....loaf-885903427

I wanted to spread and imported forbidden western influence of my artworks to Russia for Russian civilians to enjoy and appreciate. I also wanted to inspired, resonate and relatable influence on Russians as I do feel bad for them living in dictatorship hell but also like to see Russian exclusive content for gorgeous artworks. So similar reasons with Pixiv and Japan because I love Japanese art especially kemono and like to share with Japanese. It's nice to connect with foreign countries and exotic civilians as it create respect to the demographic.
There is another reason unlike Pixiv and japan, Russia officials has anti western sentiment but causing the influence of anti-domestic abuse and oppression will created rebelliousness, civil right's and break the cycle of abuse. There is concerning consequence that I do harm than good that I endangered Russian by root causing rebelliousness into traumatised and restrained.
Having fun with civilians in fascist country to bring civil right's, freedom and more but it left big concern is the impact and respond from Russia officials that stop me from doing so. Another concern is Putin's Z cult members are more likely to get away with anti-social and uncivil towards me due to protection and support by fascist Russia regime but what's worse is the anti-fascist, anti-Putin's Z cult and anti-soviet (Especially anti-communist) while also pro-Ukrainian might snitch me to fascist Russia authority for whatever pathetic of reason or unreasonable.
I did spoke out about hating and disagreeing on Putin the horrible Russian dictator tyrant with his ideology and cult and his and the regime's action like war invasion, indoctrinating cult, corruption, oppression, violation on civil rights and more.
Also I did support and stand up forbidden things they oppose such like LGBTQ+, victims from abuse, outcast, mentally ill and more while also I opposed and against anti-social with destructive consequences like cult, domestic abuse, bullying, propaganda, corruption, toxicity and more.
I look up to those who took risk and gain big reward that revolution the community to break free from repetitive brain rot. The film Spider man into the spider verse took risk with distinct animation style differ than other main stream film style but gain big reward. Media that took heavy topic and handle it especially in family friendly and kids media like Bluey episode of understanding life and death with budgie as it help kids to process and understand about death is another example. There's a quote from Bloodywood song Machi bhasad (Expect a riot): "The rare kinda guy who's willing to try to take a big shot at the big boys"

I like the colonial version of wendigo of were-skull-beast cannibal deer monster but it's misinterpretation and bastardize of Native Amerindian's aboriginal wendigo (by colonialism) which wendigo actaully resemble in humanoid appearance that look like creepypasta character: the rake. The aboriginal wendigo is person become by cannibalising thus corrupting itself soul of desperation, insanity or greed, the monster is cold hearted with no remorse, sympathy and empathy. It rot and decay with rotting smell. The natives taught lesson and warning about to avoid becoming the wendigo by avoiding cannibalism in desperate like winter or become prey by avoiding loneliness and solitary. If someone did, they will never go back.
I wanted to create my oc based off the wendigo but conflicted with cultural sensitivity, misinterpretation and respect toward indigenous demographic.

In Unvale in creation guildline under section Culturally sensitive: https://help.unvale.io/en/articles/.....ion-guidelines "This primarily focuses on entities/creatures that are known to be harmful in certain communities. This includes and is not limited to: W/ndigos and Sk/nwalkers. When going about creating OCs based around a culture that is not your own, please be sure to do proper research and potentially get feedback before sharing on our platform."

So I decide to create original species based off the colonial version as alternative to separate from original inspiration just to respect the native Amerindian.
The original species is horror demonic carnivorous cyptid deer beast of flesh eating with any form like cannibalism, insectivore, pescevore and more found international as universal and can be both either lycanthrope or asign birth species. They are monsterous deer beast of gluttony with osteoderm stick out like skull as face like skulldog and has clawed hooves.
It may rival the simular Skulldog but their distinct feature and traits that worth as original species.

What do you think?

Youtube vid about the folklore horror: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gui.....amp;amp;t=429s

Easy I got sketch books. When i come up an ideas, I sketch them down in concepts at one side of the page and in the other side is final design for me to draw digital art adaptation later. I use book marks on page to plan my next art project to share online.
Now currently using my sketch from 2023 and in progress to complete every artwork based on design from sketches. There are some outdated but at time before I knew other things I learn and know current and I just redesign to rid outdated influence.

I had personal ocs I've haven't share online due to a lot of reasons but I wanted to share online.
I mentioned a Sámi OC in Xmas market WereReindeer but never brought up the character ever again nor reveal the character. It the reason why I don't make promises even I do teasers, I tell I be cancelling or delaying these projects mostly on art description journal or regular journal. There is exception that I do promises in apology to avoid repeating the same terrible mistake I regret.

Reason:
-Afraid of cancellation
-Character's reputation
-Spoiled the independent web-series which is in planning
-Personal deep connection
-Shy and embarrassed

Why I wanted to share online

-Open up
-Express myself
-Not feel alone with these characters
-Play with these characters (Not roleplay)

I want draw vore art of vore pred ocs who also into vore but they also characters to my webseries where there's no vore stuff suitable for other audiences. I'm think they be alternate version as non-canon to independent web series despite they are the same characters.

What is my independent web series?
I ain't signing up on wattpad and tapas then soon be comic fury and webtoon for no reason. I did it in first place for my web series but it stuck in planning hell for 5 years as struggle with finalising, complexity, couldn't think up idea for certain aspect that need filling up, constant shift of changes and my personal growth that improved my morality that some things went outdated.
It is going to be inspired primarily from Beastars as Inspirational foundation stock but keep going off rail constantly. Features that Beastars don't have that made it distinctive. It is mature rated due to sensitive, controversial and adult topics.
Has moral message that explore on philosophy of inspirational and emotional themes helped to be inspirational, resonate, therapy? and look up to as role model.
There be focusing about characters, lore and world building.
There's going to be a lot of diversity in world building and been be reveals later on.
It is going to be mixed of genre of: Action, Drama, Thriller, Horror, Heart warming along with sub genre: fantasty, sci fi, mecha/cyberpunk, slasher, adventure and comedy but it depends on tone on the story stages and features.
It is my childhood dream to create an independent franchise as my own intellectual property and freedom of ownership.
I might do journal about this maybe soon if I remember.

Happy new year

2024 is hell but been in recovery. Thanks for everyone for support of faving artworks and possitive comments. Massive f**k you to @l|)r!|< and your £ur$0|\|@ tulpa or spirit animal domesticly abused me in psychosis intrusive throughts. And f**k you my disorder for disabling me and made me schizophrenic.

I thought i wouldn't make any artwork today due to not feeling mentally ready but instead watched media. After i had afternoon nap, i felt better and ready to do digital art then finally made simplistic new year artwork and luckly finished my side project meme art.

For new teaser for upcoming artwork that i don't usually do in artsite journal but commonly exclusively on blog sites (X/Twitter and Bluesky).

-Vore art: Parody of flip the role occur in medieval germany and inspired from this concept of mounted feral mythical beast that can ride on (This artwork as example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49709782/) but this feral quadual beast is serial killer.

-Normal art: Tackle the issue on injustice with traumatising conserquence, corruption and discrimination of racism. Link to image as hint: https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipe.....man_update.svg

-Side project: Dancing and partying animatronic robot.

I just want to get this off my chest.

Reviving the cancelled 3rd werereindeer art project has got me identified hazards: effecting Sámi people.
I wonder why I did I create this and relies I just remember discovering vintage horror film on wikipedia I would like to watch is the: White reindeer https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_White_Reindeer . It is root influence that gave me the idea of creating werereindeer monster in first place, inspired from the film's monster is killer werereindeer vampire witch monster.
Is there's any lore to my werereindeers? Well, no sadly. It is unknown of cause of lycanthrope curse on some Sámi person.
Why Sámi? No I don't hate them but at the time I loved them because they are unique as Europe's only far western living aboriginal (Except for canary isles native) beside the forgotten aboriginal natives of Europe like Nenet, Mari, Komi and more. I wanted a Sámi lycanthrope representation and I made it than it finally exist on the internet.
Concern with beef by Sámi? Yes, 2 years later after the 2. I don't want them to think conspiracy about me but I understand the concern about representing them as killer lycanthrope but what about The white reindeer film? the similar traits of killer lycanthrope, are they bothered.
Any beef by Sámi? Luckily nope but thanks hell for that, that make me cry.
Any regrets? Well, yes on the first werereindeer's description of the edgy ending. Look back it's gross as it too far of being edgy. I cringed on this bad decision. I'm very sorry about this.
More Sámi Werereindeer? Yep, possibly.
Chance of being woke? The only demographic would whistle out for this is by the Far Alt right wingers.

There is no malice intention behind it, there some Sámis may not like the idea of them as monsters but it's inspired from horror film feature a werereindeer. There might be other Sámis might like it due to interest with either monsters, horror, thriller, slasher, lycanthrope, mythical creatures, vore and ect.

Reviving cancelled artwork of werereindeer, Peace is never the option and North pole war thousand yard stare
I decide to revive my cancelled art winter themed projects this season.
There are Were-reindeer, Peace is never the option and North pole war thousand yard stare.
The reason why is lost of motivation, overwhelmed and lost of interest.
Peace is never option is joke art based off the photograph chicken on axe.
Were-Reindeer 3 is a fun parody on Roveniemi santa claus village's sled dog mushing.
North pole war is joke parody of thousand yard stare but it's Xmas featuring the main character Nut cracker soldier.

Venting out rant on schizophrenic intrusive thougths and nightmare.

Domestic ab\/sers lives never matters. Blacks lives are superior than ab\/sers lives. No excuse for abuse.
I kept having ramming nightmare of my abusers. The real event incident is not in my head but it's actually the PSTD aftermath in my head.
There's no consideration on bystander of me as humanised. Leave me f**king alone A||)£r!|< (nightmare) stop stalking, breaking in, r*ping, harassing, violance, imprisoned me. No mean no and stop!. You making me hate your own kind. You create what you hate to justified your abuse.
I blocked you but your inner conscious spirit animal shows you are conniving person. I powerless ever since but you making me seeking out to abuser your own kind: abusers to make myself feel better and empowered. Your community and own kind is dump.
There's no justification for abuse. Better shut your mouth because can't be trusted with your verbal abuse.
There's no justification for abuse. Better shut your mouth because can't be trusted with your verbal abuse.
Never forgive, forget and downplayed. Karma will come for you all.

What is my nationality?

Italy? Ireland? Britain? Switzerland? Sweden? France? Spain? Balkan country?

Native? Immigrant? Foreign settler? Migrant?

Do I live in single country?

Do I live in two countries or more?

Do I moved to different country to settle?

The answer is neither for anonymous reason despite I scattered hints but it's up to your imagination and please still DO NOT make false information and propaganda as is mislead others about me. I like being someone else as it's a way to for me to cope with my self esteem and identity but don't want to catfish anyone. Update: I mispelt the word "anyone" as "anymore", sorry i misguild you and i fix the mistake.
That's mean they be NO face, name, nationality, voice, gender, heritage, home address, bank detail, academic, family and friends reveal.

Why Italy?
Difficult to answer but hint is Super Mario and Sifyro's Spanish texted menace or goofy eevee meme art but it's italy.

https://unvale.io/jammiemonstadoggo
I discovered the social media website similar to Toyhouse.
That's means I can create my own OC Wikipedia.
I uploaded my fursona OC.
I always wanted to create account of OC website like Toyhouse but the issue on Toyhouse is friend code and I can be very shy to contact someone with the friend code. This put me off, overwhelming and quit attempting.

Sorry for delay but got very busy in personal life that I'm very exhausted and spent my lesure entertainment time to rest on social media. Finally the post halloween artwork is finish and completed. Now get to work on War memorial artwork tomorrow.

I have gain a lot of confidence through out my mental health recovery and has been improve since I got the support I need.
I went from insecure scared of prejudice to now confidence and heeling.
I have open about my as acesexual on X/Twitter, Bluesky and Linktree then commented sharing my experience on social media as ace.
The reason why acesexual fit me because of i'm more interested in sfw than nsfw, my sexual dysfunction, negative experience of my cringy phase and no interest on romantic relationship, dating and marriage.
I was once used to be gay until I relies that pretending to have sexuality and sexual interest don't work on me that end up embarrassment regrets until I relies I'm better with sfw. It's vey dumb thing I did, maybe i'm just trying to fit in LGBTQ+ as special but end in embarrassment and cringe that I don't took pride in. I hate this cringy phase I did in past.
I have a sexual dysfunction which mean it bare functional sex drive. I cannot get horny not even pornography works.
I'm a free spirited and independent who had gone through hell in emotional domestic abuse. I'm afraid of losing my free will in relationship but i'm also shy and timid. I don't want other to view romantic relationship as fascism as I did encounter others with positive romantic relationship and know what a positive romance is. I don't like to become in romantic relationship because of sex, sharing ownership and fear of losing free will.
When it comes to my vore interest, yes i know it's fetish but to me in my opinion and preference, Not a lusty sexual arousal to me but just fascination attraction satisfaction: the acesexual sfw equivalent. I don't make every character I see into vore pred but just few characters I have attraction and obsession.
What about the feral animal vore arts I uploaded, nah it's not bestiality and like I said before about my preference of vore. I didn't because of lust, no, it's combining two things I like. However I have to set up in mature rating because of minors, disturbing concept to others and the grey area influence, it's kind of like alcohol.

Therian
I never told anyone about my therian identity, it is secret. I have relies and been questioning myself am I therian because I imagine myself as someone else to cope about myself imagine and reputation shaped by my abuser.
In emotional domestic abuse, my abuser gave me negative identity and it get worse as same thing in my intrusive thoughts by my abusive demon. The character is like Jim crow treatment, I see myself in negative trait of puny, immature, evil, bitter, coward, snitcher, fascist soviet f*ggot of leftist stereotype and n**ga despite i'm white race.
I see myself as nobody and non-binary to dissociate myself from anything but makes it worse as I made myself as canvas to be vandalised by offensive graffiti.
The only way to cope on my identity is to become therian and be someone else character of animal.
I'm aware of my boundary and my real life status, even I think myself as animal, I still have human status of age, gender, ethnicity, race and nationality. I knew not to violate others because i'm therian and not to use as excuse because I knew what it feel like being downplayed.
I am not delusional and derange about my therian just coping as escapism.
This song Body from Mother Mother: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4BIMLf2_mUM

I didn't believe about the childhood ruining thing because I kinda a anarchy at the time until I watched Raymundo's videos disguising about affecting childhood issues.
It doesn't help what I grew up at the time, no not elsagate. I raise to deal with it and get over it and accept these things are okay because of reasonable and opinions. I was never question the contents in general and it lead to harness interest of dark fantasy that I made the first uploaded NFSW artwork that change me and my opinion forever.
Within these combining factors, Raymundo's videos, First worst only NSFW artwork I regret, Questioning the content's influence and finale courage straw to unfollow snuff artist (Hoot and That gryphon guy) because of bestiality. Now started to question about the childhood effection. I have to protect the kids away from my mature contents to protect their childhood and get in trouble for accidental promoting minors in the wrong inappropriate pipeline. I never want to be labelled as Pedo, so I need to build the courage and confidences for fix this issue.
Children lives matter as they deserves a better childhood and not grow up too fast as it's important to understand the important key elements for their adolescent, so they fall into insanity of insecurity, boring life, too normal that twist into abnormality but also I don't want them to be conservative on their childhood on "Good old days, are simple and innocent superiorities".
I not the "Thinks the children" person as I had insanity paranoia that disrupt my creative freedom and never want to oppresse anyone on creative control. It is a conflict of people pleaser and self interest as reckless influence could damage someone's mindset into degenerately.
I look back into my childhood of these fun memories growing up in my primary years, positives stuff like super Mario, angry birds, Flipnote, Nintendo consoles, Tv show, animated films, drawings, Pokémon, Digimon, Dragon city, Monster legends, Plants vs zombies, FNAF, OCs, sonic, My little pony friendship is magic, pocket animal, Animatronic animal toys, holidays events, playing with toys, My previous pets, friendships at elementary school and more. I cherish these memories as sole reminder about quality of life, being a better good person, peaceful safe livihood, purpose of life and humanisations. There's no politics, Elsagate at the time, Brain rot, Hateful bigotry. I cannot recreate my reminisce childhood because use to cope in past feeling conservative of the good old days I missed in miserable teenhood an I learnt nothing will be perfect in good past memories but I can move to create new good nostalgic moments and memories. (And that's why I not a conservative believer.)
It's something I need to create a standard for myself not cross the line when on parody on family friendly intellectional property, influence and age rating. A risk assessment, forbidding, disclaimers, content filters and regulations.
Parody and fan creation on family friendly intellectional property is fine and okay along precautious of attracting minors which it's best to put warning, disclaimer, under parody and mature age ratings.

I be introducing myself is content risk assessment to minimalized harm of consequential, stigmatised and misguidance on both parties of me, followers and public. This will help me to more precautious of art concept and it's context before they made into drawings and share on public.
It help to identify hazards in the content and how to handle it.

-What is about?
-What it contain?
-What is context?
-What sensitive topic related or contain?
-What audience demographic that likely to be triggered?
-What to avoid disrespecting and downplayed serious topics?
-Is it appropriate to be made as joke, prank and parody?
-What suitable it age rating be?
-How it influence on others?
-What is the feedback from personal life?
-Is it safe from any consequence?
-What's the level disastrous backlash be?
-Do it need helpline in description to be mentioned?
-What typing sentence mentioned in disclaimer to avoid accidental pipelines?

This will help me with my creative freedom to be precautious from any hazards that the content I made has affect.
I don't want to make the same mistakes on my previous artworks that have affected my life, my responsibility and accountability and socialising relationship with others to avoid causing my dangerous enemies.
Another reason is online internet safety and knowing when I need to be safeguarded and report to police.
I phobia of making mistakes as it can be catastrophic that end in cancellation and personal endangerment.
I not being F*scist and policing with it because it's stupid and controlling but it's actually the responsibility.
I can't control everything around me and I learnt it's okay as it not my fault of others respond and act but I just don't like being unfair. However I learnt I have to step back and self defense on malicious inappropriate red flags against me such as doxing, stalking, verbal abuse, hate speech and crime, prejudice and more or something cannot handle.
I will tried to good around the best I can even I am fragile. I wanted to best for myself and others to be peaceful and satisfying mutual respect. I love sharing my content and creativity of my interest toward everyone as it make feel less alone and appreciated by lighting up someone's day with fun but I learnt that one artwork with it's own identity theme and context is not for everyone.

This apology confession for outdated, unfunny and opinionated description on Bri"ish cheem at pub.
I am sorry for unfunny and opinionated description that have had mention Britain as superior to America regardless and oblivious to issue Britain has and protentional harmful influence on others view on these two countries. The original now deleted description is all bunch of ramble on things I come as I go with no previous plans. Both Countries has share of issues that have affect the livihood of civilians.
The reason why because I wanted to defend Britain as there are hate towards them as it can be dangerous towards their protected civil traits such as races, nationality, birth of origin, background, genetic/biology heritage, folkculture and ethnicity but I stupidly blamed North American due to I know and learnt stereotype of being dumb and ignorant with their outdated systems. Luckily I relies the issues and been deleted all the post's description. The comment criticism feedback are right all along as I misunderstood them.
I notice I was hypocritical as I parodied the Bri"ish meme of stereotype traits of teeth and accent. Look back in retrospective, it's absolute cringe.
I pick up cynicism from my toxic family and emotionally abusive parent as it been normalised but now after escaped since a year ago, the environment has change into wholesome and safe place to inhabitable. I relies these bad habits and traits are anti-social and dehumanising as it's very dangerous socially and relationship.
I have a deep respect towards Britain (Beside Italy and East Asia) for their gems despite their dark history. This country has been my interest and fascination as I have favourite content creators I consume and respect like Stampylonghead, Dawko, Dan TDM (AKA The diamond minecart), MUTE GOES CLICK, Sherwind, AporicWare, Bigsquidman, Shadow raccoon, CibGuts, Nate draws, Auccultist, Eternalsunshyne and more.
Cheems at pub description removal and soon be replace