It crimmus. Rawr.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49842736/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49842736/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49842736/


:P

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal...../#cid:59523678
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal...../#cid:59523678
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal...../#cid:59523678

rawr :P

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10334559/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10334559/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10334559/

rawr :3

My friend is currently open for 4 slots!

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10330751/

And his prices are here:

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10330750/

He's a great artist, I really recommend at least looking his way :)

From the Chad himself :3

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10318902/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10318902/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10318902/

and his nsfw raffle :P

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10318907/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10318907/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10318907/

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10292606/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10292606/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10292606/

If anyone wants to make a comm to help out :3

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10281359/

Just thought I'd advertise for them because she gud :3

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10281875/

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10266296/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10266296/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10266296/

Rawr :3

Well, it's the first of July now, the deadline, and as thus, I have drawn the result, using a random number generator.

And the winner is, number 25! A quick search shows that the winner is actually ! Congratulations!

Thanks for everyone who took part in the raffle, I'll probably be doing another one if I somehow get to another milestone. Hope to see you all again soon!

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10254783/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10254783/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10254783/


The final day is upon us...

This is my third journal this year about problems. But now I don't feel safe at home whatsoever. My parents have just turned aggressive at each other recently and will not stop. Resorting to violence. And will not leave me alone whatsoever. Storming into my room telling me to not ring the police, which truth be told, I really want to, but can't, as they will hear me. If they hear me, they'll destroy my phone and then I'm doomed, as that has so much important info that I need right now, and is my only access to my friends when I'm out the house.

What can I do? I'm in a house with parents who are now plain and simply in an abusive relationship. Constantly shouting, causing property damage, and as I said, storming into my room and trying to get me to side with one of them, which I'm obviously refusing as I want absolutely zero part of this whatsoever. Won't listen to any reason.

I don't know what I've done to deserve to be in such a hellish situation. And yet hear I am. I want to run away and get to somewhere, but I just don't know where I can go. Its too early in the morning in the UK and Europe so I can't flee to anyone's house for the night, or call other family members for help either. I just have to lie in my bed and listen to the chaos and destruction happening as it gets worse and worse. I truly feel trapped and unsafe. If anyone can give me absolutely any advice whatsoever on how the hell I can escape and be free from this, I would appreciate it so, so much. Thank you for reading this, and I just hope that someone out there can give me an option. Because I just simply do not know what I have...

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/47847535/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/47847535/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/47847535/

Really do advise endtering, she's great <3

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10254783/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10254783/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10254783/

Thank you everyone for the 500 watchers! I've only been active on fa for 1 and a half years now, and it seems a fair amount of you people enjoy me and what I get up to enough that you've decided to watch me! Because of this, to reward you all, i'll be doing a raffle giveaway! With so key notes regarding said raffle below.

1) The winner will get an art of their choice (within reason) with me, with the artist being In august. Paid in full by me.
2) The art can be either sfw or nsfw, although due to my feral and dragon bias, i'm unlikely (although, not impossible) to want to sub to a non-feral draconic creature!
3) The raffle will last until the end of the month. A winner will be sleected on the first.

To enter:

Watching and commenting below will get you one place
Creating a journal and advertising the raffle (and posting a link to said journal) will get you another place!

Thanks, and good luck everyone. And for fun, feel free to mention why you chose to watcg me, although this is completely optional. Just for some fun :)

My friend Is a relatively new artist who does great work, and I'd really appreciate it if you can go check him out, he really needs and is deserving of support <3

Wellp, another mental support journal. Idk what to do and kinda hoping that someone can just, well, help.

first off, I want to get myself a job so I can increase my income. Right now my income is decent, but it's due to benefits, mostly disability. I'm living at home with parents which is why most of my money is disposable, but when it comes to job searching, I just get intimidated and start panicking, and feeling overwhelmed. I'm getting help from the government, but well, they don't really provide me the help I need, they tell me where I can go to job search, but don't really help with what I struggle with, searching and applying. The applying part is the most overwhelming part and well I just can't cope.

Secondly, well, living at home... The reason I want an income is so that I can get a small place of my own to rent so that I can move out and not have to deal with the other people I live with. My sister is a complete narcissist and will never accept when she is wrong and will always have the final answer. In addition her room is RIGHT next to mine and she goes to bed really early, I can't even really vc with my friends and do stuff with them very well at night because I have to be quiet af, all because she refuses to get ear plugs to sleep with.

My mum is okay, although sometimes she does stupid shit. But everyone does stupid shit though so it's fine.

My dad though? He's probably the main reason for my depression. I can't bare him recently, he's awful to my mother, getting drunk after he was supposed to stop drinking, from going to aa meetings, rehab and the like, but nothing working. They're always shouting and arguing and everything, and I can't cope. I know I need to get a job to get out of the house asap, but right now i'm so down that I barely feel like even playing games, never mind job searching. I have little motivation to do absolutely anything and if my parents end up divorcing, well, I don't even know what will happen to my mother and me. And that scares me. A lot. Oh, and ever since monday night, he's just disappeared, he stormed off somewhere and hasn't come back. Only responses i've gotten are from text messages to say that he's okay, and drunken nonsense phone calls that amount to nothing.

All in all, I just feel like my world is about to come crumbling down, and I just, due to feeling so so down, just don't feel like doing pretty much anything. Thankfully, a good friend is actually going to help me gewith job searching at the weekend, something that my parents and the government really couldn't help with at all, but now I have absolutely 0 idea where my documents from school are which i'll need for an interview are, tucked away somewhere in my house but idk where. I'm just a mess and feel like i'm worth nothing, and well, really don't know how to get that motivation I need to fix myself and my flaws.

Thanks for reading, and sorry for dropping this.

I've decided recently that, well, I've basically been pouring most of my incone (it's expendable) on art, and basically neglecting other, more important luxuries, such as getting my pc upgraded (I can't even play much on vr with my bf and other friends becaue my gpu, the 1060, is awful and can barely run some vr stuff) So I've decided that for the time being, i'll be cutting down on art, and focusing on that.

What does this mean? It means that I'll still be getting art that I have already planned, but for the time being, i'll be putting aside money until I have about 1k in my savings account, which will be used to upgrade my gpu and anything else needed to go with the gpu (such as more ram, or a power supply)

I should be back to normal, art wise, in a few months, but until then, it's saving time. Hope you guys understand.

That's right, it's my hatchday, so now i'm level 28!
thats just under a year and a half of being active (and no longer a lurker) on FA. How time flies!

Hello there everyone, my friend has just opened commissions for the first time, being in a tight spot and in need of a quick cash infusion. I'd appreciate if you could check him out and possibly support him, it would mean a lot!

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/na.....henighthunter/

His art really is awesome, I'd really appreciate at least checking him out!

A reminder to you all that Russian artists and users on FA are victims of putin's tyrannical reign and are not bad people like him.

I'm writing this journal because I saw this absolutely disgusting screenshot aimed at a good friend and talented artist, simply because he is Russian.

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....71/unknown.png

I will not stand for this. Anyone who insults these innocent artists for being "murderers" do not know any better and do not deserve my or my friend's respect. these artists do not deserve "nothing but hate" , as that would be the exact same as kicking a wounded person while they are down.

Please remember and consider that these people are suffering badly right now and need all of the help and support that they can get. Thank you for your time.

Well, I restarted on antidepressants and am starting to feel better now, minus the side effects that I'm getting, which admittedly, kinda suck :/. But regarding my sister and covid, she's better now, tested negative (and had no symptoms, lol) and didn't manage to spread it to anyone. To say she was careless for bringing it in, at least she was careful enough to not give it to anyone, which is nice. So... all should be good now. I hope.

Well, where do I begin? I can't comprehend how i'm only 4 days into the new year, and it's already the absolute worst it could have ever gone to me. Mental health has just plummeted, and I can't even visit a doctor for it for reasons that will be explained later in my rant.

It began at the end of last year. Two of my best friends fell out for reasons I won't bother you with, and I of course, trying to make it better and get them back together, went and made it worse by pushing both sides to try and forgive each other. That didn't work, and now I'm in a situation where I have to pick one or the other to hang out with when we used to spend a lot of our time together. absolutely peachy, At the beginning of the year, it pretty much confirmed for good that there's no saving it, and I can't help but blame myself for sticking my nose where it didn't belong, instead of letting it heal over time. I just miss all the good times we had together. I have come to terms with respecting their wishes, but even though it's only been a few days, I still think back at times and it's an instant mood killer.

Fast forward to yesterday, and things get worse again. Had a bad morning of feeling down and unable to do anything. I was reflecting over the fact that I have no job, still live in this house where I am not happy, and live off of my income from my disability allowance. It gives me a very disposable income, but it does not bring happiness. not at all. I'd much rather be healthy and have a job, and my own place. Thankfully later, my friends managed to cheer me up, but unfortunately, my night was ruined when my sister came home from her work. She'd been away at in a different city for a few months now for said contract work. I do not get along with her at all, she's narcissistic, very loud, and is the type to talk over you so you can never explain herself. She is the type who must win an argument no matter what, either by guilt tripping, or as I said, raising her volume to interrupt you so you can't be heard. Screw her. Once again though, my friends managed to cheer me up and make me feel better. It's a shame, that I feel much more comfortable talking to my close friends than my own family to feel better. I used to be able to talk to my grandparents when I was younger to cheer up, but... they're sadly gone for a few years now. I really miss them. Even have dreams about them still being alive at times...

And then this morning? Things take an even more drastic turn for the worse. My sister somehow managed to bring covid into the house, even though she claimed that she took a test and tested negative every day she was at work. While I have had 3 different vaccines, this came at the worst possible time, as on the 30th of december, I just had an infusion for my disability. The infusion greatly slows the progression of said disability, but at a side effect of weakening your immune system. The doctors advise me every time I have said infusion to avoid crowded places, preferably staying at home for at least a month to be as safe as I can be until my immune system is strong enough to make covid not a threat. But now i'm in a shit position. nowhere to go and having to be as paranoid and as safe as I can be to minimise any risk at all. To make things worse, I wanted to visit a doctor to get a talk about my mental health, perhaps go back on antidepressants like I was for a few months at the end of 2020. But now because of my sister, I can't. Oh, and she didn't apologise at all for bringing Covid into the house by the way.


so now, I'm in a situation where my mental health is nonexistant, and I'm at serious risk of my body being harmed despite being as safe as I could possibly be for these past 2 years. I'm genuinely at the lowest i've ever felt and I just don't know what I can do. Sorry for the rant, I didn't think i'd ever make a journal for anything like this, but I'm just finding it harder and harder to go on with myself when everything just gets worse and worse for me. I'm even struggling to do what I used to do for entertainment, being videogames or watching anime / animated series. I just can't find joy in anything right now and haven't been able to ever since I finished a game I really enjoyed (in only 3 days) that I got for Christmas...

Hope you all had a great year everyone, and I hope 2022 will be a great year for us all!

...now, when shall I have my first cup of tea for the year? x3